A/N: No prizes for guessing what happenes next chapter

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Chapter Thirty-Three

What We'd Do Without Gravity...

"Your driveway looks weird as fuck without a huge piece of junk sitting there." Lovi told me as we approached my front door.

I gave a small smile; the car was gone for good. A week had passed since it had broke down and the moment the services turned up it became pretty clear that the poor old thing had finally given up for good.

"When are you getting another one? Walking here all the way here from the damn hospital sucked ass."

I opened the door for him and we stepped inside. I shrugged, "You know, I don't think I'll get another one for a while."

He turned in the hallway to face me, his nose wrinkled, "What the hell? 'Tonio, Jesus, it wasn't your damn lover, you can get another one!"

I laughed loudly at that, pulling off my shoes, "But why would I need one?" The town was small enough that I could easily walk places, and anywhere far out I wanted to go was only a train ride away.

"To drive me places." Lovino answered. I laughed at that again, at least he was honest!

"Come on," I ushered him into the living room, "Let's pick a few movies."

"Fine." He sighed as he let himself fall back onto the couch, stretching out on it right away, "Then we'll build the blanket fort?"

I nodded, pulling out the DVD boxes I had and the few I rented especially for tonight, and laid them out across the carpet.

"DVDs?" Lovi asked, watching me from his position on the couch, "Jeeze, it's like movie night with a freaking forty year old."

I frowned, "What's wrong with discs?" It seemed these days that I was behind the times for everything according to Lovi!

"What happened to watching stuff online like normal people?" He stretched his skinny arm above his face examining his fingernails.

"Online?" While he was preoccupied I slid out a horror movie that must have been left at my place by Gilbert or Francis and pushed it somewhere out of Lovi's sight, "That sounds dangerous..."

"That's what all old men say." He smirked, looking back over to me, "Let's just get this going, I want this blanket fort built sometime tonight."

"Right!"Back on track! "Let's choose something; what do you want to watch?"

He craned his head forward peering at all the covers.

"Have you seen any of these?"I asked as he looked between them all.

He nodded, "Pulp Fiction. I've seen that way too many times."

I nodded understandingly and pulled the box out of the line I had made, placing it to one side, "Not Pulp Fiction."

"How many are we watching?"

I paused there... I actually had no idea, "Well... You could just pick all the ones you want and we'll just see how far we get!"

He clicked his tongue a few times, "The Breakfast Club."

I looked up to him, my eyes wide. He chose just the one I wanted! "For sure?"

He nodded; I don't think he noticed how excited he just made me! "I've only see the first half hour and I liked it so I want it on."

I nodded, taking the box and putting by the DVD player, "Then how about we pick one more? If we finish the other one too we can play others too!

He shrugged and lay back, closing his eyes, "Then you pick, something modern this time."

"Modern?" I asked looking at the boxes we had left. So none of my rentals caught his eye after all...

He looked over to me again, "Yeah, like the other one is old, so let's get one that's actually from this time."

I laughed, "Come on, the 80s isn't that long ago!" I looked over everything we had left and grabbed a box that I couldn't even remember seeing before in my life. It was an action movie- that's the kind of thing he wanted, right?

"The Fifth Element." I read out the title.

"Seen it, but sure."

I didn't ask any more questions, I put the two DVDs we were using up on top of the TV and shoved the others back on the shelf. Now it was time for the fun part! I stood up and looked at him, "How do you want the blanket fort to look?"

He sat up and gave me a serious look. It was great! We meant business! "It needs a roof on the top, but has to be high enough to sit up comfortably." He scanned around the room, "We're gonna need to shove pins in the walls."

The walls of my house hadn't ever had holes in them, except maybe in the kitchen... I only used blue tack; it just seemed a shame to make holes in the nice paint job!

... But this was a sacrifice I was willing to make.

"We can do that!" I told him, nodding, "How big?"

"As big as we can get it, I want this damn thing to be a chilled out pad." He thought for a second, "Do you have fairy lights?"

"Fairy lights?"

He nodded, "Long wires with little bulbs attached, those things that always end up tangled in a garage. I don't want a lamp, too bright."

"I thought we could just use the light from the TV!"

He rolled his eyes, "Tonio' you idiot! Then it'll be too dark!"

I bit my lip, thinking, "I'm pretty sure there are Christmas lights in the attic!"

He snapped his finger, he really was deadly serious about this, "Go grab them. Get blankets, pillows and anything else... Get cushions."

I nodded, trying to match his no nonsense attitude, "Got it! You try thinking of how you want this to look okay?"

