Chapter 35
Still Left with Me
to be thrown into the air
you don't care what they all think
the fall had passed
your friends won't last
and you're still left with me
the spring will cut us deep
like a dagger in between
the pain had passed
your love is vast
and you're still left with me
underneath what's become of me
i lost track of all the uncertainty
keep you close and tough like history
after the fire, you're still left with me
and the nights are so sweet
when we ignore the misery
the silenced passed
there's warmth at last
and you're still left with me
when the silence gets too deep
i won't let it conquer me
time has passed
you're here at last
and you're still left with me
-Craft Spells
Darkness is something that has always surrounded my life. And as I run through the hallways trying not to die, I find that darkness has found my life once again. I am being chased. Funny the chaser being the once chased for a change.
I didn't want to turn around to face the person who was running after me, but human instinct got the better of me. I stopped running and turned around.
Where was he?
I ran my hand through my hair, and my chest quickly rose and fell; I continued to run.
It was like the hallway never ended, when would it end? The hallway disappeared, and a black void now filled the hallway. I had just stopped myself from falling right off of the edge.
My heart was racing I turned around, and he was there. Snake Eyes took off his mask. His eyes were cold and dark. He took out the blade from behind his back and stabbed me. He kicked me off of his blade and let me fall into the dark void.
I felt the air being sucked out of my lungs, and a tight compression on my chest. The light from the hallway was becoming smaller, and tears streaked my face.
I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe, I closed my eyes hoping for the madness to end.
I sat up in my bed once again gasping for air. It had been almost a week that I had been in the hospital since the incident. That's what I would rather call it instead of, the time that the man I love with all my heart and soul, stabbed me and let me fall to my death.
It was the serum, it wasn't him. That's what I keep telling myself over and over again, willing the words to have meaning and stick to my head. But my head isn't the problem my heart is.
Tommy's- Storm Shadows words just keep echoing over and over again.
What if he's right? What if deep down inside Snake Eyes wanted to do those things? What if he doesn't love me as much as he says he does?
NO!
That's not right. He jumped in after me- he, he saved me. He loves me, he does- doesn't he?
I'm just hurt and confused and lost, and how do you continue to love someone after they almost tried to kill you? He didn't kill me didn't he? I mean I was dead, and he needed to bring me back to life. But what really matters is that he DID save me right?
God. I just need to stop thinking, my heart is racing a million miles per minute, and I cant handle this right now.
It's all just too much.
I heard a knock on the door, and it brought me back.
"Come in."
"So how's the patient doing?"
"Scarlett!"
Scarlett laughed as she walked over to the bed. She leaned down and she hugged me, pulled up a seat and sat down.
"Wow, you look like crap."
"I missed you to Red"
She smiled, and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. "How are you doing? With you know everything that's happened?"
"I am horrific. But I mean after everything that's happened that's to be expected right? How are you though? When did you wake up? I didn't want to leave you, I hope you know that. I-"
"Alyson relax." She put a hand on my arm. "I am perfectly fine, I actually woke up 3 days after getting- you know shot. But I'm healthy and everything's fine."
I let out a sigh of relief "Have you talked to him?"
She looked down, and crossed her legs. "I have"
"And?"
"It went over; ok I guess you could say. I mean my best friend shot me and put me in a coma, it's kind of hard to just forgive and forget. But we talked it out, and I think we should be ok. Though Ripcord doesn't seem like he's going to be talking him anytime soon, or your brother. They both took it a little hard."
I can imagine.
"So you guys are ok then?" I bit the side of my cheek.
"Yeah, why do you seem to tense? Is everything ok? Do I need to get Doc because-"
"No, no it's nothing like that it's just that- well"
"What is it Alyson?"
"I just know how to act around him anymore. Things are just different. We try, but he acts so careful around me like he could break me at any second. And I keep having dreams about what he did to me. It happens differently every time, but it all ends the same, he stabs me and I fall. I just don't know what to do. And then there is the other thing."
"What your feeling is perfectly normal for what happened- but wait what other thing?"
"Well um…"
"Alyson"
"Storm Shadow may or may not have kissed me."
"What!?"
She stood up so fast that her chair fell over. "OH. MY. GOD."
"How, when, where, why?"
"Well-"
"He is capable of feeling like that? I mean I didn't even think it was possible, that he thinks of anything other than killing I mean he is just so so-"
"Shana"
"Sorry Sorry this is just like a bomb of information to throw at someone. Have you told Snake Eyes?" She picked up her chair and sat back down.
"Actually no I haven't"
"Why?"
"I just, I don't know. I feel like I should I need to but I can't bring myself to do it."
"It shouldn't be hard to do unless-"
"Unless what?"
"You have feelings for Storm Shadow."
"Shana you've lost it. You're crazy if you think I could have feeling for that self centered, arrogant, patronizing, cocky son of bitch. He drives me crazy! And then he has the nerve to kiss me and then later tell me 'I have discovered that I think I care a great deal about you'. I mean what the hell kind of BS is that? I mean really? He knows that I love Snake Eyes, he knows that I was willing to die for him. He- he, what? Why are you looking at me like that?"
She was chuckling, chuckling and grinning at me. "Nothing. It's just that's what I used to say about Ripcord."
I just looked at her.
"Look, I'm not saying that you love the guy, or that he's better for you than Snake Eyes. But you have to recognize your feelings. You can't just ignore them and hope that they vanish into some deep dark hole where no one is ever going to find them. You're a good person Alyson, and whatever decision you make I'm gonna stand by you. Even if you do choose a crazy psychopath killer. But I do think you need to tell Snake Eyes what happened between you too, while he was in la la land. He deserves to know at least that."
"Do you ever get tired of it?"
"Tired of what?"
"Always being right?"
She laughed "Nope, not at all."
I couldn't help but laugh.
"Thank you Shana."
"Don't mention it. I'll let you get some rest ok? We need you back to your ass kicking self"
I smiled at her "Take care of yourself ok?"
She saluted me and walked out.
I looked up at the ceiling.
It was only a kiss, how did everything end up like this?
I heard the door open and close. I turned my head.
"Snake Eyes"
He walked towards me.
I guess it's time to rip the band aid off.
(A/N) Ok two updates only like hours apart from each other, have I half way made it up to you guys? Let me know your God honest opinion.
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