Hey you guys, I am so sorry for not updating in so long. A special thanks to my best friend, Brianna Morrison. Don't know how this would have gotten written without her! This may be really long or shorter. I'm not sure of the length because I am just writing as I go, but it will have to do. My mom is threatening to take me out of my dance class if I don't "try" harder at school. I only have two Cs and they are in Chemistry and Pre-Cal/Trig. I am trying so I just ask that y'all be patient with me. I will update again soon. (Hopefully)
Dear Diary,
It has been a day since she died. Everyone keeps walking around quietly as if they don't want to disturb the silence. People keep giving me these pitying looks. I don't want their pity. Pity won't bring Chun Hua back. My baby is lost to me forever, my friend. I keep visiting her grave all the time. Right now, I had to take a walk. So I'm going through the village. 'Mei Xiang? Is there anything I can offer you?" I looked at the shop I subconsciously stopped at. Chun Hua always loved stopping here. She loved Mrs. Yun's cookies. I shook my head sadly as the memory of my baby bouncing with joy when I was able to bring her a cookie flashed through my head. 'Sorry, Mrs. Yun, I'm just walking around today. Trying to clear my head. Ya'know?" Mrs. Yun nodded with understanding. "She'll be okay. Master Oogway is up there taking care of her as we speak." I smiled gratefully at the old goat and continued on my way. I stopped at the edge of the valley and shook my head in exasperation when I saw Monkey trying to follow me. I know that I have been acting depressed ever since the funeral, but I'm not suicidal.
I stepped into the woods and continued on my walk when I bumped into another person. I was so lost in thought, that I didn't see him. "I am so so sorry, miss." His tenor voice washed over me. I looked up to spotted bloodish red-brown fur and warm golden amber eyes. "I'm Naoko. I didn't see you there. Here let me help you." I smiled gratefully as he helped me up.
"Uh.. um.. H-hi."
"Hey, are you okay?" He asks for a brief second I forgot my despair but as soon as that question left his lips my world crashed around me again. "I guess," I answered. I gave him the biggest smile I could offer which was basically a grimace. "What's wrong? I can tell you are upset over something."
"I am, I lost my dearest Chun Hua, my darling daughter, to the dreaded Blood Cough."
His eyes grew sad and the warm amber darkened. He leaned in and hugged me. I stiffened before realizing the niceness of the touch. "I know what you must be feeling in a sense. I lost my brother and sister to Blood Cough. Except, we didn't call it that. In my group, it is called Spotted Fever." I nodded sadly in sympathy. "I'm sorry for your loss." He nodded and we walked aways to a small pond. I found myself beginning to open up to this gentle cat. He was kind and he didn't pity me over Chun Hua's death. We sat for awhile and I asked him the one question that I have had burning on the inside for a long time now. "You understand?" He looked up and nodded. "I guess I do understand. I know what it is like to drown in despair and wonder if you are ever going to find a way out or if anyone is there. I don't want you to have to go through the same suffering I did." I smiled softly, the grimace fading. 'How long did it take for the pain to fade?" He shook his head and grabbed my paw, squeezing it lightly. I didn't pull away form the comforting touch. "My big brother and little sister died 5 years ago when I was about 10 years old. The pain was crippling at first, but after a couple of years the pain seemed to be easier to bear. " I curled up against his side. He was tense against my touch but soon relaxed into me. "I don't know if this pain will ever fade. My other children are being adopted and will soon be leaving. She died too soon. I miss her so much." My voice broke off and I started to cry softly. Naoko turned me into his chest and held me as my tears dampened his shirt.
I stiffened as he petted my head fur and then relaxed to the feeling of him caressing me. Sobs wracked my body, they just couldn't seem to stop coming. When I finally cried so much I could not cry anymore I sniffled and looked at him. "Thank you, you have no idea how much I just needed someone to hold me." He smiled at me and leaned down and kissed my forehead. "Your welcome." My heart soared as I drowned in his amber eyes. He pulled me close for another hug and said, "I must go, now, but I hope to see you again beautiful girl. Remember always dry those tears for you are too pretty to cry." He turned and walked away my heart skipped a beat, he thought I was beautiful. I turned to watch him walk away. At the edge of our peaceful pond, stood a group of gypsies. A band of different cats waving for my knight in shining armor. "Naoko, come on. " He took off at a sprint towards them. I watched as he drew smaller and smaller. Before he turned and followed them into the deepening twilight lit forest, he turned and waved at me. I waved back. My heart feels lighter now, little book. Naoko helped me while others couldn't. I smiled to myself before realizing that back at home, everyone must be getting frantic thinking I killed myself out of grief. I really need to hurry home. Diary, you can't tell anyone this, but I think, i have fallen in love. I turned away from where Naoko vanished and walked back to my home.