"Brooke we are going to have fun," Haley says. I got to Haley's house about twenty minutes ago to get ready, yet I was already ready. I honestly just came early because I hoped Lucas would be here.
He wasn't.
"I know I'm just tired. I didn't sleep too well last night, but I'll be better in a bit," I force a smile watching her get ready. I wasn't lying just then. I didn't sleep too well because I was dreading the next few days. Of course Lucas's held me the whole night, he kept kissing my shoulder and the back of my head, saying over and over how much he loved me. I get what is happening. I know he needs time to process everything going on, but why can't he spend that time with me? I mean yeah, a part of me wants the time apart because I do want to think. I need to think about everything I am feeling inside but at the same time it scares me. Time apart scares me because I feel like it's just the stage before us ending.
"Well I will be done in just a second and we will go get Rachel and Peyton," Haley pulls me away from my thinking and I nod.
I wonder if I could get away with texting him. I get we are needing space or whatever but I haven't seen him since this morning, early this morning, when he crawled out of bed; I was still in a sleeping state, he whispered he loved me, kissed me on the head and left.
Not my favorite of all our goodbyes.
"Hales!" Nathan's voice rings through the small house and I perk up at that. "Haley where you at?"
"I'll umm…I'll be right back," Haley jumps up from the mirror and out the door. I can tell she is worried that Lucas might be with him and because of that I stand up to follow. "Nate I'm trying to get ready. I do not want your sweaty body on me," she laughs as I round the corner seeing Nathan trying to hug her.
"I'm not that sweaty," he protests, giving up on the hug and just giving her a kiss.
"Why are you here?" Haley asks and I peer in the room seeing Nathan getting a water from the fridge; I freeze in my spot when he tosses it across the counter.
"Hales, you know that your house is the end point on my run. I come in say hi, sometimes stay for more…" he smirks making her roll her eyes at him. "Then run back to Luke's place," he nods his head to the counter, where the water was thrown and I slowly turn the corner seeing my boyfriend there.
"Yeah well…" Haley trails off when she spins seeing me, and then the rest of the eyes follow.
"Hey..." Lucas looks at me as I stand leaning against the wall.
"Hi…" I offer a sad smile.
"Nathan come with me, I need umm…help with what I'm wearing," Haley grabs his hand, I guess being my best friend, notices I want to be alone with my boyfriend.
"I hate clothes," Nathan grumbles all the way to the room before the door shuts.
We both just sort of stand here. He is just staring at me as I move awkwardly to the counter, playing with a pen that's sitting there.
"You look nice," he finally comments on my outfit. It is pretty simple to me, nothing special. I have on a black, pleated strapless dress, with three white buttons at the top. I got it for Tony's graduation a few years back.
"Yeah…" I look at my outfit. "I may change," I admit fiddling with the sides.
"What? Why?" He asks moving to the stool next to me and taking a seat.
"I don't know," I shrug still playing with the pen and trying to ignore him being right next to me.
"Nice was the wrong word," he back tracks. "Gorgeous, you look gorgeous," he places his hand on my hip, stroking the small material. "You always look gorgeous," he corrects as I turn to look at him giving a smile.
"Thank you," I say taking a step closer. "But I still may change. I feel a little uncomfortable," I confess looking at the short dress. "I feel almost like I shouldn't wear something so….revealing if you aren't with me," I admit, thinking I should wear a parka out if Lucas isn't with me. I feel when we would go out to the bar or a club or something it was ok to wear whatever because one, I wanted to look nice for Lucas but two, because no one would bother me if Lucas was there.
"I think you should wear this," he runs his hand down my side, his warm hand on my cool, bare skin giving me chills.
"Ok," I agree looking in his ice blue eyes that I just love. "Your shoulder ok?" I stroke his collar bone with my thumb.
"It's a little stiff, but it's alright," he tries to shrug, his hand still running up and down my leg, scrunching up my dress as he does.
"You should probably keep your sling on. You're not supposed to take it off for another week," I remind him. The doctor said four weeks, maximum and two weeks minimum on wearing his sling. He has some medicine when it hurts but Lucas of course, just decided after a week he was over the sling and just let it be.
"I know but it's alright," he shrugs and I see the pain that shoots through his arm by the small gesture.
"For me will you wear it?" I ask just wanting him to be better. "Please?"
"Yeah Pretty Girl…" he caves, his hand still giving me chills as his finger tips slowly drift up and down my leg. "When I get home I'll put it back ok," he promises. "Who is driving you tonight? I didn't see your car outside."
