Chapter thirty five

Charlie woke early and slipped out of bed and walked into the other rooms. He was hoping Harry wasn't awake yet so he could get away without him asking too many questions. He stepped into the fireplace and vanished. He stepped out into Sirius' sitting room and saw James and Sirius waiting for him.

'Thanks for getting up so early, I didn't want Harry asking too many questions.' Charlie said as he walked over and sat down.

'You said you needed to tell us something important Charlie, nothing's wrong is there?' James asked.

'Not really sure about that. Okay, a while ago Baily told me something, but I haven't wanted to leave Harry for too long, he needs right now are strong.'

'What did Baily tell you Charlie?' Sirius asked, 'something about Harry's blindness.'

'No, nothing to do with that, I think we all know by now that it's permanent. You'll have to keep this to yourselves, because he never even told John about this and I haven't wanted Ginny to know about it either.'

'Of course we will Charlie, now why don't you just tell us.'

'Alright, so, Baily told me when he first went through this wanting, he wasn't gay. He said he'd had a girlfriend, and a life with her. But he'd had a hard life and his wanting went on too long and it changed him.'

'So you think if Harry's goes on too long, it might change him as well?' James asked.

'Baily thinks it might, but because of Harry and Ginny's bond, they can't be apart. Even if Harry did adapt to being gay, he couldn't live without Ginny.'

'No, he couldn't. But there's something else as well, isn't there?' Sirius asked.

'Yeah, there is. Baily thinks if I can stay helping Harry for as long as possible, it just might make the difference with how he'll come out of this. He thinks if I finish, Harry will eventually go back to him or find someone else, but he probably won't connect like he has done with me, and that will keep this going on longer. But Albus thinks Harry will go for years, and I don't think I will. I know it'll be a long while for me at the moment, because of what Harry has been through and what he's going through now, and I really don't know what to do if I start easing off. Should I just stay with Harry anyway, I'm not sure if that's even possible.'

'I don't know if that would be possible either. Most straight men go straight back to their old lifestyle and never really speak about their time unless they have to explain it to someone.' James said looking between Charlie and Sirius. 'Have you spoken with Albus about this?'

'No, because of Harry's hearing makes it hard to say things you don't want him to hear. That's what I wanted to talk to you about as well. Do you know anyone that knows as much as Albus about this?'

'No, I don't. But why don't you try speaking with Albus at Hogwarts?' Sirius suggested.

'I never thought about that, I've been so focused on Albus at the house, I forgot he's still got he's portrait there. Now I just have to contact Minerva, see if I can have a few minutes alone with Albus, but I've also got to make sure Albus isn't at the house and he's back at Hogwarts.'

'We could probably help with that Charlie, you go to Hogwarts now and we'll go to the house. Minerva had her floo connected here so we could keep her updated on Harry. Now either James or me can keep Harry occupied and the other can tell Albus to go to Hogwarts if he's there.'

'Great, thanks. I'll go now and I'll meet you back at the house.' Charlie got up and shock Harry's father and godfathers hands, then stepped into the fire and vanished.

'Let's get over to Harry's because he's always awake early and if notices Charlie's not there, we might be able to keep him distracted.' James said and they both stepped into the fire and vanished.

The two men stepped out of the fire and Sirius went straight over to the portrait. 'Albus,' Sirius said softly.

'Hello Sirius, is there something I can do for you?' Albus asked.

'Yes, Charlie's gone to Hogwarts, he needs to speak with you and it's important. He didn't want Harry to overhear what he has to ask you.' Sirius said still keeping his voice quiet.

'I'll head there now Sirius,' Albus got up and walked out of the frame.

'I thought I heard voices down here. Sirius, is that you?' Harry said as he walked slowly down the stairs.

'Just us Harry, knew you'd be awake early, wanted to see how you were.' James said as he hugged his son.

'I'm coping dad, thanks mainly to Charlie,' Harry turned and hugged Sirius before making his way to the kitchen. 'But I still don't understand why you're here so early, you could come over any time.'

'Well, we knew you were having Draco and his family over today as well as Andromeda and Teddy. We didn't want to crowd you with too many people here. So we thought we'd come early, have a chance to see you before they turned up.'

'Oh, alright, but there must be something else, you're voice isn't quite normal, sure there isn't anything else, there's nothing wrong is there?'

'No nothing's wrong Harry, apart from being worried how you're coping.' Sirius said glancing at James with raised eyebrows.

'Oh, okay, have you seen Charlie, he's usually up around the same time I am?'

'No, we haven't Harry. He did tell us that you're still going to record Lily, when are you going to start that?' James asked trying to change the subject.

'Tomorrow, I've got the band coming over to start rehearsing properly with her. Once she's got the songs down, I'll record. I've also got Karen coming over to help with everything I need to do to manage her.'

'That will keep you quite busy, won't it? First recording Lily, then all the details of promoting and everything else that has to be done,' Sirius asked.

'Yeah, it will. You're sure there's nothing wrong, both of you seem to be acting a little difference, I can sense something, something not quite right. Oh hang on, is this about asking me to do the interview about my blindness, Charlie mentioned it because word has leaked out about it.'

'Yes, alright, I wasn't sure how to mention it to you.' James said glancing at Sirius again.

'Well, Charlie and Ginny both think I should sit down with you and do it, I'm just not sure. I didn't want anyone to know in the first place.'

'We know Harry, but everyone does know now, well they've heard, but aren't sure if it's true or not and with no one seeing you in a while, their starting to believe it. I keep getting requests for information about you. And that's another reason why people are starting to believe it, because I won't confirm or deny it.'

