Hartleigh's POV
Now that Tasha was done threatening me about her cookies everything was finally fine, sort of, during the cookie process she sort of looked like she wanted to kill Dimitri about them because he was the one who ate them, but I should be more to blame, I mean I was the one who gave him the cookies because he didn't have anything to eat before coming over. But at least it was all settled now, right?
Oh well, other then that, everything was silent, apart from the rain which was still going on and it was driving me mad Argh! Tasha and Dimitri were both doing some quick overtime paperwork that supposedly needed to be due soon and taken back to the headmistress. But before they do that they needed to do some reports about yours truly. Tasha was writing her report, on a book I lent her, while I was laying on her lap finishing the 'The Lord of the Rings' book I was reading. As for Dimitri, he was sitting on the kitchen counter, not actually on it as he was sitting in the chair. Before he did my report, he was doing a report on his two student that decided to 'skive' classes this morning, he need to take those to Kirova so she can analize them and probably find a more suitable punishment for them both, hopefully they get more then detention and do twice as much work as punishment... Not that it sounded much but if I was a headmistress, god forbid, then I would make them do it, personally. God I would be such a terrible Headmistress or teacher, I probably wouldn't be able to train a dog, let alone having some student.
I won't lie, as comfy as this was, it felt really awkward and weird and all this silence was not making it easy in the slightest. I could still feel the tenseness that went on between Dimitri and Tasha and I felt like I was in the middle of all of it. I'll be honest, it wasn't easy, but I guess I'll have to live with it until they sort out their differences with each other, which, I can predict, will be soon.
I closed my book and carefully placed it beside me, I felt Tasha place her hand on my head and start to play with little strands of my hair before returning back to her report.
I placed an arm over my head and decided use my OWN imagination for once, as dirty as that sounds for you, you filthy reader. I closed my eyes and started to imagine the thing I wanted most in my life right, to see the bright sun, that I wanted to see again, with all my heart. I could Imagine the sun warming my skin as I lay in a field full bright green grass and blooming flowers surrounding my tiny body, pink, blue, red, orange, you name it, all colour you can think of are there. I could see the birds as they twitter and fly away in different directions, together. I imagined how peaceful and calm I would be just layed there, no war, no blood shed, just peace, with friends... Family... Everyone...
...Mommy...
...Daddy...
...Mary...
Once I opened my eyes, I no longer saw the sun, but a dim light coming from the fire that was lit in the fire place. A mixture of emotion were starting to run through me, sadness and guilt were the main ones, and I felt a little trickle slid down the side of my face. I reached a hand to where that wetness came from on my face and lifted it back to see... A tear? Was I crying? Was I crying over something from my imagination?
I looked around to see if anyone noticed anything, only to see that they were still doing their work, thank god. I would have been embarrassed otherwise.
I've only ever been out to the sun once since I became Strogoi, and that was when Dimitri and Lee brung me to this place, that was the first time I have experience he sun again in many years before this life. It must be good for Dimitri, Lee and Tasha to walk into the sun as much as they like. To go into the outside world with out having any problems what so ever, where as, sadly, I have to stay in unil it gets dark, that's when the Strogoi, like me, can roam free. I wondered how the sun felt for them?
"Hey guys?" They both stopped what they were doing and looked down at me.
"What's the outside like?" I question them as I look at them both.
"You know what it's like hartleigh, so why ask?" Dimitri responds.
"I'm curious. Because I'm not allowed out in the sun everyday like you are, and I want to know what it's like for you guys to venture that" I ask them both.
"Well... I guess it's okay, but a lot of them times it can get in the way of things, but it's good when you're willing to relax" Dimitri answered and Tasha soon followed.
"Us Moroi are quite sensitive to the sun, so it's like we get more pain then pleasure really, so we need to be careful. But it is a nice feeling we enjoy on a day out, like picnics, the parks, the beach, anything that that suit your fancy when it hits the summer really" I smiled at them both for those answers. It made me satisfied in a way, knowing what they liked about it with some passion at least.
"Why are you really asking us Hartleigh? Because I seriously doubt it's out of curiosity. Do you miss it?" Dimitri questioned, it was like he was reading me from the inside out. Well I was caught out quickly wasn't I. But there's no harm in denying why, it's not like I was going to see it again anyway.
"Yeah..."I answered.
"I want to see it again. I want to go back out there, even if it's just for a little while... It just felt so nice to feel it again after so long..." Both Dimitri and Tasha looked at each other sceptically, and worryingly, before looking back at me.
"You know we can't allow that Hartleigh, even if we wanted you not to be stuck inside all the time, we don't have a choice" Dimitri stated.
"I-I know, I just... I just wanted to..."
"Feel it again?"
"...Yeah..." I mumbled quietly.
"But you know you can't, I know it's something you... Don't want to hear, but you know it's true"
"... I know..." I looked away from them both, more sadness filled me and I felt like actually crying this time. I heard some paper being moved aside and I heard footsteps walking over this way, I didn't look up to see who it was, because we already knew who it was. Tasha moved a bit, my head still laying on her lap. Dimitri made himself comfy on my bed, almost next to me in a way. I still didn't look up at him and he places his giant hand over mine.
