Sesshomaru had been reading for about two hours when he finally found something worth reading in his father's journal. He read about his father's first meeting with his mother, his father stated that there was nothing grand about his mother he even blew her off the first few meetings. Sesshomaru learned that his parents mating had been arranged they only had a few short weeks to get to know each other before they were to be mated. He took in that bit of information he knew there was not love between his parents a mutual respect yes but if they were an arranged mating that explained a lot as to why his child hood had been so rough.

Behind that line of thought came what he was now planning to do, to take a mate for no other reason than to shut up his instincts what would happen to any pups that they did produce? Would they suffer the same lonely and harsh child hood he did. Sesshomaru knew he was not one to show emotion if he was mating a demoness for no other reason than the one he came up with it was likely that they too would have no love for any offspring that may come from the union with him. Sesshomaru shook his head any pups he had would have Rin to play with they would not be as lonely and sad as he had been in his child hood.

Turning his eyes back to the book he continued to read about his parents. He read about the courting and the fights they had over stupid little things. He read about how when his father had mated his mother that his beast never reacted to her never came forth when the bond was made. Perhaps Sesshomaru thought that was why mother was so bitter when father took a human mate. His beast would not react to a full well-bred demoness but reacted to a weak human princess.

Sesshomaru pressed that thought back in the back of his mind it struck a little too close to home for him to deal with right now. His beast too had never reacted to a demoness only to his human pup and now the miko Kagome. Getting back to his reading he notice a change in his father, he never stated that he loved his mother but he did make mention have having deep feelings for her he truly cared for his mother. The idea that his father cared deeply for his mother came even more to light when he began to read about when his mother became pregnant with him. His father shared deep worries in his journal about both his mother and him during her pregnancy.

Sesshomaru thumbed through a few pages till he came to the pages of his birth. His father expressed such pride in Sesshomaru's healthy birth. Many intimate moments shared between his father, mother and himself as a pup were wrote in this book.

Sesshomaru continued to read along watching himself grow up in his father's eyes. Reliving the arguments he overheard between his father and mother over him. Soon he came upon the part of his father's human mate. Sesshomaru wanted to growl at the information his father shared in the book, but once again, Sesshomaru came to read that his father's beast still did not take interest in his human mate. Sesshomaru found it odd why would his father take another mate if his beast didn't demand it. Yes he knew his mother and father were having a rough patch when it had happened buy why mate her if it was not his beasts doing.

As he continued to read Sesshomaru saw the one word he didn't want to. His great father had loved the human Izayoi, it almost made it worse Sesshomaru could have understood if his beast had forced the mating but to know that his father had choose the human over his pure blood mother pissed him off more. So disgusted with his father Sesshomaru almost threw the small book across the room. Reading this was not helping his mood any but he could not bring himself to put the book down. A chance to see the inner workings of his father's mind was a tough thing to pass up.

In his reading Sesshomaru finally came to the part he dreaded the days in which his mother fell ill. He read the days as she weakened as if he was reliving them right before his eyes. It was the death of his mother that brought on his attitude his desire to distance himself from any and all things around him. His mother never loved him the way he wanted but she was still his blood and when his father started leaving more and more to see his second mate his mother was the only one there for him.

He continued to read how his father was happy that his second mate had become pupped. However never did his father mention any kind of pride in the fact it put a small smile on Sesshomaru's lips in a way, a twisted way his father had loved him more than Inuyasha. Soon his reading brought him to writings of a story his mother told to his father on her death bed.

Just as he was to begin reading it he felt dizzy light headed as if he was drunk. He growled out "Beast now is not the time for such antics.".

His beast laughed at him "It is not I that am causing this, it is our mate."

Sesshomaru brought a hand to his head to steady himself "We have no mate…not yet at least." Sesshomaru growled out.