'Yeah, I can understand that. Well, I suppose I could, but I don't want it known that it was my power that caused it? We could just say it was an accident or something. So when would you want to do this dad?'

'How about on Monday, but there's one more thing, what about some pictures of you with Ginny to go with it. Would you feel comfortable with that?'

'Well, Ginny, Charlie and mum said I don't look any different as long as I don't stare too long in one spot or keep glancing around like I always seem to do. Alright then, just make sure the photographer is someone you trust. It'll be the first time someone has seen me that isn't family. And I might have mum, Charlie, you and Sirius in the picture as well, you know, family around me.'

'That'll be nice Harry, and the photographer is the one I used last time. So we'll make sure we're here on Monday afternoon, how's that sound?'

'Yeah, alright, someone's coming towards the house.' Harry said turning towards the door. 'Charlie, is that you?'

'Yeah Harry, I went for a walk before, couldn't sleep.' Charlie said raising his eyebrows at James and Sirius.

"Really Charlie, you didn't go to see someone else, did you?" Harry asked inside his head and his voice was hard.

'No, I told you, now stop it okay, I just couldn't sleep, that's it.' Charlie said leaning down and giving him a kiss. 'You've got nothing to worry about.'

'Sorry, can't help myself at the moment. So why couldn't you sleep?'

'No reason really, just woke up, couldn't get back to sleep, and I didn't want to wake Lily.' Charlie stood behind Harry's chair and nodded his head and mouthed, I'll explain later to Sirius and James and they nodded back.

'Well, we might head out now Harry, leave you two alone for a bit before the others turn up.' James said and leaned over and hugged his son. 'If you need anything, just ask, remember?'

'I will dad, don't worry, but I'm doing okay.'

Sirius hugged Harry, 'I'll see you tomorrow with Nicky, alright?'

'Yeah, okay, I'll see you then.' Harry said then heard the fire as they vanished before he turned to face Charlie. 'Sorry Charlie, it's just I feel so scared all the time, that I'm getting too much for you.'

'I told you, you're not, and I'm not nor will I ever go anywhere else, trust me, alright?'

'I do trust you Charlie, it's not you, it's me. I can't see your face, and I have to rely on everything else. I use to be able to look at someone and see if they were telling me the truth, now I can't. I know you wouldn't lie to me Charlie and I'm sorry.'

'Don't worry about it Harry, let's just have some breakfast before Draco and the others turn up, okay?'

'Yeah, okay, Kreacher can you bring breakfast over please?'

'Of course master Harry,' the elf walked over and placed to plates on the table.

'Thanks Kreacher.' Harry felt his food, then picked up his fork, but keeping one hand on his plate to guide his fork to the food.

'You seem to be getting better at that and you're clothes are in the right way and right side as well.'

'Yeah, I remembered what you said, so at least I got that right. And with this, if I keep one hand on my plate it guides me. Still gets a bit messy though.'

'It'll get better, now just eat. You need to get that weight back on that you lost.'

'Yeah, I can feel my ribs sticking out. Ginny said the same thing last night, she was running her hands over my chest, and I could feel how sad she felt.'

'Yes, we've all seen it Harry, you skin and bones at the moment, so you need to start eating properly. I feel like I'm going to break you when we're together.'

'Alright, alright, I'll eat. Just let me know how much of a mess I make so I can clean myself up before the others arrive.'

Charlie and Harry ate their breakfast, when Lily came in with the twins and Ginny came down not long after. They had an enjoyable breakfast and Harry never dropped one bit of his breakfast, so he was feeling pretty good about himself.

'Alright to come in?' Draco's voice said from the doorway.

'Course you can, you don't have to ask.' Harry called to them as he slowly got up and looked around to face him. 'How you been Draco?' Harry asked as he hugged him.

'I'm good Harry, you've lost weight though.' Draco said as he let Harry go.

'Yeah, having trouble feeding myself, it's fine. Katie,' Harry said hugging her. 'Wow, I can feel your stomach, starting to show now.' Harry said as he kiss her cheek.

'Starting to Harry, and Draco's right you have lost weight, but you're still cute.' Katie said laughing.

'Thanks Katie, and you're still a flirt. Is that you Narcissa,' Harry said and reached out taking her hand, then kissed her cheek.

'Yes Harry, how are you?'

'You know, coping, adjusting. Why don't you all sit.' Harry said as he felt his way to his seat, then slowly sat down. 'Do any of you want anything?'

'We're good Harry,' Draco said as he sat down, 'But are you coping Harry?'

'Some days better than others, but it's getting better.'

'So what have you been doing with yourself, since I heard you're not going to play or sing anymore.'

'Charlie, Ginny, mum and Liam tricked me in to playing the piano. I did pretty well considering I can't see the keys.'

'He did great actually, first and second one he played, never missed a note, and he sang as well.' Lily said smiling.

'Yeah, but I missed a few notes on the next one though. I'll practice now the guys have bought all new stuff for the studio. I'm starting to record mum from tomorrow.'

'That's great, I'm glad you're still going to do that Lily, your voice is beautiful.'

'Thanks and that's how we tricked Harry into playing. I told Liam when he was visiting Harry that I wasn't going to record, or sing again because Harry didn't want any music in the house, then I snapped at him. I didn't mean it though, it was all Charlie's idea.'

'Yes, but it worked. It got Harry's arse back at the piano again.' Charlie laughed.

'Why did you need all new stuff?' Katie asked.