"Haley picked me up. We are going to pick Rachel and Peyton up from Rachel's house and go to this place Peyton knows about. It's like Tric or something," I tell him.
"Well just be careful," Lucas tells me and I nod. "If something happens where you need me, just call me."
"I know. I will I promise," I nod knowing I can always call him if something happens, if I need him. Broken up, on a break, together, no matter what I know he will always be there if I need him.
"I should probably get Nate," he stands up, his chest grazing against mine as he does. "I'm sure you are about to leave."
"Yeah we are," I tell him tracing my finger over the pattern on his shirt. "You can come if you want," I offer, but know that he won't. He wants his time to think. I can't really be mad since I broke up with him months back because I needed time to think.
"Brooke…" He sighs shaking his head.
"I know, I just thought I would try," I stop him from having to explain again. "I love you," I remind him almost afraid he might forget.
"I love you too, Pretty Girl," he kisses my forehead. "Nate, let's go!" He calls walking to the door.
"I'm coming, I'm coming," Nathan rolls his eyes walking from the back room. "Bye Brookie," he winks flashing Lucas a goofy smile as he walks out the front door.
"Brooke…" I look back up to at him. "You should keep your dress," he gives a half smile before leaving me with a full one.
"Are you having fun?" Haley yells over the loud music as we dance.
"Yeah," I lie a little. I mean yeah, I'm having fun, just wish my boyfriend was here. I just keep traveling back to everything that has happened and wonder where we really messed up. Was it the first time we broke up? Was it my insecurities? Was it my baby?
"Well good because you are looking way too hot to not be having a fun night," Rachel spins around to face me. "You think Tony would object to me dancing with someone?"
"Oh we all know you are too stupid about that boy to stray away," Peyton jokes surprising me a little.
"I know," She giggles pushing her hair back. "He is so cute isn't he? Ugh, I hate caring so much about someone."
"Yeah tell me about it," I mumble stepping back and right on someone's feet. "God I'm sorry," I apologize turning around to the girl.
"Oh, its fine," she flashes a perfect smile. "At a club you have to expect you might get stepped on," she laughs, her eyes searching around for someone. "Don't you just hate this crowd sometimes? You come with someone, they get a drink, and then you just can't find them anymore."
"Oh I know," I laugh over the loud music. "Last club I went to with my boyfriend, I had to pick a place to meet him if I lost him. Yeah I lost him a lot."
"Yeah, well my boy is somewhere lost in the sea of people and I think I might have to send off a flare for him to find me," She jokes and again I laugh, looking around the club like I would actually know who he is for her. "There he is," A calming spread all over her as her face completely lights up.
"Oh well there yo-" and my words stop at the all too familiar person making his way through the crowd and over to us; the smile on his face slowly leaving his gorgeous face.
"Brooke?" I barely hear him over the loud music.
"David?" My lips twitch into a smile. "David!" I grin diving at him, arms instantly around his neck. "I've missed you."
"Well I have missed you too crazy girl," he gives me a tight squeeze before releasing me. "I was going to call you," his eyes travel down my body to my stomach. "I talked to Jay…I just…I didn't know what I was supposed to say."
"How about what's up? How's your day? Seen any good movies?" I tease and see the seriousness spread across his face. "I'm fine."
"I don't believe you," he says. "But I know not to push you," he holds his hands up. "I'm glad you're ok," he smiles that perfect smile and yanks me into hug him again.
"Umm…" we both hear pulling apart to see the girl I stepped on standing awkwardly next to us. "Hi."
"Oh crap, Mimi this is Brooke, Brooke this is my girlfriend Mimi," David introduces giving me my second surprise of the night.
"Hi," I reach out my hand. "Good to formally meet you."
"You too," she smiles and I must say David did a pretty great job. She is pretty, really pretty, with strawberry blonde hair tumbling down her shoulders with the prettiest wave to it that I would just die for. Her big crystal blue eyes and a smile that is the size of damn Texas across her face. She is so pretty, I'm actually a little jealous. "I have heard a lot about you, I just didn't know you was well you."
"Well anything he says ignore," I toss a playful glance over at the boy next to me.
"Oh Davis, you know I could never speak anything but great things about you," he laughs draping his arm over my shoulder.
"David!" We hear once again over the loud music spinning to see Rachel, Haley and Peyton. "Hey," Haley smiles giving him a hug.
"Hey Hales," he grins. "Peyton, Rachel."
