Don't try to excuse yourself by saying you're doing it for someone else's sake

-Xerxes Break

Chapter 36: You Have No Idea

I read the letter over again, making sure that my eyes aren't deceiving me. That I'm not stuck alone on an island with Link. The man who I love with all I heart, the man who hates me with all his soul. But… they weren't and I am. For a week.

I'm so dead.

I heard shuffling behind me and I turned around to see Link sit up and rub the sleep out of his eyes and then face towards me. His eyes shifted throughout the rest of the beach and saw that nobody else was around, that it's just the two of us. He squinted his eyes and looked behind me, no doubt taking notice of the ship out in the middle of the ocean.

"Tetra, mind telling me what exactly is going on here?" He asked accusingly. Not knowing how to answer I tossed the bottle and the note to Link who caught it easily and read the note. He looked as confused as I was when I read it, he must've read it a second time as he brought it closer to his face as if to make sure that he was reading it correctly. Once I think he finished reading it again he threw the note to the ground.

"You've got to be kidding me," Link groaned frustrated as he dragged his hand across his face.

"We're stuck here for a week," I said, "Lily planned this. She wants us to-"

"I know what she wants, she made it very clear what she wants. I swear when she comes back she's going to be in so much trouble."

"Maybe this is a good thing. Maybe we could-"

"Don't even think about it. It's not going to happen," Link stated defiantly.

"But Lily-"

"I don't care if it's what Lily wants… I will not become close to you again. Not romantically, not friendly, not even as an acquaintance. I absolutely refuse to, I'd rather die!" Link said crossing his arms whilst frowning.

"But Link, Lily isn't happy. Don't you want her to be happy?" I tried.

"Stop using Lily as a reason for me to befriend you again, not only is it messed up, but it's also not going to work. Yes I will admit that I want her to be happy, but she should be happy enough that you're here and alive."

"But Link, she wants us to be a family."

"Yeah… I could see that she's not the only one. Whether I like it or not, you and I are her parents and alone that makes us a family."

"That's not what I mean, and you know it Link! She wants us to be happy together, at the very least she wants us to be friends again. Is that really too much to ask?"

"I've already told you, yes. It really is too much to ask. After everything that's happened I can't just… I can't just be friends with you," Link stated having enough as he got up and began walking into the forest.

"Hey, where are you going?" I asked getting up.

"I'm going to wait in the tower for the week, don't follow me if you want to keep your head."

Of course… I began to follow him.

"Link, just hear me out."

"No."

"Please?"

"No."

"Will you please not not not-"

"Are you seriously trying that? I am not in the mood to be toyed with," Link said as he balled his hands into fists hard enough that I saw the white of his bones. Ignoring this I walked in front of him and blocked his path, making him stop.

"Link, please, just give me a chance," I begged.

"I have already given you more than enough chances for me to trust you, and might I remind you that you failed all of them. So please, kindly get out of my face before I-"

I wrapped my arms around him, not caring that he's mad at me, not caring about what he could possibly do, not caring that he'll never love me again. I just need this.

He shoved me off in a heartbeat, sending me falling to the ground.

"Don't you ever do that again, understand?" Link asked not holding back his enraged tone. I didn't answer, missing the warmth that he gave off. He raised his fist but restrained himself and instead hitting a tree right next to him, making to shake and wobble.

"Why can't you just take me back? Why can't you just forgive me and let us start over again?"

"I told you I forgave you, I just haven't forgotten. And because I haven't forgotten, I will not be friends with you again," Link said in his usual dry tone.

"But what about Lily?"

"Stop! Just stop with this Lily crap! You may care about her now, but we both know you could have cared less had anything happened to her before you met her. I know that you were just using her to get close to me, I'm not an idiot. That, it was all part of this grand scheme that you'd hope that I'd get to see the quote on quote 'motherly' side of you. That once I saw that, I'd forget about all of the crap that you've put me through and we'd end up back together? That we'd be in love? Please, correct me if I'm wrong."

I looked up at the man who was once my best friend, my lover, my husband. Only now to see him replaced with the familiar sight of somebody who hates me with all his existence, that he'd care less if I died right in front of him.

"What happened to the Link that I used to know? The one that would always be happy and always make everyone feel better. The one that looked past everyone's flaws and focused on the good instead. What happened to him?"

"Oh, well he's still here. I still am the Link that you describe, it's just that you are an exception. I want you to know that I've tried paying attention to all the good that you've done… the issue is your bad deeds greatly outnumber your good ones."

"Name them," I challenged.

"If you insist. Well let's start with how you got to Hyrule in the first place, shall we? You're still a pirate. You tried to raid Linebeck's ship, seeing as you attacked first. He didn't even attack you, that was until you were getting a little close to comfort and fired you cannons. When you came to Hyrule, instead of trying to be reasonable you attempted to forge an escape plan and I can only assume you would've taken hostages… or worse. Knowing that that would happen I told Linebeck to have you fight for your freedom, I hoped that you wouldn't kill him or anybody else there. You never did kill but as you very well know, people change. After I told you that we were in Hyrule, you had the audacity to tell me that the land was destined for you. That you should be the queen, even though you gave up on finding it years ago. Don't even get me started about when you insisted that you love me and that I was still your husband. Out of all those things they can never amount to what you did when Lily came in, you told her you were her mom!"

