Hey guys! So OTH is finally over. It just seems so surreal. I started watching this show when I was in middle school and now I'm nearing the end of college. This show has gotten me through a lot. There was something Mark said in the finale special that really struck a cord with me. He talked about how this show had been a guilty pleasure for a lot of people because of the psychos and car crashes and scandals but he'd like to believe that for a lot of people it was about having a show that was heartfelt and real and about having characters to relate to and relationships where the small moments were the big moments. And this just epitomizes everything One Tree Hill was for me. It was about being emerged in a fictional life that was so real. Being introduced to characters who were going through things that I was going through. For me, OTH was about hope and believing that it gets better. Life is real and hard but you can persevere. Ugh, anyway, this is starting to become an emotional rant.

Here is the next chapter of tonight for you guys. I don't really know who many chapter left I have of this but I don't want to end it too soon. I know what I want the end product to be and I'll take my time getting there because I wouldn't want to rush it. Last chapter I only got 2 reviews but a ton of story alerts! :( Don't get me wrong, I appreciate that you guys are reading this fic but if you could take some time to review it really means a lot to me. Anyway, without further ramblings from me, I give you the next chapter of Tonight.

Disclaimer: I do not own OTH

Chapter 36

Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives, or if the moments in our lives make us?

Lucas walked into his mom's café smiling at the waitresses behind the counter. His mom and dad were off traveling the world so he and Brooke had taken on the responsibility of looking after the café for them. Once he got to the counter he asked one of the girls that worked there if she knew were Brooke was.

"In the back." The girl smiled.

"Thanks Lily." Lucas sent her an appreciative smile and walked into the back kitchen were he found his wife pacing.

"Hey pretty girl."

"Broody." Brooke sighed. "Thank god you're here."

"What's wrong Brooke, you send me a cryptic text telling me to come to the café as soon as possible without giving me a reason."

Brooke let out a deep breath. "Haley came in about two hours ago…she didn't say a word just went up to the roof and hasn't come down since."

"What happened?" Lucas asked worriedly.

"I don't know." Brooke shrugged. "I called Nathan but all he said was that Haley was going through some stuff and its probably best if I gave her some space."

"So you call me?" Lucas laughed.

"I know." Brooke rolled her eyes. "But you and Haley have been there for each other through it all. I love Hales to death and she's my best friend but if she's going through something rough and she doesn't want to talk to me about it then I think she needs you."

"Yeah, Nathan hasn't come to practice the past week. I called him at the beginning of the week but he just said he had come down with something, obviously that was a lie but I don't know Brooke." Lucas shook his head. "She's obviously up there for a reason."

"Please Lucas," Brooke pleaded. "Nathan sounded pretty down on the phone, he wouldn't tell me what was wrong but I can tell something is up and Haley skipped out on the meeting with the social worker! That girl loves Jamie, she never would've missed that if it wasn't something big."

Lucas stayed silent while looking up at the ceiling of the café.

"Luke, it's Haley."

Lucas nodded and made his way to the stairs that lead up to the roof. "I'll go talk to her."

"Haley, will you stop pacing?" Nathan looked at his fiancé. "You're gonna burn a hole through the ground." He tried to joke.

He and Haley were currently in the office of the best gynecologist in North Carolina. They had been dodging calls from their friends all week. They felt this was something they needed to do alone before they got everyone else involved. It had taken a couple of favors but Nathan and Haley had driven up to Charlotte for the day to get a second opinion on the baby situation.

"I'm nervous Nathan." She replied.

"Come here." He waned her over to where he was sitting. She walked over to stand in front of him and reluctantly smiled when he pulled her down to his lap. "Whatever happens, whatever the doctor says, nothing is going to change between us." Nathan said adamantly. "I love you Haley James soon to be Scott, and nothing is going to stop me from having a family with you. If the doctor says there's a chance we can get pregnant, then great we'll try until the wee hours of the morning." He sported a sly smirk at the end of the statement and Haley blushed at his antics.

"But." He said his smirk fading from his face a look of seriousness now replacing it. "If she says what the last doctor says, it'll be okay Haley." Nathan brought his hand up to her chin forcing her to look at him. "I mean it, we can adopt."

"Nathan,"

"Mr. and Mrs. Scott." The doctor entered the room cutting Haley off before she had a chance to say what she wanted.

The doctor smiled at the young couple and the position they were in. "Sorry." Haley said embarrassed not bothering to correct the doctor about their marital status. She liked the sound of it too much. Mrs. Scott.

"Please." The doctor waved while taking a seat behind her desk. "Nice to see love still alive and well."

"Do you have some news for us?" Nathan asked.

"Yes, I do."

Lucas slowly made his way up the stairs and opened the door that lead to the roof of the café. Immediately he was meet with the sight of his best friend sitting down against the brick wall in the back, her knees pulled up to her chest.

"You know Hales," He spoke up causing her to snap her head up. "If you wanted to get your ass beat in a game of mini-golf you should have told me before hand." He walked over to her and let out a small smile. "I took it down after we graduated."

Haley smiled at him but Lucas noticed the hint of sadness in it.

"Is this floor taken buddy?" He asked pointed to the open space next to her. She carefully nodded her head no.

Lucas sat down next to her and didn't say anything right away not wanting to pressure her.

"Remember when we were 14 and we came up here the night before our freshman year and wrote predictions?" Haley asked with a faint smile.

"Yeah." Lucas laughed. "We put them in a box and hid them in the wall behind the loose brick. It was our little secret." He bumped his leg softly against Haley.

"Things were a lot simpler back then Luke. We believed with everything in us that the world was so full of hope and opportunity. That everything we wanted could come true."