"David," Rachel's tone is just how it always is with David. She still doesn't trust him and she still doesn't like us being within ten feet of each other.
"Rach, this is Mimi," I introduce. "David's girlfriend."
"Girlfriend?" She questions clearly just as surprised as me. No one knew David had girlfriends.
"Yup," I nod.
"Yeah, but where is everyone?" David asks looking around the crowd. "Nate here? Jake, Cooper?"
"Cooper is long gone," Rachel snorts tossing her hair over her shoulder.
"Yeah Rachel here is with Tony," Peyton tells him and him this time getting shocked.
"Your Tony?" He raises his brow at me and I just nod a yup. "Wow I have been missing a little too long."
"Yeah," I agree tucking my hair back.
"Well is Luke here with you?" He asks and I know he sees me tense up.
"We are having a girls night," Haley jumps in. "Figured it was needed."
"Yeah it was all a little over due," Peyton shrugs and I have to admit I am happy for the girls' night. Though Lucas has been on my mind all night, I have missed hanging out with the girls. For such a long time it has been just us; I almost forgot the fun we all had together.
"I bet," David nods but keeping his eyes locked on me. He is trying to read me, trying to figure out what is wrong, and I have to turn to look away from him because I know if he stares to long he will. "You know I'm a little thirsty," he says. "Babe you want anything?" He asks Mimi wrapping his arm around her waist.
"No, I'm ok," she smiles giving him a look I know pretty well. She is in love, she is falling fast, and I really hope David is too because loving someone and not having them in your life just sucks.
"Alright I'll be right back," he gives her a loving kiss. "Guys, you think ya'll could keep her company? Brooke and I are getting a drink."
"I'm actually ok, I don't-"
"Brooke and I are getting a drink," he cuts me off and the look he gives me; I know I won't be able to get out of this one. "We are going to be back in a few," he grabs my hand before I can say anything else and drags me through the crowd.
"David I'm really not that thirsty," I tell him once again as we walk up to the bar and him pushing me in the chair.
"Well I am and I want to talk with my best friend while I enjoy a nice cold beer," he nods at the bartender who smiles grabbing him his drink. "Thank you darling," his charm, like always, comes through as he tosses her his money and a wink.
"Mimi is nice," I comment.
"Mimi is amazing," he corrects my comment and I really love the smile he has when he talks about her. "But where is Lucas tonight? And don't say it's a girls' night blah, blah, bullshit. I want to know what is going on."
"Nothing David, I swear," I lie again pulling a napkin apart.
"Brooke…" he is giving me a warning as I sit staying focused on my napkin. "It's me…" he reminds me like I'm stupid. "So talk to me," he smiles placing his hand on my knee and giving it a squeeze.
"Things aren't great," I admit with a shrug. "We keep fighting about everything David," I sigh tossing down my napkin. "The worst part is I don't really know what is wrong. He tells me he loves me and wants to be with me, but everything is just so messed up."
"Well do you love him? Do you want to be with him?"
"I do David. There is no one else I want to be with but him," I tell him without even having to think about it.
"Then you will be fine," he shrugs taking a sip on his beer.
"He says he needs time away to think," I frown looking back at my ripped napkin.
"Ya'll have gone through some pretty heavy stuff," David turns his head to look at me. "And sometimes we have to go through stuff like that alone. Sometimes we can't fix something that is broken with the people we love, if we ourselves are a little broken."
"Yeah," I agree knowing that is true. "I've really missed you David," I tell him honestly giving his hand a squeeze.
"Oh, I have missed you too baby girl," he smiles kissing the side of my head, standing up and finishing off his beer. "You want to come dance with me and Mimi?"
"Maybe in a little awhile, I think right now I may sit here a little while," I give him a smile that he nods at.
"Ok, but later I get first dance," he winks before disappearing in the sea of people.
Drumming my fingers on the bar I wave for something to drink which she brings me. Just a coke because I am underage and can't drink, but also because a part of me still thinks something is inside of me. Sometimes I think I am just going to wake up in bed with Lucas and still have my baby growing inside of me. If that is somehow magically the case, I really want to wake up now.
"Hey," I lift my gaze to some old creepy guy sliding next to me.
That was not me waking up.
"Hello," I shift to my left as he takes a seat to my right.
"Why don't I buy you a real drink?" He questions picking up my glass and sliding it to the edge of the bar.
"I'm only eighteen," I flash the X on my hand grabbing my drink back. I mean I could tell him in two weeks I will be nineteen, but that doesn't really matter; that doesn't make him any less creepy.
