October flew by in a blur, Umbridge's regime was now being enforced throughout the castle and the mood in September was nothing compared to that of the new October days. I had attended a DA meeting with Angelina and the twins in early October and it had quickly become a weekly habit, with Severus taking extra detentions to avoid the growing numbers under Umbridge's watch, it wasn't as if I had much better to do. Harry was proving to be a good teacher, and although there were still spells he wouldn't learn until his seventh year, I'd began to support him, teaching him things we were being taught in transfiguration and charms, and more importantly things that I'd learnt at Beauxbatons, whose advanced regime proved to be important in a school where we were being taught little defensive magic.
I was struggling forming a patronus, and although Harry wasn't quite ready to start teaching the others, I wanted to get a head start and so took extra help from Harry when he wasn't studying or practising quidditch. Angelina had got the Quidditch team reinstated and they were due to play against Slytherin on Sunday, so spent most of Saturday down on the pitch running trials. With no twins, Angelina or Harry and Ron I found myself wandering down to the dungeons, finding Severus in his chambers. I sat and watched him work for a while, his quill flying over the page in rapid short strokes. I poured myself a large glass of wine and curled up in the loveseat, a large tome of defensive magic perched on my lap. I flicked through and read through the large description on Patronuses, how they were formed, the theory and practical aspect as well as a thorough description on vocal Patronuses.
Severus took his own glass of wine from the desk and came to sit on the loveseat beside me, I folded myself round and curled into him on the small plump sofa, my legs wrapped tightly underneath me. Sev's fingers played with my curls quietly and I could feel his cool breath against my throat as he bent over my shoulder to see what I was reading. "Patronuses? I thought that was next term?" I nodded, "Thought I'd get a head start, couldn't hurt though could it, knowing how," my thoughts wandered off and my mind filled with that familiar dreamy image of Dad led at the bottom of Gryffindor tower, a cold scaly grey mouth inched from his. "Have you formed one yet?" I shook my head and smiled weakly at him, "Harry's been helping, but I'm still not there, just a silvery grey smoke really." His fingers laced through mine and I rested my glass on the table, "Do you want me to help you?" His voice was quiet and something purred happily within me, "Would you?" He stood, his hand never leaving mine and he withdrew his wand.
Silently, he flicked his wand, a silvery smoke rolling from its tip, it floated endlessly around the room, not taking shape and this caused Severus to drop his wand, his concentration faltering. "Sev, are you alright?" He looked up at me as though shocked to see me stood beside him and I frowned. "It's, it's," I took his hand again and turned him to me, "It's always been, it's always been a doe, before." I looked away from his dark eyes sadly, a doe, just like Lilies. But now, it was shapeless, did that mean? What did that mean? Had he fallen out of love with her? No, he never would, but maybe he loved me more, maybe it had confused the patronus. "Lena, let's try yours, come on." I looked up at him sadly, "Lily, Severus?" He looked away guiltily and he frowned, small creases crossing his face. "It's fine, Severus, you'll always love her." He shook his head, "not the way I love you. I never felt this way with her, what I feel for you, it's rawer, I'm hungry for you Lena." I felt the blush creep up my cheeks and he took my hand, steadying my grip on my wand. I flicked it, whispering quietly, "Expecto Patronum," and again a silver wisp emitted from it, it danced alongside Severus's bigger grey wisp and then appeared to dissolve, while Sev's continued to float through the room, circling us.
"You're not thinking happy enough. Come on Lena," I tried again, thinking of the feeling when Mum had let Dad into our cottage, two years earlier, knowing he still wanted me. A bigger silver wisp flew through the room this time, nose diving into the loveseat where it dissolved quickly again. I didn't allow Severus time to speak, instead flicking my wand and speaking the spell a little louder, thinking of nothing but the feel of Severus's mouth on mine, that night we'd spent together. This time a wisp to rival Severus's flew beside it, twisting with it and Severus squeezed me tightly, "better, try for shape this time." I flicked my wand again, speaking the incantation confidently, a large silver cat soared from my wand, and wandered quietly around the room, taking her in, I saw her large soft paws that padded against Severus's rug, looking down into her face, I was faced with the eyes of a beautiful lioness, he tail swishing happily behind her. She walked up beside me and curled herself around my legs and I couldn't help but laugh at the cool sensation of my Patronus against my bare legs. Severus was smiling and laughing happily and the cat leaped up and padded her way around him angrily. I steadied my wand and she walked away from him a little slowly, watching him as if stalking her prey, but Severus's eyes were hot and hungry as they bore down into mine.
Severus's mouth was fiery against my neck and I dropped my wand softly on the table, feeling his hands slide up the bare skin of my thigh to the seam of my shorts. "You did it Lena," I sighed into his kiss and I found myself being pushed hard up against the kitchen counter, my legs wrapping around his waist as he lifted me, his mouth hard against mine. My body reacted as it always did to his touch and the small pool erupted in my stomach, waiting for the ebb and flow that he caused inside me. His tongue danced against the roof of my mouth and I found my fingers struggling at the hem of the jumper he wore. He lent away and pulled it easily over his head before locking his mouth back to mine. His fingers danced across my bare skin beneath my small camisole and I shrugged quickly out of my thick cardigan. I wrapped my hands up behind his neck and locked my fingers tightly as I pushed away from the countertop, Severus carrying me through to the bedroom, his mouth never leaving mine.
