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Copyright: I own the story line! Don't attempt to take this before advising me. I'll haunt you and make your life really miserable. You must believe me. my muse Adonis has satanic powers
Warnings: homosexual themes, language, drugs use, non graphic sex, pseudo sex, very strong violence, OOC-ness, supernatural themes, death, (mental) bond, horror, blood and gore and everything like such.
Liberation (Schuldich)
I slowly lower Yohji's body from his lap and look up at Ran. / Your ex is a real idiot you know that? /
He doesn't answer. I understand. If I was in this kind of situation, I wouldn't know what to say either. Personally, I don't think there is anything to say. I stare at the bloody mess. Yohji, this is. was his teammate, his lover, someone who lived with him for nearly 3 years.
He's spacing off, staring at Yohji like he's not there. I grab his face and kiss him. Maybe this can make him forget. maybe this can make me forget as well.
He pushes me away / don't./
Out of habit I smirk, but stops as I was asked. Ran looks at Yohji, or what was Yohji. His eyes are wide and blank, his pupils frozen focusing directly at the moon. He's still bleeding and the front of his clothes drenched in blood and so is mine. He squats down beside him and tries to close his eyes.
They refuse to close. Their life-like form is so overwhelming it's impossible to acknowledge that he's dead. I probe Ran's mind to find a jungle of confusion. His panic affects me as well and I touch him to calm him down.
/. He can't be. there is no way he can be dead, he's just. pretending to be. He's playing a prank on me. /
Uh oh, fuck.
Abruptly he grabs Yohji's shoulders and shakes him violently "Get up! Get up you! Get up." Why isn't he getting up? "Kudou stop this game at once! It's not funny! Kudou answer me!"
Oh this is VERY bad. I put my other hand on his shoulder as well. "Ran."
He whips around and stares at me, his green depths passionate. "He's not dead!" He convinces. "He's just trying to trick us. me. he always does that. It's one of his jokes. he's not dead."
I shake his head. "Ran." his mind is so mucked up I has to block him out in order not to let me get tangled in with it.
"He can't be!" He screams and suddenly I am being dragged down- "Look, look at his eyes," he whispers, "he's looking at me, he's smiling. he's trying to trick me. he's not dead! He's holding his breath to scare me." He grabs my shoulders. "Look at him Schuldich, Look at his eyes."
I slap him across the face- maybe this will wake him up. He freezes and I slap him one more time. "Ran. He'd dead!" I tell him.
"No!" He laughs. "You must be kidding right? You're tricking me. you're with him on this. I know- I know your little tricks. And he's not dead, he's not."
"Ran-Kun! Schuldich-Kun!" I look up at see Omi and Aya running towards us. Right after I found Ran I rang them. Omi wasn't so convinced about coming but I insisted.
Aya is staring at Yohji. "Oh my god!" she gasps.
Ran walks over to her. "It's ok, he's not dead, he's trying to trick us. it's one of his pranks."
Aya looks up at him. "You did this." I flinch. Oh shit.
Ran looks at her, still smiling. "No, he's trying to trick us. I'm not in on his trick though, he can't fool me."
Aya fixes her eyes on Ran. "You killed him."
"He's not dead Aya." He puts a hand on her shoulder. Big mistake, she shrinks away like Ran's hand is acid.
"You MONSTER! YOU KILLED HIM!" She suddenly screams. "Don't touch me! NO!" She ducks behind Omi.
"Aya?" Ran is utterly confused, I don't think he remembers that he's in my body. shit.
"Don't touch her Schuldich-Kun." Omi stands defending for Aya. "She's not well. You rang me and I told you she's not well but you insisted."
"Schuldich?" He's not getting this. I desperately want them to stop, but I can't tell the truth. I can't betray Ran. "I'm not Schuldich, I'm Ran!"
"Schuldich!" I stand up, enough of this. I'm going to wake you up once and for all. I turn to Omi and shake my head. "Don't push it Omi. he's kind of out of it."
"No I'm not! And stop calling me Schuldich, Schuldich is not here, he's." He stops, fixing his gaze on me. "Who are you? Why are you like me?"
/ Ran. Ran! / I reach into his mind trying to locate him.
"Who's there?" I can hear the uncertainty out loud.
/ Ran it's me! Schuldich! Ran, come back, remember./
"Who are you?" He looks suspiciously around. "Get out!"
/ Ran! Calm down please, it's me remember? / I probe the memories of us. And I realize what a stupid thing I've done immediately. He suddenly freezes and then screams. Our bond shakes violently and I gasp as well.
I can't give up. I tell myself. I walk over to him and shake his shoulders. /Ran! Look at me. You're ok! Schuldich is here! No one can hurt you. / I try to send calmness through our bond.
