I was almost asleep. Jacob had made love to me and made me feel so amazing. He told me that when we get to Hawaii he was gonna make love to me on the beach under the moon light. I can't wait to go to Hawaii. Only one more day and I'm outta here. I've never been anywhere tropical before and I can't wait to smell the fresh air and put a flower in my hair. Oh and the pineapples must taste like 10 X's better there. I gently kissed Jacob's chest and sighed. I wish I could fast forward to the first night in Hawaii. I'm not looking forward to the long plane rides. We have to catch two planes just to get there. I hate how it makes my ears feel. But we have to fly there to get there… So it's a small price to pay to have two weeks of bliss. I so wanna get as far away from here as possible. I have makeup to cover my scars… but that's not enough. I need distance.

I was about to get into a good dream of Jacob and I playing in the warm waters of Hawaii when I heard a loud knocking at the door. It made me jump. Who in the world would be at the door at this time in the night? Jake woke up and the banging started again.

"What the fuck?" Jacob said half sleep.

"Check your phone… Has someone been trying to call you?"

Jake looked at his cell phone.

"No... Who the fuck is at the door at this time of night?" he mumbled.

Then I heard my father's voice. He was yelling Jacob's name and his speech was slurred.

"Oh no," I gasped.

"Fuck… Your dad?"

"Jake don't."

He went to go sit up and slid out of the bed and put some boxers on.

"No… Just leave him. Maybe he'll go away."

"I'm just going to ask him to go home. How in the world can we sleep with him banging on the door like that?"

I had a bad feeling in my gut and didn't want Jacob to leave the bedroom.

"No Jake… Please don't."

"Don't worry Honey. I'll be back. In the worst case I'll just call the cops on him if he doesn't leave. Just stay here Honey… ok."

Jake huffed as he left the bedroom. I picked up my pillow and hugged it nervously. My dad started drinking again? Man he must be taking this hard. My mom kicked him out the house. She wasn't playing at all. Now dad's staying with one of his divorced friends who drinks a lot too. My dad hasn't been drunk in years… Not that I know of anyway. I really hope he just goes home. I don't feel like this tonight.

I heard Jacob unlock the locks on the door and my father started rambling something inaudible from where I was. God I wish he would just go home. But if he's drunk we need to call him a cab. I slid out of the bed and slipped on a night gown and my slippers to go in the living room. I reached out for the door knob of the bedroom door and heard a loud bang… a gun shot. I gasped. I ran out into the living room and my heart sank when I saw Jacob lying on the floor with a pool of blood growing under him. I froze and looked up at the door. My father had a smug look on his face and slurred something then walked away. I looked back at the floor and flew to Jacob's side. "Jacob!" I yelled frantically. My hands were trembling over his stomach. I was scared to touch him… I had no clue of what I was supposed to do. I heard my father's car speed off and I started to quickly lose my breath. My dad just shot my husband. Jake spoke my name with blood gurgling from his mouth. His eyes still shut.

"Ness… I love you," he groaned.

"My God Jacob!"

"I'm sorry," he said weakly. His eyes were half open now. "I… I… love you."

"Oh my God!" I cried. "I love you too… Please don't die."

Jacob squeezed his eyes really tight and groaned.

"Jake… What do I do?" I yelled. I was totally gone and couldn't think clearly. I wish that I watched more action movies than romantic ones… I may have known what to do.

"Honey… get something to put pressure on the wound and call 911."

"Ok," I chocked out.

I ran to the kitchen and grabbed a few dish towels and grabbed the phone. I had to think and not let my paranoid state take over and cause him to die. I rushed back to him and called 911 then pressed the towels hard on his stomach. He groaned in pain and I flinched. I didn't want to hurt him anymore.

The operator answered the phone and I told her what happened and tried my best to calmly give our address. I had the sense enough to also give them my father's license plate. The operator told me to keep pressure on his wound and don't try to move him. I put the phone on speaker and placed it on the floor. I leaned over Jacob keeping my hand on his wound and using the other to support me while I kissed his forehead.

