In The Pursuit Of Love ch. 36
I know that this is ideal but Rachel's Dads' reactions are still a whole fuckin lot better than them grabbing a couple of torches and pitchforks, chasing me up and down the streets for deflowering their daughter. Ben's staring off into space while Chris still hasn't woken up et as Rachel fans him but the taller Berry snaps out of it before grabbing me by the collar of my shirt, dragging off towards the man cave. I sat down on the couch as he paces back and forth in front of me with his arms crossed and his eyebrows furrowed with his posture's tense with saying anything to me which was making me fuckin uneasy because I can take people yelling at me but this.
I don't know what to do with this and I know that I can talk my way out of this and anything I might say will probably make it worse but I know that I fucked up with getting my girlfriend pregnant at sixteen. I never intended for things to turn out like this but I'm gonna make it right and be there for Rachel and our child cause I don't want to be away from them and no one's gonna stop me. I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I feel the couch dip next to me to see Ben with his elbows on his knees, one hand covering his mouth before turning his attention towards me before letting out a slow sigh, straightening out his back.
"Santana"
"Look I know that I fucked up and you're probably angry as you have fucking right to be. You're gonna tell me that we're too young to be starting a family at sixteen and I never intended for this to happen but it did but I swear to you that I'm gonna do everything that I can to take care of Rachel and our baby. I'm gonna be there every step of the way and make sure that she wants for nothing because I love her, Mr. Berry. She's the most important thing in my life besides my brother" I said honestly.
"I know Santana, I believe you but did you think what will happen when this baby comes. What will happen when people find out that Rachel's pregnant? How people will treat her at school? What about your plans after graduation? Do you know what you're planning to do then? Things are gonna to be difficult with a newborn"
"I know this and I understand where you're coming from. I can protect Rachel at school since Quinn and I practically run that place and no one's stupid enough to cross us and my plan for graduation was I have been thinking about entering the police academy. I know that the road that we're heading down is going to be a difficult one" I said running my hand through my hair. "But I will do anything to keep my family safe because I can see a future without Rachel or our baby in my life. I can't nor would I walk away from them because they're mine and I'll do everything in my power to protect them"
"That's what I want to hear. I'm not happy about my daughter getting pregnant at sixteen but I know that she's happy with you and I can see that you'll take care of her" Ben said placing his hand on my shoulder. "This isn't going to be easy but I'll help you out as much as I can although I can't stop Chris from wanting to rip you limb from limb"
"You think that he's gonna be that piss" I said swallowing thickly.
Before Ben could answer my question, yelling from the living room could be heard and I knew that Chris had regain consciousness only meaning that I had a few moments to live. I heard footsteps marching towards the man cave then the door is swung open, slamming against the wall to see a beyond pissed off, red in the face shorter Berry man shaking in barely contained anger.
"You! You did this! You impregnated my baby girl" Chris shouted.
"Chris babe, calm down" Ben said stepping in-between me and his husband.
"Don't you tell me to calm the fuck down! She got Rachel pregnant and you want me to calm the fuck down! I should've know that something was going, something told me that something was going on but I ignored it and look what happened. It's all because of you! All you wanted was sex from her and now you've ruined her future, bringing her down because you know that you'll never be anything! This is all your fault!" Chris said glaring me down.
"Dad! That's not true" Rachel said frowning.
"Yes, it is. She was only being nice to you and manipulated you into dating her until you naively gave it up to her! I've seen people like her do it all the time and get away with it. Don't be so stupid, Rachel" Chris said shaking his head.
"Santana isn't like that. She's treats me well and she loves me. Just because someone hurt you like that doesn't mean that my girlfriend would do that to me. All you have you done is been suspicious and hard on her without getting to know her" Rachel said angrily.
"I don't need to get to know her because people like her are all the same" Chris scoffs. "There's no telling what she would've said to have gotten into bed with her because she's probably easy"
"Chris! I know that you're upset but you're going way too far" Ben said stepping in. "You haven't even given Santana a fair chance without judging her harshly since Rachel brought her home and I will not stand here to allow you to insult her. All she's been was trustworthy and polite. They're young and they're bound to make mistakes but Santana's owning up to hers"
"Sir, I wouldn't take advantage of Rachel like that because I have too much respect for her to do something like that to her. I do love Rachel very much and I want us to be together to raise our child together" I said taking Rachel's hand in my own.
"So what about marriage?" Chris asked raising an eyebrow. "Do you plan to make her your wife?"
