~ DON'T HATE KIKYOU!!! (I say that and yet I make her even more evil than normal -.-;) I don't hate her :] I think of her as... a human form of what every girl feels when she sees her ex with another girl for the first time. The one she never got over... Kikyou is just a human form of our very human emotion jealousy and pain so we must not hate her for then we'd just be hating that little piece of ourselves that EVERYONE HAS SO DONT LIE ABOUT IT D:

(wow that was not a very well spoken speech -makes a note- "no more speeches" )

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I Don't Own Inuyasha

"Talking"

35. Kikyou's Confession

I was bound to the tree in which Kikyou had slept. Several Soul Collectors wrapped themselves around my body and glided around my face. It was revolting. I was able to move now, fortunately. But there was still a spell... something that prevented me from unleashing my power on these flying snakes and getting free.

The woman standing before me couldn't be Kikyou. She was too hateful. She wasn't the mature, kind woman I one remembered. She wasn't my sister... I figured it was Naraku.. pretending to be my sister. But I wasn't going to fall for it, oh no. My sister was dead, just like Inuyasha had said. She'd never be back in this world...

"You cannot move." She stated. "Even if you scream you won't be heard. You won't be visible to Inuyasha's eyes when he arrives. I won't let you interfere...."

I wrinkled my nose up in disgust but said nothing.

"But.. while we wait...I'll tell you a little story." The fake Kikyou smiled coldly at me and hid her hands in the large sleeves of her kimono. "I'm aware of a dream you've had. One that's been haunting you for weeks."

I stared back at her, matching the same harsh stare as she was giving me. "How do you know about that?"

She laughed. "I gave you that dream."

Suddenly my body went numb and my gaze dropped to the floor. As I let her words wash over me. She...did? Why? What kind of sick torture was this!? It was all just a spell!? A dream!? I felt like an idiot. How long had I agonized over it!? Cried over it?Over that stupid, non-existent, stupid, idiot dream!? She was my sister! Why? "So it was fake?"

"No."

I looked up at her. "What..?"

"When I died... I had a choice to see what would have happened if everything had gone on like it should had, and I got that. Betrayed by you and Inuyasha. But I should have known. The way you used to cling to him..." She trailed off glaring at the forest floor. "The way..."

"Why!?" I shouted, struggling against the snakes that bound me. "Why!? Why did you have to show me! I was so upset! I got so depressed! I could have killed myself! Why are you only thinking of yourself!? Only about your revenge!? What happened to you before!? What happened to my sister-!?"

"We were never sisters." She snapped. My heart thumped hard against my chest as her chocolate brown eyes stared at me with such an intense gaze of loathing I could barely take it. "When you were young before you can remember, your desperate and delicate mother stumbled into our village carrying you along with her. Descendant of Midoriko she was, but weak since her daughter caused her beloved village and father to turn against her in fear that the child would one day kill them all. In our village she abandoned you, along with the Shikon No Tama. I was ill at the time and we were placed inside the same room for reasons still unknown to me. There you stole apart of my soul and the next day I was no longer ill and the sacred jewel was in my care. You lived with us from there on after, as a weak little human girl."

I fell to my knees as the tears slipped down my face... No.. She had to be lying... She had to be! It couldn't be true. I was her sister... I was just.. cursed... Cursed with a hanyou form... I...It... I couldn't think anymore. She was being too cruel, feeding me all these lies. Why? What was her problem!?

"Your behaviour so far these past few months is inexcusable." Her voice was low and harsh. I tried to block the voice that would ruin my sisters memory for me forever. This wasn't her... I reminded myself. It's...It's Naraku!

A new scent abruptly appeared in the clearing and my head snapped up, my vision blurry with tears. "Inuyasha.."

He walked right past me, deaf to my cries, and stared straight at my demonic sister. "Kikyou..."

She looked up at him then, her eyes no longer dark and evil, but wide and innocent. More tears ran down my face. No...

"So it really was you collecting the dead women's souls!" He stated stepping towards her. She stepped back. "Why..?"

"This imitation body made with bones and earth.. cannot move without dead souls.." She replied. Suddenly her eyes were dark with crazed anger. A half insane smile twisted her beauty into something painful to look at. It was horrible to see her this way.. "Inuyasha...You find me repulsive don't you. My hatred for you drives me, and I continue to live in this world wearing the souls of the dead."

Inuyasha growled, his face getting red with anger. "You...YOU MAY HATE ME BUT I....There hasn't been one since day where I've forgotten you!"

I blinked. My tears suddenly stopped flowing, and I stared at him, my heart beating painfully fast. A dull ache appeared somewhere deep in my chest and I leaned forwards, against the soul collector snakes. I knew it... I told Miroku.. I was right... I remembered all the false leads, the fake impressions and the stupid lies. When he said.. all those stupid things.. like when I looked better with my hair down... cutter when I blushed... he must've just been hallucinating her! I felt a anger boil up inside me. As I watched them... Jealousy..

