Chapter 36 (I don't own anything) Read and Review please thanks!
Deanpov
Sammy… My heart fucking sinks and I do the first thing I can think of to save his sorry ass. I quietly but hurriedly head over and knock him out with the blunt of my gun.
I then look to the body in wonder. Fuck… I think looking to the body he was over and it was that of some homeless man that he clearly shot in the shoulder right above the chest. The man groans out. "Jesus Sammy what the hell?" I pick Sammy up first dragging him to the Impala. I then find the nearest payphone and call 911 and give them the location in my best fake voice possible. I just hoped this man couldn't ID us and have us warrants out soon, wouldn't be the first time though. It was dark though and I hoped that had helped. The man was alive though and that's all that mattered I wasn't about to leave him to die. But I could tell when I checked his pulse and the area he was shot in he'd make it.
I drove out to the middle of nowhere. I park the car and a wait for my brother to wake so I can let him have it!
Bellapov
I cautiously stand back for the first time ever with Alice I find myself on guard. She takes a seat at the table looking to me.
"It's ok Bella I understand…"
I nod.
"I wouldn't trust me either after what my brother pulled." Her expression sad face broken and I'd swore even though she was a vampire she was about to cry.
"I probably should have kept away but I just had to see you for myself and make sure you were alright Bella."
My bottom lip quivers a bit and I feel so confused and lost. I wanted to embrace my friend. To tell her I was sorry and that I loved her. But fear also resided in me. I no longer had the trust I had in the Cullen's I was beginning to look upon them the way Dean would. This saddened me deeply never did I imagine I'd stand before Alice of all people with a slight twinge of fear. But then again never ever in a million years did I ever think Edward Cullen would hurt me. I was beginning to see I was going to have some major trust issues now. Hell the only person I fully trusted at the moment was my tiger. I didn't even trust Sammy now the asshole. I wince in thought.
"Um is that look because of me?"
"No Alice… I've just got a lot on my plate."
She nods.
"I know hun."
Then I felt like a jerk hell I just took out her brother and I got a lot on my plate? BITCH!
"Alice… I…"
"You don't have to say it in fact I will be rather upset if you do. You've done nothing wrong I saw what happened. I know you had no choice."
I nod and a few tears trickle down.
"Bella sweetie…" She says so softly I barely heard her.
"I hate this." I say wiping my face.
"Me too. It's like everything's been flipped around."
I look to Alice though and think about what I saw.
"Alice…"
She looks to me tilting her head ever so slightly.
"You should know he's ok."
"Who is?"
"Edward…" I say that fucking lump gnawing away at my throat as it's incredibly hard to swallow.
"I saw him… I saw him Alice." I force a smile shaking my head.
"How do you mean hun?"
"Let's just say my tiger is buddies with an angel and he rather showed me to appease my heart and mind somewhat."
"An angel?"
I nod.
"Well I supposed I've to keep an open mind about such things considering… So what did you see?"
I bite my lower lip in memory.
"Him in heaven with his birth mother, he seemed happy Alice…"
Alice swallows back looking to me stone faced at first but then she nods and smiles.
"There's something about you isn't there Bella?"
I look to her oddly.
"What do you mean Alice?"
"There's something about you I mean besides the obvious."
I just smile.
"How bout a movie Alice? On Dean?" I grin mischievously.
She laughs.
"Oh well if he's paying…"
I turn on the TV and scroll through the pay per view channels.
"What would you like to see?"
She shrugs pressing her lips together. I look for something that'll keep my mind off worrying about Dean and Sammy, even if I was severely disgusted and at the moment hated Sam. I also still loved and cared for him and I'd never truly want something to happen to him. Yet I'd never been so violated feeling it made it worse for me because I truly thought of him like my brother yuck what kind of brother… I shake my head in thought and pick out Atonement something I was sure Alice and I both could agree on she never was much for the gore.
We both plop down on the couch and kick out feet out.
"Um Bella…?"
"What?"
"This is something I never thought I'd say but... your gun is poking me."
What the hell? I turn and see how it's bending from the holster and jabbing into her ribs.
"If only Dean was here…"
She gets my drift and has a good laugh.
"Oh Jasper would love that one too I'm sure."
Deanpov
"Wakey, Wakey eggs and bacey…" I mutter looking to my brother as he finally wakes.
He jumps back looking to me gathering his surroundings. He reaches to the goose egg on the back of his head.
"Yeah that's not going away anytime soon."
He swallows back.
"So… Where do we begin brother?"
He clears his throat and looks straight ahead.
"I mean there's a long list let's see…
One being where you didn't call me the moment this freaky shit started…
Two being you willingly took Bella on a case knowing already something was wrong with you…
Three you continued about this putting her in harms way…
Four your bullshit of hanging up on me…
Five turning off your phone so I couldn't get a hold of you…
Six taking my girl to that stupid Ghostfacers group knowing how I felt about that to begin with…
Seven…" I grab him by the collar of his shirt. "Seven trying to STEAL MY GIRL AWAY EIGHT TRYING TO FUCK HER!"
"DEAN!" He yells as I punch the shit out of him.
"Don't you Dean me you son of a bitch!"
"I never tried to sleep with Bella."
"BULL FUCKING SHIT! BELLA AND I BOTH HEARD YOU! YOU LYING PIECE OF SHIT!"
I undo his seatbelt and open his door and kick him out of the Impala. I then jump out on top of him.
