How can I change tomorrow if I can't change today?
This is now
If I control myself I control my destiny.
What I've seen and what I've been through has made me who I am
There was a time in my life where I had no desire to carry on
I couldn't see a place for me or a will to survive
I never thought to rely on myself or the beliefs that I have denied

Kei woke up slowly, groaning from a dream that she wouldn't be able to remember after she opened her eyes, and as soon as she did, she saw that she was in Saya's house. She could smell something was cooking, and Kei panicked slightly and got out of the room to see Saya in the kitchen, wearing shorts and Kei sighed. "What am I doing here?" Saya smiled slightly and said, "You fell asleep early. I told Itachi you were staying over." Kei blinked twice and said softly, "And, what did he say?" Saya froze for a minute, knowing she made a mistake in telling Kei about Itachi and didn't look back. Kei nodded to herself and said, "He didn't reply, did he?" Saya closed her eyes and shook her head. "What's happening?" Kei asked herself, brushing her hair above her head, tears forming in her eyes, which she forcefully blinked away. "You know what? I am not going to bother anymore-""But, you can't." Saya said, and Kei frowned at her sister. "Why not?" Saya chuckled once and said, "Because you're Kei. And you always bother. Because that's who you are." Kei furrowed her eyebrows and breathed in deeply, "What's for breakfast?"

Sasuke wanted to take Saya out, but nothing past the fact that Saya told him she loved him had happened. She didn't call him, and she didn't tell him they were in a relationship. "DTR is necessary here." Sasuke breathed and noticed Itachi go toward the door. "Where're you going? Where's Kei?" Itachi didn't even turn back to his brother and simply said, "Out, and I don't know." Sasuke blinked and brushed it off. "Am I in a relationship with Saya?' He believed he was 'dying' but it had only been around twelve hours since he last saw her, and it was already a little too much for him to take. The curiosity of what he could be to Saya, a girl he knew he loved, was more than the ability to remain patient at a time like this. 'Waiting sucks.' He confirmed and continued to stare at his phone.

Saya wanted to comfort Kei, but there was nothing she could tell her. Saya had no idea what Itachi was thinking, but it was hard to picture Itachi cheating on her. Saya knew Itachi couldn't be a man of bad judgment, he couldn't be someone who would leave Kei like that, he wouldn't leave her hanging when someone like herself had opened up to him like that. Saya didn't know how she knew, but she just did. And sometimes, for her, these clairvoyant thoughts were right. But, she didn't know that for sure, and some part of her was scared. Scared that her sister would be hurt, just when Saya herself was recovering from a loss she couldn't well describe.

Sasuke had a road trip to go on that day, and it was a something Saya wouldn't attend. Saya hated crowds, no matter who the people were, it wasn't as if she had been to a road trip before, she just hated socializing in large crowds, and Sasuke understood that. He hated socializing as well, in fact, Sasuke remembered a point of his life where he had never spoken to anyone but Naruto, Sasuke being the one filled with ego, a time before he met Saya. Sasuke was egotistical, and all he cared for was himself, and sports. There was a point in his life where he was good at studying as well, and there was another point where he didn't care anymore. It was that point that changed Sasuke into being someone so full of himself, and that was just before he met Saya. After he did meet her, he developed a different sort of curiosity, only wanting to prove in a way that he was right about the fact that all girls loved drama, and the more he tried to prove that Saya was that girl, there were variations in his thinking, and he slowly understood more about how different people could be. He might have not loved Saya, and he might have been deluded with the idea of being in love with her, but even that changed Sasuke into being someone more caring, and someone more responsible of himself. He wasn't the same egotistical jerk anymore, and Saya had changed that side of him. She made him understand that the life he lived before he met her, was nothing to be proud of, and in fact, the life he lived before she was a part of it was no life at all.

