**Disclaimer I do not own R&I**
The door opened on the facility. The office was small but adequate. It wasn't grand but it would do.
Jane had to admit she felt out of place even with Maura by her side.
She saw women and men together, holding stomachs and whispering sweet nothings.
She knew that Maura would most likely take over the appointment, not that she was tyrannical in fact the doctor was the antonym of that but it just had to do with the fact that she was well read. Maura as a person was well bread.
She was a doctor that much should make it all clear. They were in the waiting area. Everything once again came back, circling to a past crime.
The case of the crazed nurse as Jane liked to put it.
There were still so many questions. She could still see Maura was anxious about the decisions. She did not want to pressure her into anything.
"Maura are you sure you want this?"
"Jane this is not a tragic love is it? Where we are forced to be together, where the baby is the only thing keeping us together? Where society states, those like us, those like me, victims, are forced…"
"Maura this is up to you. "
"Maura Isles?" The nurse calls out.
"Come on Jane."
It was the nurse for the OB/GYN. They did the normal procedures for a checkup. Maua had her weight and height taken. The man asked of her medication, or if she had been hospitalized or sick recently. Sometimes the questions could be quite frustrating. The questioned blood pressure and nutrition while
They went back out after the average "Alright thank you so much, you may wait outside the doctor will be with you shortly."
They see the women around them and consider what was going to happen.
It may not be understood by all. Why they choose to keep the child but this was being taken a step at a time. It was not being rushed into, at least it was hoped it was not.
"Maura isles."
"Doctor Maura Isles." Jane corrected. "Hi, Jane Rizzoli." She shook the woman's hand.
"Are you coming to the back with us miss?"
"If it is possible."
The doctor nodded.
"Jane, you are hovering." Maura whispered.
The situation was being set up as the doctor was reading the medical history.
Once again they were hand in hand, it was something they didn't bother to even change anymore.
"Alright Maura so how are we feeling?"
Oh the royal "we". Jane made the joke to herself and couldn't help but lightly expression of amusement.
"Jane, please…" Maura warned softly.
"Anything funny? Entertaining?" Asked the red head doctor.
"Oh, no." It was all Jane needed to be serious once more. "Not at all, please continue the examination."
The gel was placed over Maura's stomach. It was cold and gave little goosebumps.
It was slowly spread through the ultrasound system.
"Hmmm that's interesting…"
"What?" Jane questioned.
"Well there seems to… umm… be no fetus. The womb, well it is empty."
"That's impossible." Jane stated.
"The pregnancy test, it came back positive." Maura continued on the other's thought.
"Well I'm sorry to inform, you but apparently it was a false positive."
Maura gasped and sighed at the same time. She said sorry because she did not know of what had occurred.
"I'm sure you understand being a physician yourself, even the best tests may be wrong at times. False positives are a common occurrence."
She gently cleaned the stomach. It was done with care which made Maura hollow.
This was true, but the worst thing that could have been said. How were they supposed to take this information? Everything had been so erratic from emotions to actions.
Should there be relief? Turmoil?
The man behind bars was somehow still messing with emotions.
A miscarriage would never even have an opportunity, there, was no child.
There was no life. There was nothing, it was all desolate. There was nothing left to do, nothing to be grown.
"I'll leave you alone. Please. If there are any concerns do not hesitate to call. Stay as long as you would like."
She pats Maura, using a soft touch once more but now on the knee. She walked out slowly and made sure the door closed inaudibly, but to
Jane and Maura it was more than amplified.
"What now Jane?"
Jane didn't know how to act. These were uncharted waters. How should one react? Hey I'm sorry. Were you getting attached?
Congratulations, maybe now there won't be a constant haunting of something horrible from past for both of us?
They were uncertain about the whole thing from the beginning since the question passed the doctor's lips so passionately before.
Honestly it was true trauma had been pushed out of thought, on both sides. This was just a distracter for both, what now? Physically?
Emotionally?
So many things were tossed into the vast indefinite reality.
It made the only response to be conjured up to be "I don't know." Jane looked to Maura with apprehension.
"Are you happy about this?" Jane questioned.
"Well, I don't know how to feel. I suppose deep down yes. I didn't want the child to be sick in the head, wrong, hurt us, anything. I didn't want to remember, I told you that."
"I understand."
Not a breath was released. Nothing more said.
They drove back home while holding in everything.
This would have to be dealt with. None of it could be ignored anymore. They acted as if nothing had happened after they learned… but now? It seemed like it was all coming down on them.
They had not told anyone about anything still. It now felt wrong. There was no one to turn to. Isolation for Maura was more prominent than ever. Not even Jane made her feel as if she was there. Jane felt less adequate than ever, nothing good had come out of anything.
"What are you thinking?"
"I'm thinking we cannot ignore any of this anymore." Jane solemnly responded.
"I agree with that assessment."
"Maura did I push you into this? I asked you before but…"
"Jane…"
"If I did then, it is okay that the baby, well, you know…"
Words could not express these emotions flying between them in the small confined space of the car. Nothing could have prepared them for this. They realized then just how much help was needed. They needed to get people outside of their circle. They needed others to rely upon.
"I think we need to talk…"
"Isn't that what we are doing?"
"No, I mean, to someone else. We need to talk to some professional. Things just feel so broken right now, everything that has happened, and I cannot deal with it…."
"Maura that would mean telling…everything."
"J- I want to do that. You have issues that were always ignored and not dealt with. It would be healthy. I need to cope with all of this, you can understand that can't you? I want to do that with you. You said that you would do what is best for me, what would make me happy, this will help. You need to be a part of this, I…I don't think I can do this alone."
Jane mulled this over. She could not very well deny Maura anything.
"There is no turning back after accepting this Maur. What if it destroys us?"
"Jane I don't think it will do that. It could not hurt, just look at the situation we are in right now!"
That was true. How much worse and screwed up could it get?
"For you M, anything."
**So I hope this chapter was satisfying, I should have posted it last night as I know I lost some readers. I had to make them a little attached for this reason, I hope that is clear now. I had planned for it all to come to this. I feel like a lot of false positives are usually underplayed but I had to build it up for this reason. I knew that it would be hard to have a baby in such circumstances but at the same time show their strength and well… I think this speaks for itself. I by no means intended to make this fic so dark but the characters lead me and I felt like emotionally both girls needed the baby to get them back together but at the same time I knew it wouldn't last because it was just a distraction as was said. Now, comes the emotional consequences. I take certain subjects very seriously and hope you all understand that I am not a writer who makes characters undergo such distress without making them work though it. I really do listen to comments and take everything into consideration and knew there would be some back lash but this had been bouncing around in my head for a while now. I hope this did not disappoint, as this was how it played out within my mind**