"I think I can get you something if you would like," he grins and even that is creepy. His chipped front tooth, his beer stained teeth, and the scent of cigarettes that comes from his breath. He has to be in his early thirties, if not older, and when he shifts closer to me I feel even more uncomfortable.
"Hey babe, sorry it took me longer in the bathroom then I thought. There was a serious line," some dark headed guy steps between my seat and the creepy guy next to me. "You get my drink?" He locks deep green eyes on mine, cutting them over his shoulder at the creepy guy.
"Umm...no sorry," I apologize sliding over in the next chair as he sits down in the one that held me.
"It's ok," he flashes a perfect smile flipping his shaggy hair back. "I probably had enough anyway; I don't want to upset you again tonight," he keeps going on and confusing me more and more. I really couldn't figure out if he was playing some game or just seriously nuts where he thought he knew me. "Hello," he turns to the creepy guy now next to him. "It was nice of you to keep my girl company, but I'm back now. So you can go and head out if you want."
"I'm sorry, I didn't know she was here with someone." The guy apologizes, standing up. "But you really shouldn't leave her alone in a place like this."
"I'll keep that in mind," his tone is now all of a sudden slightly put off with this guy. "Bye," he waves, the creep tossing a look at me, then back at mystery guy and then back at me before stalking off. "Old guys in places like this are so creepy."
"Yeah…" I agree still sitting her with my brow raised at him.
"Oh…" He laughs against his beer. "I guess I might have come across a little creepy huh?"
"I'm not sure if creepy is the right word. I'm not really sure I know the word to describe what just happened," I laugh a little picking back up my cup.
"You know…" Mystery boy lowers my cup from my mouth. "Why don't we get you a new one of those," he takes my coke from my hand. "Just to be on the safe side," he jokes making me laugh in agreement. "I'm Shawn," he holds out his hand.
"Brooke," I smile, taking it as I call the bartender to get me another coke.
"Yeah, but back to the creepy, non creepy happenings of what just occurred," he nods his head back to where the creepy guy had walked off to. "I have a little sister and you look to be about her age and I know if she was throwing the signs up that you just were, she would want to be saved."
"Yeah sounds like something my brothers would do," I agree and Nathan, and Nash and Heath and probably Jake too. Actually I'm pretty sure I have a long list of people who would jump in to save someone like that.
"Exactly, and I in good conscience, couldn't let someone creep on a girl and not jump in to save her," Shawn teases making me laugh again.
"Well thank you," I tip my glass towards him taking a sip.
"Well no problem," he chuckles. "So Brooke, creepy guy attracter, tell me something about yourself."
"Oh you have to be lying," I laugh at the story Shawn just told me. In the last hour I have sat here talking to this guy and for the first time in a long time felt relaxed. He is funny, sweet, doesn't push on a topic if I am against saying it, and has yet to say something that seriously pisses me off. He is just a great guy that I have enjoyed talking to.
"No I'm not, I swear," he laughs leaning closer to me. "We were all counting down and before I knew it, the entire baseball field was in flames."
"I don't believe it. I don't believe you all would have been dumb enough to light the school's baseball field up on fire," I shake my head at it.
"Hey it was fireworks," he points at me with a serious face. "And the team totally tilled up our field. Plus it was an accident."
"Yeah I believe that," I roll my eyes taking another sip on my drink.
"So Brooke, tell me something…" Shawn spins in his chair to look at me. "What brings you out tonight and what makes you end up sitting here alone with some guy you don't know?"
"Just a night out with my friends," I tell him.
"Are they like missing? Because I haven't seen them," he looks around the crowd before looking back at me.
"Oh no, I was just in a grumpy mood so they are having fun and I told them I would just get a drink. Ending it with talking to you was just coincidence," I shrug knowing I had text the girls about ten times each, telling them I was fine just enjoying my drink and time to think.
"Well you haven't seen that grumpy to me," he shrugs sitting a little too close. "You actually seem to be pretty great," he smiles locking his eyes onto mine and holding my gaze.
Then I don't know what happened, I don't know how it happened, but in the flashing lights and loud music it occurred before I even had time to stop it, he kissed me.
In my lifetime I have only felt four people's lips against mine own. Mick, when I was fifteen and we stood in the back of my backyard one night, but that was just a simple kiss, Shane who surprisingly had no effect on me what-so-ever, David who I admit made my heart flutter a bit and if Lucas wasn't with me might have been one of the best, and then finally Lucas, my Lucas, my boyfriend who's heart would completely shatter if he knew what just happened.
