Chapter 34 Mackenzies story
"im not fit enough to carry it on james, and i dont think i will be fit enough to do it after the baby has arrived, but I realised that if I gave up on my dream that each of you could still continue yours. So I sold my modelling agency and with the money from that and a little chunk of my own, I signed a contract today stating that big time rush is now legally owned by 'JM records' ... Its all yours James" Sheriden said to which my mouth opened in shock.
I looked at my sister but she just stared at Sheriden.
"what?" Was all James could manage out in a whisper.
"its yours, its not the end James... Not yet" she said with a smile.
James just looked in total disbelief at what he was being told.
"well I think someone should say fucking thank you to her" Savannah said breaking the silence.
"fuck... Yes! Thankyou Sheriden" Logan said giving her a very delicate hug. "Jesus Christ... How many more problems can you solve for me huh princess?!" He added getting emotional but sounding very over excited.
"Sheriden I'm speechless" Carlos said.
Kendall just stared at her for a bit, the eye contact they shared was intense, Sheriden eventually burst in to more tears and it was Kendall that left Frans side and gave Sheriden a hug. He knelt down in front of her and she cried her eyes out on him.
"I can't believe she has done this" Logan said as he watched on.
James I think was frozen. His face was almost sad.
"are you okay James?" I asked.
He looked to me and nodded. He then stole Sheriden from kendalls arms and leaned her over to him.
"I don't deserve you Sheri... Baby I love you" he said kissing as much of her face as he could reach in between talking.
"course you deserve me!" She sniffed, rubbing his face with her hand. "its Logan that doesn't deserve me" she laughed and looked at Logan. "75 million dollar cock up logues... Stop doing stupid shit!" She joked.
Logan laughed "fuck... I'm so sorry princess. I owe you my life" he replied.
"no you don't... I have changed a small detail about the band" Sheriden said. "its now called big time JAMES!" She joked.
"fuck that, I quit" Carlos laughed.
"shall I get some shampers to celebrate then.. I think tonight is going to be messy" fran said standing up.
"hell yeah... I need a drink!" Kendall added.
"are you happy James?" I heard Sheriden say.
"I'm so happy... I can't believe you sold your company, that was your entire lifes work you put in to that... And you sold it for me!" His face now completely wet from sheridens tears.
"not just for you... For all of us" she replied. "like I said my dreams for modelling have gone, but my dreams for all of us are still capable of happening"
"it makes sense why you let me off your books now Sheriden, you didn't want someone else making millions from these good looks" my sister said pointing to her own face.
Sheriden smiled at her. "true but I didn't want anyone other than me in charge of you, so I'm happy you decided to quit while you were ahead" she added.
"you quit modelling?" I asked.
My sister nodded at me with a smile, she was still sat on Carlos' lap. Fran walked back with a tray full of champagne and a glass of orange, she handed an orange to Sheriden then set the rest of the drinks on the table for everyone to grab.
Things lightened up for a bit, Logan and Carlos were now going in to overdrive with what they could do on tour now they were pretty much their own bosses, the possibilities were endless.
I left Logan with Carlos and went and sat with James who was with Georgi by the sand pit, Ophelia was now asleep in one of the spare rooms and Sean was playing with fox.
"why aren't you happy?" I asked as I sat down.
"I am happy... I just feel so... Stupid!" He said.
"why stupid?" I replied.
"she is amazing... The most amazing person on this planet, she fixes every thing but causes so much damage as she does it... I just wish I could have a time machine to change so many things." He said as he let sand fall from the palm of his hand.
I didn't really understand what James was on about, but I guessed it was about the baby.
"James don't worry about Sheriden. She is made of strong stuff. It would take something big to knock her down and keep her down" I replied.
James nodded. "I know... I just don't deserve her Macks" he said.
"you do James... Go and have fun, I will look after Georgi" I offered.
"thanks... But its nice to be with her, I only got back from Florida today" he replied.
"how is sheridens back holding out?" I asked.
"not great, she is in so much pain, I had to dust the wheel chair off today. Carlos told me that she couldn't sit up to get out of bed this morning because it hurts so bad." He said.
"James... Don't take this the wrong way... We are family now huh, but... Well would you like me to stay... To help out, maybe for a few nights a week... Just to take the pressure off of you, 3 kids and a pregnant wife who... Lets face it, needs round the clock care is rough work." I offered.
James put his arm around me. "thanks Macks, I will talk it over with Sheri... I think she knows that she has bitten of more than she can chew now" he replied.
I left him and Georgi in the sand, and returned to the group on the decking. Fran got up and went to sit with James. But all I saw was a lot of head shaking from James then he returned to us with Georgi by his side. He left fran just sat there.
"Sheriden why did you make us go through all that heart ache before saying something?" Carlos laughed "that was mean even for you" he added.
