"Come on Orton, it won't be all that bad. You know what you want, now you just have to let Tania know what's going on." Rubbing his eyes in frustration, more with himself than anything else, Randy opened the car door and stepped out. It only took him a few steps before he was at the door, and despite what the text told him Randy reached up and knocked on the door instead.
There was a moment of silence and Randy quickly began to panic. Maybe she wasn't at the motel. What if she had told him to meet her there when really she had no intention of going to meet him. If it got him off of her trail, then what did she care? The sound of the door handle turning brought his attention back to the door.
"I told you that it would be unlocked Rand." Tania reminded him and she stepped out of the way and held the door open wide for Randy to enter. When he passed by her, she quietly shut it behind her and leaned back against the wood. "You didn't need to knock."
"I know, but for some reason I decided to knock instead that way if you wanted to change your mind all you would have to do is not answer."
Tania frowned. "Why would you think that I wouldn't want to answer the door?"
"With all that has been going on it just wouldn't surprise me."
"All that's been going on?" Tania didn't understand where that comment came from but she wanted to know what he meant by it. "And by that you are trying to say what?"
Randy wondered sometimes why he even bothered to open his mouth. Everyone always took it in the wrong way. "I just meant with Adam attacking you and everything moving so fast with Shane and then me kissing you earlier that you might have just wanted to hide away from it all."
"I tried to Randy, and then you called. I guess I went against my better judgment and came to see you." Somehow she just couldn't escape the people that she wanted to. If Randy and Shane were both out of the equation then thinking about what she had to do would end up being a lot easier than it was.
"That was low Tania, I'm not sure that I deserved that one. Don't make it sound like it was a burden to come here and see me." Randy didn't feel he deserved that. He genuinely wanted to talk to her and if she couldn't accept that then she should not have shown up. "All I wanted to do was come here and apologize."
"Well get going, you have an hour to get everything out that you want."
"Assuming they follow your conditions of course." Randy added in. Really he was unable to talk about everything that he wanted to because if he had his choice he'd be bringing up the topic of her laying charges on Adam again. That and maybe if he had the courage he'd be telling her to wake up and realize that Shane wasn't the nice guy she believed him to be.
Tania rolled her eyes. "Don't try and be funny, it's not working."
"Fine. Look, I came here to tell you that I wanted to apologize for not telling you about the bottom part of the note. I wasn't sure that you would be able to handle knowing about the other part. All I wanted to do was protect you from being hurt and there was already so much for you to try and take in. I realize now that it wasn't the smartest thing to do."
"You think?" She thought the reasonable thing to do was tell someone that there was a possibility of them getting raped. Then again, maybe that was just her.
"Like I said, you have to believe me when I say my intentions were good. I was just trying to protect you, and yet in the end it seems more like I was the one you needed to be protected from. Not telling you about the note may have been why Adam managed to attack you. You would have been able to protect yourself better if I had left it where it was."
Tania nodded. "Yeah, I would have made sure never to leave Shane's sight that day. Or at least made sure that I had you or Dave around as opposed to walking around backstage by myself incase Adam did decide to try and attack me." Then she wouldn't have walked into danger quite so quickly. There was no doubt in her mind that since finding out about the rest of the note she partially blamed Randy for what happened.
Turning towards the bed and sitting on the edge, Randy was trying his hardest not to even look at her. "I want nothing more than to be able to take everything back that happened and make it right." He really did mean it. "If I had the change, I would change it right back to the point I first met you and never would have spoken to you."
"Yes but then I wouldn't have met you or Shane and as pissed of as I am at your right now, I still consider you to by my friend." Tania had a moment of weakness. She wanted to yell and scream at him but yet she couldn't. Deep down she knew that Randy really did only mean the best for her. "What happened with Adam, well it should not have happened but even if I knew there was a bottom to the note it doesn't mean that it still wouldn't have happened. The Adam thing, I mean."
"But you would have had a better chance. There would have been no way that Shane wouldn't have let you go out of his site." He hardly let her out of his site to begin with. That was another thing that bothered Randy about the guy, but he wouldn't bring it up.
"Maybe he wouldn't have, maybe not. Shane doesn't control my every movement."
"But you made sure to find a place that he wouldn't find you at when you came to meet up with me."
Tania shrugged. "That's more so for the fact I don't want him interrupting. Not that I wanted a place where he wouldn't find me. I'm not hiding from him Randy, I leave when I want to and he doesn't say a damn thing about it."
"I miss talking to you Tan. I miss the way things were when I first met you and we had our fun little conversations, like when you teased me about having no ass. Why can't things go back to being simple like that?"
