I've decided that Leah get a bad rep. so, I made her awesome in my story…please remember while reading, that she loves Jake, and she's pregnant, and she has became a responsible adult, who has kicked a nasty drinking habit…..and Bella…well, I think we are all aware how mature and level headed she is…..so enjoy!

Chapter. 36 Clarification

"Fucking roosters!" I grumbled in irritation, that damn rooster had been crowing even in my dreams.

"Leave the poor bird alone" Anthony mumbled next to me.

"Shut it McHottie, I can hate birds if I wanna"

"What time is it?"

"I have no idea, I haven't opened my eyes yet"

"Dear Baby Jesus! Not again" he said in mock annoyance. I rolled over to face him and opened my eyes slowly. The sun was barely rising, but the light that was scattered setting his normally bronze hair ablaze.

"You sure are pretty" I said as I reached up an ruffled his hair.

"Ummm…Thanks?" He muttered before he gave me a huge smile.

"So, wanna get dressed or would you rather Charlie see your clothes not on your body, when he gets out and heads this way to check the far pasture?" I giggled, his face reddened.

"What's this all about….you…blushing? But not fainting or at least turning ghostly pale and clammy?" I laughed again.

"We talked" he stated simply.

"Who talked?"

"Charlie and I"

"What? When?"

"Last night"

"So that's how you knew where to find me"

"Yeah, he practically shoved me out of the house" he laughed.

"What did he talk to you about?"

"Just about You, Jake, and some man stuff"

"Man stuff?" I asked while raising one eyebrow.

"Yes….Man stuff"

"Like?"

"Like stuff you will never hear about, it was between Charlie and I, and I would like to keep it that way" he said smugly.

"He threatened you, didn't he?" I questioned.

"Yup"

"Smooth Masen, real smooth" I started laughing.

"Come on lets get up and go to the house….I'm hungry and I think you owe me some good 'ol fashion southern hospitality."

"I thought I was pretty "hospitable" last night" I snorted.

"Oh lord" He said as he sat up and shook he head.

We quickly dressed and folded up our blankets. Charlie was gone when we arrived back at the house but I fixed breakfast and made some coffee quickly. We ate in comfortable silence, everything we had to say had been said and DONE last night. After breakfast we both walked to our designated areas of the house and took showers. We agreed to meet back up at the bottom of the stairs in an hour.

I took a long hot and lovely shower, allowing every one of my sore muscles to relax. Then I tore my suitcase and closet apart trying to find the perfect "I'm an ass, and here to apologize outfit". Yup, that's right, I was going to grovel at Jake's feet, and for some reason needed just the right clothes for it; either that, or I was taking my sweet-ass time, trying to avoid the inevitable. I finally decided on an old torn up pair of Rockies, and a Miranda Lambert Concert T-shirt. My thoughts where that if I look good at all it wouldn't help my case, not that looking disheveled would either, but hey….fuck off!

Anthony was waiting patiently and sexily at the bottom of the stairs as I began to descend them. He said nothing as I approached him, but gave me a reassuring smile.

We climbed into the Polaris Ranger and took off towards Jake's house. Jake had built his house a year and a half ago, it was small but beautiful. It was a three bedroom, open beam, log home. The master-bed and Bath were the entire upstairs. The down stairs included two small bedrooms and a small bath towards the back, a small open kitchen and a large front room that had a large rock fireplace; towards the front. He had built it almost completely by himself, using the logs that had to be cleared for the house. The doors, sinks, bathtubs, electrical components, concrete, nails and screws were from the store. He had even built most of the furniture in the home using the left over logs. To sum up this house in three words it was beautiful, well built, and rustic.

I began to get nervous and we started down the long dirt driveway. Anthony reached over and place a calming hand on my thigh. And I gave thanks to myself, for asking him to come with me. I slowed down as the small home came into view, and my breath caught as I realized there was a pacing pregnant Leah on the porch. I stopped the Ranger and place it into park. I took in a shaky breath and I stepped out of the small vehicle.

"Your not going to take off and leave me here are you" Anthony snickered in my ear.

"Ugh! Thanks" I grumbled.

"Just checking" he laughed and a small smile began to spread across my face.

"You better be here to appologize!" Leah Barked from the porch.

"Uh, yeah….yeah, I am….I need to talk to Jake….is he-"

"Anthony, Jake's watching TV in the house, you are more than welcome to join him. And YOU (she pointed at me)…WE are going to TALK" she spat out as she marched around on the porch. Anthony gave me a small smile before walking into the house. I just stood in shock as Leah huffed and puffed while pacing. After a few minutes of uncomfortable silence she stomped off the porch and grabbed my hand, dragging me down the driveway. Once we were about two or three football fields away from the house, she stopped abruptly, causing me to trip.

"Jesus Bella, really? Can't you even walk right?"

"God, Leah chill!"

"Why were you going to apologize to Jake today?" She asked as she turned to face me head on, and crossed her arms above her huge belly.

"Cuz, I suck, and I embarrassed him and myself…I upset you-" she cut me off.