He nodded and walked around the room a few times, sizing it up and with an expression like he wanted to fight it.

I dashed over to get to the attic ladder, ten minutes later my living room floor was covered in everything; Lovi had brought in a few chairs and was setting them up around the room, and he also brought in a little coffee table that he must have grabbed from me room... All the magazines that were on it before were scattered all over the sofa.

"Do you have pins?" He was emptying a duvet out of its cover.

I pulled the bag of them out of my back pocket and shook it in front of him... Good thing too! They were really jabbing my butt!

He pressed one corner of the duvet cover above the TV, "Here?"

I looked over to him, blinking in surprise. Gosh, I wasn't expecting to be asked, "Yeah! If that's where you want it!"

He gave a sigh, "I'm asking if this is where you want it. Jeeze, now hurry up, my arm is getting tired."

I frowned, "But this is your-"

"Dammit, 'Tonio! Quit with being all considerate and just tell me yes or no!"

That startled me a little, "Ah- a little to the left!" I ended up saying, "Just so there's some space for stuff to hang down the sides without blocking the screen!"

He did as I said and held out his hand for a pin, I passed it over and the corner of the duvet cover was pinned to the wall, Lovi took a step back to look.

"Was that so hard?"

I laughed, "Sorry, I just thought you wanted this to be your design!"

He shrugged, looking down, "Yeah well... I don't want it to be crap." He kicked a pillow out the way, "We should probably add another pin to that so it stays."

I nodded and passed him another. Things looked more secure that way and soon both corners were pinned to the wall, he used the duvet he had taken out for the cover as something to sit on, putting it against the foot of the couch. He pinned the other side of the duvet cover to the opposite wall... It actually looked pretty neat! We couldn't stand when we were under it, but we could certainly sit comfortably!

Things just took off from there! We put chairs around the edges and draped sheets over them, soon it looked like a real structure! But it was bound to be dark inside though, that's why Lovi crouched down, grabbing the Christmas lights,

"Plug these in, let's get this bitch lit!"

I grinned, grabbing the power plug and untangling it from the rest of the wire... This was gonna look so cool! And snuggling up with Lovi in there, a good movie... Just him and me.

"Turn them on!" He had disappeared inside the fort and into the darkness, I flipped the switch, and suddenly wow! The whole thing seemed to glow in all the different pretty colours of the lights... I could see his silhouette too, the outline was kinda soft and looked so perfect on the white sheet.

I was called in a few minutes later; I didn't dare enter before he allowed me to! He wanted this thing to be just right, if he didn't, it wouldn't have gone on the bucket list!

I was glad I waited, the surprise the inside of what looked like just a load of blankets was something amazing! It was just a little cosy heaven! He was sitting in one corner, on the pile of cushions and covers he was curled up, looking over expectantly at me.

I just wanted to pounce on him so badly that for a second I couldn't even figure out that were was more to see.

I looked up, there was a nice high ceiling, and everything looked so professional!

I gave him a wide smile, "Movie time?"

He nodded.

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The more time that passed, the harder it was to sit there beside Lovi...

He was just so close... I was even pressed against him; I swear he was leaning on my arm! And I was finding it hard to even breathe right, let alone concentrate on the screen.

I was so wrapped up in this that I didn't even realise it when the movie was coming to an end...Oh gosh. He probably thought I was such a creep with all the glances I kept throwing him.

He sighed, shifting on the cushions he was sitting on, hugging one to his chest, "That ending seemed forced."

I blinked a few times; I must have looked so out of it as I stared at the screen, it only just hitting me that the credits were already rolling, "The ending?" I was coming to my senses again, "But it's so famous!"

He shrugged, looking at me now, "So? It's still a really weird thing to just throw in there... I sure as hell didn't see that coming... Anyone who says they did is a fucking liar."

I laughed at that, "Maybe that was the point."

"And what was the point in making that point?"

I frowned, but couldn't think of anything to say, "Sometimes things don't go the way we expect."

He sighed, "Whatever, talk all the bullshit you want, I'm not buying it."

He didn't say anything that needed a reply with that, instead we were stuck staring at one another, 'Don't You Forget About Me' playing in the background.

I glanced at his lips... And thought of the space between them and my own.

"Still a good movie." He said, even though neither of us had moved an inch he sounded breathless, "Makes other good points."

I nodded slightly, "Are you okay?"

He looked so tense, "I'm fine."

"Your voice sounds strained..."

"That's because I'm nervous."

I don't even know what happened but suddenly our faces were closer... We were sharing very little air between us...

