Bella's POV

He was just too perfect. I loved that he automatically knew how I felt without me having to spell it out for him, without me having to even voice it. I reached up and pulled his head back to mine, I couldn't get enough of him. This kiss became heated, of course, and I could feel him hardening underneath me once again. I had a brief thought, would it always be this intense between us? Would I never be able to get my fill of him? I hoped so. Knowing that I had forever with Jasper was the best feeling. I was almost happy with James kidnapping me, knowing that suffering under him led me to Jasper, well it seemed fated. Plus with James and Victoria now dead, I had nothing to worry about.

Jasper pulled back and I looked into his dark eyes. We were both still shirtless, just eyeing each other carefully, both knowing where we wanted to take this, but both knowing I wasn't ready, not yet. I knew I loved Jasper without a doubt, but I wasn't willing to give myself up to him fully just yet. I was afraid. Not with measuring up to his past lovers, no, that wasn't even on my mind. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to give myself over fully. I had always done everything myself and then when I was captured I shut myself off, I didn't allow myself to feel, to trust. I was slowly getting better and I had a feeling it would all be uphill from here, but I was not ready just yet and Jasper thankfully realized this.

I was just about to pull Jasper's lips back to mine when someone burst in through the door. I didn't see who it was because Jasper blocked me from view before letting out a murderous growl. I felt his body become tense above me and I could feel him getting ready to attack whoever it was. I wanted to tell Jasper to use his words, but I knew it would be no use, so I spoke up myself.

"If you're smart you'd leave," I told whoever was at the door calmly. "We're fine, I'm fine, everything is fine." Nothing changed. "I said leave us!" I growled out and after a beat I finally heard the door close. Jasper however had not calmed down. He was still staring at the door, still stiff, still ready to attack.

"Jasper," I spoke as I stroked his hair, he didn't calm down. "Major," I tried again, he flinched, but he didn't back down. I let out a sigh. I could feel the strength and fierceness within me and I could tell that Isabella was waiting in the wings to put Jasper in his place. I could feel her there, but she wasn't talking. I allowed her to come forward, but not to take over. I allowed her to stand by me. As soon as she was free she flexed the fingers that we're in Jasper's hair before grabbing a hold and pulling hard, that got Jasper's attention.

His head whipped around and now I was the sole focus of his rage. His face was twisted in anger, his eyes were alive with blackness. He looks beautiful, Isabella rejoiced as we looked at him and I had to agree. It was just like seeing Jasper in battle, he was so majestic. One look at him and all his scars and you could tell that he was tough, that he'd protect me no matter what. It was the most secure I'd ever felt in my whole life and all from a vampire, one of the fiercest creatures, the Bringer of Darkness. Jasper, my Jasper.

He was still staring at me, anger still in place, when Isabella decided to smirk. He let out another growl, it was even louder than the last if possible. Next thing I know I am in his arms and his head is buried in my neck. I could feel his teeth against my pulse point and I knew that he wanted to bite me so badly, but he held off.

"Do it," I breathed out.

"No," he responded, "you are mine, all mine, forever."

"I know, do it," I told him and he finally gave in, breaking my skin once again and drinking my blood.

Venom, we need more venom, Isabella informed me. Why? It tasted horrible. Yes, but it's his venom and we're already dying from the bitch Victoria's venom, so why not have some of Jasper's as well? I found I couldn't argue with that logic. I grabbed Jasper hand from around me and used his fingernail to slice his neck back open. He let out a hiss, but he didn't stop sucking my blood. I leaned forward and brought his neck to my mouth, sucking in his venom. It still tasted like shit, but I could tell that this was right. It made me feel better. I liked having him in me. I liked knowing that when I died it wouldn't be solely because of that bitch. It'd be because of Jasper, because of me and my choices.

I could feel my body becoming weak and I knew that I would have to stop Jasper somehow, but I had no idea how. Thankfully Isabella stood up before it was too late. We stopped sucking his venom and the wound began closing almost immediately.

"Step down, Major, or I'll have your balls," Isabella whispered in his ear. She sounded so serious that even I shook in fear.

