I am sitting behind my piano… there's a very sad melody on my mind these days… I want to take it out… I put my fingers on the keys and start… after I don't know how many minutes, it's done… I write it down fast on the note pad… I hear the garage door closing… it's been a few days since James's interview, and we weren't able to talk or see each other properly. I've been busy at work and he's busy with this new movie. We sleep in the same bed, and sometimes in the morning I find myself curled up in his arms.

But now after nearly a week since Jessica's harassment, I feel like I miss him like crazy. My heart skips a beat and then starts beating so fast. I practically fly to open the door for him… I do and see he was about to ring the bell… he stands there with his hand in mid-air watching me… I feel some kind of homesick… my eyes sting with tears and I throw myself in his arms… he catches me and clutches me to his chest… he moves and takes me inside with him… I bring my head up and start kissing him… I start with small, sweet kisses at first but we've not been intimate these days so we're both ravenous for this… he groans and bites down on my lower lip which makes me moan in his mouth… soon we are all lips and tongues and hands roaming each others' bodies and taking off each others' clothes on our way to the bedroom… I throw him on the bed… straddling him in my underwear I say…

" Oh, James Dornan! I love you so much… I want you so bad!"

He takes my hips and rolls so he's on top of me… he parts my knees with his legs, then he rips through my lace panties with his fingers… he lies down on me and tugs at my earlobe and whispers in my ear…

" So take me… right… now!"

And soon we're lost in the sensation of our love and passion…

I'm lying on the bed, my head is resting on James's chest… his right hand moves in my hair… I pucker my lips and put a kiss on his well formed chest and do a little mischief and bite his nipple… he flinches and laughs…

" I missed you…"

I bring myself up and look him in the eye… he watches me with smile and says…

" I missed you too… what's wrong babe? I know something's been eating at you these past few days… I wanted to ask you but you were acting distant and it was killing me… talk to me Anna… you know I love you so much… It hurts me to see you like this…"

I look at his eyes… thinking about telling him or not… I sit up and lean against the headboard, taking the duvet to cover my body… James sits up too and takes my hand… he puts a lingering kiss on my knuckles and says…

" Tell me! You know you can tell me anything!"

I stare down at my fingers and say…

" Three days ago I was checking the Instagram, was looking for some photos of you, which seemed to be a tons of them… it was then that I saw a picture, of you and Amelia…"

I steal a glance at him and see his frowning. He doesn't know where I'm going with this. I stare back at my hands and continue... my vision is blurry...

"The caption was the thing you said about how you met her in a party… that you had a crush on her long before you saw her and you fantasized about her, and even you knew that she'd be in that party…"

I close my eyes and tears wash down my face…

" It made me realize that I am the bad guy here…"

" Anna! You don't know what you're talking about!"

I watch him through my tears and say...

" it made me think that maybe I should send you back to her once again…"

He looks at me bewildered…

" Anna, please don't!"

I put my hands on either side of his face and say…

" You are the love of my life, James Dornan… you will always be… but she was yours and the reason you're not together is because of me…"

He is suddenly terrified…

" No no no! Anna! No! You are my life now… I love you with all my heart… I know this look in your eyes… you've got it before you left everything and fled the town…"

He moves so that he's facing me… he takes my hands and says…

" I love you Anna! I. Love. You! I don't know how many times I have to say that for you to believe me. But I will! Until you really believe me when I say that I'm in love with you. And I won't let you decide for me. You are what I want. And the problems in my marriage where there long before you came along. And when we got divorced I never even thought of reaching out to you because I thought I did enough damage already so I let you be. But when I saw you here, when you came back I…"

He closes his eyes, takes a deep breath and when he opens them his eyes are blazing with something, he touches my face and wipes my tears with his thumps and says…

" You gave me hope Anna! The moment I walked in that door and saw you talking to Denise. The moment you stood up and I saw your beautiful face after nearly a year… I hoped that you and I could be possible now. I never dreamt of cheating on Amelia with you. I respected her and you hell of a lot more than that. But when you came back I thought you're here because of me. It's silly but I was hopeful. And now that we are together I am the happiest man ever. Anna, I love you with all my heart. You are my love. Yeah I know that I love Amelia too and there's a part of me that will always love her. But you are my love now, and I will do anything to make you understand that."

He brings my hands up and kisses my knuckles. He comes closer and kisses my tears. I throw my hands around his neck and bring his lips to mine… he lets out a sigh we're lost in each other soon…