Previously

She came up and gave me a hug, weird right, and left off to her wonderful life.

I turned around and let loose of my shield.

"EDWARD ANTHONY CULLEN"

Chapter 36

I didn't know what was going on. I had turned to face Edward, giving him the meanest glare ever possible. Doesn't he understand the amount of problems he would of caused if he had killed that human, leading me and the rest of him family into more trouble, and even getting the attention of the voultir, that was something I didn't want coming here, to face them now, which I wasn't ready at the this time, or never.

'EDWARD ANTHONY CULLEN, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING"? I was beyond pissed, and I am going to teach him a lesson. He needs to understand this is my fault as much as it is his fault. I was the one who had given him the blood; I was the one who returned him to his former self, making him want to kill humans. I couldn't live with that. This was the only way I could get him back to his former self.

"You need to explain to me what was going through your mind?" Confusion, pain and anger were coming off of him. I may not be empathy, but I can sure pick it up. He doesn't need to feel this way. I am the one who needs to feel this way, because I was the one who had given him my blood, if I was thinking straight I might have had time to hunt down a animal for him, but I wasn't the one who was on borrowed time, I had to act and think fast, and I wasn't gona go anywhere and leave him behind. I couldn't do that.

Edward was looking at me, with sadness, and tears that would never fall from him eyes.

"Bella, you need to understand that when I tasted your blood, I dint want to stop. When I realized it was your blood, I felt sick; I felt it was my fault. I had to force myself to stop, believe me it was hard. Your blood it sings to me, it's the most stronger for me then other vampires. Your blood was the sweetest, most delicious blood I ever tasted. I may not tasted human blood in a while, it brought out the monster in me, the one who I was trying to forget. I had buried this monster for such a long time; I had so much control over time, that one thing changed everything in a blink of an eye. I knew something was going to be wrong after I had your blood, but I buried that feeling to the back of my mind, trying to forget who I once was. Everything changed when I had smelled Marie. I knew it was wrong to take her, to drink her blood, and even might change her, but I didn't care. All I cared about was the blood, the sweet, the cleanest blood out there, meaning she was a virgin, clean blood that no one had ever touched. It was the second most powerful then the singer blood. I couldn't think about anything else, all I could think about was her and her blood, how it was calling me. How her heart would pound in her chest, making her blood rush through her veins at a faster rate. I would smell her, smell that sweet scent that she send off. I couldn't stop. And when I had heard you call me, I didn't pay attention, I continued to what I was doing. When you had pulled me off her, and put your shield up I couldn't fell anything. It was like I was lost; a part of me was missing. In true something was missing, the old Edward was messing, the one who hunted animals, and was happy when I was around you, the one who changed for the better because I can finally be happy living the life I thought I would never thought of, with us being together and having our family. Tonight all that changed, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if anything ever happened to her. I couldn't live with all the pain and guilt knowing I was the one who had taken her away from her fiancé and her family and life. I couldn't think about what she would be losing, losing the life and future she would never have, like having kids, and being with the guy she ever loved, growing up getting old, being grandparents. All that would be taken away. I couldn't ever do that. If you wouldn't have taken me away from her, I would be afraid, afraid you would hate me, want to kill me, and that was something I couldn't handle. When I faced your earlier, I wanted to scare you in a way, so you wouldn't have to see me this way. A monster, who takes life's away from people."

How could he think about me being scared of him? I would never. I love him too much to be scared of him. Doesn't he understand this is both our faults? I understand in a way, but I wouldn't be scared. He had me and his family who truly love him, and would do anything for him, that is so rare in a family.

"Look Edward, there is so much to change, and so much to work on. You should gave take all the blame in this, because of me you are in this situation. I was the one who had given you human blood, I was the one who took all the responsible is of this might be happening. I couldn't lose you; I love you too much to let anything happen to you. I couldn't let you lie there, and see you all broken and scarred, and knowing I was losing you forever. You see when a vampire is about to die, they go into a state of shock, the color of their eyes turn to a deep black, not being able to move your body, your soul is on the table of vampire life or death forever. You are able to see the light; this light is your soul moving on to the afterlife, the life you should have been through before you were changed. Since you were good you had seen this light I am guessing. In this light you see many things, things that will change your mind. You think you are going crazy because you are seeing people who had died so long ago, but the truth is that you do see everything and everyone in your family that had died. By the looks on your face you had seen someone."

It was hard looking at him in the face, letting him grasp all this information that he had learned, from his near death experience, letting him know he was not crazy, that it was part of life. I wanted to tell him more, but I figured this is enough, all this at once might send him into a state of shock, knowing my luck, something like that will happen, it's just a matter of time.

"Edward you need to hit me". I didn't look at him, knowing I am hurting him this way, but this is the only way this is going to work. He needs to realize if he thinks about before he reacts then it will give him a fare warning.

E.P.O.V

"Edward you need to hit me". She said, not daring to look me in the eyes, knowing this was a low blow for me. Did I hear her right?

I didn't want to hurt her again, knowing I had hurt her in the past was something I didn't want to do again. I didn't want to pain her, make her feel anything, but feel the love, happiness and so much more for her that is the only thing I can share with her.

I wasn't going to screw that up again. I was going to make this right.

She walked closer to me, raising her hand to hit me.

I didn't have time to react because the next thing I knew I was on the floor leaving a dent in the ground, where I had landed at.

What is wrong with her?

She came again from a different direction this time, pouncing on me hard, with hard blows being thrown left and right. What can I say, for a slayer she throws a good punch, and hard. In instant I knew I had to protect myself, because she can hit me really hard, and knock the wind out of me, I know me scared of her, something that she will never find out, it will be my secret to myself.

I pushed her off, making her fall in the process, with the biggest smile across her face, oh boy is she crazy, wait she is crazy, she is my crazy ass vampire slayer girlfriend, aka know as my future wife is she still plans to have me. She is all mines, and no one is going to change that.

'You think this is funny."

"No this is not funny, this is teaching you a lesson, a lesson that will be learned the hard way, sorry to do this to you, but you have to learn somehow, and this is the only way this is going to work."

Ok. I was wrong, she is serious. I knew not to talk back to her, because I knew I was going to get my ass kicked, and really bad, by the woman that I love.

a/n this is just the begining. enjoy and please review. thanks to all who review... let me know... boy wait till the next chapter... edward is going to get it bad... lol