Jens heart started to pound hard against her chest..

Where's Hayley ! She stuttered

She's made herself scares" Tilly replied.. She came to see me.. Explained everything to me..

So here I am!

Jen was confused what had Hayley explained..
Tilly's body language was pretty bland so Jen had no idea what she was there to say or do..

So you have nothing to say? Tilly asked

Jen swallowed her nerves looking down at the floor .. I think you should go Tilly " she whispered

Oh no.. Tilly refused shaking her head .. You at least owe me an explanation.. And you obviously have one because you told Hayley..
So ? I'm waiting " she added folding her arms across her chest ..

Jen felt her guard come up .. She wasn't ready or prepared for the showdown that was unfolding

"Nothing to explain " she remarked . We're over .. I don't want to be in a relationship with you ..

Liar" Tilly spat..

Jen placed her bag on the sofa and walked over to the kitchen .. Her first thought was "where's the wine.?. But she settled for putting the kettle on ..

" I get it's hard for you .. But well it is what it is.. And it's over ..

Tilly walked over to Jen invading her space .. " now look at me when you say that "

Jen began to panic Tilly was so close she could smell her.. Her scent engulfs her .. " Tilly please.. She muttered .. Her eyes being to fill with tears ..

I can't keep doing this with you ..

Well then stop doing what your doing" Tilly snapped back ..

I know why you've broken my heart.. Yet again.. Hayley's told me everything so you might as well come clean and be honest with me..

Jen had her eyes closed Tilly's words pulling at her heart strings ... Every time Tilly mentions Jen breaking her heart .. Again and again it makes Jen feel sick ..

Jen needed to get out if this situation .. She couldn't look at Tilly for more then a few seconds .. Seeing the anger and frustration in the red heads eyes was unbearable ..

What part of I'm done with this can't you understand" Jen spat ..
Hayley came to see you? So what!

Your really going to do this? Tilly asked knowing full well what Jen was trying to achieve ..

Your an idiot Jen ..

Jen took a deep breath in and out ..

Tilly it's better this way'

For who? Tilly asked .. For me? . All this is better for me .. That's it isn't it Jen ? She asked slightly mad..

All this is for me !

The more Jen kept silent the more annoyed Tilly became ..

Come Jen" answer me.. She shouted ..

Jen sighed heavily Finally having the courage to turn and face the redhead ..

I'm holding you back Tilly ..

Back from what?

From everything .. Jen cringed.. You'll see later on it's for the best .. Look I have to get back to work ..

Oh no you don't .. Tilly warned... Your not leaving here until I get a full explanation as to why your doing this to me ..

I don't want to be with you " Jen lied feeling like she wanted to die..

Tilly felt a tear fall from her eye .." Why are you so cold hearted.. She sniffed ..
Jen closed her eyes licking her bottom lip ..

Your better off hating me ..

Tilly shook her head grabbin Jen by her waist .. " look at me.. She begged
Jen trying to pull away ..

Look at me " Tilly repeated this time holding Jens face in her hands ..

You don't have to do this .. She cried .. I don't want to hate you " how can I when I love you so much?

Jen began to sob just shaking her head..

Look .. I know you think this is better for me but your wrong Jen" Tilly explained holding Jen tightly so she couldn't look away..

Your wrong .. What's best for me is you .. Us .. That's it .. That's all I need ..

No" Jen sighed pulling out of Tilly's grip .. No .. You need more Tilly ..
You deserve more ..

Why would you want to settle with me ? When you have this amazing life ahead of you?

Because I love you !

You have friends and Uni and.. A big career ahead .. You have so much life to experience yet...

So what ! Why can't I have all that with you .. ?

Jen tilted her head looking at Tilly ..

Because I've done it .. My turn came and went.. Jen explained .. All the stuff your experiencing now.. It's over for me . .. I loved it but I don't want to relive it..

Jen your not holding me back" Tilly urged ..

No? Jen asked .. Then why did you stop hanging out with your friends? Why did you stop going out ? Why was it you worried every time you missed one of my calls.. Why do you start most text messages with .. Sorry it took me so long ..

Jens tears coming thick and fast by this time ..

Jen for god sake .. Tilly rolled her eyes ..

So I apologise when I've taken so long to reply ! So what? That's just me Jen ..
So I stopped goin out so much" maybe that's because I would much rather spend my time in with you ..

I didn't dump my friends .. Because they aren't actually my friends their social companions.. Zoe is my only friend here and I didn't stop spending time with her .. This is all in your head Jen!

And Lou? Was that in my head ..Jen moaned

Oh Jesus " Tilly rolled her eyes she knew this was coming ..

Yes Jen .. Lou .. Yes we had a thing .. So what! Your not the only one with history .. We are not the only people we've had sex with .. Back in Hollyoaks I was young and apart from Es it was only you .. That was years go .. I've grown up and I've been around the block..

I've had them "life " experiences you banged on about ..

Yeah well you can go off and enjoy more of them now can't you.? Jen bitched as she opened the front door .. As if to ask Tilly to leave ..

Tilly laughed .. I'm not leaving.. No way .. I'm going no where.. And nor are you .. She added as she walked over slamming the door ..

Right so let's continue..

You want me to have a fulfilled life? You want me to experience Uni life . You want me to socialise and go out and have one night stands and god awful hangovers !? This is all correct isn't it? Or Am I missing anything ? Tilly asked sarcastically ..

Don't mock me" Jen sulked..

Well don't give me reason too.. Tilly smirked back .. Look Jen let's stop this ok ..

Let's just be honest with each other .

