I shook my head trying to get memories away. Memories lead to unwanted memories. I moved an escaped strand of hair to behind my ear. A burning sensation dug deep into my skull. My lips quickly flinched upward for a second in annoyance. I shifted my bag as I leaned forward to look at the assortments of fruit. If the asylum wasn't so regulated in food and other things I would bring Jay homemade meals. I grabbed a few apples and plums. Speaking up to the farmer, "I'd like to take these."

The farmer smiled heading to his register. I followed him to the end placing the fruits on the counter. He counted each of them as he ringed them up. The old man smiled gently, "That would be 13 dollars."

I reached into my purse pulling out my wallet. Exchanging the items, I grabbed the now bagged fruits heading my way.

I crossed my legs to keep my decency in my pencil skirt. I sipped on my jasmine tea while flipping a page of The Shining. My brows raised as an interesting part came to be when the boy becomes possessed. I paused my reading as I felt the stare on my back. It never left since the farmer's market but it lessened as it felt something took its attention away. My finger lightly bend the bottom corner to save my place but turned the page as to look like I'm reading. The staring grew as if it was coming closer. A warm breath tickled the shell of my ear. The weight of the person made my wooden seat creak. A voice that I hoped to get rid of, "So glad to see you again, Madeline."

My body froze. My breathing hitched. No... No...NO! I felt his finger lightly trace my jaw line before touching my lips. His voice clouded my mind once more as he whispered, "You know... I missed these lips touching my own. How your body touched mine. I see what he saw in you."

I glanced up looking at any possible escapes. My eyes narrowed and I clinched the teacup tighter. I could feel the tears start to prick my eyes. In an instant I brought my teacup towards him. Play the victim. I screamed, "Let go of me, you creep!"

The teacup shattered against him and I grabbed my book and bag quickly. I heard the chair get fumbled with as I know he went to grab me once that teacup hit. Some patrons screamed at the sudden noise and scream. I continued to run pushing the door open. My feet continued to run till my heel broke. I wobbled to the side pulling off my shoes. After a while I pushed opened a door ignoring looks of others.

"Dr. Napier! Wait Dr. Napier! You need to put shoes on! You can't just enter a patient's cell without shoes!"

Many of the nurses followed me to get me put shoes on. My high heels clacked together as I ran through the hall. I called back, "I promise I'll put shoes on!"

That didn't stop them from following me. I have to act like nothing is wrong. I picked up a pair of booties from a station waving it in the air for them to see. I gave a small smile, "See! No worries! I just thought I need to have a little chat with my patients!"

I could hear their feet slowing down. Good, I won't have people knowing which cell I'm going into. I stopped infront of Jay's cell. I dropped my heels which echoed through the hall. Slapping my hand on his door, I slipped on the booties. Inside the Joker heard the loud thump on his door thinking its one of the guards. I fixed myself punching in his code. The locks unlocked. I breathed out, "Joker."

Joker's eyebrows raised, "Hello... Doctor..."

Out of the corner of my eye, the red light went off. The door closed behind me. My body betrayed me and my knees buckled. Joker was swift on his reactions and caught me before I hit. Joker's brows knitted together, "You're not here without a reason... especially on your day off."

My hands started to shake as I reached up grabbing his orange shirt. I whispered, "Jack... Jack I saw him. H-he came to me and... touched me!"

I could feel Joker's fingers tighten on my sides. Joker's voice growled, "Who did you see, Madeline?"

Joker has a guess on who his wife saw. He just want to hear it from her lips. I didn't notice the tears falling down my cheeks. My chin bobbed, "I... It's Jared. Jared found me, Jack."

Joker studied his wife's face. I gripped tighter on his shirt pulling him down to me. It took me a moment to find my words. I swallowed, "Jack... Jay just let me do it... He killed our baby. Please."

Joker shushed his wife by running his hand through his wife's hair. Joker's voice came out quiet, "Shhh...Shhh my Madeline. Not yet. You cannot kill him yet. We are going to do it together. Eric was our kid."

His hand moved to my cheeks. His thumb wiped away any stray tears. His eyes glanced down noticing the booties. Joker licked his lips, "So uh... what happened to your uh shoes?"

I glanced down seeing the booties before looking up at my husband, "I ran from him... I wanted to do something to him but I knew... I had to tell you first. My heels broke half way here. I couldn't walk or run in those. I wanted to make sure I had enough distance away from him."

Joker licked his lips once more. He knew his wife is half telling the truth. He could see the fear in her eyes. His wife froze, he is sure of it, when his brother decided to stop by. Joker's mind wandered to how to keep his wife safe. Joker's voice broke the silence, "I'm gonna have Keith stay with you till I get out. His uh wife will understand."

I studied my husband before shaking my head. I let go of his orange shirt patting it down, "No... No... Don't do that to Keith. He already gave up so much for you... for us."

Joker's lips went into a firm line before he pulled me closer to him. His warm breath tickled my lips. Joker spoke low, "If I say jump to Keith, he would say how high. His wife will be understanding. Right now you are my and will be Keith's most priority."

I dared to speak, "At least let his wife come with. For me, please."

Joker's teeth bared for a second before growling. Joker mumbled, "Fine."

A small smile twitched form my lips. I got feeling in my legs to not be supported fully. I fixed myself wiping away any more tears. Joker decided to break the tension by pointing to his face, "So when am I getting my make up back?"

I rolled my eyes, "After this week. They wouldn't budge for a while till I said it would help you cooperate with me."

This time it was the Joker rolled his eyes, "I do cooperate. I would cooperate more if I got some sweetness from my sweet cheeks."

His tongue clicked. I smiled shaking my head, "Waiting would be so much sweeter."

Joker turned to glare, "I did. 5 years of it and in counting."

I reached over touching his cheek. My thumb gently went over his scar. I whispered, "Just you wait. I promise."

Joker was leaning into my hand till I said that. Joker turned away from me fidgeting with I am sure are his hands. I chuckled, "Sometimes you are a child."

No matter the name he takes... He would always have that inner child. And I love it.