The Major detached and pulled back to look at us. He still looked angry. His eyes were red, he had blood dripping down his chin, pooled in his mouth, covering his teeth. He was still beautiful. He must have caught my emotions because his face finally calmed down and a dopey smile replaced it instead. He looked like he was drugged up. He looked so happy. I wanted to kiss him again, but I hated the smell of blood. I grabbed my torn shirt off the bed next to us and began wiping him clean whilst rubbing my hand through his hair. Once he was clean he leaned down and closed my wound with his venom, getting more blood on him, which I wiped off as well.

I was cleaning off the last of the blood and still rubbing his scalp. His smile was still in place and he began purring contently. He was so beautiful.

"You really believe that don't you?" Jasper asked me, eyes still closed. He had stopped purring, but I could still feel the vibrations in his chest.

"Yes," I breathed out. "You are the most beautiful person I know, vampires included in that. You may not agree. You may think you are scarred, and you are, but I am too. We are both scarred, but that's why we're so good together."

"I wanna fuck you so bad right now," Jasper let out a groan of frustration.

I immediately put up my shield to surround the whole room, we did not need any more interruptions, not when Jasper was back in control. Plus I'd rather this conversation stayed private.

"Soon," I reassured him as I place my hand on his cheek and he leaned into it. "You can feel my lust and desire, you know I want you just as bad, but not yet. I'm still broken, split in half." He let out a laugh at that, probably thinking of himself and the Major. "One day I will be whole again and I will be ready to give myself to you for now and forever."

"I'm very impatient," he grunted and I could tell this was the Major. I wondered if they were side by side right now just like Isabella and I were.

"Is he with you right now?" I asked and Jasper nodded his head. He scowled a little at this fact, but I could tell that he was handling it better. "Good," I told him, "Isabella is with me also."

I could see his face change instantly.

"Isabella," the Major cooed, "now we can finally have our first kiss."

It wasn't a question, but I knew he was giving me a choice.

Go for it, I told Isabella and she took charge.

I don't know how it happened, but we were no longer on the bed. The Major was now pressing me up against the wall, picture frames went flying, he didn't care, and then his lips were on mine. I reminded myself to step back and allow Isabella to be in charge. I knew that they needed this just as much as Jasper and I did. There was so much passion in the kiss that I felt overwhelmed, but I allowed Isabella to continue. Isabella ran our hands down the Major's back and I longed for the day we would be one once again, and furthermore for the day that Jasper and the Major were one also. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but it would be worth it.

I felt the Major's hands cupping my breasts and I let out a groan. I knew that Jasper was respecting my boundaries, but was the Major? It didn't matter because the Major forced me back into the wall and it cracked. He pulled out of the kiss immediately and I tried to catch my breath. He looked at me confused, guilty even. I pushed Isabella aside and place my hand on his cheek. The Major kissed my palm before nuzzling it and purring. I was pretty sure he was asking for my forgiveness, he never needed it as there was nothing to forgive.

I pulled my shield back as the Major continued purring, but as soon as he heard it retract he stopped.

"Bella," he spoke to me. "A pleasure, as always."

"And you," I agreed, not willing to call him the Major out loud, sure he was known as that in my mind, but I still didn't think he should have a name that was merely a title. He seem to catch onto this and frowned.

"Jasper wants to be fully in control again," he whispered to me, "but promise me something?" I nodded my head. "Keep on going how you're going." I frowned at his cryptic answer, but I had a feeling I knew what he was talking about.

"I will," I answered surely as I leaned forward and gave him a chaste kiss, pulling back before he could even try to deepen it. He nodded curtly to me and then he retreated.

"You know," Jasper said as he turned me around and made sure I had no injuries from the Major pushing me back into the wall. "Seeing as you kissed the Major, does that mean I get to kiss Isabella sometime?"

I turned back around and faced him.

"No," I answered simply, smiling at him. I grabbed the hooded green sweatshirt off his desk and threw it on.

Jasper followed my lead and pulled out a t-shirt and put it on. I smiled at him.

"What?" he asked me confused.

"You're not hiding your scars," I answered proudly and he looked down at his bare forearms.

"No, I'm not," he said with a frown.

"Come on," I told him as I grabbed his hands in mine and led him to the door.

"Ah, Bella," Jasper stopped just before the door. I turned to face him. What the hell was his problem? He looked embarrassed. "I kind of have a situation," he said motioning towards his pants. What? I didn't see anything. "Bella," he groaned clearly not wanting to spell it out for me. "I have jizz in my pants."