Lucas stared at Haley but he felt like he might as well been staring at a stranger. For as long as Lucas had known Haley he had never seen her so void of hope.

"What's going on Hales? You and Nathan have been MIA for a week, and you missed the meeting with Jamie's social worker last week…talk to me bud."

Haley closed her eyes not really to voice the reality out loud. She knew she'd have to eventually but as far as she was concerned the longer she could put it off the better. "How did that meeting go?" She asked ignoring Lucas' previous question.

Lucas sighed softly. "Good, I guess."

Haley looked at him questioningly.

"His social worker found a new place for him to live."

"That's really good Luke." Haley nodded. And for the first time since God knew when a real smile graced her face happy that Jamie was finally getting out of Rachel and Damien's house.

Lucas shook his head. "But not in Tree Hill, Hales."

"What?" Haley asked.

"His social worker agreed that the living situation he was in was not a good one, and social services aren't going to be placing anymore kids in Rachel and Damien's care after Jack turns 18." Lucas explained. "His social worker left my house telling me that she would find Jamie a good loving family." He paused to look at Haley. "She called me two days ago to tell me that nice loving family lives in Washington, Hales."

"Lucas why didn't you tell me sooner!" She exclaimed.

"Haley! I have been calling both you and Nathan for a week straight! Both me and Brooke have but you guys have been ignoring us!" Lucas said defensively.

Haley closed her eyes. "I'm sorry."

"Me too." Lucas said feeling guilty for his outburst. "Jack is pissed." He shook his head. "He hasn't shown up to practice the last two days."

"So, it's not possible." Haley stated with a dry throat.

"I didn't say that Haley." The doctor shook her head. "Now, I don't want to give you false hope. It's not impossible but the chances are very slim."

Haley looked at the ground and felt Nathan's hand take a hold of hers. "There are other options."

"Like?" Nathan asked.

"A surrogate. Adoption. IVF." Haley's head was spinning as the doctor started talking about all these possible options.

Nathan looked over and saw Haley spacing out. "Thank you doctor." He said standing up and pulling Haley up with him. "I think we just need some time to process everything. Thank you for your time."

The doctor sadly smiled at Nathan. "Haley." She called out to the young woman. "It's not impossible."

Haley sadly nodded her head. "Just unlikely right?" And with that she walked out of the office with concerned Nathan trailing behind her.

"You promised!" Nathan was surprised to find Jack yelling at him when he opened the front door to his house.

"What? Jac -"

"You promised me Nathan! You promised you'd find a home for him in Tree Hill and last time I checked Washington is no where fucking close to North Carolina."

"Jack. What are you talking about?" Nathan asked dumbfounded. Since him and Haley had received the news yesterday he had been in a haze.

"Like you don't know. They're shipping Jamie off to Washington next week! You told me that I'd still have my little brother if I let you guys intervene."

"Jack…"

"Save it. He thinks I don't want to take care of him anymore. He thinks you and Haley don't care about him. I know what that feels like Nathan, what it feels like to be five and wonder why no one cares about you, I never wanted Jamie to feel that way that's why I didn't mind taking care of him these past couple of years. But it doesn't really matter anymore does it?" Jack turned away from the Scott household walking towards his car.

"Jack!" Nathan yelled out.

"Thanks for nothing." Jack said in a defeated voice before getting into his car and driving off.

Nathan rubbed his hands over his face. "Today is not getting any better." He whispered to himself before shutting the door to his house softly behind him.

The ride back to Tree Hill had been quiet. Too quiet for Nathan. He looked over at the girl he loved who was seated next to him in the passenger seat. Haley was staring out of the window of the car and had not uttered a single word since they had left the doctor. Nathan had offered to get a hotel in Charlotte for the night but Haley had just simply shook her head and stated softly that she just wanted to go home. Nathan sighed. He could only image what Haley was going through. He knew how badly she wanted to have kids. Hell he used to tease her all the time in high school for already knowing what she wanted to name her future son or daughter.

"Haley." He said reached out for her hand and rubbing his thumb softly over her knuckles. "Talk to me baby."

When he didn't receive an answer he sighed and continued holding onto her hand until they made it back to Tree Hill. He pulled up to the house and looked over at her and noticed she was sleeping. He let go of her hand that he had been holding for about two hours. He quietly unbuckled his seatbelt and got out of the car walking to Haley's side. He opened her door and carefully undid her seatbelt and picked her up in his arms bringing her inside the house. As soon as Nathan got in the house he didn't even bother turning on any of the lights downstairs. He went up the stairs with Haley in his arms and brought her into their bedroom. He gently laid her down on the bed and carefully took the shoes off her feet. He walked over to the top of the bed when her head lay and placed a soft kiss on her forehead while smoothing down some of her hair. He took of his shoes not bothering to change and got into bed next to her. Nathan was surprised when Haley rolled over and clung onto his torso. He immediately wrapped his arms around her small frame. Nathan had thought that she had fallen back asleep but soon he felt his t-shirt starting to get damp. He looked down and for the first time he noticed Haley was crying.

"Haley." He said softly while rubbing his arm down her back.

"Just hold me Nathan." She whispered.

And that's how they stayed well into the night. Haley softly crying while Nathan rubbed a comforting hand down her back. When Nathan woke up the next morning he was surprised to find Haley gone. He looked over at her pillow and noticed a note on top of it. He opened it up and read Haley's handwriting.

I just needed some time to myself. I'll be okay. I love you.

Nathan sighed and closed his eyes. He hoped with every fiber in his being that she would be.

"Nathan!" Haley called out walking to their house. "Nathan!"

"Hales," Nathans said coming downstairs the minute he heard Haley's voice. "What's wrong, are you okay?"

"I wanna adopt Jamie."