"You're gonna be ok Jake. Just hang in there… Someone's coming."

"Ness… you need to listen to me," he said in a low whisper.

"Yes?"

"He may come back… You have to protect yourself. There's a gun in the…"

His eyes closed and he stopped speaking.

"No… Jake!... Jake!"

He opened his eyes again.

"Please… don't leave me Jacob. I swear I would die!"

"No Baby… You have… You have to take care of our baby. If I don't make it… promise me that you'll be strong." More blood trickled from his lips.

"You are gonna make it!" I yelled.

"Please Ness… go get my gun." His breathing started to sound labored. "It's in the bedroom in my night stand."

"I'm not leaving you."

I looked down at his wound and all of the towels were soaked in blood. He was bleeding so much... It was everywhere. "You're gonna be ok Jake… Just hang in there ok. I need you. Please don't die. I love you Jacob," I cried.

He closed his eyes again and I started screaming. "Jake… Jake… Oh God Baby." I started sobbing over his body. This is not happening. Why would God do this to me?

"They're only seconds away Mam… Is he still conscious?"

"No," I cried.

"Keep direct pressure on the wound."

"Ok."

I leaned closer to Jacob's ear and whispered his name. I was praying that he would hear me. I heard him groan. He opened his eyes and gently smiled at me.

"You are so beautiful. I'm so glad… that I got the chance to have true love in my life."

"Stop talking like that Jake. You're gonna be ok. You can't die on me Baby. I would kick your ass if you even tried. So stop talking like that."

He chuckled weakly. I kept the pressure on his wound even though I wanted to touch his face. "I guess I should have listened to you huh?" I leaned in and kissed his mouth. His salty blood saturated my lips. I gave him soft kisses over and over as my lips trembled.

"I love you… I love you," I breathed.

"I love you to Ness," he said in my mouth.

"I will be yours forever… No other man will ever have me."

Jake started to shiver. I looked at the sofa at the Indian blanket on the arm and sat up to go get it. That's when I heard the ambulance coming and looked at the open door. "They're here Jake," I said relieved. His eyes were closed and I couldn't see his chest move. "Jake?" I started screaming and shaking my head no. The sirens soon drowned out my cry and I heard the breaks screech to a halt.

The EMT's rushed in the door and checked his vitals. The sirens started to fade out and my vision was slowly turning all white. Another EMT grabbed my shoulder

"Miss… are you hurt too? Are you bleeding?" I couldn't say anything. I held it together this long… Now it was time to crumble into a hole. "Miss are you hurt?" I slowly shook my head no. But I was hurt in the most absolute way. My own flesh and blood father shot my husband. He might as well should have shot me too… if he despised my happiness that much. My father must hate me… But that's fine because I hate him too.

The next thing I knew I was being lead out of the house into the ambulance. I felt numb and didn't even feel their hands on me as they helped me into the vehicle. I tried not to look at Jacob as they worked on him trying to pack his wound. I wanted to imagine that all of this wasn't real. But I knew it was so I just closed my eyes and prayed the entire way to the hospital.

When we arrived they quickly took him to the ER to operate on him. My legs felt so weak I wanted to just fall on the floor. A nurse noticed me and helped me sit down. She asked me a few questions about Jacob. I didn't have his insurance information or anything. A cop quickly rushed to me and asked me what happened. I told him that my father shot Jacob and gave him his address and license plate. Oh my God… I have to tell mom. What if he goes back home and tries to hurt her. "I need a phone," I said urgently. The cop handed me his cell phone. My mother answered on the first ring. She sounded half sleep.

"Hello?"

"Mom… Please don't say my name. Is dad there?"

"No… He doesn't live here anymore. What's wrong?"

"Dad… He shot Jacob. I'm at Forks Community now."

"Wha… What did you just say?"

"Dad shot Jacob. I don't know if he's gonna die or not mom?" I cried.

"Oh My God!" she gasped as she caught on to what I was saying.

"I need you mom."

"Ok… Ok… I'll be right there Honey."