Jizz in my pants. I laughed and I laughed hard. That has got to be the funniest thing he's ever said. Jasper was not amused with my laughter it seemed, but that didn't stop me. Jasper took this as the perfect opportunity to change his pants. He walked over to his chest of drawers and I watched him with my eyes, still laughing. He grabbed out some jeans before shucking his boots and pulling down his soiled jeans. He was standing right there, in front of me, in his boxer briefs. I finally stopped laughing. He turned his back to me before pulling down his underwear.

He wasn't in a rush it seemed because I got a good eyeful of his butt, his beautiful butt. It looked firm, strong, muscular, tanned. It was mouthwatering. I had to check that I wasn't drooling. And then he pulls his new pair of jeans on without putting any underwear on. He was going commando? Oh fuck me. He knew what he was doing too because as he turned around he had the biggest fucking smirk on his face. Little fucker.

"Let's go," he said once he was in front of me once again. He grabbed my hand in his own before he pulled me out the door. Once we hit the stairs I dropped a step behind him just so that I could see that perfect behind once again and take satisfaction in the fact that there was nothing but Jasper underneath that thin layer of denim. I heard him let out a chuckle and I snapped out of it. "Remember, beautiful, if you play with fire you're gonna get burnt."

I smiled at that. I loved that he didn't put me on a pedestal. I liked that he didn't try to please me every damn second. He was always just himself. He wanted nothing from me. He was just there for me, always. We hit the bottom of the stairs and Jasper lifted me down the last step before placing me on the ground, he had a big smile in place.

"You can feel it, can't you?" I questioned him.

"You're happy. You feel free, no longer burdened by the past," he spoke quietly and confidentially. I loved that he understood. "I'm so glad, Bella. I'm so glad I could kill that bitch for you. I would kill anyone for you, remember that. Always, Bella, always."

"Thank you, Jasper, for saving me, for everything. Thank you."

"No need for that darlin', I'm just doing what's right."

Fuck. Why the hell did he even have to exist? Every second that passed I could feel my love for him grow. It seemed too big, too grand, like I shouldn't be feeling this way about him. I was only human, I couldn't feel the mate pull, well I shouldn't be able to feel the mate pull, but I knew it was there. Right where my heart beats is my tie to Jasper and it's so strong, growing every second. Maybe it's the vampire venom you've been snacking on, Isabella informed me, and I was glad to see that after taking Jasper's venom the thought of Victoria force feeding me didn't seem as important now. It was great.

We walked into the kitchen, hand in hand, and everyone was there except Edward and Alice. We had only just got in the door when three angry vampires stood in front of us, Peter, Charlotte, and Rose. Well I'll admit that Peter didn't entirely look angry.

"You claimed her?" Rose asked, trying to keep her anger in check, it wasn't working.

"I didn't claim her," Jasper said with a roll of the eyes before bypassing the three and taking a seat at the table, pulling me onto his lap. I rested my head against his chest.

"She smells like you," Rose accused, but I was glad to see that Peter and Charlotte had backed down.

"I have had Bella's blood."

"No," Rose cut him off, "I said she smells like you, not the other way around, and your eyes are red, Jasper, so I think we all know you drank her blood."

I could feel Jasper's guilt, so I shielded us and looked up at him.

"Don't," is all I told him. "I wanted it just as much as you did." He nodded his head in acceptance. "Let me tell them." Another nod, good he agreed. I pulled the shield back and all eyes were on me. "I consumed some of Jasper's venom."

There were a lot of gasps and a lot of open mouths. Carlisle was the first to recover.

"But, Bella, the venom," he said concerned.

"What's the big deal?" I asked him. "I'm dying anyway thanks to that bitch, so why can't I take Jasper's venom if I want to?"

I put it out as a question, but no one answered it.

"Will someone please give me a fucking status report and stay the fuck out of my personal life."

I could tell Esme wanted to admonish Jasper for swearing, but she smartly stayed silent.

"Everyone died, Major. Char and I caught a few trying to escape, but we killed them."

They killed them? Why?

"Good," Jasper spoke. I wanted to argue with him, tell him that no, it wasn't good, but instead I allowed him to feel how I felt about it and let out a small growl instead. He just gripped me tighter in response.