"Look Bella, I know the real reason ok, so don't bullshit me! I get it! WE ALL get it! Poor little Isabella didn't get what she wanted, someone took away her favorite toy and so she threw a fit, which surprised me! I thought you would have punched something, that's usually how you get your way right?!" She scowled.

"Look Leah, what I did was fucked up, the whole thing was fucked up….I just, it's just, I-"

"You lost your consolation prize…You don't love Jake the way I love him, but you wanted him for a rainy day?" she asked annoyed and slightly smug.

"Yes" I said quietly while hanging my head.

"That's what I thought!" She spat.

"But I realized that it was wrong of me, ALL of it!…… Look, I love Jake, and all I have ever wanted was for him to be happy…you have to see that Leah……………………….so why did you feel the need to drag me down the driveway?"

"I just wanted to clarify a few things for you…Jake loves me, and I love him back, in a way that YOU will NEVER be able to, you and I both know it!…Jake may have been your second choice, But you better start realizing I AM NOT HIS! Jake may have wanted you his whole life, but once he experienced love, real love, not Bella BFF love, he realized what he would be missing out on, if he had choose you. When I told him I was pregnant he was over-fucking Joyed….Hell he is ecstatic about everything, our babies, our wedding, our future. And I refuse to let some selfish bitch fuck that up for him…get over yourself Bella, your number four in his life now, DEAL WITH IT!" She practically screamed. The crazy look in her eye, made me rethink punching the Bitch,

"Harsh much Leah?"

"Well I am just sick of you, and your ability to believe the world or at least anyone and anything in Desoto revolves around you."

"Look I did a lot of thinking last night, what I did was unacceptable and the way I viewed Jake was unforgivable….I know that now….and I…..I came here to apologize, cant you just let me do that? Do you really need to make this harder than it has to be?"

"I am going to do whatever I have to do to protect my family, and that, if you haven't figured it out yet, includes Jake." She stated as-mater-a-factly.

"And I am glad that Jake has someone who is this protective and willing to go to these slightly rude measures I might add…..I would never do anything to intentionally hurt Jake Leah-"

"You did hurt him! He is all kinds of messed up right now! He still doesn't get it"

"He never was the brightest crayon in the crayon box" I laughed and Leah's eyes darkened. "it's a Joke Leah, Jeez" I huffed.

"I accept your apology and since you didn't punch me last night or today, I made a promise to Jake that we still would name our baby girl Isabella" She smiled as she rubbed her belly.

"Awww, thanks…and even though we are never going to like have sleepovers or braid each others hair, just know that I love Jake and since you and the babies are part of Jake now, I love y'all too….so if you guys ever need-"

"Thank you Bella, that means a lot"

"What….are you being sarcastic?"

"No it means a lot that you accept me and the babies as part of Jake, and…I know how much you love him, so…" She began crying.

"Hey, none of that, it's ok Leah" I reached over and rubbed her back.

"Sorry….hormones, it's just that I have always wanted to be friends with you and now it's like your part of my family" She sniffled as she tried to restrain herself.

"Bet Jake is having a field day with you" I laughed.

"I know right?….it's horrible! I am as big as a house, my feet hurt, I eat more than he does, I pee like every five minutes! Shit, speaking of, lets get back I need to go, and you need to talk to Jake, hell, he's is probably starring out the window like a lost dog right now" She laughed.

We walked side by side up to the house. Jake was standing on the porch looking quite nervous, when we got there.

"Leah? Is everything ok?" He hollered.

"She didn't punch me Jake" she hollered back while rolling her eyes. Jake punch the air in victory at the sound of her annoyance.

"Yes! So that means?"

"Yes, Jake! We'll name her Isabella" she laughed, and I did with her. He walked quickly to her side and bent down to talk to her stomach.

"Hey there babies wabbies, or should I say Isabella and Tristan, are you two being good wittle babies for your mama, huh, my wittle precious wecious babies?" He asked before he kissed Leah's swollen belly.

"No they aren't warnty, they are making me have to pee…AGAIN!" Leah huffed as she softly pushed Jake away and swiftly waddled into the house.

"Isabella and Tristan huh?" I asked smiling.

"Yup, what do you think?"

"I'm honored and I think Tristan is…..cute" I smiled sweetly.

"SO"

"SO" I said back causing the moment to become more uncomfortable.

"Do you want to talk about…"

"Yeah…about that….I'm so sorry…I just"

"Why…..why would you act like that, and more importantly why would you cry like you did….that's not like you B….You don't….like….ya know…"

"God NO!…I mean…I wish, but NO….I wish is was as easy as me just realizing what an amazing thing I lost, but no….I am selfish and horrible and…well…ugh, it had a lot more to do with my own little fucked up world…"

"Not following B"

"Ok, but please don't hate me?…..Jake you have always been my…..well…my safety net…"

"I'll always be there for you B, you know that"

"No not like that, I know that…..more like my crutch…"

"Still not getting it"

"Jake, I knew that I could live my life to the fullest with no fear…because I knew that no matter how many times I loved and lost, I could have you at anytime….like if I ever wanted this" I said while pointing to the house. "I could have it…..and I know how horrible and disgusting and selfish that sounds and is, but that's how I used to think, that's how I was thinking when all that happened last night……I realized I didn't have you as an option anymore and it scared me……A LOT" I hung my head in shame.

