Chapter 36
Severus walked into the sixth year transfiguration class and threw the books onto the table. He stared at the class who continued to talk amongst themselves, rather loudly. He stood there for a few moments before he raised his fingers to his lips, whistling through his fingers. The class silenced and looked at him a moment before going back to their conversations. Severus stood there again for a moment, the only people not talking where Lily, James and Remus, though James seemed to be trying to silence Sirius.
Severus looked down a moment licking his lips as he moved towards the chalk board. He raised his hand towards the board, his fingers curling against black surface. He ran his nails across the board, a loud shrieking noise echoing through the class. Everyone put their hands against their ears as Snape turned towards them.
He waited a few moments, and the class remained silent. "Good ... now that I have your attention, Professor McGonagall will not be joining classes today ... so here how is how this class is going to go. You're all going to sit in your seats, and read chapter four of your text books, and write a foot long essay on the subject. If I hear a single sound out of any of you, that does not pertain to the material at hand, points will be deducted and I don't care what house you're from."
A Slytherin girl at the front laughed. "Professor Snape's laying it down." She whispered to her friend next to her.
"Ten points from Slytherin." Snape drawled out. "You think I'm joking, I'm not ... You think McGonagall is strict, I'm worse ... Sit down, and open your books ... Now."
Lily hid a grin behind her book and set about reading chapter four. She'd been nervous for Severus at first, worried about how he would handle this class ... evidently, however, Sev was going to be just fine.
"Unbe-fucking-lievable," Sirius muttered under his breath. James elbowed him sharply in the ribs. Sirius discreetly kicked James in the shin. With a long-suffering sigh, Remus ignored both of them, staunchly refusing to look away from his textbook.
Severus glanced up at Sirius as he sat down at his desk. "Ten points from Gryffindor Mr. Black ..." He said turning his eyes towards a stack of papers he was going to be marking for McGonagall while she was gone for the day.
Sirius looked like he was about to protest, but he'd already lost enough points from Gryffindor for now. Frankly, he was lucky no one knew he was the one who'd gotten 150 points taken off on the first night. Even if it was really Snape's fault. Who knew what else Snivellus would do? It was obviously a power trip. So Sirius settled for glaring at Snape, for now, then crossed his arms and proceeded to glower down at his textbook as if trying to set fire to it with his eyes. James, relieved that Sirius was at least going to pretend to behave himself for the moment, started on the assignment as well.
Lily couldn't help but notice, though, that the two of them still seemed tense. She went back to her reading, occasionally jotting down notes on important terms and concepts.
Halfway through class Snape started handing papers back to the students. Their marked assignments that McGonagall had marked three days ago and had asked him to hand back out to the class. While he handed Lily her paper, inside the rolled up parchment was a smaller piece of paper. A small note asking her to meet him at the room of requirement, after dinner.
Receiving her assignment back, Lily unrolled the parchment to see what McGonagall had marked, and found the smaller piece of paper inside. She read Severus's message, without so much as glancing up at him nor letting any change in her expression indicate what she had read. She didn't know yet whether Mary had gone ahead with her petty little scheme, but Lily didn't intend to take chances. She then rolled the assignment up, note and all, and tucked it into her bag before anyone could see. 'Potter, Meet me you know where at 9 o'clock. We'll see if your height has improved.' The message was vague and left no signature. He purposely tried to change his writing so that if anyone intercepted it they wouldn't recognize his writing.
Lily would be there, though, even if it wasn't the wisest thing to do. She wanted so badly to see him, that she couldn't stay away. Besides, she had perfectly sensible reasons to talk to Sev alone. For one thing, she needed to warn him about Mary's threat. All the same, Lily would have to be very, very careful that she wasn't followed.
After dinner Severus rolled up a parchment with a letter to James and attached it with a little trouble to Amaranths leg.
