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This chapter goes out to two of my faves: Alice Jericho and Kennedy's Friday Night Delight
"Alex isn't here." Aiden sighed, rolling her eyes when she answered the door.
"Well that's perfect because I want to speak to you." Mollie replied haughtily, "Are you going to let me in?"
Aiden scoffed and turned to go back into the living room.
Mollie came in and shut the door behind her, "Aren't we 'Miss Manners' today?"
Aiden took her seat on the couch, curling her legs beneath her. Mollie remembered what her purpose for being there was and figured she'd better make nice.
"You're hair looks pretty today." she began, not knowing where to start.
Aiden sat with her arms crossed not responding.
Mollie sighed and figured she had better just blurt it out, "I heard what happened the other day with Adam."
"Word travels fast." Aiden said sarcastically.
"And I also heard what you were planning on doing, and I think that will be the worst mistake of your life." she said, waiting for the backlash.
"And since when do I care what you think Moll?" Aiden asked snidely.
Mollie bit her tongue for a moment; silently reminding herself that she would probably be a little defensive too had someone try to talk her down.
"Because I did what you're thinking about doing." She admitted quietly.
Aiden turned to her then, a look of disbelief on her face, "When?"
Mollie chewed on her lip, "Just before my eighteenth birthday."
Aiden's eyes were full of tears, "Was it Alex's?"
She shook her head feeling the shame and embarrassment creeping up, "It was Chris'."
Aiden tried not to gasp, but she couldn't help it.
"It was one stupid mistake when I was mad…" she trailed off ruefully.
"Do they know?" Aiden wondered.
"Yes, they know, that was a lovely argument we had. I thought they would never speak to me again." she remembered, "The point is I was young and alone. I didn't have anyone I could turn to. You, you have everybody. There are so many other options Aiden. You don't have to do this."
Aiden started crying, "What else can I do? Keep it? I feel so sick when I think of how this baby was conceived. If I would have gotten pregnant by a legitimate accident I could have accepted that, but he lied to me. He used me."
"That's Adam's fault, not the baby's." she pointed out.
"Do you regret it?' she asked.
"Sometimes. I love kids, and there are times when I think about if I would have kept the baby. I would have a ten year old now." she grimaced a little at the thought, "But then I think about how everyone's lives would be different. Chris and Ajay probably wouldn't be together and Alex would be doing God knows what. You're a wonderful mother, Aiden. That we can agree on. If you decide to keep the baby, it will be so lucky, because I know he or she will be spoiled just like you."
Aiden rolled her eyes, "And if I don't?"
"You'll still be a great mom, but you may have to live with this regret your whole life. You'll think about it all the time, all of the possibilities, the what ifs. It's up to you. I just think you're better than that."
Aiden was still crying as Mollie was trying to think of something else to say. She turned hearing Alex walk in from the garage.
"Hey baby…what's going on?" he asked, setting Lexie down so she could scramble into Mollie's arms.
"I'm going to go lay down for awhile." Aiden announced before Alex could start his usual line of questioning.
He dropped into the chair opposite of Mollie, one of his hands covering his brow, "Haven't I asked you a thousand times…"
"I didn't start anything with her. We were just talking." she said defensively.
"About?" he prompted sarcastically.
"Her situation and what she was going to do about it." she answered him.
"She doesn't need to be anymore stressed out than she already is." he groaned.
"How are you handling all of this?" she wondered noticing the circles under his eyes.
"I could kill definitely kill Adam. And Aiden…I just want her to be okay. It doesn't matter to me what she decides, I know we'll be able to get through it. I just worry about her being able to live with the decision she makes." he told her.
"You don't think she'll be able to go through with an abortion?" she asked.
He shook his head, "It's just not her."
"That's what I think too." she added softly, "Are you going to raise Adam's kid as your own?"
"I'll do whatever she needs me to do." he confessed.
She smiled sadly, "That's why I love you Lex, you're so cute when you're committed."
"I thought that's what you hated about me." he joked.