"You want my girl, HUH YOU WANT TO FUCK HER SO GOD DAMN BAD SAMMY? YOU WANT HER SO BAD THAT WHEN SOMETHING LIKE THIS WENT DOWN YOU DIDN"T HAVE THE BALLS TO TELL ME? INSTEAD, YOU TRY HIDING IT! TELL ME DEAR BROTHER WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU DOING IN HER HOTEL THAT NIGHT? AND DON'T YOU DARE PLAY GAMES WITH ME I KNOW A LOT MORE THAN YOU THINK I DO! DID YOU HAVE YOURSELF A LITTLE WACK FEAST? DID YOU TAKE PICTURES OR TOUCH HER IN HER SLEEP WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU DOING IN MY GIRL'S ROOM WITHOUT HER KNOWLEDGE YOU GOD DAMN SICK MOTHERFUCKER!"
I take in a breath punching him again.
"AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST WHY THE HELL DO I FIND YOUR SORRY ASS WITH A FUCKING GUN TO YOUR MOUTH HUH? YOU WANT TO DIE SAMMY IS THAT WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT? CAUSE IF SO I CAN HELP YOU WITH THAT. TRUST ME I'VE NEVER BEEN SO FUCKING FURIOUS WITH YOU! HAVE YOU ANY CLUE WHAT BELLA'S GOING THROUGH WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO HER PSYCH. YOU SON OF A BITCH SAMMY SHE'S BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH WITHOUT YOUR SORRY ASS CRAP!" I take out my gun and put it to his heart and dig it in deep.
"You still want to die Sammy? You want to pussy out on me just because things got too hard for you to handle. Instead of calling me to help you, you just want to end your own life instead HUH! GOD DAMN IT SAMMY DAMN YOU! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!"
"Go ahead do it!" He says and I shake my head
"You dick! Through everything we've been through and this is it this is where you want to end it? Because you got some fucking hard on for a girl I'm in love with? Is that it you just can't stand it so instead of trying to deal with it like a real man you want to buck out of it? You idiot! You're a real piece of work Sammy! All of this everything could have been prevented if you had fucking called me! But no that's not how Sam Winchester does things. You got too much fucking pride always think you can handle everything on your own and bitch and moan about how bad you have it!"
I shake him by the collar and stand him up.
"While you were off having your pity party we almost lost her Sammy! She almost fucking DIED! Then she had to go through something even more horrifying to her! She had to kill her own ex in order to survive as he attacked her twice Sammy twice while you were away. I know how you feel about me you son of a bitch. I know you think I don't deserve her I know you think that you could give her better because of what you're willing to give up for her. But you know what! HUH? You want pretend you can offer her so much better than I? Well where were you Sammy where were you when she was dying and facing her hardest times! That's right nowhere to be found because you were off acting like a fucking little titty baby. Well cry me a god damn fucking ass river Sammy! Get over yourself! If you honestly care about that girl the way I do you would have sought help immediately when this began out of fear of hurting her!"
He clocks me across the face and I go down and it's on. The both of us roll in the dirt punching the shit out of each other.
"You asshole!" He mutters punching me in the jaw.
"Fuck you dude!"
"NO Dean FUCK YOU FUCKING PRICK!"
He takes his gun and puts it to my forehead.
"Do it jackass. Go ahead have that on your conscious then try to go and tell Bella about what you did and see if you can still win her over!"
Sammy shakes his head and rolls off me. He puts his hands to his face still gun in hand but starts fucking losing it. His face turns read as he shakes all over sobbing. Something my brother has done only a handful of times.
"God damn Sammy…" I say only softer now.
I take the gun from his hand and put it in my back pocket.
I kneel down before him and look him in the eyes.
"What's going on with you brother?"
He shakes his head clawing at his face.
"It won't go away it just won't."
He gets on his hands and knees his nails digging into the ground.
"So who is it Sammy is it ole Lu?"
"I almost wish it was…"
The way he says this alarms me to no end. What's worse than Lucifer?
"It's me Dean. It's me I'm fucked up something's wrong with me. I killed that man trying to shoot myself."
"What?!" I wasn't about to give him the satisfaction just yet of knowing that man was alive.
He follows me everywhere I can't sleep, eat, shower, and go to the god damn bathroom or do a case without him taunting me.
"Is he here now?"
Sammy nods without even looking around.
"It's gotten worse. People look at me as if I've lost my mind and I think I have Dean I really think I have. This thing whatever it like…"
"Like what Sammy?"
"Like the darkest parts of me won't shut the fuck up and it's taking over. Hell he's worse than Lucifer because I agree with the son of a bitch. That's how I know it's really me Dean everything he says even if I don't want to I agree with! I feel justified somehow. By hurting you and her and everything I feel I have some sort of sick rights to no matter how much I try to push it out and know it's wrong. It takes over screaming at me and the more I ignore it the fucking worse it gets."
I take in a deep breath trying my hardest not to go ahead and end him. He just admitted to me these are things he honestly feels. My brother wants to take Bella away from me. He feels I don't deserve her and he can do better at pleasing her and giving her what she wants. But what frightened me most what was about to come out of my mouth.
"So you would honestly try to kidnap my girl away from me and try to persuade her to love you?"
Sammy closes his eyes and that answered my question.
"BITCH!" I say and punch him across the face hard as I can.
"Get in the fucking car Sammy!"
He sighs scrambling back up to his feet again.
"NOW I'm NOT IN THE MOOD! You've ruined my whole fucking night! That girl you so want to steal away from me I purposed to just today! Instead of spending this time with her celebrating I had to come get your sorry ass and try to make you feel better about being a prick."
Sammy pinches the bridge of his nose and shakes his head.
"You fucking purposed to her?"
"Yes Sammy I fucking purposed get over it!"
"What she say?"
"I don't know Sammy what do you think she said?" I say with a shitty grin.
He swallows back shaking his head.
"Got something to say about that brother?"
He shakes his head.
"Congrats…" he sarcastically says.
"Why thank you Sammy!" I smile.