Once she had finished eating, Lily gathered up her things and left the Great Hall. The bright side of no one being on speaking terms with her, was that at least she didn't have to make excuses for where she was going. All the same, she brought several textbooks with her, giving the impression that she was going off to study somewhere. Maybe she was being paranoid, but Severus had worked hard to get this job, and Lily wasn't about to endanger it by being careless.
Lily made it to the Room of Requirement without running into anyone else, and entered.
Severus had been waiting nearly an hour before Lily finally showed up. He had the room create a piano at which he sat in the middle of the room, playing masterfully. He hadn't even heard the door open when she came into the room, his fingers moving over the keys, absorbed in his music.
When she opened the door, Lily was surprised to be greeted by the sound of the piano. She quietly closed the door, set down her books, and for a moment just stood there, watching him play. There was something entrancing about watching how absorbed Severus was in the music, and how expertly his hands moved over the keys.
After a moment, Lily walked over, lightly wrapped her arms around him, and kissed him on the cheek. "You wanted to see me, Professor Snape?" she said.
Severus continued playing, but played a bit softer as she wrapped her arms around him. She startled him a bit, but he didn't let it show, nor reflect in his music. "Don't call me that ..." He said quietly. "Not here." He said looking towards her and kissing her gently, his fingers still moving over the keys.
Lily smiled. "Alright, Sev. I'm just proud of you, that's all." She kissed him back, her eyes closing for a moment as she listened to the music. She hadn't really intended to go on calling him Professor Snape anyway. She'd only meant it playfully, somewhere between teasing and congratulating. But she didn't want Severus's new title to change things between them any more than he did.
Severus finally stopped playing, lowering the top fold to cover the keys. He turned towards her and pulled her into his lap. "It's been too long since we've been alone. I feel like it's been months, not weeks." he said before he realized what he'd said and his cheeks burned red, accentuated by how pale his skin is.
Severus's embarrassment was instantly noticeable, his face burning bright red. Lily thought it was rather endearing, really. She should probably keep that thought to herself, though. Mentioning it would only embarrass him more.
"I know what you mean," she said, laying a hand against the side of his face. She leaned forward and kissed him.
Severus deepened the kiss, his hands going to her hip as he leaned back against the piano. His free hand come up to her face pulling her into the kiss. This was the second time they kissed since she'd accepted to be his girlfriend ... That thought still made him both nervous and excited. Lily ... was his girlfriend. It sounded so juvenile but ... she was his.
Lily leaned into Severus's kiss, her mouth moving against his, she put her arms around him, running her hands over his shoulders. It really did feel like forever since they'd had a moment alone together, which was all the more difficult since their relationship, at least as a couple anyway, had just started before they'd come back to Hogwarts.
Severus knew he should control himself, but despite trying to calm himself down he felt his cock hardening in his pants. He shifted away from her, hoping she wouldn't feel it. He broke the kiss a moment before he leaned in again, claiming her mouth with his own.
Lily felt Severus shift away from her, without knowing why. When Severus leaned in and renewed the kiss, Lily was caught up in the need to be closer to him. Without really thinking, she turned, changing her position from sitting sideways on his lap to facing him, one leg on either side, pressed up against him as she held him close, leaning into his kiss. ... and that was when she realized why he had shifted away from her. She could feel Severus's hardness pressing against her through his pants. Lily's face reddened. Obviously, Sev hadn't wanted her to notice, but it was too late for that. And if she moved now, that would just make a big deal out of the whole thing, and would end up embarrassing them both more. And...actually, she found she didn't really mind. So she stayed where she was, and just kept kissing him.
Severus couldn't stop the moan low in his throat as she straddled him, sitting on his swollen shaft. He broke the kiss gently, looking away from her. "Lily ... don't ..." He said. She had to feel him pressing up against her, but she didn't move. He still couldn't believe that she was over him, but he didn't want to move this too quickly.
Lily went still when Severus broke the kiss, and looked down at his face, worried and embarrassed.
"Um... sorry," she said quietly. "If... if this isn't okay, I understand."
