Back to the Beginning

"The problem isn't the problem. Your attitude with the problem is the problem."

"So how have you been?"
"Alright I guess."
"Are you getting over Ashley at all?"
"I'm getting over her but I'm not really ready to date yet. We've been together for so long and now that I'm not with her it's really hard to try to adjust to not having plans with her every Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday. I've just tried to do things to preoccupy my time."
"Like what?"
"Trying to stay informed of all the drama that is going on in your life."
"Can't you just watch a tv show or something?"
"No because yours is a little more entertaining."
"Oh really? Well if it was your life you wouldn't want people prying into your life."
"I think that if my life was like yours I would run away and never come back. I would hate to live the life that you live."
"Well I think that it's all of the drama that keeps my life interesting. I don't like to have any boring moments."
"Well you certainly don't. I, by the way, heard from an unknown source that you and Shannon are dating."
"Are you fucking kidding me?"
"No."
"Why would somebody say that?"
"Because every time that you are at home you spend the entire time over his house and you hang out and talk all of the time."
"It's because I don't see him when we are on the road because he quit and it's the only time that I get to see him. I see everybody when we are on the road and I want a break from them sometimes and Shannon is my escape from the every day life."
"That makes sense."
"Yeah it does."
"I like that we've found out a way to stay in touch with each other."
"Yeah this is a good way to do it."
"So where are you this week?"
"We are in Los Angeles for tonight's show and tomorrow's and then I'm back to North Carolina for Christmas."
"What are you doing for Christmas?"
"I'm not usually the Christmas type so I usually sit at home by myself watching horror movies. One thing that is never associated with Christmas."
"Oh well if you don't feel like sitting at home all alone you're welcome to Christmas Eve dinner at my parents' house."
"Why thank you for that but I still don't know what I'm doing. Christmas is next Monday right?"
"Yeah it is."
"Alright well I'll see what I can do."
"That's all that I ask of you. So I'll talk to you Wednesday at noon."
"Yep."
"Good luck in your matches."

"Thanks and pay attention tomorrow, just to let you know."
"Alright I will."
"Bye Allyn."
"Bye Lexie."

Lexie hung up her phone as she entered the arena. She went to her locker room and put down her things. Shawn and Hunter hadn't arrived yet so she went to see Mr. McMahon. She knocked on his door and went in.

"Hi Vince."
"Hey, how have you been? Are you doing alright?"
"I guess so. So what's up for this week?"
"We are keeping you and Jeff together for a while if that's what you are asking. I know that you two aren't dating anymore but I think that it's best that we keep you two together."
"I'm fine with that but I was thinking more along the lines that I would actually be able to face Riley this week."
"Nope, not until New Year's Revolution. You two need to fight each other for the first time on a really big scale because we don't want to waste it on regular television."
"I guess that I can understand that but I really just want to face her already."
"You will."
"So is she ever really going to steal Jeff away from me?"
"No because she won't get past the steel sole that Jeff has and he loves you. He's going to be saying that soon. I'm not sure if it's going to be tomorrow or in 2 weeks."
"Oh alright. So how's it going to happen?"
Vince explained everything to Lexie and she calmly listened to him as everything grasped in her mind. She thanked him about 10 minutes later and left his office to see if Shawn had shown up yet. She ran into John in the hallway.

