Kara walked back into the house, unclipping Theo's lead, Theo running back down the hall and into the living room. She hung the lead up on the hook, before she took her coat off and hung it up also before walking down the hall and into the living room, seeing Maggie had a rather large glass of scotch in her hand. "You and Alex are so similar," Kara said as she sat down on the couch, throwing the ball across the room that Theo had brought over to her. "When things are tough you both turn to the scotch."
"I think most people turn to drink when going through tough times." Maggie murmured before she took a drink.
"Not something I can do," Kara told her, Theo bringing the ball back to her. "I can't get drunk so it's not really worth it for me." Kara exhaled as she took the ball from Theo and threw it away again, Theo running off after it.
"You probably couldn't deal with a hangover anyways," Maggie mumbled before she took another drink. "You know, I thought that by now we'd be planning a wedding," Maggie exhaled as she turned around on the couch to face Kara. "We were supposed to get engaged then have a nice Christmas together then once the new year started we were supposed to start planning our wedding," Maggie pursed her lips, her head shaking slightly. "I don't think it would have been anything big," Maggie said, looking Kara in the eyes. "Small…intimate…cosy. Just the two of us, you and Eliza. J'onn, Winn and James," Maggie said. "No chance of my parents coming but maybe my Aunt. I'm sure she would come," Maggie took a deep breath. "But she remembered about the proposal and she said no. She didn't want to marry me." Maggie swallowed a lump in her throat as she wiped a tear from her eye.
"Yeah but, Maggie," Kara leaned forward and rubbed Maggie's arm. "That was just because as far as she was aware, you'd just met."
"I know," Maggie replied. "I can't blame her for not wanting to get married yet but when you have all these plans and dreams and ideas for your future and then they are so suddenly taken from you, I…." Maggie shook her head, feeling herself welling up with tears again. "We are in such different places now and it's difficult. I try my hardest to be okay with this because I love Alex so much and she is trying so hard, but…." Maggie trailed off, shaking her head. "It's difficult," Maggie sniffed back. "Don't get me wrong, I love that Alex is in the whole new relationship, honeymoon, wanting to have sex all the time stage but I also miss…." Maggie stopped talking. "I just wish it could go back to what we used to have." Maggie admitted.
"And it still can," Kara exhaled. "She just needs some time. She needs time to remember everything."
"I think if she was going to get her memory back, she would have by now." Maggie mumbled before she finished her class of scotch.
"But what about the stuff she has remembered?" Kara questioned. "Surely that gives you hope that all her memory will return?"
"I don't know," Maggie shrugged. "Have you ever heard of anyone who lost their memory getting it fully back?" Maggie questioned. "And what about that movie, The Vow?" Maggie questioned. "She lost her memory after a crash as she never got any of her memory back."
"Firstly, I'm surprised you've even seen that movie," Kara said, not putting Maggie down as the chick flick type. "And secondly, it's just a movie."
"It was based on a true story." Maggie argued.
"Okay, yeah, she remembered nothing but Alex has remembered stuff. Parts of her life with you," Kara exhaled as she looked down, Theo eager to keep playing the game. She threw the ball away again, Theo excitedly chasing after it. "So, surely if she's remembered stuff then eventually all her memory will return," Kara said. "You just have to keep the faith, Maggie," Kara told her. "You were brought up in a Catholic family. I thought that you'd -"
"No," Maggie spoke over Kara. "You don't need to bring religion into this. This isn't about being religious and believing in God so he can bring you some kind of miracle," Maggie raised her voice slightly. "We just have to face the facts and that is that the chances of her memory completely returning are pretty slim."
Kara exhaled lightly, saddened that Maggie seemed to be giving up hope. "Well I guess we never know what's going to happen." Kara murmured. Maggie shook her head as she stood up and walked out of the living room, walking through to the kitchen to pour herself another drink.
Maggie had managed to get the day off work. She'd gone to the hospital in the late morning to pick Alex up and bring her home. Her CT Scan results were all clear, showing no damage to the brain, which of course was a good thing. They'd stopped off at a sushi restaurant downtown for lunch before they went back home. They walked into the house and down to the living room, Theo very excited to see Alex was back. She clapped him for a while before he ran off to find a toy so he could play. Alex stood back to her feet and turned around, seeing Maggie was standing close to her. "You okay?" Alex knew by the look on her face that she wasn't okay. "You were pretty quiet over lunch," Alex noted. Maggie didn't answer her with words. She shook her head before she wrapped her arms tightly around Alex. Alex wrapped her arms around Maggie, gently rubbing her back as she kissed the top of her head. They stayed silently in the embrace for quite some time, Theo jumping up at their feet, his rope toy in his mouth. Alex thought she could hear the muffled sounds of crying coming from Maggie. "Babe," Alex spoke softly as she stroked Maggie's hair. "What is it?" Alex questioned, pulling herself back from the embrace, and looking down to her girlfriend, tucking her hair behind her ear. Maggie stayed silent, but looked up to Alex, her big brown eyes all sad and filling up with more tears. "Talk to me."