Sheriden smiled "I'm sorry it was mean but it was selfish reasons... I don't honestly know if we will make it through to the end of btr" she said rubbing her bump. "so I wanted it to run its course tonight, I wanted to hear the truths, and the reasons... I wanted to know why Logan quit, I wanted to hear about how it should of been with confetti blasters and a party... I just wanted to experience it... Just in case" she said still with her smile on her face.
"don't talk like that Sheriden... Your going to be fine" Kendall said.
"I know... But ... You know" she said rubbing her bump again.
"I love you Sheri" James said kissing her on her head. She took his hand and relayed her love to him. "I'm going to get Georgi in to bed" he added.
Sheriden gave Georgi a hug and a kiss then James took her in to the house.
"I guess I should be getting seany home to bed" savannah said looking at the time on her phone, she was now sat next to Carlos as apposed to his lap she was on.
"you can stay here the night if you want?" Sheriden said to her. "Sean could go up in your old room with you, Ophelia is next door to him, Kendall and fran can squeeze in with her, and Mackenzie and Logan you two can have your old room... Carlos you will have to have the sofa unless you want to bunk in with Georgi, I wouldn't recommend the twins room... Max farts" she said laughing.
Carlos looked at savannah "erm... Sofa is cool" he finally said.
Everyone else laughed. "we kind of realise you too are together" Sheriden said to Carlos.
Savannah and Carlos looked at each other. "we are just friends" savannah said with a giggle.
"sav, me and kenz were just friends since day one" Logan mocked her.
"day one?" Sheriden asked "I wasn't here when you first joined the gang" Sheriden added looking at me. She had done a runner back then. It was when she was first told about her back condition.
"savannah won a competition on the radio to meet the guys, Logan picked me to be his... Company for the night. paisley didn't want Logan to use me so he didn't get to take full advantage... But we... Had fun" I giggled.
"well I didn't know that! So you two always had a bit of a thing going on then... That's cute. Its like me and James, we always had this crazy connection, didn't we baby!" She said to James as he walked back in to the garden.
"yeah..." He said and sat back down.
"you told me nothing happened that night, you went to a club with Logan and James and came back to the hotel" savannah said smiling at me.
"I lied" I smiled back.
"ooh Kendy and I have some news actually" fran said from behind me making me jump, I thought she was still sat by the sand pit, where James had left her.
"oh em gee! ... Your pregnant?" Savannah asked.
"no!" Fran laughed. "I'm moving in with Kendall.
I smiled at Kendall, it was nice that he was finally getting things on track, I had a lot of time for him.
As the night wore on it became obvious that James was in no mood to party, he was withdrawn and just seemed overly concerned about Sheriden, he was currently trying to persuade her about the idea of me coming to stay to help them out... I don't think she was buying it though.
Other things that were obvious was the fact that with her severe weight loss, fran could not by any means hold her drink, I'm pretty sure she shouldn't of been drinking anyway seeing as she was just out of hospital but she was making Logan laugh by balancing her glass of champagne on her head.
Savannah and Carlos were doing what good friends do and sat extremely close together, I'm pretty sure they were typing private things to each other on her phone. They were both giggling away and I would occasionally see Carlos sneak a little kiss in to the side of my sisters neck.
Kendall watched fran as she did her her balancing act with a smile on his face, he didn't seem overly in the mood to party but I guess he was having some personal issues to.
The glass fran was balancing soon lost its life when gravity took it, and it smashed to the floor, Logan gave out a sad cheer but James blew his lid at her.
"FOR FUCKS SAKE FRAN!" he yelled.
I thought he was joking at first, but his face was filled with rage.
"sorry James... Chill out, I'll pay for the God damn glass" she said back to him.
"I don't give a shit about the fucking glass fran! My kids walk bare foot out here! use your fucking brain for once!" He snapped.
"James... Its fine really, it can be vacuumed up" Sheriden said trying to calm him down.
"no Sheri its not fine. She should think before she starts fucking about!" He replied.
"dude its a glass!" Kendall said. "I will get the fucking vacuum!" He said and walked off to find it.
"what's your problem tonight James?" Fran said to him, her hand on her hip. Looking every inch the catwalk bitch she was trained to be.
"your my fucking problem" he said to her.
"James!" Sheriden said in shock.
"no Sheriden, you have no clue how much this bitch has pissed me off" he carried on.
"no, James... I can feel the baby!" She said smiling, not giving a toss about the arguement James was trying to start.
James then sat back down and put his hand on her bump, Kendall returned and sucked the glass up with the vacuum.
I looked at Logan who just shrugged then noticed that my sister had her tongue down Carlos' throat.
Fran just got shit faced after that, I had no clue what had happened between her and James, but he wasn't happy at all. He was putting on a brave face for Sheriden.
Logan and I snuck off to bed quite early, leaving the rest of them to it.