"Four I didn't mean it." I say and look down at my feet. I hear him move and his arms are no longer folded over his chest. I watch as his hand moves from his side to under my chin and his hand pushing my chin up so I look at him. His eyes are full of sadness and I can't help but feel the panic raise up inside me.
People from the team start arriving at the house and I wave to a couple of the girls who walk past us into the house. Four steps forward then to the side as he opens the passenger door. "Come on let's go have dinner." He says and I don't object to his request and I get into the car when he shuts the door.
He shortly gets in the car and I look at what I'm wearing. My training gear is no match to his button up and jeans. He looks at me for a moment. "What's wrong?" He asks me. I look at my clothing and then look at him. I pout at him.
He doesn't look amused when he lets out a sigh. "You look fine Tris." He says as he starts the car. Damn, I thought that would work. I sigh and look out the window we drive for some time before we pull up to a small park in front of a lake. Four cuts the engine and doesn't say anything or face me. An awkward silence falls apon the car.
"How much do you remember?" I ask him, I turn my head to look over at him. "Enough." He answers his voice is bitter as he speaks and he finally turns his head to face me.
"Look Four. I'm sorry really I don't know what to tell you. I like you a lot but I like our relationship more." I say my voice cracking at the end, a lump now forming in my throat.
"Four I know we haven't been that close lately but I remember the days before Cara and our conversations. Honestly I don't want to lose you again." I continue and he watches me without emotion. I don't know what to think when he does look down for a moment but then continues to look at me as I speak.
"So do we just forget everything that just happened in the past couple of weeks." He says angrily. I don't answer but instead I nod my head. "Four I-." I try to say before he cuts me off.
"Do you even want there to be an us?" He says making me want to crumble to a thousand little pieces, his voice sounds so hurt and broken. "Because Tris I do but I can't let you mess with my head if there isn't going to be you at the other end." He says his eyes seem to glass over and I'm speechless.
"Four I just told you that I like us being friends, if we changed that and it didn't work then I would lose you and I don't want to risk that." I say annoyed.
"Look I agree, I don't want to loose you either but I want to see where our relationship goes and if you don't want that then I suppose I'll have to wait for you and I will." He says and smirks lightly at me then he turns and stares straight ahead of him.
I don't answer him as we sit in silence and Four starts the car and I look at him in confusion. He smirks at he proudly as he puts his hand of the gear nob. "Let's go have dinner as friends." He says emphasising the friend part as he pulls away.
"Well goodnight." I say to Four as I reach my house's front door. He stands just behind me as I turn to face him. I notice how close he is and the thought of the last time we were this close crosses my mind and I swallow hard.
"Goodnight Tris." He says and his voice is deeper than before and he looks slightly conflicted by something. He grabs ahold of my hand and squeezes it tightly but I hesitate. He step forward and holds my face in his hands.
He stares into my eyes and kisses me. The kiss is short and sweet and I try to relish the opportunity and kiss him back but he pulls away and I want to step forward and kiss him again. I fight my urges as he speaks.
"Well if we're just going to stay friends then I wanted to do that just once before we 'forget' about it all. Goodnight Tris." He says with a small smile and I can't help but smile as I watch him get into his car and drive away...