"You shouldn't be nervous around me." My voice came out softer than I intended.

He closed his eyes and gave a rushed exhale, "Damn you, Tonio'."

I smiled, "What?"

I could hear him swallow, "Fuck you, I don't know."

I closed the gap.

His lips were as soft as they looked. His hand grabbed the front of my shirt and I inched forwards, my arm looping around his waist. We were kissing fully, he was so obviously inexperienced but I wouldn't have Lovi any other way. His teeth clumsily hit into mine and he pulled away for a second to curse under his breath.

I pulled him straight back in, I needed to appreciate every inch of this guy, I was in love, I had fallen hard and fast for him.

What the heck was I doing? This was Lovi! And I was all over him... His hands were on my chest now- try to push me away? But he was returning my kisses, his breathing was shaky but the pressure he put on my lips was still there. Was I going crazy? Some part of me expected to blink back into a reality in which we were just sitting like normal, like a scene from that one movie...

My heart had either stopped or was going too fast for my body to feel it... It felt like every muscle in my body was about to turn into water.

We pulled away from each other then, just far enough for our hot breath to hit each other's faces, he didn't meet my eye but his hand was still on my shirt.

I looked down at his face as he looked at a pillow beside us, I looked at him for a long time before realising it-

Hiding how I felt for Lovi...

If I tried that any longer, I was gonna implode,

"I guess this isn't a good time to fall in love with you." I only whispered, but he could hear.

He looked up at me so quickly then that we almost bumped heads. He looked like a deer caught in the headlights... Maybe I had freaked him out, he kisses me in the heat of the moment and suddenly I tell him I was in love with him? It would scare anyone!

But I couldn't keep it in any longer.

"Antonio... I..." He grabbed his pillow and shoved his face into it. It took me a few seconds to realise he was crying. I kept my distance; maybe I shouldn't have been so forward all of a sudden...

I wanted to reach for him, I really wanted to give him a cuddle but I knew that out of everything that was one of the things in that moment that would have helped the least, "It's okay." I told him quietly, "You don't have to say anything, Lovi."

He sniffled and rubbed at his eyes, "I'm not gay..." He spluttered out, "And I'm barely even alive any more."

"We can forget this, but just remember-"

"Shut up!" He looked up at me, tears streaming down his face and finally met my eye, "I love you too!" He yelled loud enough for us both to realise that the music from the T.V had stopped.

Looked at him for a long moment... Suddenly I wanted to cry as well.

No... No, no! What did we do to deserve this!? I wanted get up and run, I wanted to punch whoever was responsible for making what should have been the best moment of my life my most painful one.

"We could have been happy." I said. It slipped out... It honestly wasn't supposed to get past my lips.

Lovi's body made a movement like a small sob as he looked at me; obviously he didn't expect me to suddenly come out with that either.

"How the hell did we let this happen to ourselves?" He had balled his hands up into fists, now we had both said what was out our minds, and they were very similar things. How could we be in love at this stage?

I took his hand and kissed it, telling him I didn't have an answer to his question. Instead I gave him something else, "You're the most amazing person I have ever met, I love you more than I can say."

He gripped my hand tightly and gave a dry laugh, "Well you're fucked for this life."

I watched his slender fingers, "Then I'll love you in the next."

Our eyes met once again and we were kissing before we knew it, this time I could feel his desperation, and I bet he could feel mine... In just a few words each we had made clear that there were no more moments to waste, every second I didn't spend touching him was another opportunity I missed out on.

My hands slipped down his waist... He was wearing a soft over sized sweater and nothing underneath. My fingertips traced along the band of flesh that was revealed along his side, he skin was so gloriously smooth and warm, he seemed to tense up at my touch.

"Is this not okay?" I whispered, kissing along his jaw.

He shook his head slightly, "I've never been with anyone before... It's going so fucking fast."

Despite it all I chuckled, "We can leave it here if you want."

I could almost hear him thinking about it, he put a hand on my upper arm like it was for support and shook his head again, "I want you. Just be gentle... This scares the piss out of me."

I smiled as I started to kiss down his throat, "That's okay... But just remember, it's only me, alright?" I took his hand and squeezed it tightly, "And I love you."

He was crying again, I could tell from his voice, "I know..." He scrubbed at his eyes, "God fucking dammit..."

I smiled and squeezed his hand again, "It's okay."

He gave a heavy sigh, "I feel like a damn kid..." He pulled back to look at me, "But you fucking freak, I want you..."

I pecked his lips, I'm yours for the taking."