Sorry about not uploading yesterday, ending up going out with a friend lol, plus I found this fanfic, that completely grabbed my attention I couldn't pull my self away, I suggest you all should go read it too :D its called; where you belong. By; sidewayscope- there's also a sequel which I have just started lol
Anyway sorry if there are any grammar or spelling mishaps.
Please enjoy the chapter xxx
We made our way downstairs slowly, when we reached the foot of the stairs both Dean's mum and dad stood up, our entwined fingers let go of the each other's and our hands fell to our sides, Dean stared at the floor, I didn't want to catch anyone's eye. I had no idea what was going t happen. I was accepting shouting maybe a few swings in my directing, but I was prepared for it I wasn't going to runaway and leave Dean alone. I could never leave Dean's side.
"Ah boys, sit down." John told us and we made our way to the sofa Dean's parent's remaining standing.
"Dean, I think your father and I should have a chat with you and Cas."
"I'm sorry." I blurted out, I couldn't help my self.
"For what Cas?" Mrs Winchester asked a soft tone to her voice, which just put me even more on edge. When I began to speak I simply couldn't fight back the tears.
"For everything, I'm so, so sorry Mr and Mrs Winchester. Please, sorry." I felt Dean take my hand, I knew he didn't want to do anything too big in front of his parents, so I was very grateful for the soft contact of skin, and his soothingly touch.
"Oh my dear, come here." Nikki then walked towards me and to my surprised wrapped her arms around me. I was shocked but hugged back with my free arm. "It's alright." She kept saying rubbing my back.
"Dean." I heard john say, I was surprised when he didn't let go of my hand, in fact he tightened his grip and I squeezed back trying to give support, though at this point I was still sopping into Nikki's neck.
"Yes dad?" he asked voice a little shaky, I closed my eyes and listened t them speak I didn't want to watch the scene before me, even though my face was still hidden in Nikki's embrace I still felt the urge to close my eyes.
"Something you wanna tell me?" there was a silence between them for a few beats, and my breath caught in my throat. What was he going to say? Blame me? Deny it? Though it was stupid of my to doubt the gorgeous by, after a small nervous laugh he spoke fast.
"I'm gay, and in love with my best friend." his hold of my hand getting a little painful but I gripped it back I would never let g.
"Thank you for telling me." I fell silent at hearing that, my heavy breaths stopped dead, what did he just say? Surly I had misheard.
"Look at me, it's alright." Nikki told me with a soft smile.
"I don't understand."
"Neither do I. how come you're both so nonchalant about this." Dean said looking from parent to parent.
"Sweetie we've hand our suspicions for a while." Nikki said, like it was the most obvious thing in the world, my mouth fell open upon hearing her words.
"What?" Dean asked, completely taken back at her words.
"When Cas first came Nikki saw straight away, took me a little longer, not as long as you're two though." John smiled at his shocked open mouthed frozen son and turned to me. "So Cas, I have one thing to ask you."
"Yes sir?" I asked voice shaky and heart in my throat.
"What are your intentions with my eldest son?"
"I don't understand." I said again, out of everything I was expecting when Dean and I walked down the stairs this was the last thing I was expecting, it unnerved me. I was waiting for the punch line, literally. Waiting for the shouting and disowning to begin.
"Well if you two are dating I want to know Dean's heart won't get broken."
"Never." I instantly told him, even before his words had sunken in.
"Then that's all I need to know."
"Oh dad!" Dean said lunging from the sofa to give his dad a hug; he then looked to Nikki after a moment he smiled at her, "Mum." They shared a hug, and I am pretty sure Nikki had a tear in her eye upon hearing Dean call her mum for probably the first time. "I love you both." Dean told them before sitting back down and taking my hand again, this time more confidently, putting my hand on his lap and holding it with both hands.
"Castiel?" Nikki said getting both Dean and my attention's, she crouched by the end of the sofa and put her elbows n the arm and hand my free hand.
"Yes Mrs Winchester?"
"Nikki, please. I want you to know that John heard what you said to Dean about your family. It's not true, you have us. You always will my darling. You're never alone."
