A/N: HEY YO! Sorry I'm late. Again. As usual. Anyways, I have been freaking out because I have this really big exam tomorrow and since my grades aren't... The best... My grade is depending on it so I have been studying for the past couple of days T_T Forgive me for always being late. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter full of drama!

Tokiya: You are stressing too much about life. Take a breather...

Me: Yeah, I know. But I can't help it.

Tokiya: Yeah.. BUT I'm just mad at that girl! She led you on yo... *Strangles at the air* If I meet her, she is as good as dead. She hurt stepped on your feelings, ripped it to pieces and threw them out the window! WHAT A HEARTLESS WOMAN.

Me: Shhh. Don't worry about it. Anyways, I do not own Ouran and I never will.

Tokiya: SHE IS HORRIBLE AND. WAIT. DON'T CUT ME OFF-

For some reason, Kaoru was alone and sitting next to me as we all surrounded the little square table in the middle of Rai-chan's room. Everyone seemed pretty awkward as Rai-chan tried to break the awkwardness.

"It's good to see you again, Kaoru." Rai-chan gave a smile. "How are you?"

"I'm good, how about you, Arai?"

The two of them gave small talk as Gen, who was sitting on my left, leaned toward me and whispered into my ear. 'Did you tell them you were here?'

I shook my head as I lifted up my phone to show him that I never responded to any of their text messages today. 'They probably assumed.'

Kazuto leaned towards us and looked confused. 'What are we whispering about?'

Gen and I sweatdropped at Kazuto who gave a confused smiled. What an airhead.

Kaoru then looked over at me. "I didn't tell anyone I was going to see you, Tokiya." he gave a smile. "Hikaru thinks I took a nap, so he won't be bothering us for a while."

"We were wondering why you haven't been coming to the host club lately, even though you don't work anymore." Kaoru stated. He was right. My couple of months were over.

I replied. "I need a little space from you guys." I gave a sad smile. "It's becoming a little too suffocating."

"Tsubaki." Gen looked over at me with a serious look on his face. "It's not wise to state it like that so openly."

Kazuto nodded. "He's right." He put his hand on my hand. "You have your reasons and you should tell them all when you are ready."

Kaoru looked a little taken back. I nodded. "I don't mind telling him, he's Kaoru after all." I stood up and extended a hand out towards Kaoru. "Let's go for a walk, shall we?"

He was a bit hesitant on grabbing my hand, but he did anyways. Gen and Kazuto stayed with Rai-chan in his room and we told Rai-chan's mother we were going to come back. His neighborhood was in a place where cars barely came by as most people walked where they needed to go, so I didn't mind going out on the streets.

I decided to take him to the park that was near by. It was the park where Kaiko, Haruhi, Rai-chan, Gen, Kazuto and I use to come play while we were in primary school. It was a small park and very few kids were there. On the right side of the park there were 2 sets of swings that had 2 seats each. In the middle of the park there was a turtle that the kids could crawl into, a giant play ground that had a mini rock wall and monkey bars attached to it. There were also 1 small slide and 2 big slides with one that twisted. And then on the left side there were benches.

We sat on the swings and didn't say a word for a little bit. He finally broke the silence. "Why did you take me out here?"

"Because it would be easier to talk to you here," I answered, "Kaoru, I decided that I will tell Hikaru."

"Tell Hikaru what?" Kaoru questioned as he looked confused.

I got off the swings and stood in front of him so I could look him in the eyes. "I am going to tell Hikaru that I love him."

Kaoru's facial expression changed drastically. "But you are going to confess to him even though we all know he's in love with Haruhi?!"

I gave him a sad smile and nodded. "Yes, that's right," My voice cracked a little, but I forced down the feelings of sadness. "I promised someone I would confess to the person I love, and with the way things are now, it's been too suffocating for me as I watch over everyone in the host club. His feelings, as well as Tamaki's, grow stronger each and every day. It's about time I told him…"

"Why?"

"So I can get over him and move on." I answered him as I spun around and climbed on to the slide. I sat on top of the slide and slid down with a jump. The kids that were nearby looked excited as they tried to copy me.

"I want him to know how much I loved him. How much I watched over him and how hard I tried to get rid of these feelings. I want him to know that there is someone out there who loved him and saw him as an individual person, and not just your twin."

Kaoru was speechless as I continued. "Maybe I can hope that deep down he somehow felt the same way, but I want to find a new love. I just want to set my feelings free instead of faking it, like the smile I fake every day."

"Are you sure you want to do this?"

I nodded. "Yeah, I know I might break the little family that Tamaki worked so hard for, but it's going to break sooner or later." I stood in front of him. "You noticed haven't you? As Tamaki slowly realizes his feelings, the family like picture will slowly tear apart and you don't want to be responsible for it. If it's not you who breaks the balance, then isn't that alright?"

"How... did you know about the family?"

"Tamaki told me about his past, his family situation, and from that it's obvious. He cherishes family more than anything. By telling Hikaru, it will definitely open a door that will be impossible to close, but someone is going to have to do it, Kaoru."

"Tokiya."

"Being away from you all, I realized something important. I am tired of running, I am tired of crying, and I am tired of not doing anything. Even if Hikaru rejects me, that's okay with me because I'm sure that one day I will fall in love with someone who will love me back and the smile I throw around won't be fake anymore."

"One day, I will break free from the past that chains me down. I want Kaiko to see that I will be okay on my own. Even if she's not here, I am going to make up for everything I have done to her."

Kaoru looked a little sad. "Wait, what do you mean 'what you have done to her'?"

I gave him a smile. "That is something I cannot tell you yet."

After the little talk we had, we walked back to Rai-chan's house where they were waiting for us. Kaoru got a call from a freaked out Hikaru who was about to call every police station, swat team, and so forth to find him. Kaoru assured him that he was just out for a walk and would be home soon. I could hear Hikaru crying over the phone as Kaoru tried to calm him down.

Dinner was ready for us, so we sat around the table with Rai-chan's mother and little sister. His dad was still at work, so we all ate dinner without him. It was a huge selection of Japanese food. Kaoru looked excited to be eating a commoner dinner and I was happy about it too. Rich people food just wasn't my cup of tea. I was still not use to it.

It was an amazing dinner. I was with my best friends and we all had amazing food to eat. Not having to worry about social status, appearance, and fronts was what I loved the most.

I was content.

But now, I will have to break down a door that people tried so hard to keep closed.