SM OWNS ALL THINGS TWILIGHT
AN; As always, you guys are amazing with the support you show this story and me. Thankyou so very much. Lemon warning.
This chap is dedicated to Jule Whatev. Couldn't do it without you x
ESME POV
"So you'll be having the baby in with you for the first six months?"
"Yes…"I stammered, slightly taken aback by the unexpected question and his sharp questioning tone.
"Crib? or Moses basket?"
"Moses basket…"
"That's good, and you'll be breast feeding?"
"Err yes…"
"On demand or every four hours?"
"I…I don't know…"
"You should really think about it, four hours is probably best…get him into a routine…have you thought about a birth plan?"
"Yes, as many drugs as possible…" I joked.
"Epidural does make things a bit easier it's true, but I wouldn't let that stop you taking Le Mars classes…breathing is very important…you're very fit Mae, so your muscles may take a little longer to stretch, you may need some breathing exercises to help you focus…that, and maybe a birthing ball"
"Okaaaaay…"I whimpered.
"Carlisle can help you with the breathing…if he sits behind you, braces your body against his, or if you position yourself like this…
"Mae, we were going to get some fresh air…but if you're busy…" Alice began as she burst into the lounge at Harrowview. The little pixie turned almost puce in the face, as she tried not to laugh, at the sight of Emmett on the floor, his legs raised as if he were about to give birth.
"NO, FRESH AIR WOULD BE…really, really good…" I said quickly, beseeching her with my eyes, to take pity and help me up from the ridiculously squishy sofa I had made the mistake of sitting in.
"If you're sure…"
My answering growl had her rushing over, and lifting me with freakishly strong arms for one so small, back onto my feet.
"But… we haven't been through the breathing yet. I've been practicing…" Emmett said, pouting in an adorably childlike, but ever so slightly worrying way.
"How about you and I, go put some more ice, on that ankle of yours…and maybe in a few other places…" we heard Rose, coo to Emmett as we hurried through the door.
"Believe it or not, the big old bear is only trying to help. He feels guilty that he wasn't around much during my pregnancy…and like the rest of us, all he wants to do, is make sure, you enjoy every minute of this pregnancy honey…" Alice said after she, Bella and Rose, who had been waiting outside the door, recovered from our explosion, of not so silent laughter. Emmett had he always did at the Harrowview fair, joined the Irish dancing display team, showing off some truly impressive footwork. However, one of the primary school gymnasts, who had been on the stage just before, having an unseen little accident, meant that Emmett's Michael Flatley impression, had taken a more literal meaning, with Emmett skidding across the stage and landing heavily on his ankle. It had meant that he had been unable to join Edward, Jasper and Carlisle when they took three of Harrowviews horses, out for a ride round the land. Instead, Emmett had hobbled into the lounge where I was reading a magazine and sheltering from the increasing summer heat.
"I know…and I love you all for it, it's just Em, kinda freaked me out about how much is actually involved, what I have to do…what I have to plan…"
"Sweetie, there is still plenty of time…I'll help you. But what you need to worry about first of all, is getting settled in that beautiful new house of yours." Alice said, giving my arm a comforting squeeze as we made our way down the front steps.
"It is a beautiful house isn't it…" I sighed happily.
"A real family home…" Bella smiled.
" Wouldn't have found it without Danielle's help. I kind of liked the second one we saw, but she wasn't having it…wouldn't settle till we were in our house."
"That's my girl…" Alice said proudly.
"Our house…I have a house Al…a real house. No more apartments…I have space…lots of wonderful space…for my…family…" I sang happily.
"Yes, you do…but you still have to pack up your apartment. You may have plenty of time to plan little AJ's arrival, but you only have a week, before you have to move…"
"I know…but the movers Bella recommended seem reliable…"
"They are the best, all you need to do, is pack up any personal stuff, you want to take with you…they'll wrap and pack the rest…" Bella chipped in.
" Carlisle and I can manage that, but…I'm in no shape to be hanging drapes, or waiting around to let the carpet layers in..and Carlisle will be taking his first classes at the police academy this week…" I panicked.