His beast growled dangerously in the back of his mind, if his logical side refused to see the facts he would make him feel them. The beast tapped in to the soul bond with Kagome as she underwent the bond with Aoihi. Showing flashes of what she saw to Sesshomaru in his mind, and heightened the feelings their mate was having 10 fold. Sesshomaru doubled over cradling his head in both hands and flashes of Aoihi's red eyes flashed in his mind the foxes lips sealed on a wrist with his fangs sunk deep.

Sesshomaru roared throwing her head back "STOP THIS NOW BEAST!." he yelled.

His beast roared right back at him " I told you this would happen FOOL!… now she belongs to the foxes pack are you happy now."

The beast receded back to his cage he was now very upset with his logical side he should not have let him leave their pack with the Fox and his father. Yes his beast knew it was only a pack bond he could feel it through their bond with her but it was not the point. He should have been the first to get to sink his fangs in to her soft skin and taste her sweet blood.

Sesshomaru relaxed as the images and feelings flowing through his body stopped. His breathing was shallow and he still cradled his head in his hands. Sitting back up he picked back up his book to continue to read about what his mother had told his father.

His reading led him to Midoriko's name and a detailed explanation that she had shared her soul with his mother. His eyes widened as he read what the results were of such a thing as a kami touched the melding of a daiyoukis soul with that of a miko. That line ran over and over in his head the melding of a daiyouki and miko soul the scent marker and aura marker in Kagome's it all started to click in to place.

He was tied to the miko his beast started purring in the back of his mind "Ah yes now the fool starts to see with unclouded eyes." it chuckled at him.

Sesshomaru growled "I make my own fate, I will not let this bond be fulfilled we will have our mate by the end of the week."

While Sesshomaru was talking his beast felt a pull on their soul again as he tapped in to the bond. When her feelings washed over him he growled those were not the innocent feelings she had during Aoihi's marking. The beast quickly opened the link rushing Sesshomaru's scenes with everything Kagome was feeling. Sesshomaru's eyes widened when he felt a rush of warmth spread through his body.

It was not innocent in nature there was the slight hint of arousal in it "What is the meaning of this beast?"

His beast turned its head from the images going through their mind "That fool is our father's effect on our miko ….our MATE!."

At his beasts words Sesshomaru threw his father's book across the room smacking the other side wall hard. He didn't want to be mad he didn't want Kagome to affect him so but even with all his control he could not help the anger welling up in him at the thought that his father's marking was arousing her.

Sesshomaru began taking deep breaths to calm himself. He just had to get through the next few days he would pick a mate quickly and be done with all this ridicules mating shit. Now that he knew what was happening to him Sesshomaru could put up measures to prevent it from affecting him again. He didn't care at this moment that in taking another mate he would hurt weaken or even kill Kagome. He couldn't think of that right now he would not mate a human, powerful miko or not he would not be his father.

The beast sat in the back of his mind shaking his head. He would not allow his logical side to take a mate he would play nice and let him think he was behaving but god help him if Sesshomaru tried to mark another. He would not let the fool endanger his mate by taking another the beast would let his logical side feel what true weakness is. Laying its head down it changed its thoughts to more pleasant things such as the warmth it felt when Kagome was being mark. Tough it wished it had been the cause of such warmth the feeling of it still tingled along its fur making it purr.

Sesshomaru laid back when he felt his beast settle perhaps the damn thing finally learned it had no control over him. He let out a sigh why was it that this miko would not let him rest for even a single night without demanding his attention or the attention of his beast in some way or another.

It was all just too troublesome to think about right now. It was odd after experiencing the feelings Kagome did when being marked he himself felt rather tired more so than he ever had before. Surely the bond could not be that strong he didn't even like the woman much less have feelings for her. For a moment he wished he could go and give the cursed kamis a piece of his mind for what they trapped him in to.

He shut his eyes letting sleep claim him he would be busy tomorrow getting demoness settled in to his home. Than he would have to worry about the mating ceremony he was all too busy to waste his precious time on a weak human such and the miko.