Ran stares up into my face, slowly recovering. / Schu. /
I smile and bury my face in his neck, if anybody needs more convincing that they are loved right now, it's Ran. Perhaps I do as well.
I smell trouble when Aya quietly walks over to me. I want to scream 'NO! Don't touch me! Don't come near!' But too late, she grabs Ran by his clothes and wrenches him away from me. "I forbid you to touch my brother!"
Ran looks at Aya and suddenly burst into hysterical laughter. I shudder- he sounds so much like Farfello.
I grab him from Aya. "Aya, mind your own business. Schuldich needs help."
Aya stares at us. Then suddenly screams. "Mind my own business! I've been minding my own business for the past two weeks, months. years! Trying to get out of your way!"
"Aya please." I try to stop her but she's uncontrollable.
"You're manipulated by him! You can't let him take over your life!" She breathes in and fixes her eyes on her real brother. "You evil bastard, do you think you can really break up Weiss?" Before Ran can explain she continues. "Go away, Schuldich, go back to where you came from."
I glare at Omi. "Do something!"
Omi looks directly back. "Not this time, Ran- Kun, I've had enough as well. Besides, she's completely correct!"
Ran suddenly probes my mental shield. / Schuldich! Let me in! /
Out of surprise, I shove him out of my mind. He stumbles physically and stare at Aya, then at Omi, then at the horrible corpse of Yohji who looks so lifelike and finally at me. His eyes have this astonishment and realization. I frown.
He laughs suddenly, a laugh that sounds hysterical and somewhat more like a cry. "You're all leaving me aren't you?" He stares suddenly at the cliff nearby and I get this really shit feeling like.
He's running towards the cliff.
Oh fucking hell.
I run to catch up with him. A sense of desperation washes over me. Ran.
/ Stop you idiot! No one's abandoning you! Ran! /
He doesn't even bother replying. I search in his mind to find. death and jumping into water and death. No hope to live, no fear of dying.
Oh this is not good. Oh this is very, very fucked up. When a person's fear of living overcomes to the fear of dying. Then it's time you get you ass in place and stop him.
/ Ran! Listen to me you idiot! I love you! For god's sake stop! /
He's already at the edge of the cliff. I consider knocking him out but then I realize that if he fall he'll fall off the cliff. And manipulation isn't in question since I bonded with him. Shit!
Right now I have only one wish, and that is to save him, to make sure he stays by my side forever. I can't live without him.... I. I
I freeze in my actions.
No, this is not happening to me... I do not.
I stare at the figure on top of the cliff. "No! RAN! I LOVE YOU!"
He turns back to face me. I gasp in fear when I see that beautiful smile of his. The silver beams the moon casts illuminate the orange hair and green eyes. But that's not what I'm in love with, I'm in love with HIM, his being. his mind. his soul.
No! This is not right! I can't love, I don't have the right to love.and yet. I understood. I loved him for so long- I just refused to confront it. not anymore.
"Ran, please. Come down. I love you, please!"
"Don't waste your breath Schuldich," he grins, a streak of tear falling from his eyes. "I know you don't."
"I do!" I cry out in despair as he stretches his arms sideways. Turning to the sea. He closes his eyes as wind blow the orange cascade into a wild beast.
"I'm flying Schuldich." He says. "I'm finally breaking out of my cocoon of lies. remember? The one I wove around myself. I'll have wings, Schuldich, and I'll fly."
"No! You'll drown! Please Ran, come down!"
I didn't know I could be so desperate, all this time I've lied to him. only to discover I'm hurt more by this than he has.
It's not a lie at all.
/ Ran, give me just one more chance, please, I believe god has really given us mercy this time. /
"If you really love me, I believe your love can save me."
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Ran! Come down! You're not in your right mind! You'll regret this!"
Ran shakes his head slowly. "I'll be free. Don't you see Schuldich? I'll be free." And slowly he leant down.
"NO!" I scream, I grab for his hand, but only caught his sleeve.
"Let go Schuldich. " He tells me. His voice is even and he's still smiling. Suddenly I understand. Let go.
I tip my thoughts out of the shield, I don't need to shield from him... I have nothing to hide.
His gasp of realization and regret is accompanied by the deafening sound of ripping cloth. I scream as he falls down towards the sea.
I'll never forget those green eyes. my eyes.
EN notes: cliff hanger! Wait, I meant post-cliff-hanger, more like a hanging-in-mid-air sort of thing.as you can see there is only 1 more chapter to go. So go me! I can smell the end of this long and more than aggravating journey.
How did you like that? Ran going crazy is good. very good. should I kill him? Or should I let 'Schuldich's love' save him? You'll be surprised.
Anyway, I WILL threaten to leave you there if you don't review (oh come on, it's like the only time I do this) so REVIEW PLEASE! THANK YOU!