She rolled her eyes, "That too."
"What did you say to her about everything?" he changed the subject.
"I told her about Chris and I." she said quietly, "I wouldn't wish that on anybody."
He went to her and pulled her to his chest, "I'm sorry for jumping all over you."
"You haven't done that in almost two years." she laughed at her innuendo.
The next day Ajay called Aiden to see if she wanted to go shopping to try and get her mind off of things.
"I'm just not in the mood." Aiden declined.
"You're not in the mood to go shopping? Is the sky falling?" Ajay teased.
"I made the appointment for tomorrow." Aiden said gently
Ajay's throat closed up, "What appointment?"
"At the clinic." Aiden clarified.
Ajay was desperately trying not to scream and throw a fit.
"Can I come over then?" she stammered.
"If you want." Aiden said indifferently.
"I'll see you in a minute." Ajay hung up the phone.
She felt for sure that Aiden wouldn't do it, especially after talking to Mollie. The drive to Aiden's seemed to take years instead of minutes. She went inside to find Aiden flipping aimlessly through the channels.
She fidgeted slightly, "I didn't know you were going to do this so soon."
"I just need to get it over with." Aiden said.
Ajay could tell she had "checked out" and had already begun to compartmentalize the situation so she would be able to cope with it.
Well she wasn't going to let her. At least not easily.
"What time do you go tomorrow?" she asked, trying to keep herself together.
"In the morning. I'm going to stay at an outpatient treatment center for a day or two afterwards." Aiden commented, leaving out a few too many details than Ajay liked.
She thought for a moment, "So you want Chris and me to watch Lexie then?"
Aiden shook her head, "Alex will keep her here at the house."
"So who's going with you?" she asked.
"I'm going by myself. I want to go and deal with it and come back and move on." Aiden said matter-of-factly.
Ajay was panicking a little, "Alex wouldn't let you go by yourself. That's ridiculous, you need someone with you. I'll go if you don't want Alex to."
"No! I'm going through this by myself and that's it. I don't want anyone there holding my hand; I don't want to involve anybody in this, so just drop it. No more." Aiden shouted, finally at the end of her rope.
Ajay hugged herself and cried on the couch. She had never been more desperate and completely out of ideas before in her life.
How could she help Aiden if she didn't want it?
She touched Aiden's arm gently, "Will you do me one favor then? Can we go and at least get a picture taken of the baby?"
"I'm not getting another ultrasound done. A picture would be a reminder and make things that much worse." she dismissed.
"Please Cookie, please do this for me. This is the only way I'll be able to deal with this." she sobbed.
Aiden steeled her jaw, unable to listen to Ajay cry anymore, "This isn't going to change my mind, and I hope you know that."
Ajay hugged Aiden tightly, "I know that. Thank you!"
"I need to change." she said pushing away from Ajay.
It was so hard to be around Aiden when she detached the way she did. She felt helpless when Aiden got that way and it really hurt her feelings more than anything.
After Aiden changed and called the doctor to set up an appointment, they set off to get a final picture of the baby. They were silent the entire trip there and the short wait to be called back as well. The nurse came in to begin the ultrasound, and Ajay scooted closer to take Aiden's hand.
"I remember you. We didn't get to finish last time because you weren't sure you were pregnant or not." the nurse smiled, "I'm glad you're back so that we can finish and make sure everything is normal."
Aiden nodded and looked at the screen.
"Okay, there it is. They've got their back turned to us, must be a little camera shy."
"Sounds like you already." Ajay smiled through her tears.
"We'll move over here for a better view." the nurse chirped, moving to the right side of Aiden's stomach, "Okay that's better. There's baby number one, and right there is baby number two. You're having twins!"
"WHAT?" Aiden sat up.
"Stay calm. See, there's one little heart beating, and there's the other one." the nurse smiled as she pointed on the screen.
"Thanks but can you just snap a picture so we can go or before you find any more kids in there."
"Sure. I would talk with Dr. Thomas immediately about this. He may want you to change some things, dietary, exercise or otherwise." she informed handing her the picture.
