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It had been over a month since that night, that night that silently held the possibilities for the future whatever they may end up being. Caroline had purposefully not made too much fuss about the possibility of a pregnancy, but she knew it was on Kate's mind as much as hers.
Kate came out of the bathroom tears slipped silently down her face, "I'm bleeding, I guess it wasn't to be this time". Caroline wrapped her arms around her lovers waist and kissed her salty cheeks, attempting to comfort and hide her own disappointment and distress. They lay on the bed entwined fully clothes just holding each other, "we can try again Kate" Caroline whispered. "Um maybe but I forgot how much this part hurts, when it doesn't work out to plan".
It had been 3 weeks since that day Kate had emerged from the bathroom telling her she had, had her period and she wasn't pregnant. They hadn't chatted any more about another try, the loss still too fresh the disappointment Raw. They had carried on as normal Kate finally after two weeks seemed to pick up, her mood becoming more like her usual self. They had enjoyed a family lunch with the boys until Kate had excused herself ,the family all together was too much a reminder that she would never truly have that.
Caroline wrapped her arms around Kate's waist stroking over her stomach "are you ok", a muffled sob came from Kate. "Oh Kate I hate seeing you like this, can I do anything" she muttered her lips pressed to her neck. "No Caroline, your amazing I just can't help feel sad that I will never have what you do", Caroline pulled her to face her "but you do we are your family". "I know and I love you all so much but something fundamental is missing". Caroline's face saddened "I know I'm so sorry I can't say I totally understand but I know how much you wanted to be a mum. We haven't discussed it but would you like to try again?" Kate nodded and then hesitated. "I so desperately want to try again but I'm scared how many times can we go through this to have no success. How much can we take emotionally physically?" Kate's sad eyes deep in thought. Caroline swept a stray hair from her face "honestly I don't know, I guess we try until we both decide we can't anymore. If that's what you want?" She kissed Kate's wet lips creating a faint smile "that's better" Caroline smirked.
It had been another month before they had decided to try again and yet to no avail Kate's period on time again, and to make it worse Kate and Caroline had been Ill. Caroline groaned as she sat on the toilet, she knew she had good cause not to trust road side burger vans. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, but one she would never repeat after how Ill she now felt. Kate seemed to have the same but she found she couldn't keep anything down constantly being sick and feeling dizzy. Caroline had finally persuaded her to go to the doctors a week after she was better, she still found Kate crumpled over the toilet bowl to afraid to move incase she was sick.
"Come on Kate this isn't right, you've not stopped being Ill for over a week. Your not eating or sleeping". It would be irresponsible not to get you checked out, she had continued until Kate had relented.
They both emerged from the doctors into the bright autumn sun shine "I told you Caroline", "I know but it was worth seeing the doctor. At least he's given you some dyrolite to keep you hydrated, you will just have to take it easy until it passes".
Kate could only nod as she ran to the nearest bush and threw up once again, Caroline carefully guiding her into the car. The sickness slowly got better and Kate became more herself again "I swear to god I'm never eating fast food again" she groaned.
4days later Kate was feeling much better, Caroline pulled her in close it had been weeks since they had made love, or even just been truly intimate without the threat of Kate feeling Ill. It was nice just to hold her as they cuddled on the sofa, Caroline trailed her hands over Kate's breasts reveling in the sensation once more. Hearing Kate gasp she carried on trailing her hands down her torso pulling up her jumper a little to smooth her hands over the sensitive skin. Caroline kissed her positioning her to lie on the sofa, her deep arousal taking over, she had forgotten how amazing it was to touch Kate like this. They had had a few hurried fumbles but Kate had not been well enough to make love full heartily, the prospect of a good shag she had to admit had her adrenaline pumping. Kate laughed "your very keen" Caroline dipped her head, "um just a tad it's been over a month since we you know" she motioned to her hand upon Kate joggers.
