Lily Bud
Year 4 Chapter 36
Boys. Lily was really sick of hearing about boys all the time. Dorcas and Sulfia were talking even more about them than last year and it made Lily sick at times. She really didn't see what was so great about dating. The whole dorm squeaked when Gwen came back one night and told them that she kissed the fifth year Hufflepuff prefect Morrion. For nearly two hours they asked her all about it. Really how long can you talk about two people pressing their lips together?
Lily tried to act interested, but it was difficult. They were all talking about who they wanted to kiss and Lily didn't know what to say. The idea to kiss anyone made her uncomfortable.
So when Lily shrugged her shoulders Sulfia looked at her shocked. "Please tell me you don't want to kiss Snivellus?"
Lily glared at her friend for using that name, but finally answered. "No."
"Good, because he is kind of gross and creepy." Sulfia replied. Lily wanted to defend her friend, but before she could Gunny talked.
"Yeah, he is really strange. I really don't know why you are friend with him, Lily."
"And he totally is in love with you." Gwen shouted. The other three shrieked in disgust. "Eck!"
"No, he is not. We are just friends." Lily mumbled, but she wasn't convinced herself. For the last couple of months she noticed how Sev always tried to sit or stand closer to her and that his hand more often touched her hand.
Lily didn't like it, it made her uncomfortable. She then pulled her hand away to grip her books or when they sat down next to each other pressed both her hands between her thighs. But Sev never said anything, so Lily didn't say anything either. Maybe it would go away soon and everything could be back to normal.
Part of Lily always felt uneasy when she was alone with Severus, because he always looked as her as if he expected something from her. But Lily wasn't sure what and if she would be willing to give it to him if she did. She still liked talking to him and joking around, but she tried to touch him less while doing it, because he did it more often.
"Not that it really matters if he is, as long as you are not in love with him. That would be really gross, you know." Sulfia said and the others nodded in agreement. "Really of you ever get together with him we will publically deny being friends with you, Lily." Sulfia joked, or at least Lily hoped that she joked. Sulfia really didn't like Sev, well none of her other friends really liked Sev, but Sulfia was the most vocal about it.
"I don't plan to." Lily just said and listened some more how Gunny admitted that she kind of would like to kiss Sirius. The others laughed and squeaked again, but none of them were disgusted by the idea of Gunny kissing Black.
Sulfia then admitted that if she had to choose one of the Gryffindor boys she would like to kiss James. Then she asked Lily which one she would like to kiss.
Lily shrugged. "None of them really…" Because really she didn't want to kiss anyone, nevertheless one of those four.
"Come on, you have to choose! Which one?" Dorcas agreed with Sulfia and pressed her for an answer.
Lily pulled a face. "I don't know. Remus, maybe?" Lily didn't like the idea to kiss Remus anymore than kissing Black, Potter or even Sev, but from the four Gryffindor boys she was most friends with him and he probably wouldn't tell everybody about it.
A.N. Teenage years are stressful and difficult and everybody develops at a different pace. In this story Lily is a bit slower when it comes to develop an interest in boys. There is nothing wrong or strange about that either way. But it is difficult for those friends around them as well. In too many stories only the 'unpairable' characters are slow in this way (mostly Peter in Marauder stories), but why can't this be another point Lily and James have to face before they can be together, that James is just a bit faster in that way than Lily at the moment.
Severus here shows the first signs of interest, but Lily just doesn't know how to deal with it or how to tell him to stop, so she just hopes that it goes away on its own.
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