"Eventually yes but I don't want to ask her now just because she's carrying my unborn child. I want to marry her because I can't see my life without her in it and because I love her as there's nothing that I wouldn't do for her. I want to spend the rest of my life making sure that she wants for nothing and that she's taken of as well as accomplish all of her dreams and goals if she'll have me. If she doesn't want me in that way then I would be happy just having her in my life because Rachel means a great deal to me and no one is gonna stop me, not even you"
Chris stares me straight in the eyes for a moment before his eyes softens, sighing all the angry tension from his body. He walks towards me and I nervously takes a step back just in case he wants to take a swing at me as he holds out his hand. I look at the extended hand then look Chris in the eye to see that he was apologizing for the things that he had said before accepting it. The Berry men agreed to help us with the cost of the medical bills and anything that the baby might need but I still feel I should get a job to pay for things as well because this is my baby as I don't want to mooch off of them. The rules were set in place while we were under their roof still applied while some were added but it didn't matter as long as they weren't forcing us to break up but now there's one hurdle that we'll have to deal with… my Papi.
There's no telling how he's gonna react once he finds out that I have a baby on the way. His reaction isn't something that I'm looking forward to because we only barely started trying to repair our relationship and this could go completely south but I'm not giving up on my family. If Papi can't deal with it then I can find somewhere to place until I can find a job to support myself but I hope that he doesn't try to kick out because I don't want to leave him with Memo. I'm pulled out of my thoughts once again when something squeezes my hand to realize that I'm sitting on the top step of the Berrys' porch.
"Where did you go?" Rachel asked softly.
"Nowhere really. Just got lost in my thoughts"
"I'm sorry about what my Dad had said. He was out of line for it" Rachel said frowning slightly.
"He cares about you and just wants the best for you. In his eyes, no one will ever be good enough for you" I said kissing her temple.
"I know but things that he said was totally uncalled for and he has to understand that it's my life to live" Rachel said lacing our fingers together.
"True but it doesn't mean he has to like it. I should get going. I have to break the news to Papi"
"Do you want me to go with you?" Rachel asked leaning into my side.
"I think that I should do this on my own. There's no telling how he's gonna take it and this come go south so I don't want you to caught in the middle of it but thank you for offering, mi amore"
"Well when you put it like that then I'm going with you" Rachel said standing up.
"Rachel, I don't think-"
"Don't fight with me on this, Santana" Rachel said crossing her arms defiantly. "You came with me to break the news to my parents, expressing the love you have for me and how you were willingly to fight for our family that we're creating. It's only right that I do the same for you"
I chuckle slightly, knowing that there's nothing that I could say to the pint sized diva to change her mind and fighting her on it would be a losing battle as I'm gonna be a losing a fuckin war once the pregnancy progresses. I stand up, opening the passenger's side door for the singer before getting inside myself as I pulled out of the driveway towards home. To say that I'm nervous is a fuckin understatement because the last thing that I want is to get kicked out but if Papi doesn't want anything to do with me then I'll gladly packed my things and move into a motel if necessary but I'm taking my brother with me. The drive to my place felt too short and too long at the same time but I have Rachel by my side so I knew that I could handle anything as I opened the front door to find Papi laying on couch, watching a soccer game when he notices us. He turns the TV off before sitting upright as me and the diva sits across from him, taking in a deep breath.
"Rachel's pregnant and it's mine"
"I know, Santi" Papi said without missing a beat.
"W-What? You knew? How?" I asked confused.
"I had a feeling but I couldn't be sure although I got a call from a old colleague told me that this girl who came into his clinic in the next town over with a friend matching Rachel's and your friend Quinn's description. I wanted you to tell me in your own time if you ever told me but I want to see if you could trust me tell. I know that I haven't been there for you and your brother like I should've but I would never stop loving you. You've been my heart and you've been my greatest accomplishment as I've felt this way ever since the doctor put you in my arms for the first time. I want to make you proud but when your mother left, I lost of my ambition and how I felt when my children were born. I know that you'll be a good parent, better than me because I know that you won't the mistake that I have and I hope that you'll allow me to be a part of this. To help in any way that I can" Papi said with tears streaming down his face.
I didn't realize that I was crying either until Papi move over to wipe them away before pulling me in to hug me tightly and for the first time in a long time, I allowed him to hug. I realized how much I missed having my father's arms around me and he wasn't kicking out which worried me of coming true but it's not as I wiped away the stray tears when doorbell starts ringing.
"I love you, Santi and I'm not losing you ever again" Papi said kissing me on the forehead
"I love you too" I said smiling watery.
~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off
End of ch. 36