"Mom… Call Nicole. I can't even remember her number right now."

"Oh… Ok."

"Tell her to tell his father."

"Ok... Ok."

My mother hung up the phone and I shut my eyes really tight. My head was killing me. This was the worst migraine I had in my entire life.

"Mam… I know you may feel out of it… But I need a little more information. What's your husband's name?"

"Jacob."

He looked at me apologetically like he didn't want to remind me that he needed his full name.

"Jacob Black."

"Oh… By any chance is his father named… Billy?"

"Yeah."

"And he owns Black's Auto Repair in Forks?"

"Um hum."

"Fuck."

"You know him?"

"Ye… Yeah."

I started crying again.

"Oh I'm so sorry. Your name is Nessie right?"

"Um hum," I muttered.

"Oh my God," the cops said running his fingers through his hair.

The nurse touched my shoulder with a kind look.

"Honey, come with me so I can give you something to wear and clean you up."

"Huh?" I asked baffled.

I looked down and finally noticed that I was covered in blood... Jacob's blood. I started screaming as if it just hit me that Jacob was shot. "Miss please… try to calm down," the nurse pleaded. I wanted to gorge her eyes out. How in the world could she even ask me that? How would she feel if she was about to lose her life… The man she loved most in this world. "Mam… please calm down," she asked again. I felt weak and dizzy and started sobbing in my hands. "Come with me Dear… I can give you some scrubs to put on." Someone handed her something folded and she led me to the bathroom. My arms felt like dead weight as she helped me take off my bloody night gown. She helped me get in the scrubs and wiped off the blood from my lips with a wet paper towel. I washed his dried blood off my hands. I started crying more as I watched the water turn red and swirl down the drain. I wanted to follow it and be in complete darkness.

The nurse asked was anyone coming to the hospital and I told her that my mother was coming and probably some of my friends. I really can't even anticipate the hurt look in Billy's eyes when he finally arrives… I think it may just kill me. She gave me some hospital botties to put on my feet and helped me back in the waiting room. I took a seat and stared at the patterns in the floor. There was a lot of commotion going on in the ER… But I blocked mostly everything out. Kids were crying... Someone broke their arm… There was a drunk person that security kept on trying to kick out. And here I sat… Dressed in scrubs looking like I worked here and just had a mental breakdown. I got up and started walking around… Pacing back and forth. But nothing really helped. I wanted my mom and Matt to get here and be safe away from my dad. My dad deserves to rot in hell for this. I hope the cops find him. I would feel a little bit better if he was caught. But I wanna focus all of my prayers on Jacob. He means everything to me. Oh my God… Jacob could die. I hate my father for this. I don't care if he was drunk or not… I want him to pay for destroying my life… For hurting Jacob. I don't think I would be sane if he died. Hell I don't think my heart could even take that news. I would probably drop dead from a heart attack on the spot. If I wasn't pregnant… I wouldn't mind dying if he died. But I guess I will have to be strong for the baby's sake. He did ask me to be strong if he died. So hopefully I'm able to do that. Yes… I have to be strong for Little Jake or Sarah.

My little pep talk didn't help and I started screaming at the top of my lungs as I pictured Jacob making the monitor going flat line. My mother and Matt came in the sliding doors and rushed over to me.

"Renesmee," my mother gasped.

"He's gonna die!" I cried. "Daddy shot him."

"He's gonna be ok Baby."

"Stop lying to me mom. I'm a fucking grown up. My dad shot him in the stomach and he's been bleeding too long."

"Oh my God," Matt groaned.

Nicole and Embry came in the doors a few seconds after my mom. Nicole rushed to me and hugged me.

"This is my fault," I cried.

"No it's not May."

If something happened to Jake… his family will probable blame me… since it was my crazy father that did this. Since falling in love with me lead him to this bloody path. I looked up at Embry and he was crying and it looked like his legs gave in and he plopped down on the chair. I was wondering if someone told Billy and his family?

"I… I didn't call Billy… I can't remember his number," I cried.

"I… I told him," Embry said quietly in the corner. His voice was so low it was hard to hear him.

