A/N: I was originally going to have Bella's and Jasper's POV be two separate chapters, but I decided to put them together. Let me know what you think. Also, this chapter is dedicated to my husband who told me last night that he really wants to see a New Moon midnight showing. I know he secretly loves this series as much as I do.
Bella POV:
The rest of the evening with Charlie was fairly uneventful. To say that I was surprised when Jacob and Jasper came back and had not killed each other was an understatement. I had fully expected them to be at each other's throats. Instead, they were civil to each other and even cracked a couple of jokes to each other during the remainder of the evening.
Audrey and I had spent the time they were gone talking about Jasper and what he meant to me. While she fully supported the pack, she was conflicted because she wanted to support me as well. From the brief encounter she had with Jasper, she liked him and could tell that we cared for each other. She had expressed concerns, however.
"Bella-" Audrey's voice was hesitant.
"What's up?"
"Well… I really am happy for you and all, but what about after the wedding?"
I cocked up my eyebrow. "What do you mean, after the wedding?"
"You know…." She looked at her hands. "I mean… are you going to let him…. Turn you?"
Audrey's voice was barely a whisper as she looked back up at me. I looked at her. "Yes, I am."
I was expecting an argument. Instead, she got up from her seat over to me and gave me a hug. "I am going to miss you."
"I will miss you, too." As I returned her hug, I suddenly thought to myself, why does this have to be goodbye? They are already aware of the vampire world. With Jasper's help, if I can gain control quickly, I can still see Jacob and Audrey after a year or two. It does not have to be goodbye. "You will see me again. Even after I turn. I will work hard to gain control. I don't want to lose your friendship."
She gave me a small smile, but I knew she thought I was reaching foolishly for the stars.
Billy ended up being quite tolerable in between the vicious looks he was throwing Jasper's way when Charlie was not looking. It helped tremendously that Charlie was ignorant of what Jasper truly was, as it limited Billy to only making a few snide remarks now and again.
I could tell that Charlie was warming up towards Jasper by the end of the three day visit. I knew this because he asked Jasper midway through the visit to stop calling him Sir, and start calling him Charlie. I smiled when he finally said that. He and I were able to have some father/daughter time, just like the old days and he confessed that he liked Jasper more than my other boyfriends I had in the past, with the exception of Jacob, of course.
While we were there, I also got an opportunity to begin planning my wedding. Jasper and I had decided to get married in Forks. We wanted it to be a simple affair, nothing but a few friends and family. We had set a June wedding.
Audrey had insisted that we go dress shopping since I needed to try on my bridesmaid dress anyways. We went to this small boutique and after only four tries, I found the perfect dress. I think the dress would have even had Alice's approval.
We flew back home, and the winter snow turned into spring showers before we knew it. We were officially into mid April at this point. In January I had made the decision to quit my job. As much as I liked earning my own money, I enjoyed spending time with Jasper more. I had also made the decision to move out of my apartment since I was barely there anyways. When I had made the suggestion to Jasper, I swear he smiled for a full day straight.
My mother had been over the moon when she heard I was engaged. She immediately flew up on a whim to meet Jasper. Jasper did not know what to do. My mother felt emotions more rapidly than I did and it was overwhelming on him. After the whirlwind that was Renee passed through, we had some downtime to ourselves, which we cherished. I began writing a book, deciding I wanted to be on the other side of the publishing business instead.
I could not believe that more than three and a half months had passed and we were leaving for Washington again. I was excited for two upcoming weddings I was in. The first weekend was Angela's wedding to Ben and the second weekend was Jacob's wedding to Audrey. Jasper was going to attend the first wedding, but was not attending Jacob's.
The wedding was located in La Push, and per the treaty, Jasper could not walk on reservation land. The pack would not make an exception, not even for the blessed event. Jasper and I understood, although I did have to admit that I was a little disappointed.
It was also the second year anniversary of Alice's passing. I knew what this meant to him. He had been so worried that I would take offense that he wanted to go leave Forks for several days and go alone to her grave.
I still had the letter that Alice had left for me tucked away safely. My plan was to give it to him the day before when he left and ask him to read it when he was there. It seemed appropriate that he read it there, almost like Alice was with him. I only hope that he gets as much comfort from it as I did.
The Cullen household was bursting with excitement when Jasper and I arrived back at Forks. It had been three and a half months since we had seen the family, but Jasper and I had been talking to them on a regular basis. Esme and I had become particularly close; I talked to her at least twice a week. When we dropped our bags off in the foyer, everyone had hustled in to greet us, with the exception of one person I had not spoken to since December, Edward.
