Next chapter, were getting close to the end, I wouldn't think it was more than 10 more chapter, less than 4… idk they seem to like to write their own story…

Chapter Thirty Six

"So we're having a girl?"

Jacob's POV

We went the rest of the day as if I had never attacked Ness. I could feel all the families eyes on me, waiting for me to snap. Edward looked ready to kill me, and I would gladly let him if I hurt Ness again. It still hurt when he compared me to Jonathon, Ness looked like she had been stabbed in the gut when he said that, and he instantly backed off. I was watching Ness sleep; she was due in less than two months. Carlisle says since there is three of them the chance will be high that its before the due date, by maybe two weeks. My hand was at the top of her stomach. Her vampire skin looked stretched thin and it looked like if the baby kicked hard enough his foot could pop out like kicking tissue paper. Ness didn't look like Bell's did. She wasn't sickly looking, yellow, green or even threw up. She was the idol for all pregnant women. She was large but skinny everywhere else. Her face glowed, her skin seemed brighter and her eyes sparkled with the knowledge, the knowledge that she was going to be a mom, the perfect mommy. Could I live up, be the perfect daddy?

"Jacob?" She whispered, her eyes still closed.

"Yea?" I asked.

"You are going to be the perfect daddy, I promise." She grinned and I glanced at my hand on her stomach.

"Where you ease dropping on my thoughts?" I teased. Her eyes opened and grinned.

"I couldn't help myself. Will you show me what you dreamt? I haven't asked you all day but I have to know what's bothered you so much." She begged.

"Ness you need sleep." I said simply and jumped from the bed. Ready to head towards my room, at least till this nightmare stopped.

"You Jacob Black are different, I hear all these stories. See what mom and dad remember from the past when you were young and fun." She pouted; I turned to look at her.

"Are you saying I'm not fun?" I asked.

"I'm saying you have become secluded, you won't tell me something for fear I may be upset. Mom use to tell me you would just spit it out because people had the right to know the truth, even if it hurt. You Jacob Black have become boring." She hissed.

"Love does that to you." I whispered and turned and walked out of the room. I went straight to my room and sat on the edge of the bed. Ness was right, what happened to the good natured, laid back fun guy I was? I was still fun, and I especially didn't keep secrets from my beautiful girlfriend. What was I doing? Pushing away the best thing that ever happened, secluding myself from both my family? I stood and walked right back to Ness's room.

Renesmee's POV

"Love does that to you." He whispered and walked away. I pulled back my hand and punched the pillow. Why wouldn't he open up to me? He was so scared that anything would send me over the edge, that Jonathon had so mentally scared me that anything bad in the world would make me crazy, like I would jump off a cliff. I could take it; I could take him telling me he had dreams of me dying in child birth, or whatever was going on. I could survive anything if he was at my side. What had happened to my fun loving boyfriend? Had my mistakes and Jonathon's attack affected him more than maybe even me?

"Renesmee?" someone called from my doorway and I looked up, Jacob was standing there smiling at me.

"So I'm boring huh?" He teased, I shrugged as he crossed the carpet to me and wiped away something from my face. I hadn't realized I had been crying. He kissed me softly, felling everywhere, and pulled back.

"I'm sorry for making you cry… again." I smiled.

"Will you tell me what you dreamt?" I asked.

"I'll show you." He smiled and held out his hand. I took it and closed his eyes, pushing myself into his mind, and his memory. I was standing in the back yard, looking at Jacob smiling at… me. Just not pregnant, I was tiny again and a small toddler was running around in the yard. Her little pigtails bouncing, Jacob gave chase to her as I laughed. He turned from his chase on our daughter and towards me. My smiled melted into horror as my eyes were on something coming from the woods. Jonathon emerged and gently picked up my little girl.

"NO!" Jacob roared as we both gave chase to him as he vanished into the brush. I watched myself and Jacob follow our daughter. He morphed and I strained to keep up. We finally came to a sliding halt and Jonathon held our daughter by the neck. Her little limbs kicking and hitting and stilled.

"No." I whispered. Jacob launched second after we stopped, that's all it took, seconds for our little girl to die. Jacob started tearing at Jonathon, I stood there and watched as he morphed back, Jonathon's blood covered him, he looked towards my ghost self.

"I let him get both my girls." He whispered and turned to burn the body. I was suddenly back in my own mind. I could feel the tears rolling down my face.

"So were having a girl?" I asked.

"I told you, you wouldn't want to see it." He groaned.

"But you had to show it to me, we promised no secrets. Secrets got us into this whole mess anyways." I smiled and kissed his cheek.

"BELLA!" I heard someone yell and we both looked around and jumped up as Jacob helped me out the door and towards the yelling.

Aliright, short Chapter but that's ok. Now you know what happened in Jacobs dream. Please review!!

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