"But you will one day" I turn my head and look up at him, wandering what he meant by that.
"Soon, when you have that permission we can take you out at the night times" Dimitri said in a reassuring way.
"It won't be the thing you want, but it's close enough to feeling it when you look up at the moon"
"You think?" I never really got the perspective of it, but I guess it was sort of the same thing, but the whole world would just be darker, like it always has for me.
"Like I said, it won't be much to you seeing the sun, but it will be close enough, won't it?" Dimitri gave me a small reassuring smile, I slowly give one back. He then looked at me with a raised eye brow, which I was now really confused about, why was he looking at me like that after smiling?
He slowly lifted his hand from mine and carefully swabbed my cheek with his thumb, my cheek still felt wet from the tear that feel. He then removed his hand from my face and analized my fallen tear.
"Have you been crying?" He asked worryingly. I bit my lip, as if to silence my cries, and nod my head, in response to his question, no point in denying that I wasn't.
"Yeah, I think it was getting to me a bit" I admitted sadly.
"I'm sorry if my words hurt" Dimitri apologised, looking a little bad at what he just said. I shook my head at him.
"Don't be. It's not like I've heard worse or anything right?"
"I know, But I only speak the truth and you know that"
"And sometimes the truth can hurt, so you might want to keep a tad to yourself in order to make her feel better" Tasha intervened, Dimitri looked up at her, giving her a glare.
"Now that you've said that I'm sure she'll expect a 'tad' of the truth" It's like he was shooting her words back at her, I believe an 'ouch' was in order?
"But she is a child Dimitri, so please calm it down with the truth of things" She pointed out, have they already forgotten that I'm still right here?
"I know, but-"
"Right here guys, right here" I call out waving my hands to get there forgotten attention towards me. Tasha and Dimitri both look down and give small chuckles at me.
"Sorry" They both say in sync. I smile at them both them and they smile back.
"But in all seriousness though" Dimitri begins.
"Hopefully you'll be allowed outside again, I can't imagine how bored you must be inside this place"
"I do get bored a lot, I mean I do have books to read but I would like to go outside and have a clearer mind. Because I'm worried I might go insane the more days I spend in here" It was true, the more days I spend in here the more crazy I feel like I'm going to get. It was upsetting that I wasn't trusted to go out yet, not even for a few minutes. But I guess in some perspective it's understandable, but even if I have a Guardian with me, surely that would make them feel safer, wouldn't it?
"I understand, but I'm sure they'll allow you outside soon, when they have a clearer mind on you first" Dimitri chuckles.
"That's if the they allow it though" I respond, I sounded miserable saying that, but let's hope I can see the outside soon.
"They?" Tasha questioned.
"The Council and The headmistress" Dimitri answered.
"Oh yes, of course" She spoke as if she almost forgot, even I forgot about that for a moment, not because I'm going insane, but because I kind of wanted to forget about them. In a way I hope to hear from them soon, because we all grew anxious waiting for their response, it had been days since I got question by Kirova and so did everyone else. I can't seem to still thinking about all this, I just can't.
"Do I have to wait that long just so spend a minute outside?" This, for me, was feeling like it was going to take forever.
"For what ever it's worth I'm afraid" Dimitri replied. I sighed heavily and leaned my head up from Tasha's lap and start to lean on my 's hand was still playing with little strands in my hair, I rest my cold hand on top of Tasha's.
"So one day?" Dimitri nods his head.
"One day" He smiles at me, I smile back at him. I then reached forward and wrapped my arms around Dimitri's neck, pulling him to a hug, Dimitri returned the favour and wrapped his arms around me. I then let go of him and pull Tasha into a hug like I did with Dimitri, hey I wasn't going to leave her out, was I?
I know how much they wanted me to be happy, but I couldn't help but feel sad. All these thoughts of negativity were kind of getting to me, I know I need to get rid of them in some way, but I just can't help but think about what if I never ever see the sun again? Which I know I won't either way. I've been like this for a long time, a Strogoi I mean, and I've lived in the darkness for a long time, I would give up anything to be free to the light. I hope there can be a solution soon, I mean I'm the first Strogoi in the world, in a thousand years probably, to have a change and come back not a monster, I became myself again. In this world, if there was hope for me, then there must be hope for everyone of my kind. Maybe I need to start believing more and start to believe that because their could be changes in the world that I can help with those changes and maybe, just maybe, with what little faith I have, I might finally be able to see the sun.
I know this seems like a short chapter, but it was the most I could do as I am currently writing the other chapters and I don't know how long they will take to be put up as it is near enough Christmas time for everyone and I have homework from college to do. The most I can do for everyone is try to upload two more chapters after this one, I hope you guys forgive me for that and I am sorry if I made any mistakes, just let me know in the reviews and I will try to sort them out for you
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