Edward stood back, just watching the rest of the family. Jasper and I had been told ahead of time that Edward would be joining them with our consent. After careful consideration, we agreed. Like it or not, he was part of the family. Jasper walked up to Edward after saying his hellos. I spied out of the corner of my eye to witness the exchange. I noticed I was not the only one.
Jasper stuck out his hand. Edward looked at him, the guilt from his previous actions evident before shaking his hand.
"I am willing to try to move past what happened in December if you are, Edward."
Edward looked at him like he had three heads. "I don't deserve a second chance, Jasper."
Jasper agreed. "No, you don't. But you are family, so you get one regardless. Just don't fuck it up or else I will kill you. And the rule about Bella and you not being alone in the same room is still in effect. Until Bella is ready, even if it is one thousand years from now, you are to leave immediately if everyone else is. Understand?"
"Thank you."
Edwards golden eyes locked on mine at that point and I quickly looked away, gathering my bags and bringing them up to the room that was now Jasper and mine. I was unpacking my things and putting them in the bureau when Jasper walked in behind me.
"Are you okay?"
I tucked a shirt in the drawer. "I'll be fine."
"You are not fine."
I closed the drawer with a little more force than I should. I swallowed hard. "Look, I know we discussed Edward prior to leaving Maine. And I know I said I was okay with giving him a second chance. But I think I need a little more time. I don't think I am ready to talk to him yet, not directly."
Jasper grabbed my hand and squeezed it. "Isabella, you speak to him whenever you are ready. No rush."
I had also felt bad because I had kept from Jasper the calls that Edward had been making. At first, I thought they were just wrong numbers, but they were coming in every couple of weeks. Every time, I would answer someone would stay on the line for a few minutes and hang up. I had secretly been hoping that by Jasper giving him a second chance, he would stop the phone calls once and for all.
The next week flew by quickly in haze of bridal showers, dress fittings, and bachelorette parties (the family was quite amused when I came stumbling through the door at three in the morning singing Sweet Caroline at the top of my lungs before promptly passing out on top of the stairs). Before I knew it, it was the morning of Angela's wedding.
The wedding was beautiful. Angela and Ben were the epitome of happiness and I spent the entire day daydreaming about my own wedding day in less than two months. It seemed like the entire town of Forks had been invited to the affair; completely the opposite of what I pictured for her wedding, but apparently Ben's mother was a little overbearing in the process and had control over the guest list. Jasper had told me that it was not fair that I looked more beautiful than the bride.
I was just as busy the following week. I noticed as it got closer and closer to Jacob's wedding and the anniversary of Alice's death, Jasper became quieter and more reserved. I guess I should have expected that. Thursday night was our final evening together and I made sure that I had completely to myself, so I could talk to Jasper.
I led him out to the garden and we sat on a bench. I just took his hand in mine as I tilted my head upwards to stare at stars twinkling down from above me. It was a few minutes before I turned my attention my fiancé.
"You have been quiet these past three days."
Jasper was still staring at the stars. "That obvious, huh?"
"What's on your mind?"
His lips pursed slightly. "Honestly?"
"Honestly."
"Alice."
"I figured. Are you okay? I know this has to be hard."
He looked at me. "It is and it isn't. I am carrying this guilt around about moving on. The closer it gets to the anniversary, the guiltier I feel. Of course, it does not help that Edward is the walking poster child for remorse at the moment either."
I smiled slightly. For the past two weeks, whenever I was in the room, Edward hung in the back of it, just observing, not really taking part in whatever was going on. When he did not think I was paying attention, his eyes inevitably lingered on me. I could feel his stare as he did that, I usually left the room shortly thereafter. I still had not gotten up the nerve to speak to him yet.
"Well, at least you are leaving in tomorrow. I think you will feel better when you visit her. Just talk to her, tell her everything you are feeling. Tell her how much you miss her."
"I also feel bad about leaving you. Are you going to be okay while I am gone?"
I knew he was asking about Edward. "I will be fine. Scout's honor."
"I did not know you were a scout."
I grinned. "I wasn't."
Jasper's POV- Next Morning, Dawn
I held Bella in my arms, relishing the warmth she let off. I pressed my forehead to hers, before kissing her softly. "I love you."
She smiled against my lips. "I love you too. I miss you already."
"I will be back before you know it. It's only three days."
"I know."
"But…." I smiled in return and whispered. "I miss you too already." I felt Bella slip something into my pocket. "What's this?"
"Something Esme gave me last December. I would like you to read it when you are at Alice's grave. No sooner and no peeking. Promise me?"