Do I love you? Yes
Do you love me ? Yes
Am I missing you?Yes
Are you missing me ? Yes

Except when you have your tongue down some girls throat? Jen quipped

Oh great Tilly thought she was hoping Hayley hadn't told her ..

Even then .. She answered .. I was a drunken mess Jen .. I was pretending I didn't care you dumped me .. But if it makes you feel better after Zoe had a go and made me see sense I went straight home to bed where I cried myself to sleep ..

Jen didn't like to hear Such words knowing Tilly's sadness was all down to her.

What I don't get" Tilly continued" is you didn't talk to me about how you were feeling? ..you didn't even ask me how I felt? ..

Instead you just took it upon yourself to decide our fate .. Make all the decisions for us .. Tilly laughed .. And I'm just suppose to be ok with it ? ..

Tilly sat at the table looking directly at Jen who was still hovering by the door..

I mean do you even love me?

It's not about that.. Jen mumbled

That wasn't an answer" Tilly snapped back . Did you not understand the question ?
I mean I could ask you again?

I heard you " Jen quipped.. Really not appreciating the way Tilly was speaking to her..

Are you sure? Tilly asked" I mean I could repeat it slower for you

Don't talk to me like a child Tilly!

Well stop acting like one.. And you have a bit of a nerve Jen when you constantly treat me like one.. Tilly said bluntly ..

So ? Answer the question

Of coarse I love you " Jen spat.. But it's not enough is it? Look I don't want to talk about this..

Tough" Tilly snapped .. You don't get to chose .. This conversations happening so you might as well just be honest ..

Jen had enough now she couldn't hold it in anymore ..her tears winning the battle .. Letting them roll out of her eyes she gave Tilly the fight she wanted ..

Fine ! you want honesty .? . Yes I love you .. I love you so much this is killing me .. I can't eat .. I can't sleep .. I can barely hold a conversation with anyone with out wanting to cry ..
When I heard you had kissed someone i felt physically sick .. And before you say anything I know it's my fault ..

But Tilly .. She wept.. It's to hard .. As much as I hate to admit it. Our age difference is an issue .. Where are lives are at is an issue ..

Your wrong Jen" Tilly butted in .

I'm not wrong .. Jen cried leaning on the kitchen side placing her head in Her hands .. What we both want out of life are years apart Tilly .

Name one" Tilly challenged her

Jen shook her head.. I could name a thousand

Good but I'm asking for one!

Ok fine ..here's a biggy.. Kids

Kids? Tilly frowned..

Yeah kids .. I mean I want kids one day..

So do I " Tilly agreed

Yeah in about 10 years or so after you become some hot shot doctor..
I'm Hitting 30 Tilly ..

Jen this isn't a reason to end our relationship .. I would love kids with you .. Maybe not next week but its defiantly in my plan..

Do you seriously think I will look back in years to come and regret being with you ? Tilly asked sadly..

Well I wouldn't blame you " Jen sulked ..

Jen for god sake come here .. She begged pulling Jen over to sit next to her ..

I only regret two thing in my life and that's the day I had to watch you walk out of Diane's ..
And the fact we never ran off to oz..

I love you , you silly cow.. She smiled laughing underneath her breath ..

Jen.. Tilly sighed taking Jens hands in hers..

I could never regret loving you .. When I'm old and Gray and I look back on my life I won't think how I wished I had more .. Or I wished I was more careless ..

When I'm old I want to sit telling my children .. Even grandchildren stories of how great my life was .. but more then anything I want to be able to turn around and say hey Jen .. You remember when ..

I don't want to grow old with out you ..

Jen was a wreck by this time .. Her emotions had floored her . Mascara had ran down her face ..

I just constantly hurt you" she wept ..

Yeah because you think your not enough for me" but I'm here to tell you That you are .. Your more then enough for me .. I'm lucky you love me .. Your intelligent.. Talented.. Imaginative .. You amaze me everyday .. And above all that your beautiful .. Why wouldn't you be enough for me?

I just screw everything up " Jen sobbed

Yes you do" Tilly sighed .. But in here to tell fix this.. Fix us.. Fix you ..

Why can't we just be together..?

How can you want to be with me after everything . Jen asked unable to understand how Tilly could forgive her ..

Because .. I .. Love... You .. Tilly empathised..

Jen I'm sick and tired of pretending I don't care .. I'm sick and tired of missing you and im sick to death of waking up alone .. Tilly laughed ..

Jen looked into Tilly's eyes. They were full of hope..

I don't like sleeping alone either . Jen laughed through. Her tears ..

Good so let's put an end to this now .. Tilly begged ..

Jen nodded wiping her eyes..

Move in with me.. Jen offered.. I don't want to sleep without you ever again ..

Tilly smiled .. Finally Jen had seen sense ... But move in?

Jen I can't move in !

Why not ? Jen frowned

Well.. Hayley for one I mean this is her place ..

Jen shook her head " Hayley wont care ..

Tilly thought about it for all of a second .. Are you serious ? You seriously want to live with me?

Jen nodded.. I've been a complete idiot Tilly .. I almost lost you because I over think things .. I look to deep..

I don't even know how you keep forgiving me.. But I know one thing and that's how much I love you .. I don't ever want to spend so much as a day apart from you ...

So yeah I'm deadly serious .. It's like you said .. No more messing around .. No more games.. No more hurt and pain ..

So what do you say? Jen held her breath

Tilly grinned from ear to ear .. Well if it's ok with H ...

Then my answers yes... Yes I'd love to move in with you ..

Jens tears disappeared and the light inside her switched back on ..

The two share a long passionate lingering kiss..

I love you Tilly ..

I love you too ...

The end ...

Big thank you for reading .. Mwah xxx

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