By the time they had gotten to the cabin, Lilly sat down on the couch as he lit a fire. Her hand resting feeling her little girl hiccupping inside as she began rubbing her stomach, whatever the name would be she couldn't wait to meet her. Thinking about how warm she was inside Lilly peered down placing both hands there feeling each kick, Scotty smiled at his wife but knew he couldn't tell her about her mother's past.
Somehow Lilly looked over" I'm hungry" as he sighed" It's snowing out Lil, Ain't going out there".
"Want our daughter to starve" seeing the look on his faces" She's not right" placing a hand there. Getting up Scotty put on his coat before giving Lilly a quick kiss before heading out there knowing she was craving the strangest things. Just a month prior he had been sent out at midnight for a burger and a milkshake.
While he went out Lilly was busy digging through the bag when she came across a thick manila envelope inside was file on her mother. Sure enough it showed that her mother was bounced between families having no real one except living with a woman who served the role but it wasn't. Placing a hand there Lilly went into her wallet pulling out a picture of her mother hugging her as baby, realizing that might have something do why she was so distant.
Scanning through there was an adoption with her name on it, Lilly's eyes widened not knowing about this but more pissed at Scotty. He knew all about this but why keep this from her, especially that her unborn daughter needed to her family history this was part of her also. Having no luck trying to get anything to eat he returned seeing the pissed look on her face.
"Didn't think of telling me" Lilly yelled" That I was almost given up for Adoption".
Scotty saw the rage brewing in her eyes" Was going to tell you Lil; you think I would keep that from you"?
"Yeah you would" she said" You know I still miss her Scotty, don't act like you don't care especially when I'm pregnant" before a diary slipped out" Where the hell did you find this". He knew he had to come clear about this" She gave it to me the day she didn't come home, I knew where she was".
This took to the cake as Lilly threw a pillow of him" You're full of fucking shit Scotty, lied again just like you had done while fucking with Christina" before grabbing the keys" Don't bother coming home or seeing my daughter when she's born". He chased after her seeing the car backing down" What the hell are you doing" before seeing Lilly flipping the finger at him.
Suddenly it broke down seeing that it was out of gas and she wasn't about to walk being pregnant and all. Storming back in Lilly slammed the bedroom door sitting on the bed feeling so angry at her husband for lying to her. Peering down she knew her unborn daughter was feeling this" Sorry, Mommy still loves you no matter what". Feeling a kick Lilly rubbed her stomach before reading over the diaries seeing how lonely her mother had felt, but was trapped between a drunken husband and her baby.
Went down to the adoption services and filled out some paper work before feeling it kicking. This little life inside of me is fighting to be love so much, can tell it's very strong. I can make that decision when it's born.
Flipping to the entry dated the day she was born things didn't seem to get any better.
Lilly is beautiful and strong I look at her seeing that I want to give her more, than I can give. She needs love but I can't give her up. Upon fast forwarding past blah, Lilly's eyes widened" While holding Lilly in my arms I don't know what to do, she's cold and hungry all the time, maybe a good family would be good for her. Then again she is the reason why I am here, seeing my happiness in her I'll go to keep her she is my daughter.
Now feeling her baby kicking Lilly took out a picture from her latest sonogram knowing she was so happy to have a child of her own but then saw an entry that scared her.
Found my daughter out in the cold scared and alone, she's freezing after he dumped her here all alone on the streets. Try to comfort Lilly but he doesn't want me near here but when we get back she's shaking while crying. Sitting down on her bed I take out a book reading to her, knowing Lilly I'll be reading it a million times over.
Then Lilly realized where her childhood nightmares had been coming from, her father. He hit her then threw her out on a street all alone; she remembered the cold air hitting her skin feeling the wrath of loneliness inside. Shedding a tear before seeing a picture of her mother cradling her as a newborn, knowing in fact she had gotten that comfort and protection. Glancing over at another picture she saw her mother as a little girl looking so sad.
She had no one to love her, but this told Lilly she had to change this. Her unborn daughter would receive love, comfort and safety that her mother, Christina and her never really got fully; a sense of family. Then Lilly realized Scotty had a dark secret in which he never knew about: he was adopted. His mother never got to meet him since she had an affair with his father, but was in an abusive marriage.
She was also an alcoholic after his birth with ten arrests and was even admitted into a mental ward due to deep depression. When Scotty finally was able to unlock the door he stood there" Sorry I didn't tell you".
"Can't you stay the fuck out" Lilly yelled" Can't deal with your problems since you were adopted".
Scotty shook his head" I wasn't Lil, don't try and use that one on me" before Lilly picked up a piece of paper "You weren't wanted by your father but your mother loved you. Cause I spoke to her just a month before this".
He snatched the paper out of her hands before realizing that this was true" We we're both unwanted, accidents but our daughter weren't. We planned for this to happen".
" No shit" Lilly said" I was there when you came hard inside of me" letting out a breath" Now leave me alone you're stressing out our daughter" before going into the bathroom. Scotty grew even pissed" Don't forget how everyone in Philly heard your orgasm Lil".
"Yeah, yeah" the blonde thought while starting up the water in the tub. Placing a hand on her stomach she let out a breath" Glad your inside of me" telling that to her daughter. Lilly was so stressed after this whole thing before relaxing in a warm bath while drawing in some long deep breaths in order to calm her down. Inside the fetus floated around in her warm environment hearing her mother's heart beat and breaths.
Outside Lilly closed her eyes while listening to music to made her thoughts drift away, meanwhile Scotty knew this was bogus knowing he looked like a combination of both his parents. It didn't make sense or was it really true?