Chapter 36
Loki stood outside the kitchen and he began to wonder what he would say to Leah beyond the words of I'm sorry because that doesn't seem like it would be enough to say for what he has done to his sweet, kind, caring and loving Leah. He felt the storm in his heart returning and he was scared that it would be here forever. Loki just wanted his beloved Leah to calm the storm in his heart and bring back the peace that her presents brought to him. All he wanted was to wrap his arms around her and beg for her forgiveness. He searched all over the palace for Leah and he started wondering where she is and he hoped that she was safe. The last place Loki looked was the garden that he took her when he brought her to Asgard. He finally found Leah sitting on one of the benches and he sees that she has her head in her hands. Loki also sees that she is trembling. When he sees that she is trembling Loki couldn't take it anymore and he ran to her. He knelt next to Leah and placed his head in her lap and he begins to cry.
"Leah…I…I am so...very…sorry…my love….please….please forgive me." Loki begged his voice muffled and choked with emotion. He waited for Leah to say something, but she just stayed quite. This causes Loki to worry if his sweet Leah will ever forgive him. "Leah, my love, please talk to me, please." Loki begged as he looked up at her.
"Loki, you hurt me deeply. I think we should call off the wedding until you decided if you love me or not. Because right now I don't think you do. Until you figure that out the wedding is off." Leah said. Hearing this Loki couldn't believe what his beautiful Leah had just said he felt his heart shatter into a thousand pieces. Loki couldn't speak for a long time because he was crying to hard he put his head back in Leah's lap and when he finally found his voice he looked up at her.
"Leah, please don't call off the wedding. I love you." Loki said when he finally found his voice.
"Loki, I am sorry but I have to my darling, because you really hurt my feelings when you thought that I would betray you with Thor. We are just friends." Leah said.
"Leah, sweetheart, I am so sorry for hurting your feelings, but when I saw you with my brother I felt so jealous and a little hurt. I thought you were feeling in love with Thor." Loki said.
"Loki, don't you trust me my love? Don't you know that I will never betray you?" Leah asked as tears welled up in her blue-gray eyes. She stood up and she walked over to one of the golden apple trees. Leah placed her forehead against the tree and she began to cry. Loki got up and he walked over to her. He placed his hand on her shoulder and he felt her trembling as well as he heard her sobbing her heart out. Loki turned her around and he wraps his arms around her and he pulls her close to him. Leah fought to get away from Loki but he held her even closer.
"Loki, please just let me go." Leah begged and she began struggling.
"No, Leah, I can't bear to lose you again for I love you. You are the only one I will ever love. For you are the only one who can calm the storm in my heart. When you left I could feel the storm in my heart returning and I am afraid of it staying here forever." Loki said as tears began to slip down his cheeks.
Seeing the tears streaming down his cheeks, this made Leah feel awful. She couldn't bear to see his tears. It made her feel so terrible. Leah couldn't take it anymore she threw her arms around him and she cries into his chest. "Loki, my darling, I-I'm so….very…sorry for causing the storm in your heart to return. Please…please…forgive me my love." Leah begs as tears began to stream down her cheeks.
Hearing his beloved Leah crying and begging him to forgive her. He knew the only thing he could do was to tell her that there was nothing to forgive and that it was all his fault for making her feel like that he didn't love her. "Leah, my love there is nothing to forgive. I am sorry and it's all my fault for making you feel like I didn't love you. Please forgive me." Loki said. Leah sniffed, "I do forgive you, but Loki, what you did hurt me deeply."
"Oh Leah, I am so very sorry. I-I never meant to hurt you." Loki said sadly. She took a deep breath, "Loki, whether you meant to or not you did and the wedding is off." Leah said and she felt her heart breaking. Loki also felt his heart breaking, "No! Leah, please don't do this. I'm sorry. I am so very sorry. Please I am begging you don't call off the wedding." Loki pleaded.
"I am sorry Loki, but I have to. You need to think about what you did and prove to me that you still love me." Leah said.
"But Leah, I do still love you." Loki said.
"Then prove it. Once you prove to me that you still love me the wedding will be back on." Leah said and with that she walked out of the garden. Leaving a shattered and crying Loki behind, but what Loki didn't know that Leah too was shattered and also crying. For she still loved him and she only hoped that he would prove that he still loved her.