No Betaing, Sorry all the mistakes are mine

As Kurt watched the stores pass his window from the passenger side of this dad's truck, Kurt let the familiar smells and sounds roll over him. His dad has one of his 80's cds playing and Kurt could smell a hint of motor oil that always stuck to the seats no matter how many car fresheners he put in the truck. Kurt could feel the vibration of the car as it went over the many potholes and the cracks that had not been fill since the cold winter. It was wonderfully silent.

Burt had told stories about Kurt's mom for the better part of an hour before his usually reserved manner came over him. Kurt wanted so much to tell his dad about everything that was happening to him but a little part of him was scared that he had already burdened his dad so much with what was going on right now. Kurt knew everyone had said that it wasn't his fault that there was a mad man after him but the crazed homophobe wouldn't be after him if he wasn't gay. Or maybe it was that he was so proudly gay.

Kurt knew he should open up to his dad but he was too tired to deal with his dad's worries about dating another boy. Kurt knew his dad had said he was okay with him being gay but what about all the times he had said that he didn't want Kurt to date until he was thirty. Was that a joke or was it a subtle hint that Burt was still not ready for the reality of having a gay child? Also Kurt didn't know what he was going to do with Noah. He knew Noah seemed to so sincere about dating him, but this was also the same guy who had been running a pool business and sleeping with the women who hired him. Kurt knew that Noah was his rock right now but what if he became too much for the other boy? What if after a few dates Noah realized how crazy Kurt had become and even the sweet memories he had of Kurt from when they were little was not enough for Noah to stick around? Also Kurt knew that Noah loved girls. What if Noah decided that girls were just better that guys and he dumped Kurt? Was it really something that he wanted to tell his dad about so Burt would be mad at Noah for realizing how much of a mess he was?

Kurt clutched his phone. His fingers itched to call Noah just to listen to the teen's voice hoping that he could calm Kurt down from this panic attack. Only the knowledge that he was going to see the taller boy in a few minutes stopped Kurt from calling him and that was only by a thin margin.

"Kurt... Kurt."

Kurt jerked up in his seat and looked at his dad to see Burt looking at him very concerned.

"Are you okay?" Burt asked as they turned into the parking lot of the gym.

Kurt nodded as he unbuckled his seatbelt but before he could open his door his dad stopped him.

"Are you sure you want to go to class? I mean I don't know anything about these people and I know that your friend Noah works here but if you don't feel comfortable here we can find somewhere else for you to take class." Burt said as he started to move his hand off of Kurt. "I think you should take defense but I want you to feel save and you haven't said two words since we started over here."

Kurt shook his head. "Mac and Jesse are amazing, dad. I'm just kind of in a weird head space."

Burt frowned a little. "I understand that but we could just come on Wednesday if you wanted."

Kurt paused. He knew that Noah wanted to go on a date with him after class on Wednesday and though it seemed so far in the future right now it was better to ask so his dad could get ready for it. "Dad, I was wondering if me and Noah could hang out together on Wednesday."

Burt seemed confused by what Kurt had said. "Doesn't mohawk teach class here?"

Kurt nodded and started to pick at the hem of his shirt. "Yes but I was hoping that just the two of us could hang out after class."

Burt shook his head immediately. "Kurt, I know this might seem overprotective but I don't think you should hang out with Noah by yourself for a while."

"But dad..."

Burt interrupted. "I'm not saying he's not a good kid or anything but think of what Noah would go through if Nelson came after him. This guy doesn't seem to be running on all cylinders as it is, I just wouldn't feel right about letting some kid get into his crosshairs. It's bad enough that I let you stay with him and his family yesterday when I was helping the police. If anything happened to him or his family, I don't know how I would feel."

Kurt felt his whole body go stiff. That was exactly what he was trying to tell Noah. This was not a good idea. He couldn't let his feeling for his oldest best friend be the reason that Noah got hurt. After a few beats, Kurt nodded. "You're right dad."

Burt sigh and grabbed Kurt close. "I know this is tough on you but one day when you grow up and get out of this town like you want to, you'll be able to live the life you should have and find someone who loves you almost as much as I do. I know life here for a boy who is unique as you is hard but I'm doing the best that I can Kurt. I'm sorry for how it's all turning out."

Kurt clutched his dad as close as he could while he tried not to cry. He knew his dad was trying and he knew he should be more grateful for everything that he had but after the ups and downs of the last few days, Kurt just felt so raw. He was an exposed nerve and everything felt sharp and painful to him. He just wanted to heal.

After a few minutes, Kurt pulled away. He knew that Noah wouldn't give up on his date until he realized how much of a mess Kurt was. He also knew that his dad wasn't going to let him out of his sight without a fight. This meant that Kurt had to either give up on his chance with Noah or make sure that the other teen knew how worried he was about this whole dating thing was scaring him. Kurt didn't find it fair that the only bright spot of the last few days started to become one of the more frightening parts of it as well. He was being pulled towards Noah because he was the safest part of Kurt's life right now but he felt like everything around him was trying to take Noah away from him.