Her face reddened even more. She felt completely stupid.
Severus took his hand in hers. "No it's ... it's not that it's just ..." He said looking back up at her. "I want you ..." He said, blushing even deeper than he had before. "I want you a lot ... and ... I don't want to do anything you're not ready for." He said.
Lily looked back into Severus's dark eyes, and wanted nothing more than to just lean forward and kiss him and... but she managed to refrain. Severus was right; this was moving incredibly fast. In real-time, they'd only been dating a few weeks, and in terms of time actually spent together, this was only the second time they'd even kissed. Sitting there, feeling him against her, Lily realized it would be far too easy for them both to get carried away and go too far. What was she even doing, straddling him like this? She'd always prided herself on being more sensible than this. Yet... at the same time, she didn't feel like she was doing anything she was going to regret. Maybe it was because it was Severus, because she'd known him so long, that it felt less like rushing? Still, what kind of logic was that?
"You're right," she said quietly. "This... is really fast. And we don't want to risk things going too far... But I know you, and I trust you and... I want you too."
Severus looked up at her as she spoke. "You ... but ..." He found that he couldn't deny her. As much as he wanted to back off, his body was in control more than his brain was. He leaned up and kissed her again, his hand moving down her leg before moving back up to her hip.
For a moment, Severus seemed unsure, and Lily considered that it might be for the best... But then he was kissing her again, and Lily leaned forward into his kiss, wrapping her arms around him and pulling him closer, a thrill running through her as she felt Severus's hand moving over her leg back to her hip.
Severus arched himself up against her, his cock rubbing against her through her panties, her skirt laid out around him. He moaned into the kiss and slipped his tongue against her lip seeking entrance. Her chest pressed against his as he ran his hands up her sides to her back.
Lily felt Severus's cock rub against her through the fabric, and began to move against him, more instinctively than intentionally, the need to feel him against her overriding any sense of embarrassment or awkwardness. Dimly, she was aware that she should feel embarrassed, or at least a little self-conscious, that her skirt was spread over Severus's lap in all directions, that Sev's cock was pressed right against her panties, and that she was rubbing right back against him... but she didn't. She ran her hands over his back and shoulders. Feeling Severus's tongue against her mouth, Lily parted her lips, letting him in, then slipped her tongue into his mouth as well.
Severus planted his feet on the floor as she continued to rub her pussy against him through their clothing. It felt so good. He leaned forward, and moved his hands down under her ass. He lifted her up as he moved down to the ground, holding her in his arms as he knelt. He tipped her back gently, a soft blanket appearing on the floor under them just as he laid her down. He lay on top of her, her legs on either side of his hips as he pressed himself against her. He looked down at her, stilling his hips.
"Do ... do you want me to ... to stop?" He asked, not wanting to do anything she'd regret later or hate him for.
Lily blushed slightly as Sev's hands moved down under her ass. She held onto his shoulders as he lifted her in his arms, laying her down gently on a soft blanket. She hadn't been paying attention to anything but Severus, and wasn't sure where the blanket had come from; maybe it had just appeared, as things often did in the Room of Requirement. She decided it didn't matter. This moment was too perfect to waste contemplating the workings of the Room of Requirement. A small gasp escaped her as Severus pressed himself against her again. Severus paused, and Lily looked up at him, into those intense dark eyes.
At his question, Lily hesitated. If she was going to ask him to stop, now would be the time. The last thing she wanted to do was start sending out mixed signals that could confuse Sev or hurt his feelings later. Reluctant as she was to admit it, maybe the smart thing to do was stop. But... why? Did she want to continue? Yes. Did she think she would regret this later? Well... obviously they'd have to keep this secret, but then they had to keep even talking to one another secret. In her own conscience, she didn't feel like they were doing anything wrong. She knew that Severus's offer to stop was more than just a formality. If she said the word, she knew without a doubt that he wouldn't try to argue, or coerce, or guilt her into changing her mind. Whatever Lily decided her boundaries were, Severus would respect them. It began to sink in how absolutely she could trust him. She wouldn't regret this.
