A/N: I think I remember someone asking for some more Santana some time ago ... and this sort of came to me. Spoilers I guess for TPOM, in the fact that Finn did the nasty with Santana. *gasp*
And sidenote to gleek06216; the Berryford has not been forgotten, and will be coming up! :)
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She's a bitch.
It's the truth. She has been every since she stole that Asian Stutter Chick's purple crayon in Pre-K and realized that the easiest way to gain power and control in life is to instill fear in others. Once she does, she can do/get away with anything she wants. No one's going to stand in the way of her if she shows them that she's the one in control.
Every since then, it's all been about the power. Sure, she played second fiddle to Little Miss Perfect Quinn Fabray, with the long blonde hair and that equal parts mysterious, cruel, and sweet smile of hers for a while, but Quinnie took just one step out of line – to be fair it was a pretty big step – and there was no more coming in second for one Santana Lopez.
Power means even more in high school than it ever has before – and probably ever will again – and as the head cheerleader and head bitch in charge, she had it all: no longer just a bitch, but Queen Bitch. All the power she could ever need, in the palm of her hand.
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Sleeping with Finn was whatever.
It was his first time, so it's not like he was even that good (and it's not like it lasted very long, either). But Coach would have had a cow if she didn't accomplish the weird Madonna assignment, and then there's that whole thing about power again. Taking his virginity meant that he's always going to be in the palm of her hand, whether he wants to be or not. Doesn't mean he's ever going to love her, but that's not what she wants anyway. She doesn't need everyone – or anyone, really – to love her; she needs them to fear her, or respect her.
And maybe this isn't the right kind of respect, but it's a kind of respect all the same (and she isn't going to be picky about it).
He was just another notch on her bedpost, and she gets the satisfaction of being the first notch on his. It's a win for her. Sort of a lose for him, because he was saving himself or some shit for Rachel fucking Berry, but definitely a win, too, because hello; he got to sleep with her.
Back to Rachel Berry, though; she's a loser, but she's always been a strong one. Even beneath the uncaring façade she so obviously slips on in the face of ridicule and cruelty, there's a sense true determination and strength lingering to her core. Kind of impressive considering the number of slushies she's taken to the face (a fair number by Santana's own hands).
But this … this could just break her down the way she's been trying to do since kindergarten. Her, her stupid loud voice, and tacky gold star stickers, convinced she's better than everyone else in that cow town, and acting as if any of it is going to make a difference and be her ticket out of this hell hole. (Yeah, right.) Her with her big fucking moon eyes for Finn Hudson.
It's not like she's just trying to make Stubbles' life as miserable as possible. Actually, she totally kind of is … but it's not like she doesn't have another reason to go to all the trouble, too.
The strength thing RuPaul has going on is totally bad for the herd dynamic. Santana can't exactly have people thinking that it's okay to stop following the crowd like sheep and thinking they can be themselves, now can she? There's a hierarchy and a way of doing things that must be followed that exists to some degree at every high school, but especially at McKinley. If she can break Man Hands, she won't have to worry about anyone jumping ranks anymore than they already have.
If everyone stays in the nice little formation she's slowly and painstakingly helped to keep in place, her power doesn't have to go away.
She never has to give up control.
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