'I basically trashed the studio when I realised I wouldn't be able to see anymore. I thought since I can't see, I can't play. I don't think I'll be able to play the guitar again, that's a little bit more difficult than the piano, but I haven't tried yet. Oh that's the fire, is that Andromeda and Teddy?'

'Yes, it's us Harry,' Andromeda said as she kissed his cheek.

'Daddy, daddy,' Teddy said as he launched himself at Harry.

'Oh Teddy, what are we going to do with you?'

'Looking at him now, you'd think he was you're son Harry. Same hair and same coloured eyes, and has he got a scar on his forehead?' Katie asked.

'Teddy always changes to look like Harry the moment he sees him, but he's been doing it a lot at home as well now. Harry, I've tried to explain to him, but I think he's just too young yet to understand.'

'Yeah I know, I love you Teddy, but I'm not your daddy,' Harry cuddled the little boy.

'My daddy, I've missed daddy.' Teddy said touching Harry's face.

Harry kissed him on the forehead, 'Alright, for now, until you get a bit older, then I'll tell you about your real daddy.'

'Hello Andromeda, it's good to see you?' Narcissa said softly.

'Hello Narcissa, how have you been?'

'I've been good, how about you, you look good Dromeda.'

'Thank you Cissy,' Andromeda smiled at her sister.

'If you would like to talk in private, you can go into the library or there's another sitting room now.'

'Would that be alright Harry, I would like some time with my sister.' Andromeda said.

'It's fine, you know the way. We'll look after Teddy.'

'Daddy gonna sing, daddy.' Teddy said.

'He's getting as bad as the twins.' Harry said.

'Why don't you sing something for him Harry, he's missed you,' Ginny said watching them.

'Alright, but can you take him. I don't want to bump into anything carrying him. Go to Ginny Teddy, and I'll sing.'

'Goody daddy, Ginny, Ginny hold me.'

'Alright, let's go into the studio.' Harry said standing up slowly and feeling his way towards the door. Then he started counting as he walked.

'What's he doing Charlie?' Draco asked softly.

'I've memorised how many paces there are to certain things, it's so I don't walk into everything all the time, or fall on my face.' Harry said reaching the piano and sat down. 'I can hear pretty much anything, I can hear your mum and Andromeda speaking at the moment, but I'm trying to learn to block those sorts of things out, so I don't overhear everyone.'

'You hearing must be good if you can hear them.' Katie said.

'Since I've lost my sight, everything has kicked in. Like your smell Katie, you have a baby smell about you now.'

'I do?' Katie asked surprised.

'Yeah, you do.' Harry smiled towards her voice.

'Harry, I'm going to have a shower, I'll be back soon, alright?' Charlie said hoping he'd have time to leave for a bit.

'Okay Charlie,' Harry said then placed his hands on the keys and started playing.

Charlie walked into the other room and quickly flooed back to Sirius' place. 'Sirius, James, you about.'

'Yeah Charlie, right here.' they both walked out. 'We've been waiting for you.'

'I know, Harry's occupied at the moment singing for Teddy, so I haven't got long.'

'So what did Albus say about Harry?'

'He said it's a strong probability. He happened to him, he's never told anyone before that he was gay and that was the cause. He said he went for years the first time but he tried to go back to the way he was. Didn't work, so he just lived with it, but he said Harry wouldn't cope as well, not with his bond with Ginny.'

'Did you ask him about you staying with him, if you wanted to?'

'Yeah, he said he'd never heard one way or another about that. It'll be up to me when the time comes, to see how I feel, if I can continue or not. Now that is putting me under a lot of stress at the moment, knowing it might be up to me if Harry's able to go back to his normal life or not.' Charlie said as he started pacing.

'Do you think if Harry ended up gay could he stay Ginny?'

'I don't think Ginny will want that, Albus said it changes you completely. Harry wouldn't want to have sex with her again if this happens to him. I just don't know what to do, should we tell him?'

'If we do, it can't be yet. He's got enough to deal with at the moment. And you'll be the best person to see if you can still help him or not. As soon as you feel it easing, you'll know whether you can continue with Harry, if you can't, then we might have to tell him. But we've got a while before that time comes.' James said.

'Yeah, he wouldn't handle this at the moment and we have got some time. I better get back before he realises I'm gone again, or he'll really think I'm out with someone else. I'll keep you undated as much as possible.' Charlie hugged them both.

'We'll talk to you later.' James said and watched as Charlie stepped into the fire and vanished.

Charlie quickly went into his rooms, stripped off and had a fast shower so Harry would smell the difference. He got dressed, then walked back into the studio and saw Harry still playing with Teddy as he sat on the piano in front of him and Ginny keeping a hand on him.

Harry looked over the moment Charlie stepped into the studio, then stopped playing and glared at him. He got up and stumbled out of the studio, not saying anything.

'Shit, I'll deal with him, then we'll be right back.' Charlie said and followed Harry up the stairs. He found him in the spare room. The moment Charlie closed the door, Harry started.

'You have been, you've been seeing dad and Sirius. I can smell both of them on you.'

'Harry no, it's not like that, listen to me.' Charlie said as he took Harry's arm but he struggled trying to get his arm free. 'Harry stop it,' Charlie took his face in his hands and kissed him fiercely. 'Now will you listen to me.'

'Fine, tell me why you have their smell on you if you haven't been shagging them then?'

'Sit down will you.' Charlie said and he waited. 'Harry please.' he walked over sat at the other end of the bed. 'I just went to ask them if they could help talk you into the interview, because I think you should do it.' Charlie said and hoped he had a chance to speak with James. 'Nothing happened, apart from me hugging them when I left.'

'Really, that's all?'

