A/N: Yeah - this is my new Paire fic. Not a big surprise. Not for me anyway. I just love Paire and I love writing for them. 'The Compass' is inspired of the new volume of Heroes, called 'Redemption'. I have to be honest (some of you may hate me for it, but I have to say it), the only good thing I saw up until now is the Paire hug. We can see that they still have that chemistry that made them our OTP. Still think that related them was the biggest mistake of the show, but sadly, it's the fact. I have to say one more thing - 'The Compass' starts when the new volume starts BUT there is nothing in common after that. The plot is absolutely different. And now, before you start reading this I think I owe you this too:
Let's skip the misunderstanding: English is not my first language, but I'm really trying here. So, if you think that it's hard for you to read - just don't read it! The reason I'm in this alone it's because I have updates every day. I love my readers and I want to pleased them in that way!
Story plot: You can't escape from your destiny even when that destiny means to love someone forbidden.
Rating: It's definitely M for the later chapters. I have to say that I love to write Paire as M. "winks"
Warnings: Well, it's Paire so that means incest. I wish they were CANON, but eh.
Spoilers: Volume 5 - up to episode 4.
What else... um nothing. Enjoy reading and I wish you like the fic! Thanks for the nice input after the first few chapters guys! I'll keep going and I hope you'll keep reading. "winks"
Chapter 36 Tell me
The look in his eyes scared her. He looked at her with despair and his eyes burned with flames she had never seen before. Claire fell on the near chair and took his hand. He shook his head and ran his fingers through his hair. It was something serious. Peter looked in the same way when he convinced her that they had to stay in New York. He tried to make her stay with him. He tried to make her shoot him. She could not. She tried but she knew in her heart that she could never hurt him. Peter was her soul. He was her heart. Claire was glad that she finally found him but she could not watch him suffer in this way.
"Peter?" Claire tried to look at his eyes but he avoided her. That scared her even more. "Peter what's wrong? Tell me!" She insisted passionately.
"I'm sorry, Claire." He whispered. "I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you…"
"You cheat on me?" Claire spat the last word. "Is that it? Or… you lied to me about something?"
"No." His shoulders shook but Claire still could not see his eyes. "You know that I can't do that! I love you too much, too much for my own good." Peter sighed. "And I just destroyed your life now. That was a mistake and now there is no way back. There is no way…"
"Peter!" Claire squeezed his hand. His sad words touched her heart. "You are scaring me! You know that you couldn't hurt me! You are the only person in this life I could trust completely!"
"And I destroyed that trust! I destroyed your life!"
"No!" Claire got tired of that game on cat and mouse. She grabbed his face "Peter look at me! You gave me reason to live! You're not…"
"Would you stop?" Peter hissed and slipped out of her hands. He got off his chair and turned his back to her. "You don't even know what I'm talking about!"
"Tell me then!" She got off her chair and cursed. Her movement was too quick and she grabbed the edge of the table. But that only caused the cartoon cup to fall over. "Damn!" She sighed and her ears rang.
"You have to lie down." He frowned and helped her to the bed. "Need some rest?"
"No!" She looked at him with clear eyes. "I want to know what is going on!"
"You aren't good now." Peter took the folded blanket and wrapped her up.
"I'm good enough to tell me what is going on?" Claire sat on the bed and crossed her arms before her chest. "Don't you think that is making me sicker? Scratch the fact that I don't believe you. I'm not sick and I never will be."
"You are right." Peter shook his head with the same concerned and sad face. He sat close to her and his hand lay over her thigh. Claire doubt that he was even thinking. It was so natural for him to touch her now. It was complete the opposite than he was before. Peter had explained to her that it was too painful to him to touch her before. When she had asked him why, Peter just had smiled and kissed her. Then she understood.
"I'm right that I'm not sick?" Claire looked at him with confusion. "Good we agreed with that but you still look upset."
"That's because I am." Peter rubbed his eyes. "But I have to tell you. Just… tell me what you want to do, okay? I'll support you in everything."
"What I have to do?" Claire frowned.
"Okay." He took a deep breath as if the news itself caused him pain. "I guess I have to tell you then. You are not sick Claire. You are pregnant."
"What?" Her eyes widened and she stared at him. "Wait! What?"
"Claire I… I'm so sorry…"
"Oh would you stop blaming yourself for everything?" She frowned. "I seduced you, remember? The idea was all mine!"
"Not that I wasn't think about it." Peter murmured.
"Oh shut up!" She hissed. "You were too obsessed with the thought of keeping me innocent!"
"Hey…"
"So." Claire frowned once more and looked at him seriously. He could not read her face. "I'm pregnant then."
"And you're not freaked out?" Peter looked at her with surprise.
"I'm hysterical!" Claire furrows her eyebrows.
"But you…"
"I just think that you are worse than me." Claire shrugged. "That put me in a position to be less nervous."
"I'm confused." Peter frowned.
"And I'm babbling to calm down my nerves." Claire rubbed her temples and tried to calm her breathing. "I don't think it works though. My heart still pounds in my chest and I think…" Her hand slid on her neck. "I think I… Move!" She ordered and Peter got off the bed watched her rushed into the bathroom. He could recognize the sounds and followed her immediately. "Damn chicken!" He heard her curing and light smile appeared on his face when he saw her walked out with pale face. "That wasn't good!" She announced.
"I know." Peter watched her carefully. She sneaked back into the bed and under her blanket.
He saw her body shook and then her teeth chattered. She felt cold. Peter sighed and lay close to her. His arms wrapped around her small body and he could hear her satisfied sigh.
"Thank you." She murmured on his chest. "My head swims again."
"Just try to relax and control your breathing." He tried to soothe her as he pushed all of his fear on the second plan. Claire was the important now. He was not.
"Okay." Claire whispered few minutes later. "I think I'm good."
"Okay." Peter rubbed her back.
"I think I have to feel fear." Claire mumbled and looked up at him. Peter met her gaze. "Why I'm not Peter? Why I feel such… I don't know." She wrinkled her nose. "I can't describe it exactly, but it's something good. It's something warm and good."
"Maybe we should discuss the options." He started carefully. "I want what is the best for you."
"What is the best for me?" Claire frowned but she could see his eyes even in the darkness. They were sad again. He felt bad. He felt guilty for her and suddenly she realized what he meant by his words. "Are you crazy?" She snapped.
"Excuse me?" He hissed. "I'm just giving you a way out! What is the crazy thing in this?"
"A way out? A way out!" Claire frowned and punched his chest. Hard. Peter did not move and she saw him just crooked his face. "No! You are crazy!"
"I'm not the happiest person from the news either." He crooked his face again.
"And I am?" She hissed. "But I'm not the one suggesting the abortion, right?"
"I never said…"
"No! That's what you thinking!"
"Claire…"
"What?" She tried to pull back but he held her tightly. "Did you just stop for a moment and think of the possibility that I might want that baby?"
"Do you?" Peter looked at her carefully. "Do you want it? You have to tell me now, 'cos if you want it that could change our lives… for good!"
Claire did not say a thing. She just stopped fighting and let him see her eyes. She did not hide her feelings. Her eyes shone with confusion but Peter could see a new and strong feeling there too. Claire had made her choice and he had to accept it.
And one more thing - thank you for reading and reviewing this story guys! You are the best and you are the ones that keep me going with this! THANK YOU!
