Chapter 35

The Worries

Ally's POV

Life was back to normal. The life I missed was finally back. No more tears, fights, and being in danger.

My dad and Chelsea were finally arrested. They were caught in a motel where they were planning to kidnap me. Obviously. They were behind bars again. Even though they are locked up, I still have that little insecurity. Like, what if they escape again? That could happen. It already had so there was that little chance. Austin has told me not to worry about it. He says they will be extra careful. I almost laughed. If it weren't for the police, I would have still had Hazel.

Each night, I cry. I cry knowing I didn't save her in time. I should have had another plan than to just go right into father's trap. How was I so naive? Im supposed to be the smart one. Austin was right about me. Im smart at school stuff but in serious matters, Im so oblivious. I feel so pathetic knowing that.

"You're not pathetic." I hear from behind me. I jump and turn around to see Austin. I scowl at him. He ignores me. "Why would you think you're pathetic?" he asks. I shrug and turn around to walk away. He quickly follows. "Do you really think that low of yourself?" he questions. Again, I ignore. I really don't want to talk about this. Of coarse, Austin being the stubborn one, kept questioning me. "Tell me, why do you feel like you're pathetic. I wanna know... And you're the stubborn one, Ally." he glares. I blush and walk faster around the apartment. He does the same. It goes on for a while until we arrive at our room. Then he closes the door and locks it. Oh no...

Yeah... Probably shouldn't have choose a room that I could get easily locked in...

He quickly walks to me. I take a few steps back until my legs hit the bed and BAM... He has me pinned to the bed.

"Fancy seeing you here." he winks. I glare at him and struggle. "Alright, you need to give me answers. We could be here all day, Alls." I move my head to the side and close my eyes. I hear him sigh. "I see how it is... You wanna play the silent game do you?" I keep my eyes close. "Alrighty then. You make one noise, I get answers. Deal?" I nod. There is no way he will make me-

I feel a pair of lips on my neck. My eyes snap back open and gasp. He stops. "Did I hear a noise?" he smirks. I shake my head fast. He gives me one last look before kissing my neck again. It kinda tingles and it just feels... soft. He's gentle with the kisses. It soothes me. A minute later, he's had enough. I thought I have won the bet. Clearly, I was wrong.

He starts to kiss more roughly. He uses his teeth to nip on my skin and I bite my bottom lip from moaning. After he nips my neck, he uses his tongue to soothe my neck again. I have to bite my lip extra harder. I think Im already bleeding from my lip.

I notice Austin's grip from my wrists loosen and I take the opportunity to tangle my hands in his messy hair. I tug on it a little and he moans. Lucky. He gets to make noises but I can't. Touché.

Suddenly, he moves down to my collarbone. He works there for a few seconds. I honestly do not know how I managed not to moan there. But then Austin works his way up again. Then he roughly kisses me on the lip. I feel his tongue lick my bottom lip asking for entrance but I refuse. Of coarse, you can't say no to Austin. It's just not in his dictionary. He bites my bottom lip and gives my hip and butt a squeeze. That got me to gasp again and he took the advantage to slide his tongue in. I tried to fight him back with mine but he won. Obviously.

He explores my mouth. I can't take it anymore. I let out a huge moan. I thought he would stop because I already made I noise, but he didn't. So I had to stop for him before things got out of hand. I gave him a push. He snapped out of it and stopped. He rested his forehead on mine. We both breath heavily as we look into each other's eyes. His eyes and shadowed with something I can't identify. It took my a while but I know what it is. Lust. I blush so hard I just wanted to cover up my face from Austin. I must look like a tomato.

"I win." he says huskily. Again, I continue to blush. "Now, tell me why you think you are pathetic."

I sigh. "I just think Im so oblivious. I should have known my father had the trap. Of coarse, I didn't want to even think about it. It's all my fault Hazel is dead," my eyes start to water. "I can never forgive myself for that..." Tears are already rolling down my cheek. "And the worst part is..." I sob. "S-She loved me back." I keep sobbing and Austin just watches. He takes my hand making us stand up from the bed. Then he grabs my chin and lifts it up to meet his eyes.

"Listen to me closely. You. Are. Not. Pathetic. Yes, you are oblivious. But you are in a cute way. Never in a bad way. Knowing that you think you are pathetic makes me upset. If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you to ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me. Do you understand that? I will keep telling you how much you mean to me every single day until you get it in your head that you aren't pathetic." he says never taking his eyes off me. "I love you." he whispers.

I cry and shake my head and lean on his chest. "I love you too." I wrap my arms around him and he does the same. "Im sorry." I sob again. He shushes me and tangles his hands in my hair. I look up and lean in to give him a kiss.

"Did I mention how lucky I am to have you?" I ask.

"Many times, actually." he smiles.

"Or how about how much I love you?"

"We've both said it plenty of times."

"Well, Ill say it plenty of more times." I smile.

He chuckles and we just hug everything out...

The phone call...

It rang at Saturday early morning. Too early that I knew something was wrong. I wanted to be the one answering it. Austin beat me to it. Surprisingly. I waiting in the kitchen. I took the time to make pancakes. By the time I finished, Austin was done with the phone call. He walked into the kitchen slowly with a shocked expression. I got worried.

"What is it?" I asked. He was silent. "Austin, who was that and what did they tell you?" I wasn't playing around. The nerves I was getting made me angry that Austin wasn't saying anything. He mumbles something I can't figure out. I sigh. "Austin you got about three seconds and if you don't tell me, I swear I will-"

"It was the police department. Your dad and Chelsea-"

I dropped the plate I was holding. They escaped again. I start to panic and I try to control my breathing. I can't go through this again. Not again. I might lose Austin this time. Or my mom. Or my friends. Austin runs to my side.

"You didn't let me finish." he glares and I take deep breaths. "Jesus, you worry too much." he mutters. I punch his arm.

"I was having a panic attack and you aren't really helping."

"Touche."

"Finish what you said!"

"Alls, there is no easy way to say this but they are both dead."

I stay silent and lost of words. How should I even react to this? Im happy that my dad and Chelsea won't be causing us more trouble. On the other hand, Im angry that the cops didn't take proper care of them and watch them closely. On the other other hand, Im sad that my dad is gone. He was still family. Just like Hazel.

"Say something." he urges.

"I dunno what to say."

"Aren't you... sad? Or happy?"

"Im... okay..."

"Okay."

"Okay." I smile slightly. He does too.

"Okay."

"Okay."

"Okay."

"Did you watch The Fault In Our Stars?" I raise an eyebrow.

"Maybe..."

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