"Rose and I are on that…and on Saturday, I'll stay at the apartment with Carlisle to oversee things that end, whilst Rose, Edward, Jazzy and Supernanny in there, are at the new house with you…"
"Ladies…I hate to interrupt, but…I thought you may want to see…" Bella stammered, pointing vaguely towards the distance.
"Ride me cowboy…" Alice moaned.
I was incapable of saying anything, as I took in the sight of Jasper, Carlisle and Edward bringing their horses into line on the crest of the large hill, that overlooked the house.
"They're going to race…" Alice squeaked.
And she was right. After a moment of what looked like teasing banter, that we were too far away to hear, the three of them began thundering towards us.
Thankyou God, for not letting me take my glasses off after Emmett had interrupted my reading. My light sensitive lenses, which became darker when I was in bright sunlight for any period of time, meant that I was able, despite the bright sunlight, to see his long, lean body clearly, most importantly, I was able to see, the hard muscles of his thighs and legs, stretching and flexing beneath his tanned skin as he fought to stay ahead of the others. Carlisle's horse Copper looked pretty impressive as well.
I don't think Alice, Bella or I, realized we had moved, with surprising speed, round the side of the house towards the stables where the boys were heading, until we heard them taunting each other and geeing up their mounts, their voices, carrying to us, on the slight breeze that drifted down off the hill.
"Come on Jazzy…" Alice screamed suddenly.
"Come on Edward…" Bella joined in.
The sudden screams, caused the boys to look up and slow, but only for a second. Before we knew it, the sound of thundering hooves and ragged breathing, from both horse and rider, was almost deafening.
"Show em how it's done baby…" I found myself screaming to Carlisle.
And ever eager, to never deny me what I wanted, Carlisle did just that. Lowering his head almost flat against his steeds, Carlisle used his incredibly strong thighs, to urge Copper into a final burst of speed, that saw him thunder into the yard, ahead of the others.
"Winner stables the horses and sorts out the tac…" Alice chirped
"Since when…" I choked grabbing her arm. Carlisle had dismounted, bathed in a sheen of sweat that caused his white Tshirt, to cling to him in a way, which coupled with the kiss for the winner he had demanded, had me desperate for us to go take a shower and a long, not at all restful nap.
"Since, my cowboy just informed me, that he is in desperate need of a good, hard rub down, and Carlisle suddenly remembered that he still, hasn't given you the tour of the new stables…and tac room, which just so happens, to be in the stable furthest away from the house…" Alice said with a truly filthy chuckle
I wasn't sure at first, if Carlisle's grunt was one of pleasure or pain as I lowered my not inconsiderable bulk onto his lap, straddling him. My worries were quickly forgotten however, as the combination of his hands gently kneading my swollen and sensitive breasts, whilst his dangerous mouth suckled and nipped at the over heated skin of my neck and collar bone, left me unable to think of anything but the intense pleasure coursing through me and my overwhelming need to be closer to, see more of, my incredibly sexy husband. Starting, with the hard planes of his torso that my hands were roaming wildly over, beneath his sweat soaked T-shirt.
"Off…" I mumbled round the edge of a hot, wet, messy kiss, tugging the material of his shirt upwards. Carlisle chuckled softly as he raised his arms. I heard the shirt land with a gentle thud somewhere behind him, but I didn't bother to look exactly where, my eyes were too busy devouring his tanned chest. Thanks to my increasing bump, I could not reach as much of him as I wanted and at this moment…that was really not a good thing.
"Mine…" I growled, before attacking his neck and sensitive collar bone with my mouth and teeth. Christ, any fatigue I may have been feeling earlier thanks to the extreme heat, had disappeared and had been replaced, by a hormonal driven second wind that saw me practically attacking poor Carlisle. I kind of knew I was acting crazy, but I didn't seem to be able to control my wandering hands or my mouth.
From the corner of my eye, I had noticed a single bead of sweat slowly trickling from behind Carlisle's ear and down his neck, I had watched transfixed for a moment, before moving forward and retracing it's route with my tounge, taking a moment to inhale deeply, Carlisle's scent, which seemed even more potent mixed with his sweat.