"Wow, B, that's…..that's…..shitty…"

"I know, and that's why I want to apologize. I should have never took you for granted, but I did, and I know how wrong it was….I thought a lot last night, and realized that I should be happy for you….and I am….I really really am"

"B, what…why…how could you….and now, your just ok..?"

"You've always been there Jake, and it's not that I never appreciated the love you've had for me, but I did take it for granted…..and to be honest I never truly understood love"

"And what's so different now?

"I understand love now because….I…I…I'm in love with Anthony and I am terrified of loosing him...I realized that love is not worth having without the fear of loosing it, and with your role I placed you in, I stopped myself from ever truly being in love….."

"Are you sure?

"Yes, I know for sure now….I thought I knew, but…not until I feared living the rest of my life alone, I feared not having a love at all……."

"So you just want me to forgive you?"

"No, I don't expect you to sweep all this under the table, I just wanted you to know that I was sorry, and that all I have ever truly wanted was for you to be happy….and Jake look at you….You just talked to Leah's stomach, in baby talk none the less, I don't think I have ever seen you this at peace and happy" I smiled.

"I forgive you B, I forgave you as soon as you left last night….I understand how I put you in that position-"

"DO NOT TAKE ANY OF THE BLAME JAKE"

"No, B, I have pressured you since we were kids…of course you thought that way, because up until Leah, it was true….now if I would have realized you were truly not in love with me and thus happy, I would never have let you continue living that lie with me, no matter how much it broke my heart…..but B, I have always loved you, and I always will, nothing and nobody can or could change that; the only thing that has changed is the kind of love that I have for you…."

"I should have never treated you as if you were going to be there at my disposal."

"I never felt that way B, you always made yourself and your feeling known…and it's my fault for putting myself into a position like that"

"We are just going to go back and fourth with this until one of us is blue in the face"

"I know, let's just agree to disagree?"

"Agreed" I sung as I lunged forward into Jake's massive arms.

"I love you B, always and forever"

"I love you too Jake" I squealed in delight as he swung me around.

"Alright you two, enough of that, get inside, it's fucking cold out here!" Leah yelled from the porch, as Anthony smiled brightly from her side. Jake just threw me over his shoulder and strolled into the house with me screaming along the way.

Anthony and I visited Leah and Jake for a few more hours. Touring the nursery and eating homemade chicken soup. Anthony and I arrive back home late in the afternoon, and spent the rest of the day on the porch cuddling.

Cuddling, fishing, visiting with Jake and Leah, and ridding horses, was how we spent the rest of our time in Desoto. Neither of us wanted to leave when it was time to. Charlie drove us to the airport to drop us off, and surprised me once again by continuing to call Anthony "son".

Anthony and I arrived back in Nashville late at night, and were greeted by a glowing Angela. The next morning at 4:30 am we began filming, and only stopped for short lunches. The next two weeks continued on this way, with long busy days of filming and Anthony and I falling asleep holding each other. Our relationship was stronger and deeper than ever, even though we didn't have much time to cultivate it.

It was two weeks before Christmas, and I had permanently had placed a message on my voice mail two weeks prior saying "Hey, it's Bella, and I am sorry but I won't be answering any phone calls till Christmas, I am just too busy, if it's really important, then you know where I am staying, leave a message there, peace out". Needless to say Jasper and Esme, where not to happy with me, and of course left messages for me to call them with the front desk. But I was too tired to jack with it!

The only message I had returned was Emmett's, I had refused to listen to anything that wasn't pertaining to Christmas, since we were supposed to spend it together. And so he told me that he and Rosalie would not be home from his film, until the day of Christmas. And that they where just going to go to Esme's, for her a party that apparently she threw every year. Being irritated with him, I quickly said goodbye, cutting off anything else he had been trying to add on the end. I wasn't going to have Christmas with Alice, since she was to spend it with Jasper's family, and now Emmett cancelled on me; needless to say I was quite upset.

Anthony found me crying on the balcony, an hour later, and a surprised me when he asked me to spend Christmas with him and his family.

"Bella, would you….uh…..why don't you just come home with me for Christmas, it would mean a lot to me and Es-" I cut him off.

"Say no more, I would love to go with you…"

"Ok?…..well, we will be leaving here on the twenty first, pack warm clothes, and don't; worry about a plane ticket I chartered a flight, Christmas and airports are a scary thought?" He shivered.

"Thank you so much Anthony, you always know the right thing to say or do" I sighed as I leaned into his chest.

"I want to talk about…..well what I have been wanting to tell you-"

"Let's just enjoy this….me you…..our view of Nashville?"

He took a deep breath and sighed, "Ok" and then pulled me even tighter kissing the top of my head tenderly.

Like Leah, or hate her? I applauded her, but you may want to punch her in the face…..whatever! I think that her and Bella are going to be good friends….eventually…..anywho, tell me what you think…REVIEW BITCHES! lol