Again sorry for the long wait I hope everyone had a good Christmas and a happy new year!
I would like to respond to all of your comments but I don't want to say anything without spoiling but TJ, you along with almost every reader have been wondering about CK's whereabouts and I know I've been stringing that part of the story for so long but don't worry your questions WILL be answered... soonishh lol that's all I can say. I did mention this was going to be a long journey loll I guess I'm stringing it TOO long and have kept you guys waiting... 36 chapters long lol but I hope this chapter helps. You guys HAVE been waiting for this moment for some time and it's finally here, read and see what I'm talking about;)
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Chapter 36: What if I Told you- Jason Walker
There's so much I want to say, but I'm so scared to give away, every little secret that I hide behind. Would you see my differently? And would that be such a bad thing. I wonder what it would be like, if I told you.
Chloe walked down the corridors of the hall as thoughts of her previous conversation spurred within her mind,
"J'onn... I don't know what to do, Ollie won't let us try downloading Kryptonian knowledge the way Jor-El said we should... and even if we do he's right... there's a chance our minds just can't take that much information... and a chance Clark's body won't even be found...What do we do?"
J'onn rubbed his forehead as he paced around Watchtower, "What do you want me to say Chloe? I know as much as you do. You must stop assuming I have the answers because I really don't..."
Chloe's lips parted, "Well neither do I!" She covered her eyes with her hand, "We might never find him again J'onn... We don't even know where he is... and it's all my fault."
J'onn sighed, walking towards Chloe, grabbing her shoulders, "Chloe, whether you had made the decision to make changes to his body or not it still wouldn't have changed the fact that Lois activated that mirror box. And because she did that Clark's body's gone... only difference is that we wouldn't have known about it if we hadn't moved him to the Fortress."
Chloe shook her head, "You're wrong J'onn... if I had told Lois from the start what I was planning... she wouldn't have lost hope. I could've given her hope... and by the changes we made to his body to bring him back... it could've factored into his disappearance..."
Taking a deep breath she had gotten to her cousin's door, as she was about to knock, she noticed the door had been slightly opened, as she heard Chris giggling on the other side as she pushed open the door a crack more to see inside.
"I don't think I've ever seen him stay up past his nap time before. You sure you didn't sneak in some ice cream while I was getting ready?" Lois teased while Clark was swinging Chris in the air while he sat on the couch.
With a chuckle, Clark replied, "Nah I think he just likes spending time with me so much that I haven't bored him yet."
Lois smiled as she packed up her bag, "Alright, now that I've found my keys, this is officially goodbye."
Clark stood up with Chris in his arms as he walked up to her, "You really have to go into work today." He said while one hand played with the lapel of her jacket, pulling her closer as Lois swayed towards him.
"If I wanna keep my job then yeah..." She said with a grin, brushing her nose against his.
"Mhm like your Editor will ever fire you..."
"You're right..." She sighed, "He loves me too much."
Clark shook his head at her with a smile, "I doubt it... I think there's someone else who tops him... Why don't you just work from home again?"
"Cause I know if I stay, I won't be doing any working..." She giggled as he wrapped his arm around her waist, brushing his lips against her neck, all the way up to her lips, meeting in a gentle kiss. Lois pulled away as she smiled back at him, taking a deep, shaky breath, "I have to go..." She whispered.
"So go..." He challenged, while tightening his iron grip on her.
Lois wriggled away as she brushed her son's hair, kissing his cheek, and quickly kissed Clark on the lips again, "I'll see you boys later..." She turned to grab her purse and her keys as she turned and winked at Clark, "See ya Smallville." As she turned around she froze in place. She stood rooted on the spot for half a second before composing herself again, swallowing hard, as she turned back to see Clark standing behind her with a confused look. Flashing a quick smile on her face that didn't meet her eyes, she grabbed her coffee and headed towards the door.