Sasuke learnt that he was never in fact proud of himself before he met that girl. Sasuke understood that a person could change just out of a single spark, a single thought that affected him more than anything else, it might not be something really great, and it always need not be something worth being proud of, in fact, it could be any catalyst that could change a person, into being a person worth being respected, and filled with so many characteristics that they always believed they couldn't be. It was always that one catalyst that turned a person into something they never knew they could be, and in the end, it would be that catalyst that would change their lives to the better. For a few people it could be a teacher, filling their minds with thoughts worth thinking about, and boosting their confidence. For a few people it could be their parents, proving that nurturing was important in so many levels, and that sometimes it was all that was needed. And for some people, and people like Sasuke Uchiha, it was one person who seemed much more complicated for him to understand. Someone who was more complicated than anyone else. To Sasuke Uchiha, the catalyst that changed his life was that girl – and it would always be her, since, Saya was someone he knew he couldn't live without.

Sasuke walked to Naruto's house, thinking of only one girl who he knew would most probably be studying at the time, and a soft chuckle left his lips as he entered the blonde's home. "Dobe." He uttered and saw that Naruto had packed a large suitcase. "Why do we need a suitcase?" Naruto grinned and said, "This is a food supply in case our car breaks down." Sasuke frowned slightly and said, "If our car breaks down, I will murder you." Naruto stuck out a tongue at his best friend and Sasuke grunted. "Who're all coming?" Naruto thought for a moment and said, "Almost everyone except Saya. This is a memory of us entering Senior year." Something inside Sasuke broke at that second, and he knew he felt deep pain with the fact that Saya wasn't a part of this. Naruto noticed this, and smiled apologetically and said, "Saya on your mind?" Sasuke chuckled and muttered, "Yeah. But, she's most probably studying right now." Naruto looked at his friend as if he were mental. "We can ambush her and kidnap her." Sasuke shook his head. "I think we've ambushed her enough." Naruto scoffed and said, "I don't understand Saya man, I mean, I love her and all, but really." Sasuke chuckled. "I don't either. That's who she is. An enigma." Naruto nodded. "We'll go? Sakura might eat our heads if we don't go on time." Sasuke nodded.

Saya went to a quiet and angry Kei and said, "I'm going out for a while. I'll be back in two hours." Kei nodded and Saya said, "You'll be here when I come back?" Kei nodded once more, and stared at absolutely nothing. Saya closed her eyes, and kissed her sister's head, an action that made Kei look at Saya with confusion. "You…You've never done that till now." Saya smiled and said, "You have. A lot of times. And it helped me." Kei smiled at her sister and watched Saya walk out of the door. Saya remembered that Sasuke had a road trip to go on that day, and she knew she wouldn't be able to see him. She even declined his offer to go to such an event because of simply one deed which she promised herself she would do. She walked to her destination, and knew nothing could change her mind then. The place she wanted to go to was not too far off, in fact, the place was actually nearby. On the way, she noticed people walking around her, something which she hadn't done many times before. To Saya, her only goal was to get into college, and study to achieve it. She didn't want friends, and she stayed away from people. She believed that was enough for her, but Saya understood now that it wasn't.

In fact, the very fact that Saya noticed her surroundings now as she walked was startling. She paid more attention to the feelings of others, and she cared more for people other than herself. She was mysterious in many ways, and she understood that so were other people. If someone was considered a loud mouth, telling everyone about themselves, everything about their pasts and deepest secrets, they too, in a way, were as mysterious as a quiet, secluded person. Saya knew right then, that there were many people in the world, and at the same time, something almost magical bound them all together, something greater than any aspect ever believed in. It was not God, it was not fate, it was simply a person's ability to smile. It was a person's conscious thought to agree with someone, it was a person's willingness to let other people in, it was all these minute details that categorized people in so many ways.

Saya didn't want friends. But, she found them. Saya didn't want to understand people. But, she ended up knowing more about them. Saya didn't want to know Sasuke Uchiha and she didn't, most certainly didn't want to fall in love with him, but she did, and she knew that he was the reason she was who she was right then. For understanding a person can be impossible and at the same time, it was what each human out there was trying to answer. And, Sasuke taught her how important that was, and she wouldn't have this any other way. He was not just someone who she fell in love with, he was a revolution that changed her, he was something not short of a miracle.