"All yours Mae…always…" Carlisle groaned as he let his head fall back, to give me better access.
"You smell…so good…and taste…amazing…" I breathed, sucking lightly on his skin, whilst my hands slipped down between us and raked over his upper chest. Carlisle's hiss of pleasure at the feel of my nails toying with his hardened nipple, was lost by the sound of my moan as he bucked his hips upwards against me.
CARLISLE POV
I was learning quickly, that Mae's hormones were…unpredictable, to say the least. And were only, according to Jasper, Alice, Sue, Embry, Claire, just about everybody, going to get worse. But if we could balance out the bad moments with intense, sexy as hell moments like this one, I would be a very happy man.
Experience had taught me, that whilst Mae enjoyed riding, she got more pleasure from seeing me ride, and it seemed that today, despite the extreme heat, was no exception. If anything, she seemed even more turned on than before and she had never looked more beautiful, with her ruffled hair, swollen lips and blossoming body spilling out of her white gypsy style dress, which I had quickly began to help her remove.
Adding that stunning vision, to the sound, of her softly moaning my name, whilst her soft hands and dangerous, hot mouth moved over my body, made me want her, badly. Which helped me, forget the irritating prickle of the bale of straw that I was leaning against. Unfortunately, her beautiful, blossoming body, meant that we wouldn't be able to get as close as we both wanted and needed to be, without being a little creative.
"Carlisle…please…I need you baby…" she whimpered, writhing on my lap, desperately trying to create some friction to ease the need I could see so clearly building within her.
I was being mean I know, but her swollen dark peaks were just too tempting to resist. Taking one in my mouth, I gently grazed it with my teeth, before soothing it with a swipe of my tounge, earning a wanton moan and an almost painful tugging on my hair, that caused me to growl against her hot, sensitive skin.
"Pleeeeease Carlisle…" Mae whimpered.
My pleasure at hearing her call my name, was almost outweighed by my hatred of hearing her beg like that.
"Maaeee…darling, you're…going to…have…to…stand…up…baby…" I groaned, brushing my lips over hers and down over her bare breasts and torso, whilst my hands caressed her hips, where her dress was bunched. It took Mae a few long moments to focus and understand my words, when she did, a slow, sultry smile twitched her lips, causing my arousal to twitch painfully.
"I'm all, for saving a horse and riding a cowboy…" she purred.
I couldn't help the groan that escaped me. It took a little maneuvering and more than a little laughter, but finally, with my help Mae managed to stand, allowing me to regain a little feeling in my legs.
" I bet…this…isn't what…you…had…in…mind…when…you suggested a…roll in…the hay…" Mae breathed into my neck, as she ran her hands down my back, slipping beneath the waistband of my cargo pants and squeezing my ass and thighs as she slipped them down.
"Nope" I growled as I ran my hands all over her body, slipping her dress the rest of the way down. "It's sooo much better…"
"Stunning…breathtaking…" I moaned as I took a step back, and took in the vision of my beautiful, naked, pregnant wife standing before me, sunlight bathing her beautiful body and hair in a warm glow.
I would suffer, for exposing my bare skin to straw and friction, but it was a pain I would suffer gladly, for the incredible feeling of Mae slowly slipping down over me, taking me deep inside her wet heat. I hated not being able to see her face. She was always so beautiful in that first moment when we joined together. Her face, bathed in lust, love and peace, everything that I myself felt. But the only comfortable way for us to be together, was for her to be on top, but facing away from me, meaning that her bump was not hindering our movements or being squashed.
"Carlisle…" Mae whimpered, obviously hating the sense of disconnection herself. I was sitting with my back against a bale of straw, but I pushed myself forward, wrapping an arm around her body and resting my head on her shoulder.
"I'm here my darling…right here…" I growled lowly, kissing her bare shoulders, before I began to thrust up into her.