"I promise." We kissed one more time, in a kiss that would have left me breathless if I needed air. "Be good, Bella."
"Aren't I always??"
I laughed as I got into the car. It was going to be difficult being away from Bella, but I felt that by visiting Alice's grave alone I might be able to obtain the final closure I wanted. My goal was to say my final peace to Alice before I walked down the aisle.
The flight was uneventful. I went hunting that first day, roaming through the woods, letting my demon take over. I felt freer than I had since Alice had passed away; I knew that Bella was a huge part of that. I let myself relish in the hunt, choosing difficult prey rather than the quick kill that I usually preferred. I bagged several animals, when I finally quenched my thirst.
When I finally returned to the empty Cullen house where Alice, myself, and the others lived it was close to dawn. I took a long shower and walked into the bedroom. I grabbed from my closet one of the outfits that Alice had picked out for me, I hoped that she would still approve, but I was not sure as the outfit was two years old and could be out of style. I smiled to myself, imagining Alice chastising me for wearing something that was so last year's fashion.
I picked up the cell phone. It was eight am, and it was still too early for call to Bella so I left her a text.
"Made it here safely. Have fun at the wedding. I will see you tomorrow. Love you. –Jasper"
I left the house and drove to the cemetery. The graveyard we choose to have her buried in was beautiful. There were tall Oak trees lining the entrance and the dirt paths. Alice herself was buried towards the very back of the cemetery, down a long lane. We had paid extra money to have her buried with several empty plots on either side. We had given the town a generous donation to plant wild roses all along the pathways.
I genuinely think Alice would have liked it. I walked slowly, even by human standards, to her grave. I bowed my head when I reached her final resting place. I missed my pixie. My mind recalled our first meeting in the diner, when we met the Cullen's, and all the different adventures we had over the years. And there were a lot of them. I smiled, knowing that Alice had remembered those as fondly as I had. I suddenly felt a tremendous amount of guilt over my feelings for Bella. Would she forgive me? Vampires typically only had one mate for all their existence, and here I was going to have two?
I knelt down next to her stone, caressing it as if it were Alice herself. "I am so sorry, Alice. I will never stop loving you, ever. But…" my voice cracked. "I love her so much. I never thought I could love someone else the way I love you, but I do. Where you and I were opposites in so many ways, Bella complements and understands me in a way I never thought anyone could. She makes me happy, Alice. Bella is amazing, but then again, you always knew that, didn't you?"
I reached for the envelope that Bella had given to me. The scroll on the outside of the envelope stopped me dead in my tracks. Where did Bella get this from? My hands actually shook as I removed the letter from the envelope, anxious to see what was written inside.
Bella-
I know this letter will find you well. By know you know that I have moved on. I am not sure of how it happens myself, or exactly when, but I know it happened. You will always be my best friend and I will always cherish the friendship we had.
I also know that by now, you and Jasper are involved and very much in Love. I am happy for the both of you- I love both of you more than I have loved anyone in my life, and it makes me glad to know that two of the people I care for most in this world, will take care of each other and be there for one another. I have known for years that Jasper would fall in Love with someone else eventually, and it was not until recently that I knew it was you.
Bella, I am writing you this because I ask that you take care of Jasper. I love him more than words could ever convey. Please love him like I love him. Respect him, cherish him for the amazing qualities that he has, and never forget what an amazing being he really is. Jasper is my world, and now he is yours. I know you will marry and be happy.
I love you and I miss you. Know that I am watching you from up above, smiling down at you both.
Take Care.
Love always and forever,
Alice
PS: I know you will love the gift. It will look great on you on your wedding day.
I read the letter over four times before looking up at the stone, relishing Alice's final words. "You say I am amazing, but you are more amazing that I can ever hope to be. You knew. You knew I would fall in love with Bella."
Only Alice would find a way to still manage to astound me two years after she died. This explained so much in those last several years with her. There were so many times that I would feel extremely strong emotions coming from her, and when I asked why she was feeling that way, she would shake her head, and state she could not tell me, only that it would change things if she did.
My heart leapt as I now had proof that she accepted us and wanted Bella and myself to be happy and content. This was what I knew I needed for final closure. I could now marry my Bella with a clear conscious and know that Alice would really be okay with it.
If I could have wept, I would have for so many things in that moment. I wanted to see Bella more than anything, and share my joy with her. I decided that was going to go home early and surprise her. As I stood to leave, I paused, realizing I was being watched.
It couldn't be.
Under the Garry Oak Tree, there she stood, a figure I thought I would never see again.