'Yes, Harry, really, now will you come here.' Harry moved down the bed and put his arms around Charlie. 'You've got nothing to worry about, you have to learn to trust me. I'm not going anywhere else for this.'

'I already told dad I'd do the interview, it's set for Monday afternoon. I need you Charlie, please.' Harry said putting his hands to his face.

'I was hoping you would, not why don't you get those clothes off Harry.' Charlie and Harry stripped quickly and got onto the bed. Charlie moved Harry so he was lying on his stomach and moved down and started licking him for a while, then he rolled him so Harry's back was to him and he entered him slowly. He wrapped his hand around Harry's length, moved himself and his hand in time with each other. 'Oh merlin I needed this.'

'So do I Charlie, go harder, please.' Harry groaned loudly.

'No, I'm taking my time, so just put up with it.' Charlie kept it slow, letting it build. He felt Harry building as well as he's groans got very loud and knew he was close. He moved both his body and his hand faster until they both groaned as they came together. Charlie moved back and rolled Harry back on his back and put his mouth over him bring him back up, 'Now, do me, Harry.' Charlie rolled on his side and Harry moved up behind in, entered him full on and started to move fast and hard, and kept it going as he hand moved around and did the same thing.

'I'm sorry Charlie, I can't understand why I'm so needy right now.' Harry said as he brought his breathing back under control.

'It's fine Harry, and you're needy because you're dealing with this blindness and it's going to take a while for you to handle everything regarding it. But I'm not going anywhere else, I've told you enough times.'

'I know, it's just not being able to see, I can't trust what I hear anymore, or smell. We better get back down, their going to wonder what's going on.'

'Yeah, we better, Draco doesn't know about me, so he's probably curious. I wonder if Katie knows about this, even if she does, she might not know about Draco.'

Charlie and Harry both dressed and made their way slowly back down stairs and found everyone in the sitting room.

'Sorry about that, it's just hard sometimes.' Harry said as he walked over feeling the couch then sitting down and taking Ginny's hand.

'That's fine Harry, but how did you know where Ginny was?' Draco asked looking between Harry and Charlie.

'Her smell, I've gotten so use to it, I can pretty much tell anyone by their smell now. "I love you so much Gin, I'll explain later." Harry felt her squeeze his hand. 'Mum, that's the twins, I can hear them.'

'Yes, their fighting their midmorning sleep now, they just don't want to go down until later. I'll go bring them back out for a while.'

'Charlie, do you think you could contact Fleur for me, ask if she'll come over as soon as she can and cut my hair for me? I need to get it off, so it'll be easier.'

'Sure Harry, I'll do it now.' Charlie said walking over to the fireplace.

'You're cutting your hair Harry?' Katie asked.

'Yes, it's just too much to look after now. I've had to work out a lot of things, like the counting paces, memorising where everything is so I can stop bruising my legs. Draco, how's Narcissa settling in?'

'Good Harry, she doesn't want to go out just yet which I can understand.'

'She will after a while, it was in the paper that she was released. She just needs some time.'

'Yeah I know, she's been looking forward to today though. She's missed her sister for so long, since my father wouldn't have anything to do with her because she married a muggle.'

'Yes, I know. Ted was a nice man though, when we left the Dursleys for the last time, that was our safe place to go to. Me and Hagrid crashed the bike into their garden, Voldemort had chased us until he reached the wards. Ted healed all my broken bones, before we used a port key to the Burrow. I remember the first time I saw Andromeda, I shouted at her because where she was standing I couldn't see her properly and I thought it was Bellatrix. She understood though.'

'Is that who's Teddy's named after?' Draco asked.

'Yeah, Ted Tonks, Remus told me when he named me godfather. Teddy Remus Lupin, he told me that not long after we escaped from your house that time.'

'I always meant to ask you about that Harry, how did Ollivander and Luna get out of the cellar and how did you get upstairs? I was trying to think of a way to unlock the cellar, so you could sneak out?'

'Dobby, I had this old piece of mirror that belonged to Sirius. Dad and Sirius use to have a pair of them so they could talk to each other at Hogwarts, when they were in different detentions,' Harry laughed. 'Well, I broke mine, but I kept a piece, and I kept seeing a blue eye in it. I thought it was Albus, but it turned out to be Aberforth's, he had the other mirror. So when we heard Bellatrix hurting Hermione, I pulled it out and asked for help. Dobby appeared a few seconds later and apparated Ollivander, Dean and Luna to Bill's place. That's where we went when we left.' Harry said looking down, as a tear fell from his eyes.

Ginny noticed, and decided to explain. 'Dobby died, Bellatrix through her knife as they apparated out, but it hit Dobby. Harry, Ron and Hermione buried him at Bills place.'

'I haven't seen his grave since the day of our wedding. I went and spoke to him just before we arrived at the Burrow. I wish I'd gone back before now, I can't now though.'

'Why can't you Harry, you could go visit him.' Katie said.

'No, I'm not leaving here. I don't want people staring at me. That's why I expanded the house, so I'll have plenty of room to live in.'

'But no one would see you at Bill's sweetheart, well, only Bill, Fleur and Victoire.'

'No, I said I don't want to leave Gin, please, just drop it, okay.' Harry said quietly. 'Sorry sweetheart, I just don't want to talk about that.'

'It's fine sweetheart.' Ginny said and caressed Harry's face and he turned his face to kiss her palm.

Everyone enjoyed a nice lunch, catching up and watching Teddy, Hayden and Holly all lying on top of Harry. They heard him laugh a lot but knew he'd still have his up's and down in the coming months.