It was something that could not be devised into words, something much deeper than human language that identified what Saya and Sasuke were to each other. They weren't just two people who influenced one another, they were more than that. They were each other's reasons to learn, and they were each other's reasons to change. Sasuke's imperfections nullified Saya's and Saya's willingness not to interact made Sasuke understand the need for it. Saya understood the meaning of friendship when around him, and Sasuke understood the power of actual love when around Saya. No, they were not just individuals who happened to fall in love, they were two people who came across each other at their worst, and brought out the best in them. In the end, Saya was molded into a better Saya, someone she didn't know she could become, and Sasuke became a Sasuke he hadn't ever imagined.

Sasuke didn't even want to talk while the rest of the gang howled with happiness. That night they were going to have a campfire where they would each make a vow that they would follow throughout Senior year. Sasuke thought the idea was stupid, but didn't state it. For that was what Saya would have done, he told himself and felt someone shake his shoulder. "What?" Sakura pointed to someone in the street who walked inside a hospital and Sasuke's eyes widened. "Saya?" He said, and forced Naruto to stop the car. Sasuke took no time in getting out of the car, and following the girl.

Sasuke ran after Saya and saw that she was talking to the receptionist, and he said softly, "Saya!" The said girl turned to face the boy with a look of surprise, and she sighed. "Sasuke, what are you doing here?" The male walked closer to her and said, "What are you doing here?" Saya turned to see a male nurse say to her, "This way." Saya turned back to Sasuke and said, "You really want to know?" Sasuke nodded and Saya held his hand, the boy's heart jumping a mile, and she pulled him with her. The male nurse led them into a chamber, with a large soundproof window, and inside was someone Sasuke immediately recognized. "S-Sakina?" Saya nodded. She sat down outside the window, where there was a settee provided, and Sasuke sat beside her. "She can't see us." Saya said, and Sasuke nodded. "Why?" He asked her and Saya remained quiet. "She tortured you." He said, and Saya didn't say a word. "She's my mother. And, I was a fool to have thought she didn't love me." Sasuke listened on.

"She might have not been the most ideal mother, but, it was in a way because of her that I became independent. I learned to take care of myself, and I learned to not depend on others, which is in a way good." Sasuke frowned slightly. "You didn't let anyone in because of her. You strayed yourself from feeling what you should because of her-""I don't believe in fate Sasuke, but what I do believe in is the power of chances. I didn't give my mother a chance, and maybe, just maybe if I did, she would've been my pillar of support. No person is terrible Sasuke, they would be made terrible because of their circumstance of living." Sasuke nodded in understanding, and placed his hand in hers and said, "You're amazing to have thought all that." Saya smiled and held his hand back as she said, "You made me realize it." Saya watched her mother, behave normally, and something caught her eye. She walked closer to the window and saw that her mother was reading a book very familiar to her. Saya's eyes welled with tears as she read the title. "Dragon Sword and Wind Child." She uttered and closed her eyes, Sasuke holding her close from behind.

Kei gulped, and closed her eyes, wanting to take a nap. A nap meant sleep, and sleep meant she could take her mind off things when she wanted a break from reality. Just when she was about to fall asleep, she turned to see her phone ring. Kei's eyes widened, and saw that it was Itachi who was calling her. "Itachi!" She said as soon as she picked the call, and a less enthusiastic Itachi replied, "Kei, uh…we need to talk." Kei's heart dropped at the sound of his voice, he wasn't happy, he wasn't cheerful like he always was, he was serious, and this tone of Itachi scared her. "Y-Yeah, what about?" She could hear Itachi sigh over the phone and Kei gulped once more. "It's about our relationship Kei." The girl's eyes widened. She didn't believe this was happening.

A/N: All of you must really hate me now. Mwah ha ha haa!
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