Chloe, who was standing behind the door the entire time, stood rooted with her eyes wide open at the scene that had unfolded in front of her. Her breathing increased as she took a step away from the door, her lips parted in complete shock at what she had seen. It was like a complete, happy family. Like Lois had her family back, as if it was another morning where she was going off to work, kissing her family goodbye before leaving... but this... Chloe had no words to describe the cruel reality of this. She heard Lois walking towards the door as Chloe rushed down the corridor and opened the doors to the stairs as she got out of there, unseen, and unheard.
Watchtower
J'onn had arrived again once Chloe messaged him saying that she was back at Watchtower.
"That was quick Chloe... I thought you were taking the day off to spend time with Lois and Chris..."
Chloe kept her eyes glued to her keyboard as she continued typing, "Yeah well plans change..." She murmured, unfocused, as her eyebrows drew together in a slight frustration.
J'onn furrowed his brows as he came closer to her, "Is everything alright?"
Her eyes drifted off as she had a distant look on her face, rubbing her eyes, she turned to J'onn, "No... No everything is definitely NOT alright J'onn..."
As they both stared at each other, the elevator doors opened up as they both turned to see Lois walk up to them with a glowing smile on her face. Chloe clamped her mouth shut as she frowned at her cousin's happiness, feeling her heart sink as she watched that glow that had finally returned after all these years... a glow that was never meant to return this way.
Lois walked up to Chloe, and spoke with a smile on her face, holding a cup in front of her, "I brought you a Latte. Ollie told me you were here all night and didn't go back home... is everything okay cuz?"
Chloe swallowed hard as she took the cup from Lois, placing it down on the table behind her, facing her cousin again, shaking her head, "What are you doing with Clark Luthor?"
Lois blinked once, "Excuse me?"
Crossing her arms, Chloe bit her bottom lip as J'onn watched in confusion, "I stopped by earlier today, you left the door unlocked... and I saw you two... and the way you said goodbye to each other..." Lois took a step back as Chloe described what she had seen this morning.
Lois' lips parted as she stared back at her cousin, "It's not what you think..." Chloe continued to stare back at her cousin in confusion as Lois took a deep breath, "Yes... Clark and I are sort of... together... but I know what you're thinking and it's nothing like that Chloe. It's not something I jumped into just because he resembles my Clark. Clark Luthor and I have gotten close, I know him in a different way than you do..."
Chloe shook her head as she stepped towards her, "Lois... I know you may feel grateful to Clark for saving your life, but that doesn't mean that it justifies for every crime he's committed, everything else he's done to us! Yes I am grateful that he saved your life too, and yes I understand he cares about you a great deal but that doesn't mean I'm excusing everything else he's done."
Lois sighed as she rubbed her forehead, "You don't know him the way I do Chloe... yes he's done some things in the past... but that doesn't mean they're not justified."
"Justified or not it's not JUSTICE." She shook her head, "That's not what our Clark stood for."
Lois furrowed her brows while shaking her head, "That's not fair Chloe. You can't stand there comparing them to me. My Clark is... irreplaceable. But he's gone... I've spent two years of my life without the man I love and now I've finally learned to accept it. I'm finally learning to move on is that such a bad thing?! Is it so terrible for me to move on with someone else?!"
Chloe stood there in disbelief, "You don't see it do you? This isn't moving on Lois you're holding on to Clark Kent so much that you haven't learned to let go yet! The only reason you brought Clark Luthor here is so you can see your husband's face again and it was nothing more than that!" She huffed, "I'm sorry it's coming out this way but it's the truth Lois. You're not moving on... you're trying to grasp whatever memory you can hold onto of him and you chose to find the easiest way and it's gone too far. You're judgment's getting clouded Lois... it's not Clark Luthor you want. It's the idea of him. This man isn't from our world, he doesn't belong here!"