After everyone left, Harry cuddled up on the couch with Ginny, just enjoying their time holding each other.

'This is nice sweetheart, we haven't done this in a long time.' Harry said leaning over and kissed her head.

'No we haven't, but there's been a lot going on, even before your blindness Harry.'

'I know, this all isn't too much for you is it sweetheart. You're not getting too stressed are you?'

'No, I'm fine Harry. I've had a couple of stressed times, but I'm good, especially now that you seem to be coping a little better.'

'Yeah I am, it's still hard, not being able to see. I miss seeing your face, and you're body.' Harry grinned. 'But I'm doing okay. I told dad this morning that I'd do that interview. He's coming on Monday afternoon, and with a photographer. I thought if it needs a picture, then one with me, you, mum, Charlie, dad, and Sirius and probably the twins if their awake.'

'I'm glad you changed your mind Harry, everyone's heard the rumours anyway. This way your dad can write a real nice piece about it.'

'Yeah, I just wish I knew who leaked it. I didn't want anyone to know about this, it could make dark wizards decide to come out in force again, knowing I can't see.'

'Let the aurors take care of it now Harry, you trained them to handle everything. Now, there's something I wanted to ask you?'

'You can ask me anything, you know that.'

'Well, I'm still very curious about it all and I know he's my brother, but I was hoping you'd tell me about the first time with him.'

'Ginny, is this something you really want to hear?'

'Yes Harry, I do. I've seen the change in you when you've been together, especially lately. I know you need him right now and he's helping. I just can't help wondering about it.'

'You're not worried about this are you Gin, thinking I need Charlie more than I need you?' Ginny hesitated for a moment. 'Gin, you don't need to be, I've told you, I love you more than anything. You're my whole life sweetheart, I wouldn't be doing this good if it wasn't for the love I have for you or that I feel from you.'

'I know Harry, and I have been a little worried. You've seem to want him more than me lately.'

'I know, and I thought I felt that in you. But it's so hard to explain why that is. When we've finish, I get this very contented feeling, like I can get through this. With you, I'm always peaceful and content and you make me so happy, but it's just when something hits me suddenly, like not being able to see your face or Hayden and Holly. It's like I'm being punch in the stomach, and Charlie helps with that. It's difficult to explain why it's different, why it helps.'

'Will you tell me though, about the first time with Charlie?'

'If you really want to know, then alright, but why don't we go soak in a bath together, that's something we haven't done in a while either.'

'Now that sounds nice,' Ginny stood up and waited for Harry and he took her hand then made their way into the bathroom. Once they were both in the bath, relaxed. 'Now can you tell me Harry?'

'I might as well, you'll just keep asking anyway. Alright, I was with the other man I helped, down at mum and dad's old place.'

'Is that where you used to go?'

'Yeah, I forgot to mention it to you. Since I'm the only one that can lower the wards, I thought it was a perfect place. Anyway, while we were there, I sensed Charlie. That's really had to explain how I did that. But I knew he was downstairs and he was fine with everything. So we went down, and Charlie asked if he could speak with me alone. The man said he's goodbyes, after giving me a touch and I read something in Charlie at the same time. The moment we were alone, I asked Charlie if it turned him on, seeing what the other man did.'

'And did it?' Ginny asked and Harry could hear the excitement in her voice.

Harry laughed softly, 'Yeah it did. Then he told me about Romania, how open it was over there. He said he'd been thinking about it for a while, he was feeling this wanting, but he didn't know any men at the time to go to. Plus he said he wasn't sure if he could have asked Baily when he did find out about him and John. I asked him if he wanted me to help him, he said he thought it'd be too strange, because I'm married to his sister and he's living with my mother and we were like brothers.'

'Yeah, but it's not like you're actually related.' Ginny said.

'That's what I said to him, but then I read him and found out he did want me to be the one for the two reasons I've already told you about.'

'Oh, that he thought your good at everything and would be with this and about your size.' Ginny giggled as she turned slightly and wrapped her hand around him.

'Hmm, that feels good, oh love, that's nice.'

'You keep going and I'll keep going.' Ginny said and you could hear the humour in her voice.

'Very hard to concentrate while you're doing that my love.'

'I can stop if you want?' Ginny said grinning already knowing the answer.

'No, do you dare stop. Alright, I'll try and keep going. Hmmm, um, I asked Charlie if he wanted to find out what it would be like to be with me. But he kept saying it'd be too strange, hmm, do you think I could tell you later, I feel like I'm going to explode sweetheart.'

Ginny turned herself around and straddled Harry, 'I think I could help with that.' Ginny kissed Harry fiercely, but she kept her hand down on him moving it slowly.'

'Let's get out of this tub, I want to feel you.' Harry said and he couldn't stop the groans escaping.

Ginny moved out of the tub and waited for Harry, then he quickly cast a drying charm and made their way to the bedroom.

After they finished making love, Harry and Ginny lay with their arms around each other, 'Hmm, that was so nice, I feel really relaxed now.' Ginny said then kissed Harry's chest.

'Yeah, I do to sweetheart, and you felt so good. I love being inside you.'

'I like that as well, now are you going to tell me the rest?'

'Alright, Charlie just kept saying it was would be strange and he still wasn't sure. But I read him and he did want to, and I knew he wouldn't be able to think straight until he just did it. That's one of the things with this Gin. Until you do it you can't think properly about anything, it just keeps invading your mind all the time. So anyway, since I knew he wanted to and he wanted me to be the one, and I knew he was just embarrassed and a little scared….'

'So what did you do, how did you convince him to let you help him Harry?' Ginny cut in, getting excited again.