Copyright: I own the story line! Don't attempt to take this before advising me. I'll haunt you and make your life really miserable. You must believe me. my muse Adonis has satanic powers
Warnings: homosexual themes, language, drugs use, non graphic sex, pseudo sex, very strong violence, OOC-ness, supernatural themes, death, (mental) bond, horror, blood and gore and everything like such.
Liberation (Schuldich)
I slowly lower Yohji's body from his lap and look up at Ran. / Your ex is a real idiot you know that? /
He doesn't answer. I understand. If I was in this kind of situation, I wouldn't know what to say either. Personally, I don't think there is anything to say. I stare at the bloody mess. Yohji, this is. was his teammate, his lover, someone who lived with him for nearly 3 years.
He's spacing off, staring at Yohji like he's not there. I grab his face and kiss him. Maybe this can make him forget. maybe this can make me forget as well.
He pushes me away / don't./
Out of habit I smirk, but stops as I was asked. Ran looks at Yohji, or what was Yohji. His eyes are wide and blank, his pupils frozen focusing directly at the moon. He's still bleeding and the front of his clothes drenched in blood and so is mine. He squats down beside him and tries to close his eyes.
They refuse to close. Their life-like form is so overwhelming it's impossible to acknowledge that he's dead. I probe Ran's mind to find a jungle of confusion. His panic affects me as well and I touch him to calm him down.
/. He can't be. there is no way he can be dead, he's just. pretending to be. He's playing a prank on me. /
Uh oh, fuck.
Abruptly he grabs Yohji's shoulders and shakes him violently "Get up! Get up you! Get up." Why isn't he getting up? "Kudou stop this game at once! It's not funny! Kudou answer me!"
Oh this is VERY bad. I put my other hand on his shoulder as well. "Ran."
He whips around and stares at me, his green depths passionate. "He's not dead!" He convinces. "He's just trying to trick us. me. he always does that. It's one of his jokes. he's not dead."
I shake his head. "Ran." his mind is so mucked up I has to block him out in order not to let me get tangled in with it.
"He can't be!" He screams and suddenly I am being dragged down- "Look, look at his eyes," he whispers, "he's looking at me, he's smiling. he's trying to trick me. he's not dead! He's holding his breath to scare me." He grabs my shoulders. "Look at him Schuldich, Look at his eyes."
I slap him across the face- maybe this will wake him up. He freezes and I slap him one more time. "Ran. He'd dead!" I tell him.
"No!" He laughs. "You must be kidding right? You're tricking me. you're with him on this. I know- I know your little tricks. And he's not dead, he's not."
"Ran-Kun! Schuldich-Kun!" I look up at see Omi and Aya running towards us. Right after I found Ran I rang them. Omi wasn't so convinced about coming but I insisted.
Aya is staring at Yohji. "Oh my god!" she gasps.
Ran walks over to her. "It's ok, he's not dead, he's trying to trick us. it's one of his pranks."
Aya looks up at him. "You did this." I flinch. Oh shit.
Ran looks at her, still smiling. "No, he's trying to trick us. I'm not in on his trick though, he can't fool me."
Aya fixes her eyes on Ran. "You killed him."
"He's not dead Aya." He puts a hand on her shoulder. Big mistake, she shrinks away like Ran's hand is acid.
"You MONSTER! YOU KILLED HIM!" She suddenly screams. "Don't touch me! NO!" She ducks behind Omi.
"Aya?" Ran is utterly confused, I don't think he remembers that he's in my body. shit.
"Don't touch her Schuldich-Kun." Omi stands defending for Aya. "She's not well. You rang me and I told you she's not well but you insisted."
"Schuldich?" He's not getting this. I desperately want them to stop, but I can't tell the truth. I can't betray Ran. "I'm not Schuldich, I'm Ran!"
"Schuldich!" I stand up, enough of this. I'm going to wake you up once and for all. I turn to Omi and shake my head. "Don't push it Omi. he's kind of out of it."
"No I'm not! And stop calling me Schuldich, Schuldich is not here, he's." He stops, fixing his gaze on me. "Who are you? Why are you like me?"
/ Ran. Ran! / I reach into his mind trying to locate him.
"Who's there?" I can hear the uncertainty out loud.
/ Ran it's me! Schuldich! Ran, come back, remember./
"Who are you?" He looks suspiciously around. "Get out!"
/ Ran! Calm down please, it's me remember? / I probe the memories of us. And I realize what a stupid thing I've done immediately. He suddenly freezes and then screams. Our bond shakes violently and I gasp as well.
I can't give up. I tell myself. I walk over to him and shake his shoulders. /Ran! Look at me. You're ok! Schuldich is here! No one can hurt you. / I try to send calmness through our bond.