Tania frowned and crossed her arms across her chest. "Randy, even if we wanted them to go back, they can't. You changed things today and we both know that." People didn't kiss others like Randy had kissed her when they wanted to be friends. "You kissed me with the intention of showing me you wanted to be more than friends."
"I'm not apologizing for that either."
"I never really expected you to Rand." She saw no reason for him to apologize since if he did she would more than know it would not have been sincere. He meant to kiss her and knew full well what he was doing.
"I will apologize for how I did it though." Randy quickly added. "I had no right to corner you like that, especially after all that had happened with Adam. I never realized that it was putting you right back into that uncomfortable situation."
Taking a few steps forward, Tania leaned against the desk across from where Randy was sitting on the bed. "Well maybe you need to start using your brain for once Randy."
"You may be right about that one." Randy agreed. "Did you feel it?"
Things were quiet between the two of them for a moment. Tania honestly didn't know the best way to answer that question. Yes, she had felt something when she kissed Randy but what was still uncertain.
Randy grew even more anxious with every passing second. He needed more than anything to know if Tania had felt something when he had kissed her. He needed to know if the same jolt of electricity jolted through her lips like it had his. "Tan?"
"Yes. Are you happy?" Tania quickly answered. "When you kissed me I felt something. I'm not sure what, but it was something. I panicked then more than anything, for all I know I was just feeling the same thing any other woman would have in my situation. I was being kissed by an extremely good looking man, I would have been more surprised had I not felt anything."
"So something is there."
"No Randy, nothing was there. I can't let there be anything there because I'm happy with Shane. He and I have a good thing going and I can't have you kissing me and making it even more complicated." Tania admitted.
"Fuck what you have with Shane! If you felt something for me, shouldn't you be trying to figure out what that is exactly? There could be a whole other thing waiting for you right here. I know that when I kissed you I felt something, and it wasn't just arousal. Something about you got to me Tania, and I realized more than every that everyone else was right. I do care about you and I'm talking as more than a friend. I want to be more than a friend Tania."
"Well you will have to be a friend!" Tania felt the blood begin to boil. "Because I'm quite happy with Shane and I can assure you that I really to feel something for Shane and it also happens to be something I want. You should have made your move earlier than this Randy!"
"It took me a little longer to realize exactly what I felt about you Tania! So sue me over that little fact. I'm not the first man who has done such a thing and I sure as hell won't be the last so why don't you cut me some slack for ten seconds."
"Cut you some slack? Randy you kissed a woman who was involved with someone. You know that I'm with Shane, everyone knows that by now. You don't go around kissing someone that is with someone else, that's just-"
"-shut up would you already? You don't think that the moment something else comes along that happens to catch Shane's eye he won't jump on the opportunity? Or the woman? Everyone around here has seen him do it before so don't think that you are anything special."
"Fuck you!" Tania couldn't believe that Randy actually had the audacity to say half of the things that he was saying. "You have no clue what is going on with Shane and I so don't you dare tell me how he is. I know what he has done, I know his past."
Randy had enough. "How stupid can you be, seriously?" How she could not see what was going to happen was beyond him. "I won't be like that Tania, if you take a chance with me."
"And how stupid are you? You know that if I leave Shane for you that he's going to make your career hurt over the fact. He knows that I care for him, everyone does! I WON'T LEAVE HIM." She hoped that Randy would be smart enough to understand what she was saying this time around. Hell, half the motel probably knew the point that she was trying to get across, it wasn't like she was trying to be quiet about the fact.
Standing up, Randy looked right into Tania's eyes for the first time. He needed her to look into his eyes and see that she was more than serious. "Can you honestly tell me that you haven't thought about what it would be like to be here with me instead of him?"
"Even if I did, it wouldn't matter. The reality is I'm with Shane and I really to care about him. I'm not going to throw that all out the window to take a chance that there could be something here with you. I'm sorry but that is the way it is."
Randy shook his head, he wasn't buying it and neither was her heart. He could see the look in Tania's eyes, she wasn't sure that she believed what she was saying. Deciding to take a risk again, Randy reached out to wrap and arm around Tania's waist and pull her in close. Before she could argue, his lips descended upon hers for a second time.
All Tania could do at first was freeze up. Her brain, her body, all had shut down on her leaving her paralyzed as Randy's lips connected with her. Even the second time around she couldn't deny that there was something there. His lips were soft and his kiss was gentle, something that she desired in a kiss. But it was wrong, the only person that was supposed to be kissing her was Shane.
Pulling back, Randy looked right into Tania's eyes. "Tell me you still didn't feel something worth taking a chance on."
"I told you already that I wasn't going to do it, why can't you just accept that?"
"Because I can't." And to prove his point, Randy kissed her again. His plan was to continue kissing her until she either agreed with him or kicked him in the balls. Randy was suddenly surprised when Tania sighed beneath him and parted her lips slightly.