"No it can't be your exaggerating Caroline", Kate paused toting up the days nope she was right. "Good god how have we lasted she long" she sniggered "well it wasn't from choice, you haven't been well enough. Do you feel ok now?" Kate's smiled broadened at Caroline's desperation. "oh yes I feel great as a matter of fact", Caroline laughed as she pulled her jumper over her head trailing hot open mouthed kissed over her breasts and down to her swollen stomach. Caroline pressed a kiss to one side and then the other pausing, she placed her hand upon Kate stomach moving down to her underwear. She could feel the excitement drumming through her, the desire throbbing between her legs. Caroline paused she felt it again, she lay her head to Kate's stomach ignoring her lovers confused looks.
Caroline looked up at Kate her deep blue orbs reflected in Kate's eyes "Kate can you feel that?" Her voice gentle even toned. Kate looked at her confused "what?" , "that" Caroline spoke pressing her hand more firmly against her stomach.
"well I can feel something, I'm sure it's nothing it's just my stomach settling... Finally" she attempted to pull Caroline forwards to take her lips.
"Kate I don't think that's your tummy", Kate looked at her questioningly as Caroline stood up and ran from the room. She returned seconds later holding a small box, Kate finally clicking what she was insinuating. "No I can't be I would know" she said defiantly. Kate trust me, I think you need to do one these". Kate raised herself from the sofa and took the box from Caroline, Caroline following her into the bathroom. Caroline sat on the floor as Kate finished peeing and sat on the seat, "I wouldn't get your hopes up Caroline. I was bleeding I even saw the doctor he would have known surely". Caroline took her hand "yes I know but you never know, and well just because you had a period that doesn't necessarily mean you can't be".
kate looked into those deep blue eyes giving her the courage to turn the white stick over in her hand. She paused barely daring to breathe as she saw the two blue lines across the stick, looking up at Caroline her eyes welling up. "well?!" Caroline asked impatiently, Kate couldn't speak she merely passed Caroline the white stick. A broad smile mirrored in each other as the news sunk in Kate standing as Caroline jumped up and down excitedly "your pregnant Kate, you are". The tears now streaming down her face her breathes erratic "how can I be? How did I not know", Caroline wrapped her arms around Kate's shaking body. "You've been Ill it's hidden the signs, but if my calculations are correct your 21 weeks pregnant Kate". "I'm pregnant" she repeated as if in trance her brain unable to compute the information.
After half an hour of nervous giggling and grinning Kate stood up "I should go to the doctors double check, before you know we get excited". Caroline nodded trying to keep her emotions in check, she had quickly rung and made an emergency appointment.
Kate sat on the table and lifted up her top, now she had been made of aware of it her stomach did look rounder, she had just assumed it was swollen from being so Ill.
"Right Ladies let's have a look" he squeezed the jell over her stomach, she clenched Caroline hand as the coldness hit her. The nerves building to unbearable heights, as he placed the nozzle over her stomach. He paused for a few moments both of them looking at each other and then back to him, before here turned the screen around to face them and smiled. "well by some miracle yes you are pregnant, I'd say about 21/22 weeks does that sound likely?". "Yes" Caroline nodded "does it look healthy?" She paused a little scared "yep all looks great, considering you have been so unwell. But then taking this into consideration what you've experienced was probably more morning sickness than food poisoning. You never told me you might be pregnant I did ask the question", Kate looked to Caroline before speaking "we did try but I had my period as usual so I assumed I wasn't. Its never been easy for me getting pregnant so I jumped to the worst conclusion that I wasn't". He smiled at them both "well there is no doubt you are definitely pregnant, I can even tell you what your having".
Caroline turned to Kate "it's up to you?", she paused "no I think I'd like it to be a surprise" Caroline smiled and nodded "My choice too".
"Right well I'll book you in for a proper ultra sound at the hospital but all seems well, I suggest you start preparing as you may not have as long as you had anticipated to plan".
Both women sat in the car mute "pregnant" Kate muttered, "yep" Caroline beamed. "well I guess we have a lot of things to discuss and to tell the boys" Kate suggested. "oh crap the boys, this will be a shock we didn't even tell them we were trying" Caroline concluded. "Don't worry the boys will be fine Caroline it's your mother than worries me" she watched Caroline's aghast look before both burst into fits of giggles.