Oh God… Billy… and his sisters. They will be so devastated if Jake died. I started to hyperventilate and my mom tried her best to calm me down. I knew my mother was right but I couldn't calm down even if I tried... It was pointless. I felt myself slipping away as if I was going to disappear. Nicole and my mom both had their hands on me trying to soothe me… which was a futile act. The only thing that would make me feel better is if Jake was ok and not fighting for his life a few feet away. My stomach started to feel weird then I felt a slight cramp. My hands quickly went to my baby. "What is it?" Mom asked frantically. The pain hit me again… Only this time it was stronger and made me bend over from the wave of pain.

"Someone help us!" my Mom yelled. "My daughter may be having a miscarriage!"

"No," I breathed as I felt my panties dampen. "I'm bleeding," I cried.

"Oh my God," Nicole gasped.

"Nessie!" Matt called out.

"Jacob," I cried.

The pain in my stomach was spreading and getting sharper. I started to scream and fell to my knees with my mom and Nicole at my side.

I gasped and opened my eyes. I was lying in my bed. Jake shifted his weight but was still asleep. Oh my God… I was dreaming. Jake's not shot. Oh God thank you. My stomach still felt weird though. Then it started hurting more just like in my dream. I quickly placed my hand on my stomach and groaned. Oh no… this is not happening!

"Jake," I cried out.

"What is it Honey?"

He looked at me puzzled then his eyes quickly traveled to my hands. His mouth opened in shock. I felt the wetness in between by legs and started to cry more. I was bleeding. No… I'm losing our baby. Please God don't do this to me.

"Are you in pain?" he asked frantically.

"I'm bleeding… Jake."

"Oh God."

Jacob quickly leaped over me and lifted me out of the bed. I held on to him around his neck. I felt so dizzy… I didn't want this to happen. What if my dream stressed me out to the point of this? I feel like I wanna die… I can't lose my baby.

"No… No… No," I muttered.

"Ness… Baby wake up… you're talking in your sleep again."

I opened my eyes and I was disoriented. Was that just real? I can't stand not knowing… I woke up before thinking I was awake.

"Oh God... am I awake?"

"Baby?"

I started to cry.

"Am I bleeding?" I asked frantically. I pulled the covers away from me to look.

"Baby… Bleeding?"

I sighed when I didn't see any blood.

"You had another nightmare?"

"God Jake… Please tell me that I'm not dreaming! I woke up in my dream too and thought that I was really awake. But I wasn't and it felt so real. I started cramping and bleeding and you picked me up. That's when I woke it. I'm awake right?" I asked desperately.

"Yes Baby... You're not dreaming anymore," he said with his voice trembling.

"Oh my God… this is driving me crazy."

"Calm down Baby… You're ok. You need to relax Honey. Breathe ok."

I started sobbing into Jacob's chest while he rubbed my back.

"My God Ness… you dreamed that you were having a miscarriage?"

"Yes," I cried. "I also dreamed that my dad shot you and you were the hospital fighting for your life."

"My God Baby."

"Jake… please don't ever leave me. I don't think I could survive that."

"Oh Honey… You gotta stop having these bad dreams."

"I don't wanna have 'em."

"I know… Maybe things will be better when we get away for a while?"

"I hope so."

"I love you so much Ness."

"I love you too."

"I know you do… That's why you're my wife." Jacob kissed my forehead then kissed my lips. "Your dreams… are getting worst."

"Jake it was the worst dream ever. I was losing my family."

"Well I'm ok… and the baby's ok. Relax Honey."

"I'll try," I said with my voice trembling.

Jake squeezed me closer to him and started rubbing my back. I didn't want to go back to sleep because I was afraid that I would have another nightmare. It was 4:20 a.m. in the morning and I was ok with staying up. "You know my biggest fear is losing you too Ness," Jake said softly. It was so low I didn't know if it was meant for me to hear. I kissed his chest and laid my head back down on him.