There were no more words after that, just soft sighs, babbled words of love and need and the sound of skin on skin. Finally, after what felt like mere moments, Mae began to tense, her muscles clamping down hard around me. The roar I let loose as I fell over the edge with my beautiful wife, made me extremely glad that we were in the part of the stables far from the house.
ESME POV
"I never had you down as a Lord" I had stammered
"I'm not yet, I hope I never will be…" Carlisle had sighed.
"Vive La Republique huh?"
" Exactly"
"So, if you're not a Lord, what?"
"A Right Honourable…" Carlisle had muttered, an adorable blush flushing his cheeks
"So, the Right Honourable Carlisle Cullen, what does your entry in Debrett's say? Likes Polo, hunting and catching bad guys…" I had teased.
"Something like that…but I haven't hunted in years…" Carlisle had laughed softly, letting me hear for the first time, the beautiful, deep, melodic sound that I loved so much.
"A truly honourable, honourable…" I had said softly, stroking his hand that was lying along the back of the sofa.
"If I was truly honourable, I wouldn't…do this…on a first date…" he had growled, before capturing my mouth in that first, sweet, tender, but incredibly passionate kiss.
"It might not be honourable…but it feels pretty damn right…" I sighed as I ran my hand over the back of the sofa I had sat on, that first date with Carlisle. I had been shocked when I came back, to see that apart from a few paintings, a new bed, a larger TV and some gym equipment, Carlisle had changed little about the apartment in the time we had been apart.
The sun was just beginning to rise over Tower Bridge, into another cloudless blue sky. It wouldn't be long, before the River and the roads below, would become a noisy hive of activity once more. And as much as I loved these sounds, I was glad of the silence as I wandered round the apartment. It gave me time to remember…the good and the bad that had happened to us here…
"Please…please believe me, I didn't want to leave you…it was…the hardest thing…I have ever had to do Carlisle…"
"Then WHY? Why did you leave me standing at the altar Mae? WHY?"
"I WAS SCARED..."
"Of what? I thought you were happy? I thought…I thought you wanted a life with me…" Carlisle had demanded, almost ripping his hair out as he ran a hand through it. The look on his face…demanding, pleading, terrified, haunted, had almost broken my heart.
"I didn't want to…I didn't want to…" I had sobbed
"Then WHY MAE? WHY?"
"I…I was pregnant…"
The day had barely started, but the heat was already stifling, a suffocating blanket of heat. After pouring myself some juice, I wandered out onto the balcony, hoping to catch some of the breeze that often blew across the river.
"You look…I can't, I can't lose another…have another dream…another baby taken from me, in another bathroom…I can't…" I had stammered, before running out here.
I had been so sure, I didn't know how, still didn't, that I was pregnant, but as I had sat in that bathroom waiting…waiting for confirmation that I really was, finally, carrying the baby I…we so desperately wanted, I panicked. Jane's voice…"some women are just not meant to be mother's Mae dear…and I fear that you, are one of those women…when it comes to being mother to a child of breeding at least. You don't have the necessary skills, temprement…it wouldn't be fair on the poor child…I'm doing you a favour really" had echoed deafeningly in my ears.
"Nothing has been taken away from us Mae…we've waited eight years…had more than our fair share of pain…and tears…but we, you…my beautiful, brave, amazing wife, has achieved the impossible. Made me love…adore you more than I do already…you are officially pregnant…" Carlisle had rasped, tears running unchecked down his face, which at the same time, was bathed in the most beautiful, loving smile.
It had taken me several long moments to process Carlisle's words, but finally my pounding heart, which had felt like it was threatening to burst out of my chest, heard him. I was pregnant…I was carrying my Carlisle's baby inside me…I knew Carlisle wouldn't lie, not about this, but I couldn't stop myself…
"Are you sure?…" I had whispered, barely able to force the words out, through the tears that were threatening to choke me, with the ferocity with which they were falling.
"All four tests were positive…" Carlisle had said, his thumbs moving across my cheeks, trying to remove the tears, I knew it caused him physical pain to see me shed, even in happiness. This man…my man, my Carlisle…I loved him so damn much…I remembered trying to tell him so, but stumbling on my words as the tears continued to fall, and because I was…overwhelmed, dazzled, by the adoration, happiness, excitement and true, all consuming, soul deep love that Carlisle had in his eyes as he looked at me, in that oh so precious moment…
"Mae…Mae…sweetheart…are you alright?"