"I have a boyfriend," Instantly flies out of my mouth as I pull away from him. "I'm sorry," I apologize, feeling guilty if I somehow led him on. I didn't mean to do it; I just thought we were talking. I never thought he would just kiss me like that, guess it's the naïve part of me, the innocence Lucas still claims I have. The part that doesn't see what guys are doing, what they are after and that sometimes you can't just sit, having a conversation with one, without them assuming it's more.
"Don't be sorry," he shrugs a gorgeous smile gracing his face. "I have a girlfriend," he informs me, completely dumbfounding me with that. He has a girlfriend but still chooses to kiss me?
"Shawn..." My tone is more dominate when he leans in to kiss me again. "I love my boyfriend," I make clear placing my hand on his chest pushing him back.
"Brooke…" He laughs sitting back down in his chair pulling my stool closer to him. "Are you honestly telling me that you sat here with me all night, talked to me all night, and you don't want me to kiss you?"
"That's what I'm saying," I tell him suddenly feeling extremely uncomfortable.
"Well I don't really believe you too much," he smirks running his hand up my leg. "I think you want to kiss me, but since you have a boyfriend…" he leans closer to me making my heart race. "You think you have to push me away, but you don't," he smiles, his finger tips gently touching my cheek. "Cause' I'm not going to tell," he whispers before once again slowly pressing his lips against mine.
"I…" I push my hand against his chest pushing him back as my mind races. "I have a boyfriend," I repeat standing up quickly.
"Brooke…" He grabs my hand yet I just yank it away moving quickly down the stairs away from the bar, away from him. "David!" I call pushing through the sweaty bodies on the verge of breaking down. "David!" I shove another person out of my way. "David!"
"Brookie?" I hear spinning around finding my friend as I rush into his arms. "Whoa, whoa baby girl, what's wrong?" He wraps his arms around my shaking body as I hug him tight. "B what is it?"
"I need to go home David…Please take me home…" I beg him as he looks at me completely worried and gives Mimi a confused glance that she shrugs at. "Something happened David and I need to see Lucas. Please!" I plead tears welling up in my eyes.
"Ok, ok we can go home. I can take you home or to Lucas's or wherever you want to go," he rubs his hands up and down my trembling arms. "But don't you want Rachel or Haley or something? I can go find them," he offers but I shake my head no quickly.
"I'll…I'll text them or something, I can't have them David. I need you, not them," I tell him because I can't talk to them about what happened. I don't know why, but I can't and David I can; I can tell David anything and know it's safe between us. I love Rachel and Haley, but they are girls and girls talk.
"Alright," David nods. "Mimi…I'm sorry," he sighs and I feel even guiltier now.
"It's ok. I understand," she forces a smile that I can see as David leans over giving her a kiss. "Just take care of your friend," she smiles at me offering me a smile that seems real. "She needs you."
"Alright well let me know when you get home and I will come over," David smiles giving her side a pat as he turns taking my hand in his. "Come on B," He tugs me through the crowd keeping himself close enough so no one grabs me, or touches me.
I feel sick, I feel dirty and I feel right now, about the worst girlfriend in the world.
"Are we going to talk?" David breaks the silence that has filled the car, yet I stay still staring out the window. "Brooke babe, I love you but you just dragged me away from my very hot girlfriend."
"I'm sorry ok! I should have just taken a cab," I grumble slumping in my seat, my whole body still shaking. "What's so funny?" I snap my head over at David who was laughing.
"Nothing, it's just your so dumb Davis. Like I would actually let you take a cab home when you are so upset. Mimi understands…If she didn't she wouldn't be the girl I fell in love with," he flashes me a smile before turning back to look at the road.
"You love her?" I ask trying to hide the shock of that. Not that didn't think it was impossible, but still not expecting it.
"Yeah…" He nods. "I mean I haven't told her or anything, but I am nuts about that girl," he lets out a dry laugh. "Looks like I found my Brooke," he smiles over at me and I nod understanding what he meant.
"I'm happy for you," I tell him honestly. "Very happy for you David."
"Me too, just sucks I am so happy when my best friend is so sad," He frowns next to me, patting my leg. "So what's going on Brookie?"
"I think…" I run my hand through my hair, staring outside the window. "I think I cheated on Lucas," I whisper as my voice once again starts to crack.