Maggie took a deep breath as she took her arms away from being around Alex, and took a hold of Alex's wrist, leading her over to the couch, where they both sat down. Theo had given up on trying to get them to play with him and was chewing on the rope toy. "I love you, Al. I do, I love you so much but this is just…it's so hard." Maggie mumbled.
"I know," Alex replied. "And I don't know how I can thank you for how understanding and amazing you've been," Alex told her. "You've been so strong and I….it's okay to let go." Alex knew that Maggie must have had a lot of pent up feelings. She knew it must be hard for her to have to start their relationship all over again.
"Yeah well you'd have been the same if it was me." Maggie told her.
"I dunno," Alex shrugged. "I don't think I'm as strong as you."
"Are you kidding?" Maggie stifled a laugh. "You are the strongest person I know," Maggie told her as she took Alex's hand in hers. "Me? I'm not that strong. I just put up a wall. I don't let people see how I really feel because it's easier not too."
Alex pursed her lips. "So, what are you saying?" Alex questioned. "That you aren't happy anymore?" Alex's heart started beating faster and she felt a sickening feeling in the pit of her stomach. She couldn't lose Maggie. She may have only known her a short time, but nothing had ever felt as right as being with Maggie did. Maggie was her soul mate. Maggie was the love of her life.
"I am happy," Maggie told her. "I am so, so, happy with you," Maggie sniffed back. "And I don't want to push you into anything that you are not ready for but I'm ready and I want to take that next step with you, I want to build a life with you."
"You mean marriage?" Alex mumbled and Maggie nodded as Alex took a deep breath. "Maggie, I've already committed myself you," Alex reached her hand up and took hold of the love heart pendant. "What do you think this means? What do you think this represents?" Maggie looked down, glancing at the pendant. Alex had turned it around and they were both looking at the inscription. Always AD. "It may not have been an outright proposal, but for me, it was a way to show you how much you mean to me and how much I want us to get married," Alex told her, Maggie getting a smile on her face. "One day," Alex added. "I know you are ready for this and it kills me that I'm not there because you deserve to have everything you want, you deserve to have a long, happy life with the woman you love," Alex told her. "And I am trying, I am trying so hard to remember and get back to the same place that you are in, believe me, I am trying so hard," Alex felt a tear rolling down her cheek. "And I'm sorry if that's not enough for you but it's all I can do right now. It's the best I can offer," Alex wiped a tear from her cheek. "And we have Theo," Alex said, looking across to him as he continued to play with his rope toy. "He's at least a 10-year commitment."
"I'm sorry," Maggie sniffed back as she swallowed a lump in her throat. "I was just feeling insecure, I…I know you are committed to me," Maggie brought her hand up and held the pendant tightly. "It's just….I could have lost you twice in the space of a couple of months and it scared me, it made me…." Maggie trailed off as she shook her head, her lips pursing.
"Maggie, you are never going to lose me," Alex told her as she cupped her cheek. "I love you and I am always going too," Alex told her. "You are stuck with me till we are old and grey and wrinkly," Alex gave a little laugh. "You and me, always." Alex rubbed her cheek with her thumb.
"Always." Maggie murmured through a smile. She wanted to marry Alex, of course she did but maybe Alex was right. Right now, she'd already made big commitments to her. Moving back in after only knowing her a couple of weeks, giving her the necklace which symbolised her commitment, them getting Theo together, and it had only been 7 weeks for Alex and the main thing was that they were together.
"Come here." Alex shifted her hand so it went around the back of Maggie's head and she pulled her in for a kiss.
They pulled back as they heard Theo giving a little whine. They looked around for him, seeing him sitting at the door of the living room, looking out to the hallway. "He needs out," Maggie said as she stood to her feet. "You coming?" Maggie questioned and Alex nodded as she stood up and picked up one of Theo's balls. They walked out of the living room and down the hall, Maggie clipping Theo into the lead before they both put their coats on and headed outside.
Alex started bouncing the ball off the sidewalk as they made their way down to the grassy area at the end of the street. "That's supposed to bring fun to Theo."
"Yeah," Alex laughed as she continued to bounce the ball. "And he can get it when we are at the grass." Alex said, bouncing the ball down, the ball hitting off a stray stone and shooting off to the right, bouncing out onto the road.
"Idiot." Maggie handed the lead to Alex and walked out onto the road, the ball having come to a stop at the kerb at the other side.
"Maggie, move." Alex yelled out as the car screeched on it brakes, but it was too late. All Alex could do was watch in horror as the car struck her girlfriend.