Carlisle's slightly frantic voice had pulled me from my reverie and made me jump. He was standing beside me, any vestiges of the sleep he had just woken from, gone as he looked at me, searching for the cause of my distress.
"I was…thinking…remembering…a lot has happened here…this house…this balcony…you told me…you told me…I was pregnant here…" I stammered wiping furiously and pointlessly, at the tears I could feel falling.
" Next to the moment, I finally heard you say I do…that was the happiest moment of my life…so far…the happiest, will obviously be…when I can finally see…hold my son…our son…" Carlisle said roughly, his own eyes shining with unshed tears as he gently, stroked my bump.
I couldn't help the snort, of very un lady like laughter, that escaped me, as I noticed he had a handkerchief in his hand.
"I've learnt the hard way, keep one on me at ALL times…if I don't use it to dry your tears, I can use it to mop up the blood, when you smack me in the mouth…"he replied with a teasing smile.
"I may handcuff you, throw you around and shout at you a bit…but I would never…damage that beautiful face…" I said with a soft laugh as I cupped his cheek in my hand.
"Well that's a relief" he chuckled.
"How could I risk it…I love the way you look at me, especially when you first wake up. You look so surprised, so happy to see me…every time…every time…" I breathed. Carlisle gave me a soft smile as he leant into my hand, covering it with his own.
" Well…there's a part of me, that just for a second, in that weird moment before I wake up properly, is always terrified that it all…you coming back to me…us getting married…our beautiful, beautiful boy, the new life we have to look forward to…in our new home…there's a part of me, that is convinced that's it's all been nothing but a dream. That I am really going to wake up on the sofa, in Alice's spare room…on the fucking floor…alone…." Carlisle rasped, the tears now running unchecked down his face.
My ragged, tear filled breath, caught noisily in my throat, as I saw my beautiful, brave husband admit his fears.
"It's not a dream Carlisle…you and I…us…our life… our future..it's all very, real. Cullen and Mae…we took them all on baby, we took them on and won…we've got our happy ever after. And although I am a little bit sad…and scared about moving, about being a good mom to our son…and our daughter when she arrives…I know I..we'll be fine…because I…Alexander, has you…your love, your strength to protect and guide us…okay…gimme the hanky my favourite boy scout…the hormonal pregnant lady has turned herself into a blubbing mess." I half hiccoughed, half laughed.
Carlisle did as I asked, before turning on his heel and disappearing inside. Before I had chance to call him, or worry, he was back, holding out his hands to me, as the song Jasper and I had written as a wedding, birthday present for him, what felt like a life time ago, echoed round the balcony.
"Dance with me…some of my favourite memories in this apartment, have been when I have been able to hold you and dance with you, here on this balcony. And there is no better song…our song…" he said lowly.
"I love you…" I whimpered as I walked towards my very own beautiful, flawed angel.
Sometimes, I feel like the world is against me.
The sound of your voice, baby that's what saves me.
When we're together, I feel so unbreakable…
Cause it's us against the world,
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words, you'll know that we are standing tall…
I can't ever see the day, when I won't catch you when you fall…
Cause it's us against the world tonight…
They'll be days,
When we're on different sides,
But that doesn't last too long…
We'll find ways, to get it on track…
And know how to turn back on…
Sometimes, I feel like I can't keep it together…
Then you hold me close
And make it better
When I'm with you,
I can feel so unbreakable…
It was a little awkward and we couldn't, get as close as we wanted thanks to my bump, but I had never felt so loved, as I listened to Carlisle crooning words of love to me, that beautiful summer morning.
We're not going to break…
Cause we still believe
I had written these words as part of a dream for our future, but now that future was about to finally, become a beautiful reality.
We know what we've got…
And, we've got what we need…
Carlisle, Alexander and I…the Cullen family, had a future and each other..and I couldn't wait for it to begin.