'I basically forced him. I used magic, pinned him to the wall so he couldn't stop me, because I knew he needed it but just couldn't say it.'

'Then what did you do?'

'You sure you want to hear this sweetheart?'

'Really sure,' Ginny said and she could feel herself getting turned on. 'Please tell me Harry, all of it.'

'Alright, so he kept telling me to let him go, but I just unbuckled his belt, undid his jeans and pushed them down. He still kept telling me to stop, but I knew he wanted me to keep going as well. So I did, I sucked him Ginny, finished him then let him free. He was so angry and embarrassed after that, telling me I should have let him decide when he wanted to do it and with who, but like I said, I read him and knew he enjoyed it and that he wanted me to be the one.'

'So was that it, or did you do more?' Ginny asked feeling her body started to stir and she couldn't stop moving.

'This is turning you on isn't it? I can sense it and smell it.'

Ginny giggled, 'Yeah, it is.'

'Well, since you enjoying me telling you, I'll keep going. We sat and talked, Charlie was still a little angry, but I knelt in front of him, kissed him, then told him that the hardest part was over, letting another man suck him. Then I asked if he wanted to do more, but he was still having a hard time saying anything but I knew he wanted to but was also worried about what would come next. So I told him what he'd have to do if he wanted to keep going, and he was worried that he might not be able to go all the way. So I told him, if he wanted to try more that I'd do everything and he wouldn't have to do anything this time. He agreed, so I led him upstairs and started to take his clothes off. The way you're moving on me right now, is really getting me back up, you know that right?'

'Yeah I can feel it, but keep going please,' Ginny said trying to hold in her moans.

'Alright, I'll try. Once I had his clothes off, I took mine off, his eyes widened as he looked at me, standing there naked, fully erect. So then I sat him down and went down on him and started sucking him again. Then made him turn over, he still wasn't sure, but finally he did, and I started to lick him, he was so tight and nervous, but he was finally started to enjoy it and relaxed a bit. I moved up and over him, and entered him. He told me to stop at first because it hurt too much, but I took it easy until he started to ease into it. Then he really started to enjoy it.'

'Um, hmm, so he didn't do anything then?' Ginny asked as she could feel Harry fully erect now and moved on top of him.

'He did, he realised since he'd started he wanted to keep going, god Gin, that feels good. Keep going sweetheart.'

'As long as you keep going my sweet Harry,' Ginny said as she sat up and started to move slowly.

'I'll try, okay, I asked if he was going to be ready for what he'd have to do the next time we got together and as I was talking to him, he reached down and wrapped his hand around me. Hmm, god that's good, um, then he sucked me, finishing me off, the kept going before he entered me. Now please Gin, I'll tell you more another time.' Harry started moving with her and they started to get faster and faster, groaning loudly as they both came again. Then they finally fell asleep in each other's arms.

Harry was sitting at the kitchen table the following morning, when the band arrived. 'Morning Harry,' Liam said as he walked in with John, Baily, Patrick and Karen. They all exchanged mornings and hugs and kisses.

'You're looking better Harry,' Baily said as he sat down.

'Well, I don't know how I look actually, but if you say so, then I have to believe it.' Harry said flatly then realised, that everyone was watching him. 'Sorry guys, I'm still having my ups and downs.'

'If this is all too soon for you Harry, we can start later on.' Patrick asked.

'No, no, it's fine, I want to get mum started, and I think it'll probably help anyway, keeps me distracted right now.'

'Something specific you're trying to distract yourself from Harry?' Baily asked watching him intensely.

'Yeah, there is actually, Fawkes,' he glanced towards where he sits. 'I have to wait almost a year for him to be fully grown again to see if he can heal my eyes with his tears. Albus still doesn't think he will be able to help but I still want to try, I'll try anything at this point.' Harry said and everyone could hear how down he sounded.

'You really not going to perform or record any more Harry?' Patrick asked him.

'No I'm not, I'm not going out there for people to stare at the blind Harry Potter. I've had enough of that all my life, now it's just too much. So I'll record mum, and if you guys want to be her band from now on that'll be great since she's already comfortable with you, if not we'll work on getting someone else to do it.'

'Morning all,' Charlie said as he walked out, then saw Harry's face. 'You okay Harry?' Charlie said as he sat next to him and took his hand.

'I'm fine Charlie, you know.' Harry shrugged then started rubbing his eyes again.

'Harry stop, it's not going to help.' Charlie pulled his hands away, gripping them tight.

'I know,' Harry snapped, 'It's like I'm trying to clear them all the time, but nothing works. And they keep stinging all the time, it seems like it's getting worse.'

'You never mentioned that it was getting worse Harry.' Charlie said.

'Knew there was nothing to be done about it, just like everything else,' Harry snapped again, 'Sorry, give me a minute will you.' Harry stumbled quickly up the stairs, tripping a couple of times as he went.

'He's still having a hard time Charlie?' Liam asked.

'Sometimes, he'll have good days and bad days, today seems to be a bad day. I think because he's going to be recording Lily is reminding him what he's lost. None of us can talk him into recording even if he won't perform, and he's adamant about never leaving the house again, ever. That's why he enlarged and added rooms to the house.'

'I can see the sitting room is bigger, what else has he done?' John asked.

'Another family room, and enlarged the studio. I think he did that so he could get around without bumping into things all the time. And he's counting his paces to everything, memorising everything. Because he's determined not to have anyone's help, and he can be so stubborn about it. The most he'll let me do it show him how to tell which way he's clothes are, making sure there on the right way or not inside out. That's he's got down now, but that's all he'll let me do, or Ginny as well. He's memorised the things on the table and told us we had to make sure nothing gets moved or put in another spot. He doesn't want to ask for help with anything.' Charlie said sounding frustrated.