"Jake… my dad used to drink a lot when he was stressed out a few years ago. He stopped drinking. But… But I don't know if he will start since mom kicked him out of the house. In my dream he came here drunk late at night and you went to the door. That's when… That's when..."

"Baby… don't think of that… ok. It was a stupid dream."

"But it felt so real."

"This is real," Jake said as he took my hand. "I'm ok Ness. Please… Please stop stressing yourself out even more." He placed my hand on his chest. "This is real… My heart cherishes each beat because it means I'm here to be your husband and take care of you."

I sniffled and he brought my hand up to his lips and kissed it.

"Hey I was gonna give you this when we got to Hawaii… but I'll give it to you now. I don't know… but it might make you feel better?"

"Humm?"

Jake went into the night stand on his side of the bed and pulled a flat square box out. It was too big to be jewelry… I think. Plus he knows I'm not in the jewelry that much. He handed me the box and I sat up a little and opened it. It was a beautiful picture frame with 'part two' engraved at the bottom with his handwritten vows in it.

"Awww," I gushed.

"I thought you might like it? I told you the first poem was part one and that I wasn't finished. It's not a poem… but it's..."

"It's perfect Jake… I love it so much," I cried.

I was so sick of crying tonight… But at least these were happy tears. I ran my fingers across the glass. "I love it. Yes it makes me feel better… So much better. Thank you." Jake softly smiled at me. His smile warmed my heart and I was so thankful that he was mine… and ok. I placed the picture frame gently on the night stand beside me and crawled on top of him and he lovingly held me in his strong arms. I eagerly kissed him pressing my lips hard on his. Hid dick hardened instantly and he bucked his hips upwards into my body letting his dick slide across my lips. Jake moaned in my mouth while he kissed me. I returned the verbal sound of pleasure as his dick slid across my lips again making me want him inside me desperately. My Jake was ok and I couldn't be happier. My heart thought I lost him minutes ago… and now he's in my arms. What a cruel trick my mind has done to me. I wanted him to grip me even tighter. I needed to feel the presence of him. My mouth hungrily tugged at his as goose bumps flashed all over my skin. Jacob gripped my ass and spread my cheeks apart. "Jake," I breathed. I grinded my pussy on his hard abs making my clit throb from the seductive friction. Jacob moved his head closer to my entrance and thrust deep inside me. I screamed out loud as he started pounding away.

"Oh God," I moaned.

"Oh Ness… Ahh."

"Yes… More. I need to feel more. Squeeze me tighter," I begged.

I wanted to know that this was real. In a sense I was saying pinch me.

"Trust me… you're awake Baby," he groaned as he started fucking me at an angle.

I screamed louder as I felt my orgasm getting ready to shake me violently. Jacob squeezed my ass tighter and moved my hips even faster on him making me come instantly. "Ahhh!" I yelled. He didn't slow down and continued to fuck me.

"I fucking love you," he groaned in my ear.

"Oh Jake," I panted. "I love you… I love you."

"Oh God," he moaned.

Within a few minutes I was on my third orgasm and he released himself deep inside me. I felt so elated as I tried to catch my breath. Jacob moved his hands up and down my back. It was making me so sleepy… but I was leery to go back to sleep. Hopefully I can manage to get through the night without having any more nightmares. But I was so drained and knew I couldn't stay conscious much longer. I wanted the memory of my dream to fade away and only leave me with the reality of now. I was in my husband's arms… He was ok… And my baby was slowly growing inside me. As I said before… my immediate family is in this bed. And I love my little family more than anything in the world.

"I love you Honey," Jake whispered in my ear.

"I love you too."

"Don't be afraid to go back to sleep… You need your rest. Just know that I'm not letting you go… So are you comfortable? Because you're staying locked in my arms tonight."

"Yes… I'm comfortable."

"Good… Now go to sleep Love. We will be watching a Hawaiian sunset before you know it. "

I smiled at the thought of us leaving in a day and inhaled letting Jake's memorizing scent comfort me. I knew I couldn't control my dreams… But the soft vibration of his heart pumping against my tear stained cheek would help me know that he's ok.