Gustavo P.O.V.

I couldn't take that fact in because well that was just sudden.

"Is that totally nessescary?" Kelly asked, I glanced at her in her black high waisted skirt and pink and white and black silk ruffled top. I bet she was thinking the exact same thing as me. Actually I was positive.

"ARE YOU INSANE!" I screamed at James while he jumped back at the sound of the tone of my voice. I wanted him to be scared I was pretty FURIOUS!

"What's wrong with this?" He questioned me all innocently in his blue volcom t-shirt and sweat pants in summer.

"James, your not ready for this." I advised him

"Thanks for the advice dad." He remarked at me sarcastically, my lip twitched while I wanted to attack him and beat him to death but knew I couldnt.

"James, this wont benefit you; it will only add to your stress and make you mroe busy and less likley to go back on tour with Big Time Rush and soon enough you will be at home with the triplets with a breift case."

"It will do the exact opposite, it will take me out of this spiraling depression and make me stop cutting, i mean all that therapist does is make me talk about my problems and doesnt help with them." James argued, "I'm taking action."

"I think you have done enough of that." I mumbled

"What was that boss." He said as if he didn't hear me.

"James please, dont do this to yourself, you have to think about what is best for the band." Kelly supported

"This will be good, I will be happy again so I can go on tour and record albums and not sound like a dying dog."

"How do you think you will be able to fit this into your schedule?"

"Kelly you always seem to work this type of stuff out." James looked at her with a hopeful face while I just let out a quick chuckle.

"I'm his assisstant James."

"Well, I still have Camille and her boss and I will figure this out Gustavo and I promise it won't interfere with work at all."

"James, if you go off your therapy you will go back on tour." I said quietly

J.P.O.V.

I stood there motionless. When those words exited Gustavo's mouth, a punching feeling errupted in my stomach that made me want to just throw up. I wanted to quit therapy and not go on tour and be able to stay here to start to plan the perfect wedding but I guess life's not that easy. There had to be a way around this, some how some way. I would do whatever I had to, to get married to her.

Was I rushing it?

Even if I was, I knew we would last and I had already proposed so It was to late and It was what was best for our baby. It might be difficult but Love is difficult.

"Okay." I agreed, I wasn't going to surrender to his lame convincing

"Your therapy stops, you leave for your tour in 2 days." Gustavo ordered while I put a strong face on in front of him. I needed to talk to Camille like now. I drove back to the palmwoods. The wind through my hair with the top down was a flashback to when I was 16 again in our first music video The City Is Ours. The time when the only thing that was difficult was finding the right girl to drool over at the pool.

But we were growing up. Slowly but we were growing up through time. I did not expect BTR to end anytime soon because I don't think we could do that to our fans. It would break their hearts to see the best band of all time tear apart. I wasn't sure when it was going to end and frankly, I didnt want to think about that.

I certainly loved the 3 F's, Fame, Fortune, and Fans but someday It would end. I wasn't sure how, but It will and I hope it was when we were older, more like 28 maybe older. I wasn't sure, when we didn't look as hot I guess or when Griffin decided the boy band was out again randomly. Just never knew I think It was more up to Griffin since Kendall, Logan, Carlos and I knew that none of us would drop out of the band. If one of us dropped out, I wasn' sure what Griffin would do because I mean, what's Big Time Rush without Kendall, the leader or Logan the Brains. Big Time Rush would be non exsistant if one of us dropped out.

I loved Camille and Leighton alot more though. Those 3 F's are nothing compared to the other 2 F's. Family, and Father. The 2 things that I enjoyed being part of. Being the father was great. I felt like I was the man in the family that was always going to protect what obstacle comes near my fiance and baby. It washed a wave of warmth over me. I felt loved, more than I ever had. Being in a family was even greater. Knwoing there was a circle of Camille, Leighton, and I that was always connected by not only blood, but love. There was family love and friend love. Family love was something I had never experienced before I kissed Camille, and laid eyes on Leighton. Friend love was great, but nothing compared to family.

I arrived at Camille's apartment but there was no awnser.

To:Camille

From:James

Stop by my place later 7:00pm if you can, I love you

To:Kendall

From: James

Make sure you and the guys are at the apartment at 7:00pm, update on tour etc.

Since I had nothing to do, I decided to replace the pen on Camille's hand with a real ring. I browsed the cabinets of Jewlery at Jareds Jewlery Store. I was impressed. I just hope no fans recogonized me, I didn't feel like them snapping pictures of me shopping for a ring so they would all know I was getting married. That would make it's way to the paparazzi, you know the story.

I saw a silver ring with 9 carates of diamond with a blue gem in the middle. I loved it.

"May I help you?" The lady said with a fake happy tone. Then she looked up at me.

"Oh my your James Diamond!" She yelped out while I shushed her down and shook her head

"Sorry, my daughter is a huge fan." Her name tag on her black suit with a bright red tank top under it with long black slacks read Kimberly. She had blonde stringy hair that flowed down to her shoulders. She had pretty good style, maybe not the best hair, but pretty good style

"Well thank you mam."

"Pleasures all mine." As she grabbed the ring I had been staring at since she had saw me.

"Wow, I better not tell my daughter your getting married." She laughed

I laughed a fake laugh along with her, "Yeah I wouldnt do that If I were you."

"Do you want this one?"

I stared at it, and after looking at my phone after getting a text from Katie asking where I was. I pressed the red button to return to the homescreen which was a picture of Camille and I and our baby in the Palm Woods Park bench, which made me grasp the feeling even more that this was the ring for her.

"Yes."

She put it in a velvet blue box and I wished me look. I signed an autograph for her daughter and walked out of the mall after some autographs for fans. Sweat trickled down my forehead. I wasn't sure if it was because I had to tell Camille that I was leaving her in 2 days to resume the tour after I proposed to her or if it was that I just bought a ring so I could ask her to marry me the more proper way.

I was nervous. James Diamond was never nervous, yet my stomach was trembling inside...