Aiden wiped the jelly off of her stomach and left the room quickly. Ajay thanked the nurse, and then followed after Aiden in a hurry. She was already in the car waiting for Ajay to drive them back home.
"I can't believe you're pregnant with twins! That's crazy." Ajay smiled.
"Not really Ashton. I was on fertility pills, antibiotics, folic acid, and having unprotected sex with your fucking brother." Aiden spat.
Ajay chewed on her lip the whole ride home not entirely sure how she survived the hostility that was filling the car.
She finally found the courage to speak when they pulled into Aiden's neighborhood, "You're definitely going to have a belly this time. There's no way you can hide two babies."
Aiden slammed the door once she was out of the car. Her heels were even clicking angrily on the pavement.
"I'm not going to have to hide anything. I'm not going through with this pregnancy; I told you that ultrasound wasn't going to change anything."
Ajay swallowed the sob she felt rising; she couldn't deal with Aiden aborting one baby, much less two.
"But your appointment isn't until tomorrow, why do you have your bag?" she scrambled to block the door to the garage.
"They said that they could take me earlier if I wanted, now move." Aiden ordered.
"Please think about this please, for me." she cried, pulling the picture of the twins ultrasound out of her jacket pocket, "Please don't do this to them. If you just have the babies, Chris and I will adopt them like we did Joey."
Aiden threw her hands up sarcastically, "Right and then I'll have a constant reminder of what Adam did to me, and how selfish I am, that will be perfect Ashton. Get out of the way. Now!"
Ajay grabbed Aiden's face desperately, "Please Aiden, I'm begging you. We'll figure something out. I swear we will, just don't get rid of those babies."
Tears fell from her honey colored eyes, "Ajay…I don't want to die again, not yet. Savannah and Alex can't lose me, not now. So please…if you love us. Move out of my way."
Ajay finally moved aside clutching the door railing, "Can't I go with you? You shouldn't be alone…Cookie?"
Aiden slammed her car door and threw it in reverse before Ajay could make it off the steps.
"Aiden! Wait!" she called running down to the end of the drive to watch Aiden speeding out of the neighborhood.
She doubled over with unbearable agony.
She pulled out her cell phone to speed dial Alex, "Lex! Do you know where Aiden was going for her procedure tomorrow?"
"No, she said we'd talk about it tonight. What the hell is wrong?" he asked urgently when he heard her sobbing.
"She's left to go do it now. Just now. Alex…what should I do?" she cried.
"Go inside. Chris and I will be there in a few minutes. I'll see if the the cell phone company can get her GPS coordinates." he instructed shakily.
Ajay stumbled back inside and collapsed on the couch in a fit of sobs. Every time she looked at the pictures of the babies she began anew.
Chris and Alex arrived home thirty minutes later. Alex went upstairs to put Lexie down for her nap. Chris pulled Ajay into his arms trying to calm her down some.
"Did you get the GPS?" Ajay hiccupped.
He shook his head, "She turned her phone off and took the battery out. You didn't see which way she went did you?"
"No…" Ajay began crying harder then before, "I should have followed her. I asked her to take me with her."
Alex came back downstairs in a panic, "Ajay, what made her change her mind?"
She slowly handed him the picture.
He dropped the picture like it had burnt him, "Fuck…we've got to find her."
Chris reached out for the picture and leaned over to hold it under the light.
"She's having twins?" he gasped.
"Which means we need to find her twice as bad." Alex rushed putting his coat back on, "Ajay stay here with Lexie, and just in case she comes back."
She held on tightly to Chris' hand to prevent him from leaving, "I'll go crazy sitting here by myself."
"Mollie is over at Bailey's I'll call her and get her to come over here with you." he said kissing her a final time before rushing out the door.
When they left, more tears filled her eyes as she picked up the picture and held it to her heart.
She closed her eyes, her head tilted up toward the heavens, "Pops, if you can hear me, please watch over these little babies…"
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