"No," she said, finally decisive. "Don't stop."
Severus wrapped his arms around her shoulders under her arms, leaning on his elbows on the floor as he claimed her lips again. He wanted so badly to pull his cock out of his black pants but he knew that would really be rushing it. Despite the urge to reach down and open his pants he continued to rub up against her, wondering if this even felt good to her. Wondered if a girl could even orgasm this way.
Lily leaned up into Severus's kiss and wrapped her arms around him, her hands moving from Severus's shoulders and up the back of his neck to run through his hair. She arched up against him, continually rubbing against Severus's cock harder, faster. The more she rubbed against him, the more intense each movement felt. She felt herself growing wet, and blushed... but then realized there was no point in feeling ashamed of that, with Severus's cock so hard against her. Besides, Severus still had his pants on, and might not have noticed anyway.
Severus felt his orgasm building and closed his eyes. 'No not yet.' He groaned into the kiss as he slowed his thrusts trying to refrain from cumming. He broke the kiss and rested his forehead against her shoulder, his body tensing as a wave of intense pleasure washed over him. He felt his cock stiffen and erupt inside his pants, the wet sticky fluid gushing against his underwear and onto his twitching, pulsing shaft.
Severus' cheeks turned deep red as he panted above her. "I'm sorry ..." He said softly.When Severus's thrusting slowed, Lily had to fight back an instinctive surge of impatience; if Severus needed to slow down that was fine... She was briefly confused when he broke the kiss. Was something wrong? She held him as he rested his head against her shoulder, suddenly realizing that Severus was trying to get control of himself... and then it was over.
He looked so terribly embarrassed. "It's alright," Lily insisted quickly, holding him close. "Really. This... this is new for both of us." She didn't know what else to say to reassure him, so she kissed him, gently, one hand running lightly through his hair.
Severus wished a trap door would open and he just didn't care what was in it. Then again, he'd never actually satisfied a woman before so he didn't know why he thought this would be any different.
Her reassurances just made him more embarrassed. He pulled away from her, sitting down on the floor beside her still wishing the floor would open up and consume him.
"I'm sorry ... That was ... I didn't mean ..." Severus sighed in both embarrassment and annoyance.
Well, that had backfired. If anything, Severus seemed even more embarrassed. Lily sat up, and looked over at him, dismayed, trying to think of anything she could say that wouldn't just make things worse. She had no experience to draw on. From what she'd heard, guys tended to be extremely self-conscious about this sort of situation... but no one else seemed to know what to say to make it better either. She wanted to tell him it really wasn't that big a deal... but to him it clearly was a big deal. None of the other reassurances that came to mind seemed like they would do any good either.
After a moment, she reached out and took his hand in both of hers.
"Sev," she said gently. "It's really alright. I mean it. I'm happy just being here with you."
"Still ..." He said laying back on the blanket. "I should have done more for you." He said holding his arm out to her for her to lay with him. He used his free hand to magically vanish the mess in his pants first.
Lily lay down next to Severus, and snuggled up close against him, her head resting on his shoulder. "I'm perfectly happy," she smiled. "I promise." She'd come here to see him, to have some time just for the two of them. Right now, that was enough.
Severus sighed as he wrapped his arm around her, his hand on her arm. He was more comfortable laying here on the hard floor than he ever had been before, laying here with her. It wasn't long before he drifted off to sleep unintentionally.
Lily enjoyed just lying there next to Severus, feeling his arms around her. After weeks of not even having a chance to talk to one another, this was completely perfect. She noticed a change in his breathing; Sev had fallen asleep. Made sense, really. His new job probably had him exhausted. And he just looked so peaceful... Lily decided she'd keep an eye on the time and wake him up later. But within minutes, she had fallen asleep herself.
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