This one is super short! Sorry! But I didn't want to keep you all waiting any longer.

Chapter 36:

The next morning was different. I woke up understanding what was wrong with me. The mood swings made sense now. The visions I had all those years ago were going to come true. There was not one moment back then where I thought they would be Eric's children. They. They were the same age. They had big blue eyes and blonde hair.

"You're up early." Sookie said softly, handing me a cup of tea. "You alright?"

"No. And yes." I sighed. "It's all just unreal to me. I always thought I would be a mother but I never thought it would be like this." I had no illusions about vampires and Eric. I always thought we would make it happen some other way. But before all that would happen I figured I would fix him. Now I wasn't so sure that would ever happen. "I feel like running away."

"Where would you run to Oliver? You're bonded. Wouldn't he just find you? And he has no idea what is going on with you.." She walked to the banister next to me, wrapping her hand around my own. "Stay here a while. Think about what you really want."

"You're probably right.." I leaned into my coffee, drinking a large gulp. "Pam thinks I cheated on him. I am sure he will hear all about it."

"If he knows you then he won't believe her. You know that as well as anyone Olive. He loves you and according to you it's been ongoing since you were a young girl. He knows who you are."

"I thought I knew who he was to Sook. But he has been around a lot longer then I have. What if I lost him? he was the first face I saw in those woods. I had no idea who I was or how I got there." I felt a tear fall down my cheek as I spoke, "I was at least twelve. That means I lived twelve years before all that. Where was I all that time? What did I do and why can't I remember?" It had always been in the back of my mind. but I felt as if I couldn't hold on to it anymore. "He was so kind to me. I was truly part of his family. His parents were my parents."

"I know this whole Russell thing is upsetting you. But I do truly believe that if you killed him it would not make you feel any better about the things he has done."

"I never expected to feel good. I just hate knowing that he could live. He could feel happiness and love. He doesn't deserve to feel those things." Him being dead would at least give me a little satisfaction.

"Eric killed his lover didn't he? Could that be enough?"

"For now I guess it will have to be. Eric and Godric are both against me at this point. I don't agree with them and I won't. It's best if I just back down and let them do what they feel is necessary." And inside I will hurt. There was no more to it.

"Common. Let's go to work, get you're mind off all this for a while. Later tonight we can discuss you moving you're things in." she didn't wait for me to answer, leaving me alone once again on the porch.

"Damn girl! I didn't think y'all would be in today!" Lafayette said, hugging me tightly. "It's good to see you."

"I just needed a little normal. At least for tonight." I told him, wrapping my arms around his neck and hugging him back. "What better place then Merlotte's?"

"Oh hells yes. It's about time you two came back to work. We can't all be picking up you're slack. Bitch hug me!" Tara added, giving me a small hug, along with Sookie.

"Sorry guys. I know I have been off for a while. I needed the rest, yeah know?" I nearly cried. it was so nice to see my friends again.

"Lafayette we need to speak to you in private if that is alright. Before we start that is." Sookie told him, grabbing him by the elbow and motioning for me to follow. I had not one idea why she was doing this.

"What is it?" He asked her worriedly.

"You still have those witchy powers we discussed recently?" She asked him, folding her arms over her chest.

"Uh yes. What can I do for you?" He sighed. I could see slight annoyance there but I still said nothing.

"Oliver needs you're help. When she was twelve she was found in the woods with amnesia. I am wondering if you can help with that?" She went on. My eyes widened, realizing what she was up to. I had never asked a witch or whatever he was to help me before. It never came up.

"Holly might be a better person to ask about that. I can try but I have no idea what I am doing." He shrugged.

"Holly." She repeated, thinking. "No. We want you."