"Thank you, both. I don't know what to say." And I really didn't, it was all too much it was like something from a film, it was amazing.
"Guys? Can you keep this quiet? And don't tell Cas' dad?" I was s thankful Dean asked that because I had completely forgotten in all the excitement.
"Sure. But you can't hide forever." John told us as he put an arm around his wife who had got to her feet and stood next to her husband.
"Just until the end of high school and I can be out from under my dad's roof."
"If you ever get tired of pretending and decide to be honest with him. You can always stay here, if it gets that far. But he is your father and he loves you."
"Nikki." I heard Dean say under his breath, I guess he was trying to stop her talking and I was touched by Dean effort.
"I am sure you are right Mrs, erm, Nikki. But his love is not stronger than his anger and hatred unfortunately."
"But Cas," she started to argue, I really didn't want to get into this but she was Dean's mum I could hardly refuse to answer.
"Nikki." Dean said again, I could see out the corner of my eye he was shaking his head. At that point john piped in and started talking; probably taking the hint Dean was getting at.
"Right well, I am taking Nikki out for a spot of lunch, you two are welcome to come with us."
"No thank you dad, we have a few things to sort out." Dean said, I caught his eye and we shared a smile, a smile which still gives me butterflies.
"Very well, love you boy's, we'll see you in a few hours." Nikki said as she fetched her jacket. John leaned in to Dean and whispered what I think was something along the lines of;
"Have fun. Sam and Annie are due back in an hour."
"Thanks dad." Dean smiled and we watched john and Nikki make their way to the front door.
"bye." Nikki called over her shoulder.
"bye." Dean replayed and then the door shut and we were alone. My gaze was glued straight ahead. "You okay Cas? You look pale?"
"I'm not sure what just happened." I answered eyes still frozen ahead, mind trying to make sense of it all. Dean gently put a hand on my chin and moved me face so it faced his, my gaze didn't moved so it was going over his shoulder.
"Basically we came out to my parents, they accepted it, are willing to keep it a secret, given you a place to stay if your dad does find out, and have given us a free house for an hour."
"Either I'm dreaming, hallucinating from the pain of my hangover, or I'm still drunk and what actually happened was a huge argument I choose not to register it."
"Cas, look at me." Dean said caressing my cheek with one hand, and lifting my hand to his lips with the other. He kissed my knuckles and my gazed fluttered to his deep green eyes. "Good things do happen." He almost whispered, I was silent for a few beats of silence before I smiled, but not a happy one more a defeated smile.
"Not in my experience."
"Well they do now." He told me with such certainty how could I argue, he leaned forward and we kissed gently, lips moving against each others rhythmically.
"Did you say something about a free house?" I asked when we parted for air. Dean chuckled a little before nodding and he lunged forward, this time more passionately, pushing me to my back as he laid on me. "Wait, wait we should get hold of Jo." I said trying to push him off, I desperately didn't want this to end but I wanted many more times like this, I needed there to be and Jo was the key to that.
"Was going to tell you over breakfast, I phoned her when I was in the kitchen, he's agreed." He was out of breath but each word sang to me, I beamed a huge smile I couldn't contain it.
"That's wonderful!" I shouted and threw my arms around him, our eyes meant once more and our eye were flicking from eyes to lips, we both started to lean in when the door opened and we jumped apart.
"Sam! What are you doing back?" Dean demanded, I guess he didn't like being cock blocked.
"Annie wanted to come home." Sam said simply, before his eyes landed on me. "Oh hi Cas."
"Hi." I said back it was only a little awkward, considering the last time we had saw each other was last night when he had walked in on me and Dean in a rather compromising position.
"Cassie!" Annie shouted from Sam's arms who put her down and she ran to me and climbed onto my lap.
"Hey Annie." I told her before giving her a kiss on the forehead. She waved to Dean as he got up who also gave Annie a kiss of the head, and well as me, that made my head go all fuzzy. Dean went to have a word with Sam as Annie started to talk to me, sounding rather excited.
"Sammy said we can watch the little mermaid, you watch it too!"
"Would love too."
"Yay!" she clapped her hands and bounced a little in excitement.