He pushed me gently down against his bed and I pulled him down with me, slipping my shirt over my head quickly as his lips connected with the soft skin below my jaw. I unbuttoned my shorts and pushed down over my hips, Severus's hands guiding mine. I pulled at his shirt hungrily and it fell from his shoulders as I gave it one sharp tug. My mouth was hard against his skin as I ravaged kisses across his bare chest and I pushed him down so that I straddled him. I couldn't deny the hunger in his eyes and as I reached down to kiss him again; I let my hands trail lower, unbuttoning his jeans that then slid down his strong hips. My hair bounced over my chest heavily and I swung it hard over one shoulder, giving me more access to kiss Severus. But as I sat back over him, I saw a brief flash of fear pass over his face, "Are you sure Lena?" his voice was thick with want and the pool bubbled happily within me. I nodded and kissed him hungrily, trying to show him I had no fear, "Take me Severus."
His long fingers danced across my underwear and finding the tiny ribbon fastenings between my breasts, he pulled hard, the fabric unfolding and falling away so that each breast bounced softly over my stomach, our breathing was ragged now and although he was no longer affected by the now healed scars across my body, I saw the last little flick of apprehension cross his face before he tossed me down against the bed, towering over me. "God Lena," I blushed at the hunger in his voice and I took his mouth in mine, biting down on his lip as his hands moved across my body, pressing in places that caused me to arch and cry beneath his touch. I pushed away at his underwear and he forced it off quickly so that he lay above me, his skin bright and glowing in the sunlight that filtered through the open curtains. My fingers trailed his bare legs, circling them until my nails grazed his member which stood tall above me. My fingers flitted across the soft skin and he shuddered beneath my touch, a groan escaping his lips. His mouth fell hard against mine and I kissed him back with such a hunger, a need, that he had no choice but to tear the panties from my hips, his length so hard he was pained by it, and he was hungry for release.
His mouth found my breast and his tongue circled my bud, my back arching beneath me and pushing me further into his mouth. We shifted so that he knelt between my legs, his mouth never leaving my breast that now ached from his touch and my mouth was hot against his neck as I kissed him with such a want as I'd never know before. I lifted my legs over his hips and he stopped, his face hovering over mine, "You're sure?" I nodded, "I love you Severus Snape," he bent his lips to mine and growled hungrily against me, his length pressing uncomfortably against my stomach, "Always Lena," his mouth locked mine and his hands flew down to support my hips as I shifted against him, He hovered only a second from me and I held his gaze steadily as he pushed inside me gently. I flinched but caught his mouth in mine as I yelped in pain a little, my skin stretching to fit him. He tried to pull away but I pushed myself harder against him and he grunted his mouth hot against mine.
He moved inside me, pushing gently and reacting to the way I moved around him, as the pool in my stomach grew and with every movement Severus made inside me, it seemed to heat a little, releasing and then pulling back. As Severus pulled out of me, he rested his forehead against my shoulder, before plunging deep back inside me. I called his name and his mouth fell heavily against my throat, his teeth pulling at the skin as he built up inside of me. My stomach was blazing now and the pool was no longer a calm little puddle inside me, it was now a raging lake of want and lust, and with every thrust deep inside me I found my body clenching tightly around Sev, and noticing this, he began to build up the speed of his pattern. I cried his name and as I felt myself nearing that edge I bit down hard on his shoulder, fearing I'd scream like a thousand banshees. But as the pool pushed and pushed, I felt myself begin to shake, tightening around him. The lake burst before I knew it and I felt myself shake uncontrollably under Severus's hands, his mouth tight around mine, our tongues dancing hungrily.
As I pooled around him, he began to push harder, until he lay above me, shaking just as much as I had and I couldn't help but giggle as his mouth left mine, his face shiny and his smile wide. With one loud moan he filled me and I felt as if I'd never be fuller.
We lay together till darkness shrouded the bedroom, neither of us moving from the others arms, our bodies in a warm tangle beneath the sheets. Our hands travelled over each other's bodies, learning, playing, and our mouths warm and smiling against each other's. I pulled away and slid out underneath the covers. He tried to hold me back but I pulled my self strongly from him and fell out into the living room where I grabbed my wand from the floor and Severus's from the countertop. I threw him his when I entered and laying back down beside him, his hands warm around my waist as I cast expecto patronum, my lonely lioness stalking her way around the bedroom. I watched her happily and lay myself across Severus's chest, listening to the steady thunder-roll of his heartbeat. He flicked his wand, and this time, no meagre wisp took from his tip, but a large lion soared from it, stalking my lioness around the room until she turned and ran at him happily, her tail flying in excitement. I smiled into Severus's chest as we watched our Patronuses play and follow each other around the room and I thought in that moment, I could be no happier.
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