"Long time no see little sis."
"Johnny," she yelled as she hugged him. He picked her in his arms and she wrapped her legs around him. "How have you been?"
"Good. Me and Meg have decided to start being a real couple."
"Oh my God, that is so good for you. She knows that I'm just your sister right?"
"Yeah she knows that flat out."
"Good because I don't need anymore drama in my life."
"Why, what's up?"
"Nothing but somebody told my friend Allyn that me and Shannon were dating and I don't see where that came from."
"I don't know, maybe the fact that you spend all of your free time with him might have something to do with it."
"I do not."
"You do too."
"Yeah you're right, I kind of do." John looked at her and laughed a little as she joined in with him. "So I did something?"
"What did you do?"
"I got a tattoo."
"Oh my God, let me see it." She turned around and lifted up her shirt to show him her new tattoo. "That's so cool. Did you draw that?"
"No actually Shannon did. He gave it to me the other day and I thought that it was just perfect."
"It kind of is. Have you shown it to Shawn yet?"
"No but he knows that I got it. I'm just waiting for him to get here. It's kind of weird that me and you are always like the first ones here."
"Yeah."
"I'm kind of traveling by myself these days so I book everything a little bit early."
"Me too just incase something really unexpected happens. I don't want there to be a day where I'm late because some asshole lost my bag in the airline."
"It makes total sense. So what's going on?"
"Umm, I really couldn't tell you. Vince explained everything to me but it kind of went in one ear and out the other without me really processing what was happening."
"Well that's usually what happens when Vince starts talking. Half the shit that he says is bullshit anyways."
"For the most part. So I'm going to get going so I can do a quick work out. Would you like to join me?"
"Umm, no thanks. I've got to figure out some things."
"Alright. You know that you are welcome to join me for Christmas if you would like."
"I know but I still don't know what I'm doing. I'm not really into the whole Christmas thing."
"I know but I still figured that I would try again. It couldn't hurt."
"I guess not. Bye Johnny boy."
"Bye shortie."
She gave him another hug before they went there separate ways. She went back to the locker room and took out her brand new poetry book. She decided to make an entry in the first page as a caption for her new book.

This is the true story of one stranger brought into the world that she has always wanted. She didn't know anybody and anything that she was supposed to do. As time went on, however, she found out that things aren't always what they seem. The best moments can be put into the worst situations and are then forgotten rather then remembered. Nobody ever chooses to live their life the way that they should but it's the way that life works. Love is complicated but always present not knowing what exactly to do. You may not always like what you have to do but it needs to get done and it needs to be done properly. Learn to exist within your friends and your co-workers because you never know when they are going to be needed to help you get through something that you wish you had.

Shawn walked into the room startling Lexie. "Hey Angel, what are you doing?"
"Making a passage in my poetry book. How was your flight?"
"It sucked but it's life, it happens."
"Yeah I guess so."
"So show me."
"Are you sure you want to see it?"
"Yes I want to see it."
She lifted up the back of her shirt and showed her father exactly what she had gotten done. The angel that was on her back was dark with shading and one tear coming down her face. There to wipe her tears away was a hand with a rose given by her father with the faint outline of a cross in the background. Shawn looked at it intensely before easing back from her.

"Lexie, is this…"
"It's for you daddy, Merry Christmas."
She turned around and hugged him knowing full well that he was ready for it.

"Thank you so much Lexie. This is beautiful."

"You're welcome. I thought that you would like it."
"I love it. It's just so, us."
"It really is."

"So does this mean you're coming for Christmas?"
"I don't know. Like I said I really don't like Christmas and I got invited to so many places. I don't know what to do?"
"Well you'll figure it out."

Next Day

"Lexie I promise. Nothing is going on between the two of us."
"Then why am I so worried about this situation."
"I really don't know. Lex I would never do anything to hurt you."
"And how do I know that you won't hurt me just like everybody else? She is trying so hard to get with you and how can I be sure you won't do anything?"
"Because Lexie, I love you," Jeff blurted out.
"You what," she said in disbelief as she started to cry.

"I love you Lexie, I always have."

"I love you too Jeff." They looked at each other, smiled and the kissed as the cameras faded out.

"That was great guys good job," the tech said to Lexie and Jeff. They parted away from each other and Jeff glared a happy smile at her. She smiled back but quickly turned away as she felt the butterflies in her stomach that she had felt a month earlier. Jeff walked out the door and left Lexie alone in her locker room. Shawn came out from behind the camera and hugged Lexie as she started to cry.

"You won't supposed to tear up when he said that were you?" She shook her head no as Shawn held her a little bit tighter. "Angel, I don't want to make your life more complicated because we all know that it is the last thing that you need but you both felt something there and you know it."
"Of course I know it," she said with a raised voice through her tears.

"Come on Lexie, we should probably try to figure this out."
"It's just getting to be way to much for me to handle. Thank God it's vacation time."
"Yes it is and I really want to see you over vacation."
"You will at one point I promise."
"Good because I don't think that I can that long without seeing you."
"Me either."
They sat on the couch and tried to figure out exactly what to do.