"Cas you want to join me in the kitchen, to get some drinks." Dean said, I nodded and placed Annie on the sofa before following Dean to the kitchen. As soon as he got into the kitchen our lips connected in a wild passionate kiss.
"You taste minty fresh." I teased when we parted for air.
"Well I couldn't have my boyfriend be pissy about morning breath could I? I nipped to the bathroom before going downstairs. Before getting caught by dad." I laughed a little at the memory, though that word was at the forefront of my mind, 'boyfriend.' We hadn't said that, though it made sense, we had say the L word though boyfriend sounds final and certain, I loved it.
"Boyfriend?" I asked with a smile spread wide across my face.
"That a problem?" Dean asked as he wrapped his arms around me, looping his fingers through my belt loops on my jeans.
"I think it's the most wonderful thing I have ever heard." I told him, Dean scoffed at that I felt a little embarrassed though the sound Dean made was somewhat beautiful.
"Drama queen." Dean said, I played along and pretended to be hurt, pouted as I looked into his eyes. Dean's green orbs lowered to my lips and a smirk spread across his lips, he leant in and spoke in a quiet and what sounding like a lustful voice. "Look at that lip." Right before sucking it between his lips and gently catching it between his teeth coursing me to moan.
"I thought you said they would be out for another hour?" I know I whined but by god, what this boy was doing to me, I was incredibly turned on.
"Annie wanted to come home." Dean said in an apologetic manner, though of course it wasn't anyone's fault.
"Shame." I said as I gave Dean's neck a soft swipe of my tongue, making his groan quietly
"Yeah." He croaked out. We looked at each other, hands running over each others bodies; Dean started to lean in when we heard Sam shout from the other room.
"Guys, the movies started." Dean left his head drop down onto my shoulder for a few seconds of deep breathes before moving it up again.
"You fancy watching a red head mermaid lust over some human prince?"
"You smooth talker you."
"Damn right." He joked with a wink before we got a juice box for Annie, orange juice of Sam and me and Dean grabbed himself a coke. We went back to the living room hand in hand.
Sam and Annie sat on the sofa, Sam reading over his school notes and Annie swinging her legs and completely engrossed in the film. Dean and I sat on the floor leaning against the sofa, Dean's arm was around my shoulders and I leaned my head gently on his chest, I was so relaxed. I have to admit Disney is a guilty pleasure, I mean who doesn't like Disney?
After the end of the film, Dean and I made our way back t Dean's room and re-settled on this bed. We were both desperate to feel each other be with each other though we both decided that we didn't feel comfortable with it when Annie was downstairs and awake.
So instead we put on Indiana Jones and laid in each other's arms. It was wonderful; the feel of Dean's fingers running through my hair was incredibly calming. We laid in silence; I spent a lot of the time swirling patterns with my fingers over his chest and peppering him with kisses. We watched raiders and Dean brought up food for when we watched temple of doom, heated up pepperoni pizza and warm apple pie, gorgeous. As we ate and watched the rest of the second film we talked about this and that, about nothing and everything at the same time. Some hw we ended up in a passionate make out session, but some how we managed to restrain ourselves and calm down, due to our previous decision to keep it pg13 while Annie and Sam we in the house, we at least awake.
After Dean took our plates down and brought up some cans of Pepsi max, before putting in the last crusade and climbing back into the bed and wrapped his arms around me.
"Cas."
"Hmm?" I asked, in hindsight I should have been anxious about this convocation, but as they say ignorance is bliss as is being with Dean so I was too relaxed t recognised the serious undertone to his voice.
"I've been thinking." I scoffed at that, Dean did seem to walk into these things sometimes.
"First time for everything." Dean looked at me, mouth open in fake shock holding his heart.
"Sometimes you can quite mean." He pouted, I rolled my eyes before deciding to join in, Dean was just too cute not too.
"Oh I'm sorry baby." I mused and pouted back, smirk plastered all over Dean face and he curled up to be, chin on my chest and we looked me in the eye.
"Not good enough baby, I think my heart just broke." I carded my hand through his hair before I spoke with a fake melodramatic sigh.