"What…what do you mean you think?" David asks confused, yet that right there is why I am glad he is here over Rachel or Haley. They would have yelled at me, jumped in my case about being stupid for letting something like that happen, but not David, never David.
"Someone else kissed me David," I turn to look at him tears. "And he asked me if I pushed him away because I had to because of Lucas or because I wanted too."
"And what's your reason?" He asks as we pull on Lucas's street.
"I don't know," I confess as a tear slips. "I love him, I know that but we are having so many problems David; so many. And all I think is what if he isn't my meant to be, that we are fighting for something that isn't supposed to be fought for anymore?"
"Ok Brooke…" David parks and turns off the car turning to look at me. "Where are we?" He questions and I look at him completely confused. "Brooke, look around you," he tells me and I raise my brow. "Brooke where are we right now?"
"We are at Lucas's, but David I don't get-"
"Exactly," he cuts me off and I have never in my life seen David so serious before, he is normally the carefree, joking cracking guy, not the one with a life lesson. "Someone kissed you, someone who you might or might not been attracted to, yet look where you are? It happened and the first thing you wanted to do was see him, find Lucas because yeah, maybe you are upset with all the problems you two have gone through lately but don't you dare take the easy way out. Don't give up the person who you care so much about because it's easier to be with someone else."
"David…"
"No listen damn it, I'm being serious. I love you Brooke alright and there was a point, I admit, where I was petrified of you because I knew you could hurt me but then….them I met Mimi and realized, and don't take this the wrong way, but I realized there was no way you could hurt me as much as she could. I love you but I am completely in love with Mimi just like you are with Lucas. So yes, it may be easier to be with someone who you care about less and you will love them but what you are feeling now with all the problems will never, and I seriously mean never, hurt as much as you feel by losing Lucas."
"David, I don't know what I am supposed to do..."
"You are supposed to get out of my car, go inside and crawl up next to the guy in there, and for once not look for a problem! Don't search for something to fight about; don't be the Brooke we all love and argue with him…god damn it Brookie, just be happy!"
"Should I tell him about the guy?" I ask opening the car door and begging David to give me the answer to the question that is going nuts through my head.
"I can't tell you what to do Brooke on that one, but I do know that even if it hurts him, it will hurt him a lot more if he ends up finding out from someone else," he tells me and I nod knowing what he meant. "I love you B, you will do what's right."
"Love you too David," I give a smile shutting the door as I look up at Lucas's apartment, back at David and then at the apartment. I feel sick again, as my feet take small footsteps up to the door, I grip all my keys so I just have the one to Lucas's apartment that he gave me point out as I slide it in the lock. It's late, I don't even know if he is here, being as he might have gone to hang out with Nathan since I had Haley but I hope he is home, or going to be home soon.
"Luke…" I call through the dark room, shutting the door behind me. "Lucas?" I say a little bit louder, peeking down the hall seeing the light from the TV flickering in the living room. "Luke…" I walk into the living room finding him asleep on the couch, TV changer hanging loosely in his hand.
I drop my keys on the counter, put down my purse and shuffle my feet over to my boyfriend. I slip the changer from his hand, turning off the TV, before putting it on the coffee table and climb up on the couch. I crawl up his body, snuggle against him, burying my face in the crook of his neck. It's crazy even in his sleep his arms instantly wrap around me, holding me close, like it's some form of muscle memory that his body automatically knows I am here and he holds me, makes me feel safe.
"Hey…" He sleepily mumbles, dropping a kiss against my head. "What you doing here?" He shifts under me, getting comfortable before becoming still.
"We were wrong," I whisper resting my head on his shoulder as his finger tips run slowly up and down my back before slipping under my shirt and doing the same giving me chills. "A night apart doesn't work, just makes me more upset."
"I'm sorry I upset you," he frowns bringing his other hand to my cheek and tilting my head to look at him. "I don't want to do anymore things to upset you," he says as he presses a kiss to my forehead.
"You don't," I promise knowing everything inside of me realizes now I am hurting myself in all this, Lucas hasn't done a thing it has all been me. "I love you Lucas ok?" I look him dead in the eyes and he furrows his brow looking a little confused. "No matter what happens, what we go through, just know when the day is over, there is no where I want to be but right here with you, in your arms ok?"
"I love you too, but Pretty Girl are you ok? Did something happen tonight?" He questions and I freeze thinking about what happened tonight.
"No…" I lie, snuggling back against him, resting my head on his chest. "Nothing happened…I just…I just love you."
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