"The only one to survive is what we're all assuming is Edward's mate. He caught sight of her and ran off."

Now it was Jasper's turn to growl and I could feel his anger pouring off him. I guess he was pissed that Edward ignored his direct order to protect me in favor of his mate. I watched on as Peter and Charlotte moved back a couple of steps and dropped their heads. The rest of the Cullen's followed suit after looking at me helplessly. I shielded Jasper once again and moved forward so that I could look into his face.

"He abandoned you," Jasper spat out.

"He did," I agreed, "but it was his mate, Jasper."

"I do not care who it was. It was a direct order. I can kill him for this."

"No, you can't."

"What if you had died or had been seriously injured?"

"But I'm fine, everyone is fine."

"Luckily."

"Look, Jasper, he's got his mate now and that means he'll get the fuck off the I-love-Bella train and move the fuck along."

He let out a huff, but he knew I was right. I unshielded us.

"Someone get Alice from the Reservation, I want her back here right now," Jasper barked out and Charlotte took on the task. "I don't know if you've looked for Edward yet, but someone do a run and see if they can find him. I want him back here with his mate as soon as possible. If you don't find him in the immediate area then return and we will wait for him to return himself. Go! Now!"

Peter, Carlisle and Esme jumped up and were out the door which only left us with Emmett and Rose who looked at use warily before leaving too.

And then we just sat there. I rested my head back on Jasper's chest and ran my hand through his hair once again, whilst his hands played idly with the hem of the sweatshirt and my skin just underneath. We didn't speak, we just enjoyed each other's company, surrounded in contentment until the others eventually returned.

Alice came back with a brooding Leah who stood in the doorway, nervously looking around everywhere, clearly not wanting to be here at all. I waved at her and she silently nodded her head in return, and then the others returned without Edward. I wasn't fazed. I would actually be happy if he stayed gone for a little while longer, but I hated seeing Carlisle and Esme looking distraught.

"Alice, good," Jasper barked out. "Look into the future and see if there's anything regarding the Volturi."

The Volturi? I stiffened in Jasper's arms and he shot me a dose of calm.

"I can't," Alice said as she looked at Leah. "The wolves block my gift." And then she smiled, good, I was glad she was happy. If she accepted Leah, and my dad married Sue, well then we'd become step sisters or some shit and I knew she would love that.

"Bella shield Leah." Now it was my turn to get barked at apparently.

"No," I told him firmly. I wasn't going to do anything if that's the way he asked.

I removed my head off his chest and challenged his glare. He projected his frustration to me, so I in turn projected as much 'I don't give a shit' back at him and he seemed to soften slightly.

"My beautiful darlin'," he started out and I wanted to smack him for that, but I would later, now was not the time, "would you please shield Leah so that Alice can look into our future."

I huffed in reply. Without breaking eye contact I extended my shield and placed it around Leah.

"Alice," Jasper spoke, still looking into my, what I hoped were, fierce eyes. "Look into the future and see if we have any run ins with the Volturi."

"You do, but you needn't worry because Bella has a plan," Peter spoke and Jasper's head whipped around to face him.

"The Volturi know about Bella?" he asked almost fearfully.

Peter closed his eyes before replying, "not yet, but soon. We have some time, Bella has a plan that will work, and it doesn't happen until after she tells you what she has to tell you. Just calm down, brother, everything will work out fine."

"I don't even know where to fucking begin," Jasper was beginning to get riled up again. "What plan, Bella?"

"Just a plan I've been working on at the Res, don't worry I'll tell you soon enough." I could see he was about to flip his lid again so I tried pushing out all my love and calmness to help him settle down and it seemed to work.

"And this thing you have to tell me?"

I looked at Peter and he nodded his head. I then looked into Jasper's eyes as I pulled Leah out of my shield and placed it around Jasper and I. I was looking into his eyes for the Major, the Major had said I needed to tell Jasper this, tell Jasper that Maria was dead. Once he knew we could start moving forward together. We would no longer be held back by our past. I saw Jasper's head nod slightly, but I knew that was my cue. I took a deep breath and spoke.

"Jasper," I started carefully, nervously. "You know Maria?" I stupidly asked.