"Such a drama queen." Before I knew it Dean had me on my back, straddling my shoving his fingers into my ribs and sides, making me squirm and roar with laughter. "Stop, stop!" I begged unable to stop laughing long enough to even attempt to sound serious. "Please!" I screamed. "Oh, no please." I couldn't muster up any strength to stop him, I was helpless all I could do was pray from mercy, but it didn't look likely considered the bastard had a stupid smirk on his face.
"Tell me you love me!" he almost sang as he tickled me even more.
"Never!" I shouted, refused to give in, at that moment I didn't love him, I hated him. No that's a lye I loved him, always will, doesn't change the fact the twat was tickling me and I wanted him to freaking stop.
"Say it, say it!" Dean was now laughing his ass off.
"Ah!" I shouted again, I had no energy left, tears were streaming and all the laughter was starting to give me hiccups, I had no choice but too surrender. "I love you! I love you please, stop!" Dean tell me go, he was still straddling me and staring down at me as I was coming down from my giggles.
"And I love you too." he said a matter of factly before leaning down to capture my lips. When we had both calmed down and this time I had Dean in my arms, the mood changed a little as I felt Dean tense a little out of nerves, after back tracking I remember Dean had a question, suddenly nervous I spoke, knowing it had to be down.
"What were you going to say before we got sidetracked?"
"Oh, erm. I was wondering what you meant earlier?"
"When?" I asked trying to make my voice sound up beat and normal, which just made me sound fake; my voice isn't really normally up-beat anyway.
"What you said about your twin."
"Oh." I whispered out, tensing up completely and immediately.
"You said-"
"I know what I said." I interrupted him; I really didn't want this convocation. I couldn't, I haven't spoken about it not really, but I shouldn't have spoken to Dean so rudely though. "Sorry. I, I don't want to talk about it."
"Has it got something to do with that scar?" he asked running a hand over my heart, scar and jimmy tattoo. "Cas," he continued when I didn't speak, a lump was caught in my throat I found it near impossible to speak at that moment, so after opening my mouth and closing it many times trying to speak, I managed to get the words out, they were faint and croaky but I still said them..
"Please Dean, I can't. I want to, but it's hard." I buried my face in Dean's hair as I mumbled the rest. "I promise you, I will tell you but I just can't yet."
"It's okay. Tell me when you're ready." Dean told me after scrambling to seating position and held my cheeks, stroking them with his thumbs. He kissed me softly before gently pulling me into his arms; my body instantly relaxed being pressing up against Dean's own. "Can you just tell me one thing?" I could tell he was worried about asking, I was too even more about answering but I nodded. "Did you, you didn't kill Jimmy did you?"
"Do you think I did?" I asked not looking up to see his eyes.
"No, I don't think you're capable, but you said you did."
"No, not literally but it was my fault." That part was true, I blame my for Jimmy's death completely, I did then, do now and every day in-between as does my father.
"Tell me." He gently spoke and I did want to I did. I didn't want secrets between us. "I can't, one day Dean." I know I'm going to be spending my life with Dean, so I know I can completely trust him and I do, I am certain given a little time I will share my secrets with him, just like I am certain Dean will wait for them, give me as much time as I need, just one reason why I love him.
"Okay. Just remember that I love you, and I'll always be here to listen."
"Thank you. That means everything to me Dean. I love you too, so much."
Sometimes I write nice dads, sometimes lol .
Hope you enjoyed it :D
OMG! Hope every one has seen 7.17! :O I loved it cannot wait for next week.
I actually got goosebumps when Cas looked up his porch steps to Dean for the first time, capturing his face and eyes :P Okay yes I know I am a freak but come on its Castiel!
!HE'S BACK! :D and if he hasn't redeemed himself to Dean through what he did in this ep then Dean's an idiot and doesn't deserve a gorgeous bass ass nerd angel boyfriend that is Cas, luckily for our hunter his angel loves him and will stay with him no matter what. Okay I have mentioned I'm a freak right, I need to get out more I am practically living and breathing Dean/Cas lately, and I am most certainly dreaming about it LOL ;D
Anyway sorry about my rant :) please review xxx