A/N: So this is the end my friends…nah almost. After this there will be a nice little epilogue, but then…+stares into space+
OK just do me the favour and lighten up my mood with a little review. Tell me how you liked the story, which was my first one ever.
Disclaimer:
Chris: Hello everybody, this is our first party-disclaimer. As promised, the last chapter of "NO!" (before the veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery short epilogue – just so you have been warned!) ends with our own little finishing party….
Wyatt+starts the music+: Thanks to anyone who endured our endless ranting about the good, the bad and the power….
Chris: Oh no Wyatt you are doing it again….quick eat this hotdog…+mutters+ this will keep him occupied for a while…
And I´d like to thank especially all of my faithful reviewers – you are all the BEST!!!!
Here comes my very special "thank-you" list…
My thanks together with all my heart goes out to:
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That's it… oh just forgot thanks to everyone who put me to his favourites or on their alert…yey for you!!!
Oh and I almost forgot...I still don't own them (but I'm working on it!!!)
So now lets PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARTY!!!!!
Chapter 13 / last part
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A tousled barely awake young man sat besides his father.
Piper had decided that it was high time for the two to talk things over and had pushed her husband next to Chris onto the couch before she abandoned them to their fate.
"So I was never there for you, hmm?
Was I really that bad?" Leo asked, fearing the answer.
"No, not bad. You were a great dad when you were around. You just were…you know…busy."
As on clue a low but insistent jingle made itself heard – an elders call.
"See what I mean…?!"
"So it was the elder stuff then?" Leo asked ignoring the jingling-request from above.
"Most of the times…"
"But you said I had time for Wyatt. Why not for you?"
"You know, Wy had always that special talent to get into trouble. The big trouble sort of.
Like conjuring dragons out of TV sets, if you know what I mean.
There were always things the elders had to react to.
My kind of problems weren't that spectacular. They were more…human. Like a broken arm or something like that."
"Don't tell me I didn't heal you!"
"Oh yes you did!" Chris choked out with a dry laugh.
"You came, you healed, you were gone! Always the dutifully elder. But while you fulfilled duties of the greater good, all what I needed was a father, not a superhero.
All I needed was a hug afterwards and maybe to be tucked in and a bedtime-story to make me forget what I went through.
But you simply left, called away by your next duty. Leaving me with the feeling to be a nuisance; being nothing more than another duty for you!" Chris worked hard to suppress the tears that started to fill his eyes.
"And we never talked about it? You never told me?" Leo felt awful.
"When, Leo? The last time we were alone for more than a couple of minutes was when I was four years old. No wait you'd planned to spend some time with me after not coming to my eleventh birthday. Mom got worried because I didn't speak for a whole week afterwards.
Shall I tell you something: From this time on I was determined to forget the whole father-concept. You became Leo´, like some sort of remote relative you see once a year. And you needed over eight month to recognize it.
For some time I still kept all your cosy letters filled with apologies. But they portrayed a father I never really had - and Wy although…not really. But I was never jealous about the little more time he spent with you. He needed it so much more then I did. He was really craving for it."
"And you?"
"I had learned not to need you. I never really knew what it meant to have a dad. I mean really meant. You know Wyatt unlike me had memories of you living at home, being around all the time.
I was some sort of the families own Peter Pan – by the way the only of my children's books I actually liked, sort of. The others were all that mendacious. I early started to prefer the mature ones. And I started to concentrate on demon studies early. Something important."
"But what about you – what about your dreams Chris?"
"My dreams…?"
…
The long due conversation between father and son was quiet and intense.
"…Later I recognized that something had happened, that I hated myself for…
I had become like you!
Outwardly I resemble mom the most, but on the inside…
I'm just as determined, stubborn and devoted to the greater good as you Leo!"
Memories flashed into his mind…the seer… "…chosen by evil…the link…never be fully on the good side…!" no that couldn't be the truth…but what if??...Chris brushed the gnawing thought aside.
"How can I hate you still, while being the same way you are? And now that I know the other side of you – see the way you act through an adults eyes. How can I go on hating you?""
And it was the hate, the anger that had always detained the pain from coming through. Every time his carefully bottled up emotions of hurt and disappointment impended to come up, his anger and hate kept them at bay.
How could he survive now that his so neatly build up system crashed down inside of him – now that he realized that his walls inside crumbled? He felt like that insecure four-year-old again.
And suddenly he recognized strong arms hugging him the way it should have been all the years back.
Leo felt as his sons head slowly sunk onto his shoulder - a barely audible "dad" was all Chris was able to utter.
TBC…For the last time!