'He's still going to you for his stress isn't he Charlie?' Baily asked, looking worried.

'Sometimes, but he think he's getting too needy with it and he doesn't want me getting tired of him. He keeps going on about how I won't be doing it for as long as him, so he was trying to ease back so it won't be so hard when I stop. But Albus told me I'll be in this for a while, because of everything Harry's going through is making me more tense all the time. And it's making him feel guilty about that as well.' Charlie said shaking his head. 'I've tried to tell him that he has nothing to feel guilty about or that I'll be here for a long time, but I just don't think he's really listening at the moment.'

'He never mentioned to you about his eyes stinging all the time, do you think I should ask to check them?' Baily asked.

'You could try Baily, but since he's worked out that its permanent he doesn't seem to want to have them checked anymore.' just then the fire turned green and James, Katie and the twins stepped out. 'Hi, wasn't expecting you today.' Charlie said as he kissed his children.

'Ginny and Harry, keep asking for Harry all the time and I can't get them to settle.' Katie said looking worried. 'I think their worried about him.'

'Well, he's having one of his bad days at the moment, he just took off again. I'll go see if I can get him to come down.' Charlie said and walked up the stairs and found him in the spare bedroom, sitting on the floor, digging at his eyes, 'Harry stop it,' Charlie said taking his hands and gripping them tight. 'Look, you've made them bleed now.'

'If I have to put up with the blindness I can probably do that with time, but not this stinging all the time. Before it was just occasionally, now it seems to be all the time.'

'Why don't you get Baily to look at them since he's here?'

'There's probably nothing he can do anyway Charlie, I feel like I'm losing here. I start thinking I'm going to be alright, then all of a sudden I can't deal with anything. Last night Ginny and I had a really good night together, talking about your first time with me, then we made love a lot and just enjoyed being together. Now I just don't know what I'm doing. I don't think I'm going to make it Charlie, I really don't.' Harry said as he put his head down into his hands.

'Come here Harry,' Charlie pulled him to his feet and sat him on the bed, putting his arms around him. 'Look, your dad and Katie just arrived with the twins. They keep asking for you, their worried and they want to see you. Why don't we go down and see what they want?'

'Not just yet, I need some time or I'll end up snapping at everyone again.'

'So you're not going to ask me to help you, are you? You're still trying to ease back. Is it you're worried that I'm still going to stop soon, or you just want someone else now, you've had enough of me?' Charlie said sounding angry.

'What, no, how could you think that Charlie. You've seen the way I am with you, even getting upset thinking you'd been with dad and Sirius. I only want you for this Charlie, but I'm so scared of when you won't need it and I don't know what I'll do.'

'I told you it's going to be a long time, I was just telling Baily that. Now will you please let me help you, at least it's something I can help you with.' Charlie said then started kissing him softly, before Harry deepened the kiss and they fell back on the bed.

Downstairs, everyone heard the noises coming from upstairs as Ginny made her way downstairs.

'Morning all,' Ginny said cheerfully as she kissed and hugged everyone and got morning back from all. 'Not that I'm not happy to see you, but what are you doing here?' she asked James and Katie.

'The twins kept calling for Harry, I can't get them to eat properly, or play, they just keep calling for him, so I thought I'd bring them here to see him.'

'Well, as I'm sure you can hear, it'll be a while. Harry's need for Charlie has increase a lot since his blindness, usually to a fare few times a day now. And being the first of the day, it usually takes a while. Hi Sirius, Nicky,' Ginny said as they stepped out of the fire then she turned back to Baily. 'Was Harry upset before at all?'

'Yeah he was, and he's eyes are stinging but he hasn't told anyone, that was before he snapped at everyone and took off upstairs. Charlie will calm him down, then hopefully I'll be able to check his eyes for him.' Baily said looking worried.

'So I take it that's Harry and Charlie I hear?' Sirius said as he sat down.

'That's definitely Charlie,' Lily said as she walked in with the twins and put them in their high chairs and they reached for their father so James went over to both of them giving them both hugs and kisses.

'Charlie thinks Harry's just having a bad day because it's reminding him of what he can't do anymore.' Liam said. 'Then he was saying it was a good distraction from him thinking of Fawkes healing his eyes.'

'How did you know about that?' Ginny asked and saw all the puzzled looks. 'I spoke with Albus about Fawkes, hoping that he's tears might be able to heal Harry's eyes once he's fully grown again. Albus isn't sure even Fawkes will be able to help, but it'll take almost a year for him to be able to use his tears. We weren't going to mention it to Harry, so he wouldn't get his hopes up. He probably thought that same thing, as Fawkes as healed him twice before.'

'I thought he only healed Harry after the battle?' Karen asked.

'No, when he was twelve. I was taken into the chamber of secrets by Tom Riddle, or Voldemort and Harry found me, almost dead. Voldemort summoned the basilisk and Harry fought it with the sword of Gryffindor, before killing it. But it had pierced Harry's arm as he killed it. When he got rid of Tom Riddle's memory, I woke up and saw the deep wound in his arm, he was already dying. Then Fawkes turned up and dropped his tears into Harry's arm, then flew us all out of there.'

'Man he's had some dangerous times hasn't he?' Liam said.

'Yeah, he has. I think that's why he's having such a hard time now. Like what he's always said to everyone, he starts getting his life together, happy, peaceful, then something screws it up on him. This time is the worst after all he's had to put up with already.'