"No matter what sort of appearance you have..." He said looking down at the ground. I bit the inside of my cheek and stuck my foot right out under his gaze. He looked right through it as if it were never there... But I noticed Kikyou's eyes flash to me for a second and I smiled back at her. I didn't know what I was doing.. but I knew I was going to ruin this for her, I was going to distract her... make it so she can't hear what he's saying... everything. "I don't think I could ever hate you, or be repulsed by you."

"Oh excuse me while I BARF!" I yelled making a dramatic and loud gagging noise. My tears were long gone now. I was going to have fun with this.

"Do you... really mean that?" Kikyou said. Once more her eyes flickered and glared at me. This was very amusing. She stepped closer... closer...her hand reached out and touched his cheek.

I remembered the other day...and growled. "NO HE DOESN'T MEAN THAT!!!"

She ignored me but I felt the soul stealers tighten their grasp around me. Oh so it was gonna be like that, huh? "Don't you find it dreadful.. that I could, right now, kill you with this hand...?" I felt like that was directed more towards me then to Inuyasha.

I blinked trying to think of something to distract her and then suddenly her lips were on his. My face burned, my heart lurched...and suddenly the shrill screams only she could hear were escaping my lips. I screamed like an upset child, who as spoiled as she already was, still wanted that teddy bear. Every time I ran out of breath I screamed again, and again.. and again. I could sense my sister's irritation and screamed louder.

"When I was alive I wanted to do this.." She whispered as she pulled away and rested her head upon his shoulder.

"Kikyou..." He hugged her back.. and my screams died down. My shouts and annoying remarks could do nothing to him.. and Kikyou was already ignoring me... well in fact it seemed like the more I tried to ruin it the more she advanced.. Jealousy boiled up in my stomach again.

"Hey! You know! I've already kissed him twice!" I shouted at her. If I was jealous.. then she should be too. "And! He's complimented me and practically just about flirted!!!" I kicked the air and struggled violently against the Soul Collectors. "I CAN MAKE HIM BLUSH TEN FOLD!!"

"Kikyou what should I do?" Inuyasha asked.. I growled and continued shouting all the things that's already happened.

"It's too late..." She replied. "..for us to return for how we were...So.. let's stay like this a little longer..."

Now I felt bad.. I really was acting like a spoiled brat... He belonged to her...

All of a sudden the ground opened, and a harsh wind was dragging them under. Yeah screw that idea... "STOP IT, ONEE-SAN!" I shouted. "You have no right to do this! It's this idiot guy Naraku that put you against each other! Inuyasha didn't do anything! You loved him, so why are you so quick to accept that he supposedly killed you! What kind of love is that!!?"

She raised her finger at me and flicked it. "Shut up."

The Soul Collectors hold around me suddenly tighter and I felt it hard to breath. Pain rippled up and down my back, and tears sprang up in my eyes, and I looked at her pleadingly. "Onee-sann..."

"Even if I could get my revenge." She hissed. "This body wont come back to life." She turned back toward Inuyasha who had been unconscious the whole time. "This is better for you too. It's better for us to go together now, than for you to go on living without being able to forget me, isn't it?"

I growled anger pulsing like a drug through my veins. "STOP YOUR NON-SENSE AND GET YOUR STUPID HANDS OFF HIM!" A crack rippled through the air and souls were pouring out from her body, as my voice echoed through the forest. The soul collectors loosened their hold, and I fell to my knees. "Inuyasha! Inuyasha! WAKE UP!"

The hanyou boy opened his eyes and looked around him in a daze. "Kaori...?" His tawny eyes landed on my aquamarine and panic masked his features. "Kaori!" He pulled out the Tetsusaiga and cut through the binding youkai and the spell. "Are you alright? What the hell are you doing here, in a place like this?"

"What am I doing!?" I repeated a hint of hysteria in my voice. He looked at the soul collectors hovering over me then watched as the glided over to the dead priestess behind him.

"Kikyou...you..."

"Is she.. my little sister..." I exhaled sharply at those words, "more precious to you then I?" Kikyou asked, putting sorrow in her words. The soul collectors wrapped themselves around her and lifted her up off the ground.

"Kikyou!" Inuyasha shouted, as he watched her glide away.

"Inuyasha... don't forget that my feelings for you when we kissed were not a lie.."

Irked by this stupid comment, I growled and turned on my heel stalking away. What a big fat stupid joke! It was obvious she was Kikyou, there was no way Naraku would kiss Inuyasha but she could certainly be just as annoying and manipulative as him. She confesses to me all the dementia of her mind then tells him she truly does love him. That's bull!

"Oi..." Inuyasha called, keeping up with me. He NOW of course would have his attention on me, since my sister was gone.

"Fuck off." I snapped.

"Why are you angry for!?" He asked, irritation in his words.

I exhaled sharply once more and looked over my shoulder at him. He yelped and jumped back. "I saw everything and even more before you arrived too."

"'Everything'?"

"EVVERRRYYYTTHINNGGGGGGG!!!!"I sighed and turned my back to him. "Just what...in the world am I to you?" Silence filled the air, and the dull ache in my heart returned. "Never mind, I don't wanna know." I took off then, running as fast as my legs could take me. I was going home... There was no reason to stay.

End Of Chapter 35

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