Link stopped ranting and turned his attention to the same tree as before took and kicked it, the power behind it sent the tree falling to the ground. Link slowed his breathing and turned back to me again, no doubt wishing that I was the poor tree.

"We all would've been better off had you not done that. You'd still be out and living out your pirate life and I'd continue my happy life as king with my Lily. Besides, Lily deserves a mom who looks out for her, who actually cares for her. One who actually loves her. And that person is not you!" Link said pointedly. I got up, angry.

"Fine, I was using her at first. But don't you dare say that I don't love her, because I do. I love her with all my life! I'd give my life for her in a heartbeat, you saw that! When that Zant guy came and tried to kill her I took the blow," I said bringing my hand to where I got stabbed.

"Yeah, because that totally makes things up for when you let her fight that horde of Mobgoblins," Link pointed out and took a deep breath whilst holding his forehead in annoyance. "Look, let's just agree to staying away from one another until Lily comes back to pick the both of us up. Deal?" Link asked holding his hand out for me to shake, a fake smile plastered on his face.

I was really tempted to shake his hand, just to get a feel of how well his hand fits in mine. But instead I slapped it away. "No, Lily wants us to be friends again and I'm not gonna deny her what she wants."

"Oh please, don't act like you're doing this solely for Lily. You just want us to get back together!"

"NO I'M NOT! Just give me another chance Link, we could end up happy together, just like before," I said.

"Look, I'm sick and tired of reminding you that we'll never be what we once were. I don't know what you've been dreaming at night or what you've been hoping for, but I want you to put all those hopes and dreams in a chest and shoot it. Shoot it right in the Din-saken face, because it'll never happen. I'll never be your husband, I'll never be your lover, I'll never be your best friend, I'll never be your friend, I'll never be your anything! I still can't believe that you think it's possible, even after all that you've put me through. You have no idea what I've been through in the ten years that I've been gone! None! You'll never know pain and suffering like I do, that's for sure."

I tried to say something, anything. But nothing came out. I have no idea about what he's been through, I really don't. But he's blaming me, for all that' happened to him. It's not fair to me, but was it fair for him to go through all the hardships that he's faced alone? Was it fair for me to leave him and Lily alone for all those years ago?

"I'll see you in a week," Link said with finality turning his back to me and walking away, not taking a glance back, leaving me alone. I knew that no matter what do I wouldn't get him to turn back around and even look at me, let alone talk. His figure soon disappeared and I was left staring at the path he'd walked. I eventually turned around and made my way back to the beach.

The short walk seemed endless as it was like the world was moving in slow-motion, Link's words sinking in. Once getting to the beach I sunk to my knees and put my head in my hands, trying to think of any way how to get Link to take me back as a friend.

Nothing.

I looked up towards the ship, no doubt where at least one person was watching me, and shook my head no. Signaling whoever it was that I can't do it. I can't. It's impossible.

I fell back onto my back and laid out in the sand, looking up at the mockingly clear and beautiful sky, the sun peaking out just a tad from the few clouds making the entire sight look straight out of a painting. I turned on my side, hating how happy the world is while I lay idly by currently reflecting on my life.

I laid there for the rest of the day, feeling emotionally drained.

I ignored the hunger, the tiredness in my eyes, the pain in my heart.

The only thing I could think of were the futures in which I had dreamed and hoped for. All my happily ever afters had been replaced with what would really happen. The thought of Link and I becoming friends had turned to one in which he wouldn't bother giving me the time of day. The dream of Link and I getting remarried had turned to Link leaving me standing at the altar. And the ending in which Link, Lily, and I become an actual family turned to Link finding someone else. A beautiful, kind-hearted girl that Lily absolutely adores. This girl became Link's friend, then best friend, girlfriend, lover, fiance, and finally… his wife. Becoming what I wish could have a chance at once again. I would've attended the wedding, watched as Lily bared the rings and gave them with a smile, Link slipping the ring on the girl's finger, and then the two of them sharing vows and sealing it with a kiss. Me watching, unable to do anything about it as I found myself no longer a part of Link's happy ending. No longer a part of Lily's life.

I hadn't realized that I spent literally the entire day thinking about my not so happy ending, the moon had now risen and my stomach still growled as it remained empty.

I had cried myself to sleep.

"I'm sorry Lily, I'm sorry Link, I'm so sorry."

Author's Note

I'm really sorry about not uploading last week, I was editing the already existing chapters and didn't do anything about this one, sorry. I should've updated the first ten chapters by now, if not… sorry in advance.

Sorry if this doesn't make up for the wait, needed another 'Tetra suffering' chapter. Anyway I've got the entire story figured out now, least I think I do… it'll probably change again. I mean I thought that this story was going to be no more than 20 chapters, yet here we are on chapter 36. Still working on it and still trying my best.

I've gotta get some sleep. Before I forget, thank you all for reading and I'll see you next week! Tell me what you thought of this chapter in the reviews I want to know what you all think of the story so far as a whole, along with how this chapter went. Bye!