Beta read chapter -rsrdiall
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well had a long day today now to unwind I'm coming home to write :)
It's amazing how this calms me but I really do love it
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It wasn't long before Kyoko found out the truth.
"WE'RE WHAT?" she shouted tugging back on Ren's hand as the Ishibashi brothers just stood looking at her not knowing quite what to say.
Hadn't she been told about this already? Really it was a big thing there first TV appearance together as a couple!
"Don't worry Princess, it's fine." Ren smiled at her clasping his hand over hers. Kanae and Yashiro had half expected this but it was Ren's idea not to tell her and Kanae was damned if after this she wasn't just going to laugh in his face and say 'I told you so!'
"Why didn't you tell me that we were doing this today?" The look she threw Ren was full of rage. Mio was slowly creeping in and Yashiro could feel the storm coming as he carefully drew Kanae a few steps back.
"Because I didn't want you to worry. It's not a big deal. The president thought as you knew the hosts of the show and you have been working on it for over a year now that this would be the best place for our first interview."
Kyoko seethed. HE DIDN'T WANT TO WORRY ME! SO DROPPING ME IN HEAD FIRST AT THE LAST SECOND WAS BETTER THAN ME BEING ABLE TO FULLY PREPARE MYSELF! Her head was screaming in rage. Did he think her so fragile that she would crumble under pressure of an interview? Did he really see her as so incapable of handling herself that he had to keep it a secret from her? Mio now fully living in Kyoko snatched her hand away from Ren as she glared at him. "I believe I should have a say in what I do and don't do. How dare you think that doing this would be better than not telling me! Now I am going to the dressing room to prepare. If I were you until we are called to stage I would stay out of my way." Kyoko stormed out of the hallway towards the dressing rooms, her dark aura making people literally jump out of her way.
Kanae sighed a long exasperated sigh. Ren could very well see the 'I told you so' look in her eyes as she started to follow Kyoko calling back to the men standing dumbfounded. "I never knew you were this bad at obstacle courses Ren-san. If I had known I would have brought a net."
Ren and Yashiro waited patiently. They had been placed in the second dressing room normally used by the musical act for the show. But as this was to be their first TV appearance together as a couple the entire 2 hour show was going to be devoted to them. Ren had tried hopelessly to talk to Kyoko but when he had knocked on the door Chiori had answered already dressed in the Bo costume but without the head. All she had said was,
"I'll call you when we are ready for you." And shut the door in his face.
Ren put his head in his hands and sighed. "Why the hell didn't I listen to you all. You all said this was a bad idea and I should tell her! Why the blasted hell didn't I listen?" Ren pounded his hand on the small coffee table in the centre of the room feeling fully pissed off with himself as he berated his foolish choices.
Yashiro looked at him and decided to be honest. "Because when it comes to Kyoko-chan you are blind. You believe that what you do is for the best and refuse to listen to anyone else's advice on the matter. But what you fail to realise is sometimes what you think is also confused by your love for her meaning it's not always the wisest choice."
Ren looked up at his manager and friend leaning against the back of the sofa behind him. "Any more fuel to throw on my already burnt out pride Yashiro-san?"
Yashiro looked at him and smiled. "I don't think I need to add any more fuel. You're beating yourself up enough."
Ren sighed deeply as he turned to look up at Yashiro with a look he had never seen before almost begging."That's the problem Yashiro. I've never been in love before. Not like this anyway. What should I do?"
Yashiro feeling pity for his friend and charge sighed as he placed a hand on his friend's shoulder."You learn from your mistakes and apologise. There is such a thing as loving someone too much. You need to let Kyoko-chan make her own decisions. You are not her keeper Ren you are her partner."
The two men stayed in a companionable silence Ren taking comfort from the strong hand gripping his shoulder as he considered the truth in Yashiro's words.
"OK, so that's what happened " Chiori stated as she listened to Kyoko relay what the commotion had been about. She had listened quietly as Kyoko and Kanae had explained why she had shut the door on Ren. "Well to be honest I don't blame you. I would be pissed if it was me. If I had known you were unaware I would have told you myself."
Kyoko just nodded. As soon as she had entered the dressing room Mio had left her and now she was sitting there feeling rather hurt but unable to cry as her own anger still coursed through her body. "Why didn't you tell me Moko-san?" Kyoko half pleaded with her as she looked at Kanae with eyes that pricked at her heart so strongly she had to give the girl sitting next to her a one armed hug.