Ran stares up into my face, slowly recovering. / Schu. /
I smile and bury my face in his neck, if anybody needs more convincing that they are loved right now, it's Ran. Perhaps I do as well.
I smell trouble when Aya quietly walks over to me. I want to scream 'NO! Don't touch me! Don't come near!' But too late, she grabs Ran by his clothes and wrenches him away from me. "I forbid you to touch my brother!"
Ran looks at Aya and suddenly burst into hysterical laughter. I shudder- he sounds so much like Farfello.
I grab him from Aya. "Aya, mind your own business. Schuldich needs help."
Aya stares at us. Then suddenly screams. "Mind my own business! I've been minding my own business for the past two weeks, months. years! Trying to get out of your way!"
"Aya please." I try to stop her but she's uncontrollable.
"You're manipulated by him! You can't let him take over your life!" She breathes in and fixes her eyes on her real brother. "You evil bastard, do you think you can really break up Weiss?" Before Ran can explain she continues. "Go away, Schuldich, go back to where you came from."
I glare at Omi. "Do something!"
Omi looks directly back. "Not this time, Ran- Kun, I've had enough as well. Besides, she's completely correct!"
Ran suddenly probes my mental shield. / Schuldich! Let me in! /
Out of surprise, I shove him out of my mind. He stumbles physically and stare at Aya, then at Omi, then at the horrible corpse of Yohji who looks so lifelike and finally at me. His eyes have this astonishment and realization. I frown.
He laughs suddenly, a laugh that sounds hysterical and somewhat more like a cry. "You're all leaving me aren't you?" He stares suddenly at the cliff nearby and I get this really shit feeling like.
He's running towards the cliff.
Oh fucking hell.
I run to catch up with him. A sense of desperation washes over me. Ran.
/ Stop you idiot! No one's abandoning you! Ran! /
He doesn't even bother replying. I search in his mind to find. death and jumping into water and death. No hope to live, no fear of dying.
Oh this is not good. Oh this is very, very fucked up. When a person's fear of living overcomes to the fear of dying. Then it's time you get you ass in place and stop him.
/ Ran! Listen to me you idiot! I love you! For god's sake stop! /
He's already at the edge of the cliff. I consider knocking him out but then I realize that if he fall he'll fall off the cliff. And manipulation isn't in question since I bonded with him. Shit!
Right now I have only one wish, and that is to save him, to make sure he stays by my side forever. I can't live without him.... I. I
I freeze in my actions.
No, this is not happening to me... I do not.
I stare at the figure on top of the cliff. "No! RAN! I LOVE YOU!"
He turns back to face me. I gasp in fear when I see that beautiful smile of his. The silver beams the moon casts illuminate the orange hair and green eyes. But that's not what I'm in love with, I'm in love with HIM, his being. his mind. his soul.
No! This is not right! I can't love, I don't have the right to love.and yet. I understood. I loved him for so long- I just refused to confront it. not anymore.
"Ran, please. Come down. I love you, please!"
"Don't waste your breath Schuldich," he grins, a streak of tear falling from his eyes. "I know you don't."
"I do!" I cry out in despair as he stretches his arms sideways. Turning to the sea. He closes his eyes as wind blow the orange cascade into a wild beast.
"I'm flying Schuldich." He says. "I'm finally breaking out of my cocoon of lies. remember? The one I wove around myself. I'll have wings, Schuldich, and I'll fly."
"No! You'll drown! Please Ran, come down!"
I didn't know I could be so desperate, all this time I've lied to him. only to discover I'm hurt more by this than he has.
It's not a lie at all.
/ Ran, give me just one more chance, please, I believe god has really given us mercy this time. /
"If you really love me, I believe your love can save me."
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean? Ran! Come down! You're not in your right mind! You'll regret this!"
Ran shakes his head slowly. "I'll be free. Don't you see Schuldich? I'll be free." And slowly he leant down.
"NO!" I scream, I grab for his hand, but only caught his sleeve.
"Let go Schuldich. " He tells me. His voice is even and he's still smiling. Suddenly I understand. Let go.
I tip my thoughts out of the shield, I don't need to shield from him... I have nothing to hide.
His gasp of realization and regret is accompanied by the deafening sound of ripping cloth. I scream as he falls down towards the sea.
I'll never forget those green eyes. my eyes.
EN notes: cliff hanger! Wait, I meant post-cliff-hanger, more like a hanging-in-mid-air sort of thing.as you can see there is only 1 more chapter to go. So go me! I can smell the end of this long and more than aggravating journey.
How did you like that? Ran going crazy is good. very good. should I kill him? Or should I let 'Schuldich's love' save him? You'll be surprised.
Anyway, I WILL threaten to leave you there if you don't review (oh come on, it's like the only time I do this) so REVIEW PLEASE! THANK YOU!