We're on to chapter 5 now of FMEO. Sarek can finally relax :p
Amanda,
I spoke to Spock again, today. He is much more relaxed than he was last time we spoke. I can stop my endless worrying over him now. He is well. He looks content with his job and life. None of the anger he exhibited last call was present.
You would be proud of him. I know, I have written that before, but it is true. You would be proud of him. I am proud of him. It seems he is finding a balance in his life that he could never have reached on Vulcan.
We used to worry that he would never find balance in his life. That he would go towards one direction or the other. That one of us would be disappointed. I was when he joined Starfleet, but that has gone now. I fully believe he made the right decision for himself.
It is also a decision only he could make. Neither of us wanted him there, but he went anyway. You cried for days afterwards, afraid he would never return.
He has promised to keep in frequent contact, which has relieved me greatly. I may have been projecting, or expressing my worry.
Maybe now I can get some proper rest. I find I am continuously tired and out of breath. Grief does not agree with me. Yet again, I am yet to meet a person it does agree with.
I miss you. I love you. I am sure Spock does too, though he seems more keen on not showing it than myself.
Sarek.