Synchronicity

Chapter Thirty-Five

Rebecca woke up, immediately aware of the arm draped over her lower abdomen. Flashes of last night went through her mind as she remembered having sex with Harvey…several times.

She closed her eyes, slightly embarrassed about it. She didn't invite him in last night so they could have sex. She just wanted to have an honest conversation about his confession that he still cared about her.

After what he said, she couldn't help herself. He was still like a magnet to her, pulling her closer to him with this invisible force. He was hard to resist. She wasn't proud of herself for giving in so easily.

He said almost everything she had been waiting to hear.

Now, in the light of day, she wasn't sure what to do. Sure he said he cared about her. But did he love her? Did he want to try their relationship again? Did she? What exactly were they doing? What did last night mean? Did it mean anything? Did she want it to mean anything?

Everything right now was a mess. Between the attack, being arrested for murder, her job offer in London and all of the hurt feelings she had it was almost too much for her brain to process.

Before she started to panic too much, she decided to take a deep breath and just enjoy the feeling of being in his arms again. She had missed the feeling of waking up next to him. There was something about being in his arms that made her feel safe and protected, like nothing could ever harm her.

Just when she had quieted her thoughts and was enjoying herself, she felt him stir. That threatened her peaceful state but she realized he was going to have to wake up at some point and this would have to end.

"Mmm…morning." He whispered since his head was right next to her right ear.

"Morning." She whispered back.

"I missed this…waking up with you like this. It was always one of my favorite parts of the day." He admitted after a moment.

She was surprised he was letting himself be vulnerable with her and so she decided to be truthful with him. "I missed it too." She turned over to face him. "But Harvey…"

He stared at her face. "Are you about to say you think this should only be a one-time thing?"

She chuckled. "What gave it away?"

"I know you." He stated quietly.

"Well what do you think?" She asked, wanting his opinion. "Do you think this should only be a one-time thing?"

He was quiet for a moment. "I think right now you have enough problems going on and I don't want to add to that. So if you think last night should just be last night for now and we just hit pause on the conversations I think we both know we need to have, I'm alright with that."

"I appreciate that." She said quietly, reaching to give him a soft kiss. "So we are in agreement then? As soon as we get out of this bed, we put this out of our minds for now."

"Agreed." He nodded. "So since we are still in bed right now…" He let his hand dip down and rested it on her ass before gently pulling her closer to him.

She chuckled. "Seriously?"

"You can't really blame me for wanting you or for trying." He smirked.

"Why do you think I phrased it that way?" She winked at him.

"God I've missed you." He laughed before kissing her.

"You're late." Donna scolded.

"It's barely 9am." He defended himself. "And besides, I had a late night."

"Are you taking Rebecca's defense seriously?"

"Of course I am." He scoffed.

"Really?" She chuckled. "Then why are you wearing your 'I just got laid for the first time in a while' tie?"

"My what?"

"You heard me." She repeated, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Yeah but I don't understand you." He chuckled. "What does that even mean?"

"What did you do last night?" Donna asked.

"Donna, that's not really any of your business…"

"Did you pick up some sleazy girl somewhere and take her back to your place?"

"No." He scoffed. "And why would you automatically go there?"

"Well it seemed more likely than…oh my God. Rebecca isn't here yet either. Why didn't I see it before? You slept with Rebecca, didn't you?"

"A gentleman doesn't kiss and tell."

"You aren't always a gentleman." She pointed out.

"Fine." He sighed. "Yes. We spent the night together. But we agreed it doesn't mean anything right now because of what she's going through."

"It absolutely means something." Donna argued. "What happened?"

He could see she wasn't going away until he told her more. "I told her I still care about her and that everything I said when I broke up with her was a lie."

"So you are going to get back together."

"I don't know." He shook his head. "I'm trying to be respectful of the fact that she has a lot on her plate right now."

"That's just a cop out." Donna pointed out. "You should tell her that you love her."

"And how would that conversation go?" He laughed. "Hey Rebecca, I know your life has turned into a flaming pile of dog shit lately but I love you and I want to be with you again."

"Well the sentiment is nice, but I would work on the delivery." Donna said. "I don't think the words flaming pile of dog shit should be in the same sentence as I love you."

"It doesn't matter because I'm not doing it." He pointed out. "She has enough going on."

"Well like you said…she has had a lot of shitty things happen to her lately. And you have the ability to give her something good but you are depriving her of that."

"One could argue that I gave her something good last night." He smirked.

"I swear to God you two are killing me." She groaned.

"Can you just explain to me how you knew about this tie?" Harvey asked, eager to change the subject so he didn't have to get another lecture from Donna about what he needed to do regarding Rebecca.

"It's my job to notice things, Harvey." She explained. "And like it or not you are predictable. Besides, it is just one of the many reasons Rebecca has called me the human Harvey Specter decoder ring."

"At this point, I'm not even sure I want to know what that means." He chuckled.

"It's probably safer that way." She chuckled before leaving his office.

Rebecca got off the elevator and found Donna waiting for her. "Hey." She gave a small smile.

"Hey yourself." Donna smirked. "Did you have a good night?"

"He told you." She sighed as they walked together towards Harvey's office.

"I figured it out." Donna corrected her. "He was wearing his 'I just got laid for the first time in a while' tie."

Rebecca laughed. "He has one of those?"

"Oh please. Every man does." Donna chuckled before turning serious again. "So what does this mean for you two?"

"I don't have a clue." She sighed. "I didn't mean to sleep with him last night. He just was opening up to me and saying a lot of things I wanted to hear. I couldn't help myself. But now is the wrong time for this."

"Or the perfect time." Donna told her before sitting at her desk. "Think about it."

Rebecca laughed and shook her head as she went into Harvey's office.