She stood still for a long moment in silence before speaking in a calm tone, "I know he's not my Clark. I never saw him as my Clark. I saw him as a man full of hatred, and anger, and malice towards the world... and I'm the only person who knows a version of him enough to understand Luthor himself. He may not be my Clark... but I can still feel the warmth of his heart, the gentleness in him when he holds me... he makes me feel something Chloe. And it's something I haven't felt in a really long time... I'm not about to let that go. And you shouldn't judge me for this it's not like I jumped into this and immediately fell for him... but somewhere along the way I slowly began to grow feelings for him. It may not be the ideal way to move on... but I don't see myself with anyone else other than Clark and no, it's not just about the resemblance."
Chloe shook her head as she rose her voice at her cousin, "And what are you going to do when we find a way to get him back to Earth-2?! Are you just going to be able to go through losing someone you care about all over again?! Or are you going to run off to Earth-2 just to be with him?!" Lois stayed silent as she glared back at Chloe as she continued, "Do you even love him?" She blinked once as she saw Lois turn away, "I know you Lois, probably more than anyone else... and I know you don't." Shaking her head once again her shoulders slumped as she spoke gently, "This is wrong Lois... it's not meant to be this way-"
"THEN WHAT WAS IT MEANT TO BE?!" She lost it as Lois yelled out loud while J'onn remained silent while watching her rage, "Was Doomsday meant to kill my husband?! Was that how it was always meant to be?! Huh J'onn?!" She turned on him, with fire burning in her eyes, "You were supposed to protect him. His parents trusted YOU to protect their son and YOU let them down! You didn't save him and I lost him alright, I LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND IT BROKE ME!" Lois began to breathe heavily and her arms dropped to her sides, "Everything that I went through after he died was hell. A man whom I spent eleven years of my life with left me. I lost my mother, I barely had a relationship with my father, and I haven't seen Lucy since forever! Clark was my family. He was all I needed because he was my family. He was my family and he left me!" Tears were pooling in her eyes as her hands were balled into fists, "It took me a long time to accept that. A LONG time to realize no miracle was going to bring my family back. After Clark Luthor came... he made it better... he fixed me. He filled that hole in my heart. I'm all glued back together now." She bore her eyes into Chloe, "I make no apologies for how I chose to fix what Doomsday broke... and being with Clark Luthor makes me happy. That feeling he makes me feel... I don't feel alone anymore, and I needed that. I can't say it's gonna be easy to let that go. But if you guys never find that mirror box... then that'll be fine with me... with us."
Chloe eyes were glossy as she simply stared back at Lois in silence, not daring to break it. Seeing that her cousin had nothing left to say, Lois brushed past her towards the elevator. As she was about to leave Chloe spun around and spurted out in a throaty voice, "Lois, Clark's missing!"
J'onn's head shot towards Chloe as his eyes widened at her. Lois stopped walking as she stood with her back to Chloe; her brows furrowed as she slowly turned her head in Chloe's direction, and turned her body halfway, "What?" She whispered.
Chloe swallowed hard as J'onn spoke in a warning tone, "Chloe..."
She ignored him as Chloe slowly took a step towards Lois as she stood grounded, "A month before Christmas... J'onn and I had an idea that maybe... there was a possibility that Clark could be brought back to life... that he could possibly be alive." She swallowed hard as she couldn't read Lois' expression as her lips were in a tight firm line, Chloe noticed a crease in her forehead as her cousin stared back at her while she continued slowly, "So... we decided to remove his body from the mausoleum... and bring it to the Fortress." She took a shaky breath, "We tried everything from bringing him up to the sun to give him its energy to asking Jor-El for help, and J'onn even sought out Kandorians to see if they would help by transferring their blood into him. We've been trying for a while to revive him and for a moment we thought he did but... there was no response. And the night that you activated that mirror box... Clark's body disappeared from the Fortress." She shook her head, "We've been searching everywhere for him... we have no idea where he is Lois. But we're guessing that wherever the mirror box has disappeared to... then that's where our Clark is... but they're both missing." There was a long, utter silence, as Lois stood frozen in place, staring at nothing in particular as Chloe looked back at J'onn and then to her cousin, "Say something please..."
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