"MO, Kyoko-chan I wanted to tell you I really did. But the Prez said we would do it Ren's way. We argued against him, told him he was being stupid but he was too pig headed to listen to any of us!"
Kyoko leant her head against her best friend. "Why does he see me as incapable of knowing the truth? Does he really think me that delicate?"
Kanae looked at Chiori begging her with her eyes to help her.
"Kyoko-chan I don't think he wanted to hurt you. I just think he believed what he was doing was in your best interest," Chiori said hoping this was what Kanae had been trying to say. It seemed right as Kanae jumped on the subject like the hunting tiger Kyoko had named her.
"Mo, Chiori-san is right Kyoko-chan. Ren's just made a silly mistake. Yashiro told me himself that men do crazy things when they are in love."
A knock at the door interrupted their conversation. Chiori went to open it.
"Chiori-san we will be ready in 10 minutes for you all," the assistant director said as she smiled at Kyoko through the door.
"It's good to see you back Kyoko-chan."
Kyoko smiled and nodded. "It's good to be back."
The assistant director bowed and returned to her own job as Chiori shut the door.
"Now Kyoko the basis of this entire argument is there is a man next door who loves you so much. Yes he sometimes goes overboard to protect you. Whereas in some situations this isn't a bad thing today it was OTT to the max. But I have got to say I have never seen Ren-sama look so lost as when I answered the door to him just now. The president told me once that truly loving someone sometimes means we have to forgive them for the stupid things they do in and just accept it was an act of love that got out of hand."
Kyoko sighed and then smiled as she looked up at Kanae and Chiori her anger melting away."That is the second time as a Love Me member I have quoted one of the president's lines. Maybe he really is getting to us." They all smiled and chuckled at this.
It was Kanae that broke the companionable silence,"Sometimes I wonder if that in the truth of reality isn't such a bad thing."
They all nodded as Kyoko stood. "Oh well I better go."
Both girls spun there heads to her. "Go! Go where?" Kanae said as they watched Kyoko opening the door.
"To get my boyfriend ready for the show of course." She smiled and the two girls just had to smile back as Kyoko exited the room.
"Do you think they will be OK?" Chiori asked. She had been dying to say out loud for awhile. Kanae had been a lot easier to talk to and be around since Kyoko's accident but she was still the ice queen to most others.
"I hope so. I think Ren just needs to relax a little. The shock of almost losing her without ever confessing his feelings was a big hit to him and then him realising that she had similar feelings for him. I suppose it's a lot for anyone to take in all at once."
Chiori looked at Kanae. "But I thought it was Ren who confessed first?"
Kanae looked up at her with dark haunted eyes remembering the moment the president had told her about the incident. "In theory it was him that spoke the words first, but as far as actions nothing screams I love you more than being willing to die so he could live."
Kyoko had opened the door silently. Ren and Yashiro were talking. Ren had his head in his hands looking lost, lonely and scared.
"Any more fuel to throw on my already burnt out pride Yashiro-san?" she heard Ren say as she listened quietly.
"I don't think I need to add any more fuel. You're beating yourself up enough without it.
"That's the problem Yashiro. I've never been in love before. Not like this at least anyway. What should I do?"
Kyoko's heart wrenched. She wanted to run over to him and tell him, Heck I feel the same way. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could feel this way about another person. I happily would have died for you that day just so I knew you would feel no pain.
Her heart seemed to stop as she strained her ears hoping Yashiro would be able to answer this question not just for Ren, but for herself also.
"You learn from your mistakes and apologise. There is such a thing as loving someone too much. You need to let Kyoko-chan make her own decisions. You are not her keeper Ren, you are her partner."
The last word spun around Kyoko's head like a fluttering bird. We are partners. Not just friends, partners.
Grabbing her phone from her pocket she did something she rarely did. Opening up the internet she typed the word into the search bar. Reading the descriptions that popped up she was ready. Speaking out loud she entered the room reading the small print on her phone.
"Partner: A friend who shares a common interest or participates in achieving a common goal.
A sexual partner.
A significant other in an intimate relationship.
A wife or husband in a family.
A member of a partnership."
She leant lightly against the doorframe not looking up at the two men now goggling at her.
Ren jumped up. "Kyoko how long have you been standing there?" he asked looking rather embarrassed as she flicked her eyes over his face and back down to her phone.