'Harry, Harry, Harry.' Ginny and Harry called.

'Shhh you two, Uncle Harry will be down soon. See what I mean, they just won't do anything, they just keep calling for Harry.'

'I'll send him some pictures, see if he can hurry up.' Ginny closed her eyes and thought of the twins and keeps sending her feelings of them to Harry.

"I'll be down in a couple of minutes, love you sweetheart." Harry said in her mind.

'He'll be down in a minute.'

'He tell you that in your mind Ginny?' Sirius asked.

'Yeah, it's handy sometimes.'

'Has Harry tried that with anyone else, since the day he tried with me?' Sirius asked.

'No, he hasn't, but that was right before he lost his sight. He did talk to me from the ministry on the last day he was there though. I heard him just like he was standing beside me.'

'He did do me once, strange, so there's probably no limit to it, or to who he can do it to.' Baily said.

"Probably Baily."

'Wow, that's still strange. Harry heard me and just answered me in my mind.'

'Takes a bit to get use to doesn't it Baily?' Charlie asked as they both made their way down slowly. 'When Harry's mouth's occupied it comes in handy.' he grinned.

'Alright, I don't really need to hear that.' Liam said, knowing exactly what Charlie meant as everyone laughed.

'Now, let's see what these two wants,' Harry said cheerfully as he walked over to them and they put their hands to his face and concentrated. 'That's strange, they want me to lie down with them like they did that time in the library, but they won't say why.'

'Is that all they want, because they won't eat, or sleep properly. All the keep doing is calling for you Harry.' Katie said looking puzzled.

Harry concentrated on them again. 'That's it, that's all they won't. Do you think I should?'

'Well, if that's what they want and they probably won't settle until you do, you might as well.' Katie said.

'Okay, I'll transfigure the couch so we can see why they want this.' Harry concentrated and the couch back fell back so it was like a bed. 'Do you want to bring them over?' Harry made is way to the couch and bumped into it before sitting down, then he lay down and Katie placed the twins on each side of Harry. They instantly put a hand on each eye, then one on his chest. 'What are they doing?'

'Well, their holding your eyes, and rubbing your chest again. But I have no idea what their doing or why Harry.' Katie said as everyone came in and watched them.

'Look, they've put Harry to sleep, just like they did last time.' Ginny said quietly.

'Can you feel anything Ginny?' Charlie asked as he watched his children.

'Yeah, peaceful, and healing.' she turned suddenly to Baily. 'You don't think their trying to heal Harry's eyes do you?'

'I really don't know, like I said before, I've never seen or heard of a bond like theirs.'

'I believe you might be right Ginny and that's why Harry's eyes are stinging. They knew it was the time to try.' Albus said looking over at them.

Ginny walked over to the portrait. 'Do you think they might really be able to Albus?'

'Well, with the bond they have, and how they made Harry feel better after each time he held them before. I believe they just might be able to. It might not happen straight away, it could take a few times. Last time he got a little better after they rubbed his chest, but it took a while. I've been doing some checking regarding bonds, and I found that it happened once before. Years ago, I'm not sure of the exact time, could be around thousands. Anyway, there were these twins, both girls and their aunt. The aunt could understand them just like Harry can do with Ginny and Harry. The aunt was the related to merlin, I'm just not sure how close. I've been trying to trace her family history down to see what sort of connection there is.'

'You don't think Harry is distantly related to merlin, do you Albus?' Charlie asked, looking shocked.

'I haven't found anything yet, I know I am a distant relative to his and I haven't been able to find a lot about my family's history, so it could be possible that I am related to Harry and him to merlin. I'll keep trying to find out, but a lot of material about merlin's family has disappeared over the years.'

'But I can trace my family right back Albus, and where not related to merlin.' James said looking at him puzzled.

'Yes, but Harry does have another parent James,' Albus said looking over at Lily.

'But we're all muggles Albus.' Lily said looking shocked at what he was implying.

'Can you trace your family back a thousand years Lily?' Albus asked.

'No, we never got past a couple of centuries. I did try to go back further when I found out I was a witch, but I couldn't find anything.'

'Historians believe that all magical muggles, like you Lily, come from a magical relative somewhere in the far distant past, and it takes centuries to come back. They don't know why it dies out for so long though.'

'So what you're saying is that if Harry is a distant relative of merlin, that it comes from my side of the family?'

'Yes, that's what I am saying. I can't be certain he is related, but by my research so far, I fairly confident he is. That's why Harry's so strong in his magic, he's so much like what merlin was like in his youth. He was pretty much untouchable by the time he reached his middle years and Harry is like that already.'

'You were saying before about the aunt and the twin girls, did they heal the aunt of anything Albus?' Baily asked.

'Yes, they did, she was deaf, caused by her own magic. It's so uncanny in its similarity. She was partially deaf, and decided to try and heal her ears and damaged them to the point she became completely deaf. Those twins did what Harry and Ginny are now doing to Harry. The use to put their hands over her ears and her chest, according to my research it took around twenty times, there's no exact number though. After that, she had her hearing back and the twins ended up just being normal children, until they were older where they became celebrated healers. They could heal as individuals, but when they combined their magical healing power, they could heal things no one else could.'

'So they really could be healing Harry's eyes right now?' Ginny asked.

'There is a strong possibility that is exactly what they are doing.' Albus said smiling down at her.

Everyone just stood there watching and they all had their same hope. That Harry might regain his sight in time with the twins help. Even if they didn't know when it might happen or how long it might take, but they all couldn't help hoping that Harry would one day see again.