Kurt opened the door and started to walk to the gym. He heard his dad follow him and soon felt his dad's hand on his shoulder. Idly Kurt wondered how long it was going to be until Burt started to pull away from him again. Kurt shook his head. He felt like such a mess today.

As soon as Kurt entered the door, he was grabbed into a hug by Noah. Not that Kurt could see who it was but after two days of being surrounded by the the light musk and old newspaper smell that clung to Noah, Kurt could pick up his scent anywhere.

"Are you okay, princess?" Noah whispered into his ear.

Kurt shivered and moved closer to the larger boy. He was not okay. He felt like he was being pulled apart. Kurt felt a hand on his back and jerk around while staying in Noah's protective hold. Kurt turned to see Jesse standing next to him looking clearly upset and Mac right behind him. He noticed his dad glaring at the large men that seemed to be enclosing his son in a circle and Kurt felt a nervous giggle erupt from his lips. He could almost feel the annoyance that his dad was emoting.

He gently pulled himself from Noah's arms and moved over to his dad. "Dad, this is Jesse and his partner Mac. They run the gym."

Jesse stepped up to his dad and offered his hand. "Nice to meet you. Kurt is a good kid."

Burt nodded as he shook Jesse's hand but his eyes were glued on Mac. Not that Kurt could blame him. Kurt knew that Mac was not as much as hard ass as he seemed but he was still intimidating.

Mac put his hand out as soon as Burt let go of Jesse's. "Name's Sean. The boys call me Mac and that's mostly Jesse's fault."

Jesse nudged Mac. "You love your nickname. What did the little squirt call you?"

Mac let go of Burt's hand and turned to his partner. "Mac attack."

Jesse snaked an arm around Mac's waist as he spoke. "I couldn't figure out if it was a command or just his little crush."

Noah groaned. "Kill me now."

Kurt felt his spirits lift a little from the banter. He glanced at his dad who motioned him closer.

Burt turned and leaned in close to his son. "Are they partners or partners?"

Kurt smiled. He knew that the pair of very private man were being obvious if his dad could see what was going on and that meant that they were doing it on purpose. "Both."

Burt looked a little bewildered then relieved. "Oh."

Kurt nodded.

Mac spoke up. "Hey Kurt, go and help the kid help set up while me and Jesse talk to your dad for a little while." Kurt nodded as his dad followed Jesse and Mac into their office. As soon as the adults had closed the door after them, Noah pulled Kurt into another hug. After a few seconds, Noah questioned Kurt. "How are you really doing?"

Kurt shrugged. He didn't want to talk about what was going on in his head yet. He was so confused. "Not great..." He looked up at Noah. "I... I did try to talk to my dad..." Kurt glanced at the door and even though it was shut he whispered the rest of the sentence "... about us."

Noah's eyebrow raised but he didn't say anything.

Kurt felt guilty but continued. "He doesn't want me to go anywhere without him for a while."

Noah eased away from Kurt. "Did you tell him that it was a date?"

Kurt shook his head. "Dad won't like it. He doesn't want me to date until I'm thirty." Kurt sighed and rubbed his head. "I think he's okay with the idea that I'm gay as long as I don't actually date boys."

Noah snorted. "Than how are you gay?"

Kurt shrugged as he moved to lean against a wall. He felt like he was about to collapse from exhaustion. "Are you sure about this, Noah? I mean you can see I'm a mess and my dad is clearly an overprotective dad and though I love him he might not be so happy with anyone who dates his little boy. And he owns guns. And there is a crazy man after me and you like girls and I'm not anything special and you could do better..."

Before anything else could stream out of Kurt's mouth, he felt Noah's hand cover it. "Princess, this better be lack of food and sleep getting to you because I thought we talked about all of this... Well, everything except your dad." Noah moved so he sat next to Kurt. "I still want to try this but I'm not forcing you. Do you want to date me or not?"

Kurt looked over to the ernest face of the boy who seemed to be too good to be true. "I do, Noah. It's the only happy thought in my messed up head right now. I just don't want you to leave me because you realize you don't want me anymore. I don't think I can stand to loose you."

Noah took Kurt's hand in his and laced his fingers together. "You won't."

Kurt leaned against Noah. "Can we wait a little bit to tell my dad? I don't want you to get shot before our first date."

Noah smirked. "You just want to get another kiss." Noah sighed as he continued. "We can wait if you want."

Kurt looked at Noah. "And everyone else?"

Noah glared lightly. "Kurt..."

Kurt interrupted. "Just until Nelson is caught. I won't date you if I think you're in danger Noah. I just can't get it out of my head that you could get hurt because of me."

Noah grabbed Kurt's chin. "None of this is your fault. Get that through your head." Noah looked at Kurt and a beat later he nodded. "We'll wait."

Kurt curled into Noah as much as he could. "Best-soon-to-be-boyfriend-ever." Kurt closed his eyes as he heard Noah chuckle. He felt his body relax even as he heard the door open and the sound of kids running in. He didn't even fight it as he felt Noah lay him down on the floor and put something soft under his head. Surround by the happy noises of the kids play fighting, Kurt just curled up on floor.