"Long enough." God Chiori was right. He really does look upset and lost. She had seen Yashiro place the comforting hand on his shoulder before she had broken their silence in the room. With one look at Ren she knew he was sorry. Every inch of his body showed dejection and worry. Almost like a lost puppy. Taking a deep breath and closing her eyes she counted to 5 allowing her overflowing emotions that made her want to fling herself into Ren's arms at that very second calm before she turned to Yashiro.
"I'm going to check on Kanae," Yashiro said and left through the already open door which Kyoko shut firmly behind him.
She broke the silence as she walked over to Ren. Placing one hand on his left shoulder she pushed him back down onto the sofa he had stood from in one swift movement before sitting down next to him. Picking up his right hand in her own she entwined their fingers together.
"I'm sorry," Ren finally managed to choke out as he looked down at the small hand in his own. "I made a mess of things. I had no right to not tell you about the show tonight."
Kyoko just nodded leaning her head onto Ren's shoulder. "Ren we are both beginners when it comes to this. You say you have never been in love with another like you love me and I have to say I feel exactly the same way. It scares me the thought that one day you may realise just who you have fallen in love with and realise that I'm not as good and as perfect as you thought me to be."
Ren looked up into Kyoko's eyes and wanted to interrupt and tell her this was an impossible thing but the slightest touch of her finger on his lips silenced him
"Let me finish," she said taking another deep calming breath. God why does being close to this guy set my heart alight. I feel like I'm burning from within.
"The fact is I will probably never get rid of my insecurities. We all have pasts with different experiences and emotions that go with them. You have Rick and even though you have realised now that he would not want you to live a half life without warmth or love you will never truly lose the guilt because it is part of you just like my pain of never being truly loved is part of me." Breathing was becoming difficult as she felt tears building behind her eyes but this needed to be said. "We both have the same fear. Now we have shared our feelings. We are afraid that the other will one day fail to be there anymore. We fear the lonely emptiness we have both felt before and we fear the breaking of a heart as it crumbles beneath the weight of our memories." She stroked his hand caressing every inch of the large, strong fingers and the soft skin, memorising every inch. It was part of the man she loved. She never wanted to forget how that had felt. The way it felt touching his bare skin and the shivers of pleasure it could produce from the lightest touch. "But if we hold on to the past Ren I'm scared we will never be able to move forwards together as true partners."
Suddenly dropping Ren's hand she stood and stepped away from him.
Ren's thought at that second almost killed him as he watched her step away. She's going to leave me
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Hmm does that count as a cliffie :P I'm not sure
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Crazygeekweirdo:
Don't worry about your review I'm a very level headed person and at the end of the day if people cannot point out what's bad with something how is anyone meant to know what their doing wrong?
I'm a believer in looking at your weak points and improving upon them so I like being told I'm wrong :D (very strange I know, but that's just the type of person I am hehe)
Also as I studied physiology sometimes my reasoning gets lost on other people until suddenly it clicks my friends Faith included says I don't just look outside the box I live their hehe sometimes I have to wonder if this is a compliment or what it was said by Maya Angelou
"If one is lucky, a solitary fantasy can transform a million realities"
this is something I firmly believe and live too its just that my reality tends to be a little abnormal I suppose and my way of thinking is weird hehe
you can review as many times as you like with as many thoughts and feelings crammed in as you can I'm also open to PM's
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I'm afraid not even Walt Disney believes in happily ever after any more and I certainly don't
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but I'm guessing the last few chapters have already shown this XD
Faith in reality:
for those of you that don't already know this ^ woman here is the whole reason I even started this fanfic in the first place so beat her to a pulp if you like :P
(joking of cause)
so to answer your questions for the 100th time today my dear
Were is my beautiful Reino , I DEMAND REINO SEXYNESS?
You know how I feel about this character my dear and unless I'm am flooded with Reviews and PM's about the lack of this char he will not be seen in the near future
When is Sho getting his ass whooped and handed to him on a silver platter?
You will have to wait and see for the plans I have for Sho it's not far away now so be patient
Will they go to America? I wanna see Julie dragging Kyoko through New York like Lizzie did to me! Hehe I think I still have the blisters to prove it XD
Faith you have no patience at all do you?
Will Kyoko become a model for Julie or am I thinking up the wrong road? I know what your mind is like you skip through stories like Kyoko's heart skips a beat hehe
again my previous statement!