"Maria? How do you know Maria? I don't remember telling you." His anger rising. "Did the Major tell you? That was my story to tell."

"He only told me her name and he didn't do it on purpose. He said that I couldn't compare my two years with James to your time with Maria because you were stuck with her for a century."

"He said that to you?" he asked calming down slightly. "Because I don't think that."

"I know," I breathed out trying to build up the courage for the next bit. "When he drank my blood-"

"He drank your blood?" Jasper asked as he stood up and set me on the table and stepped away from me. Oh crap. "Please tell me I heard wrong."

I decided not to back pedal and explain the Major's actions, I just needed to get this all out.

"He only took enough to gain his strength to free us from that hole, he didn't take enough to change his eyes. He told me about the last time he took over and you had red eyes. Do you remember?" I asked and he stopped and looked at me. Good, he remembered. "The Major told me that he let you take back control near the Cullen house and you had no idea what had happened. Well I know."

"No, no, no!" he roared out. "Do not tell me, please, please, please." He looked so broken, but this needed to be done.

"I do not know all the details, but that week the Major, your Captain, and the Lieutenant went on a mission. They went on a mission to find Maria and to kill her, they were successful."

"Maria- Maria's dead?" he faltered. "She's dead?" he asked me yet again.

"Yes, Jasper."

He seemed to be processing it and he was projecting, but his emotions were going by too fast for me to catch them. And then he finally settled. His eyes turned black, I was engulfed in anger and revenge. I noticed that he didn't square his shoulders so I could tell that this was all Jasper, the Major was nowhere to be seen. I stupidly got off the table and took a step towards him.

"Leave me, Bella. If you take one more step I will not hesitate to hurt you. I'll re-break your arm, don't try me."

I stopped in my tracks.

"Tell me what you're thinking Jasper, what you're feeling."

He let out a maniacal laugh.

"You don't want to know. Now let me out of this shield."

"No," I said firmly, standing my ground.

"Let me out," his anger rose once again. "Don't you get it, Bella, she's dead, Maria is dead, and they killed her. I have to kill them, I need to kill them. Maria was my sire, I have to avenge her, I need to avenge her. She deserves that."

Oh crap. I looked over at Peter, he seemed to be none the wiser, I guess I was shielding his gift. This was going to end badly. I had to try one more time, but I knew that he was unreachable.

"Is there anything I can say or do to change your mind?" I asked him and he laughed again.

"No!" he screamed at me.

I let out a sigh before keeping my shield around him and stepping out of it. Everyone's eyes were on me as Jasper began pacing.

"The Major?" Carlisle questioned and I shook my head.

"Nope, Jasper." And I noticed that Peter and Charlotte's faces paled. "You two need to get out of here right now and run as fast as you can. I won't be able to hold him much longer."

"What's going on?" Charlotte asked.

"Stockholm syndrome," I told them sadly, "he's seeking revenge against those that killed Maria." Their faces paled even more. "Now you run and you run fast. And when the time comes, you'll know Peter, trust your gift, call me and we'll figure this out, but right now you need to run."

They nodded in acceptance before they disappeared. I went to go back into the shield, but Carlisle stopped me with a pained, "Bella."

"Don't worry," I told him confidently, "he won't hurt me."

I took a deep breath and re-joined my mate. He stopped pacing and looked at me.

"You know I can break free of this shield don't you?" I had a fair idea that he could. "Let me tell you this, Bella, I like the chase, I love it, crave it. They may be running, but they won't get far. I'll catch them and I will kill them. Are you going to let me go yet?"

"Almost," I told him as I dropped my head. I looked up again and met his eyes, "Let me tell you something first. I know you're in there Major and I know you will be fighting to stop this. Jasper, I understand why you want to do this, I do. I loved James, I knew it was wrong, but I loved him anyway and there was a time I would have avenged him, but I couldn't exactly take out my revenge on an oil tanker. And lastly, I will find a way to stop you and you will come back to me, no matter the damage done I will still love you and accept you."

"Are you done yet?" he snarled at me and I knew it was time. If I didn't let him out now then not only was I in danger, but so were the Cullen's.

"I love you my mate," I told him as I let him out of the shield and then he was gone and I prayed that Peter and Charlotte were smarter than him and I prayed that I would find a solution to bring my Jasper back to me soon, before any damage was done.