Taking this as being his chance, Randy parted her lips slightly wider with his tongue before seeking entrance into her mouth. Immediately she accepted his advance and the two began to kiss each other with more passion than either had expected.
Tilting his head to the side, Randy made sure to keep his arm around her waist as he gently moved them back towards the bed. Once his legs hit the mattress, Randy let the two of them fall to the bed below so that Tania was now on top and straddling him. This way she would know that it was all her.
The two of them continued to kiss, Randy's fingers weaving through Tania's hair pulling her head slightly closer or angling it just slightly when he wanted better access to her mouth. It was until instinctively that Tania pressed herself into Randy and felt his sudden arousal that things between them changed.
Tearing her mouth away from his, Tania suddenly looked like she was a deer caught in headlights. "This is wrong." Rolling off of Randy, she quickly got up from Randy and made her way to the side of the bed so she could stand up.
"It can't be, not when it feels like this."
"Yes it can, Randy. This is wrong and it should never have happened. I told you already that I'm happy with Shane and I want to stay with him and see where things go. There is potential there."
Randy snorted. "If that's what you need to tell yourself to rationalize everything then so be it, but it's complete bullshit. You kissed me Tania. I wasn't the only person here enjoying what was going on. You wouldn't have let that happen unless you felt something. You're not a slut, you don't kiss just any man."
"Whatever. All I know is that from now only the only person I will be kissing is Shane." Tania didn't stay for the conversation any longer. Grabbing her jacket off of the chair where she had set it earlier she made her way out the door.
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"There you are." Lilian smiled, entering the locker room to finally find Dave.
Dave looked up and smiled as he watched Lilian cross the room towards him and brush her lips gently against his before sitting on the bench next to him. "You're going to love what I have to tell you."
"Oh? And what do you have to tell me?"
"Randy took your advice and kissed Randy." Dave blurted out all of a sudden. He had been so excited about it that it was hard for him to keep it to himself as longs as he did.
Lilian's brow furrowed. "Randy kissed Randy? Dave, that really doesn't make much sense."
Dave's cheeks reddened once he realized the mistake that he made especially since it was in front of Lilian. "I meant to say that Randy kissed Tania."
"What! He did!" Lilian was suddenly excited. She couldn't believe that Randy actually did it. "And? Please tell me that Tania woke up and realized that she needed to leave Shane for Randy."
Suddenly Dave had no idea how to even approach the answer to that one. "Not so much. Actually, it made things worse."
"How so?"
"Well Randy realized that he did actually care for Tania, even to the point that he might even love her. Unfortunately Tania's feelings towards Randy don't seem to be the same. Actually, Randy has a theory too. He thinks that right after he kissed her, she went running to Shane in order to have sex with him. Something about her trying to figure out what she felt for Shane because there was the potential of her feeling something for Randy too."
Lilian's eyes were nearly popping out of her head and she couldn't believe that she was hearing all that she was. "How can this be? How can Tania not see that Randy is the right guy for her? He's the one she needs to be with, not Shane."
Dave shrugged. "To make matters worse, Randy apparently tore a part of that note he got from Adam off the bottom before showing it to Tania. She just found out about it now."
"Why would he do something that stupid?" Lilian spoke more to herself than for Dave's benefit. "Which part of the note did he take?"
"The bottom part that pretty much said Adam was going to rape her. It wasn't until Tania confronted Randy about him telling the cops about the note without telling Tania that he actually came clean about it."
Lilian paused for a moment taking everything that Dave was telling her in. "Well at least the cops came to speak to Tania. I hope those are damn good charges against Adam."
Dave shook his head. "Tania hasn't pressed any charges against Adam as of yet."
"What!" Liilian was shocked. "Why would she not press charges against him? Adam's going to take that as giving him permission to do something else to her."
"I know that, you know that…hell everyone knows that except for Tania. She says that she wants to forget about everything and move on. Shane and Randy have both spoken to her about it already but neither of them have actually had any success."
"So where is Randy now?"
Dave gave a slight snort, even now he didn't agree with Randy leaving. "He want to meet Tania at a motel. Apparently they are going to talk about the kiss that happened earlier and what is going on between them. Or at least that is what Randy hopes to have happen, I'm not sure that Tania is really in the mood to listen right now."
"Wow. Just when I thought things could get any worse than what they already were."
Dave definitely agreed with that one. "And the worst part is, we played a big part in making things worse. We were the ones who kept telling Randy that he needed to figure out what it was that he felt for Tania. And in doing so he realized that he loved her. Only thing is, I'm not sure that it makes much of a difference now."
"Yup. He either gets the girl or gets the career. He won't be able to have both."